Countdown

National Day is coming in less than a month! I am counting down to that day! I dare not say I am very patriotic lah but I still love my country. I thank God for placing me in this peaceful and prosperous country. Honestly, I have not been too keen to watch the national parade after that one year, the whole parade was a history lesson. I know a lot of hard works have been put into it but it is not the kind of thing that will attract nor boost my patriotism in me. Maybe the firework but the rest, hmmmm, nah.

I still prefer the firework. One year in my NS, I helped out with the fireworks and I saw the fireworks like fr 1km away. I just laid on my back and watch the sky being lit up with the colourful flowers of sprakles while feeling the trembles in the ground from the ignition of the fireworks. Wowwwwww.... That's the best firework I had ever seen in my life. After that experience, the rest of the firework display was far fetched from it. Hahaa! But it is still nice to go and watch with frens and closed ones. Haha! Especially when everybody start counting down and anticipating the fireworks.

As I talked about counting down to the firework, I couldn't help but think about relating it to our life. We do many countdowns in our life. As we count down, we anticipate the fireworks after the count of 1. But what if it is not a majestic or even a tiny winy display of fireworks. What if the ignition did not go off? What if the display is called off? Simply put, it never reach our anticipation. I guess somethings it is good to have expectation and anticipation but our focus shd not be just fully on the end product but rather on God, who is Jehovah Jireh, our Provider. Put our trust and faith in Him. For if it is His will, He will open up the right doors, shut the wrong one, tear down walls so that the answer will be right before our eyes. Even if it did not reach our expectation or anticipation, we know that God is in control.

祢 來 告 訴 我

KEY: F
词曲: 顯傑


望 着 无 月 的 夜 空

情 感 有 一 点 谜 蒙

心 在 飘 浮 没 有 着 落

我 应 该 怎 么 做 祢 来 告 诉 我


望 着 奥 妙 的 海 阔

冷 风 在 耳 边 吹 过

心 像 海 浪 不 停 起 波

脑 海 里 不 知 所 措

该 怎 么 做 祢 来 告 诉 我

(Chorus)

我 对 这 份 情 感 没 有 把 握

我 只 默 默 守 候 只 因 怕 做 错

我 不 想 错 过

主 请 祢 来 领 导 我

我 的 一 切

我 的 未 来

我 的 渴 望

该 怎 么 做 祢 来 告 诉 我

Cambodia

I should be going to Cambodia this September. There will be a Youth Camp in Cambodia. Will be held up at Seeds of Hope. Yeah! Really missed that place Had been there 4 yrs ago. Really looking forward to it. Let's hope I can clear my exams and den my project. Haha!

I will be going with Pastor Edwin. And he approach me to speak on one of the session. BGR. Haven't know exactly in wat aspect to talk about. But interesting topic. Honestly, I really quite hesitant even though I have a good level of knowledge and understanding but it's like something that I have no experience and am challenged with. Haha! By God's grace. By Your grace. Have to start to read up more things and plan for the session. Haha! Still very excited!

Got chance want to go and eat the Char Siew Rice. Then hopefully also can see some of those youths that I have known and also Rev Isaiah. Haha! Really miss the place. I thank God for Cambodia for thru Cambodia, I see God's hand at work and also see a bigger picture in life. I love Cambodia alot and I pray that the Lord will continue to stir in me the passion for them and that He will continue to use me.

Weekend

It passes so fast and it takes so long to reach the next weekend. Wish it can last longer. Even if it's a minute.

你 (耶 和 华) 來 告 訴 我

就 在 这 时 刻, 我 向 耶 和 华 唱 新 歌。
我 曾 耐 心 等 候 耶 和 华 ； 他 垂 听 我 的 呼 求。
这 首 新 歌 代 表 着 我 对 你 的 祷 告, 我 的 一 切, 我 的 未 来, 我 的 渴 望, 该 怎 么 做, 请 你 来 告 诉 我。

Church Service

I thank many of those who always without fail be in the hall or chapel way before the service starts.
I thank many of those who always give their best attention to the whole service even if they have difficulties understanding.

What is a church service to us? Do we have a tendacy to break up the service into different sections? Beginning is worship, then followed by Scripture Reading den Sermon den Prayer, den Announcement den End of service. Church service is simply to help us worship God. People can stroll into the service an hour late. People can have their own chit chat session during Prayer or Announcement time because it has no concern of theirs. People can leave the Holy Communion Service straight after taking the bread and wine without finishing the ritual. I am not saying I am fully free from all this wrong doings but I just cannot understand why people are able to take God so lightly.

Service itself is a worship. It is not to be broken up into the different sessions and in my own delights to choose which one I will pay attention and which one I need not. A pastor is standing on the stage, representing the whole congregation to come before God in prayer and people can take it so lightly and chit-chat, laugh and etc. A pastor is up on the stage making announcement, informing people about news and info and the same problem happen. Why? Because firstly, there's no full fear in God. A man standing up there in the authority of God but yet people can choose to ignore. Secondly, lack of knowledge of God, failing to understand what worship is all about.

If we are just into the comfort and convenience of worshipping God, then we may find ourselves doing all these in vain because it definitely will not draw us closer to God. As Kind David had said, "I will not sacrifice to the LORD my God burnt offerings that cost me nothing." Likewise, let's come to the Lord with our best.

Teasing

Sometimes, it is a way of concealing my feelings!

Updates

6 July

Still in the midst of recovering from my sprained ankle. Thkfully, it has recovered pretty fast. I can at times walk without the crutch. Then at night, no cell and William and Lydia dropped by to visit me and my mum who happened to have also injured her leg earlier. Really very appreciative of my cell. The love, care, concern, support! So blessed to be in the family of God! Thank you to all who prayed for me. Then Claudia also dropped a oversea call which I didn't manage to pick up and followed by an sms. Haha! So touch!! :)

7 July

Haha! I could walk without the crutch. Haha! Then no need to bring crutch to the church wedding. So pathetic to be in crutch while attending a church wedding. Haha! Today was Larry and Jenny's wedding. Know Jenny since she was in Poly and I have seen her grown alot. From a noisy Ah Lian moved to Youth Ministry den later into helping in Children Ministry and now she becomes a MRS Kee (still as noisy). Haha! May the Lord continue to bless them in this new walk with Him!
After the wedding, we went to Vivo from my request. I haven't been there before. NOt really lah! I did go there b4 but just for a meal and left after. Nvr get to walk around. So went there and parked ourselves at Marsche. Den D.Y and the young girls went to entertain themselves somewhere else. Hehehe! Shared food with Jamie and Sue Fern. Honestly, the food variety so limited and so expensive. Haha! After that, we went to walk around a bit. Surprisingly, my my ankle was still intact. But I know the next day going to be 'buang'. Haha!

8 July

Went Church in the morning. Vicar talking from a few Psalms. Haha! Can't remember the whole sermon but basically in a nutshell, that in our plan, we need God! God does not expect us to walk with Him in leaps and bounce but He simply want us to take our every next step in faith.

During the JY class, some of us played Risk and we all like so friendly. Haha! After that went to EastPoint eat lunch and went back to church to rest. Then went for soccer. I couldn't play so end up playing basketball. Haha! After that, went to Bedok 85 for makan. Then met Xu En who kindly send us home. Hahaha!

9 July

I had one of the sweetest sleep of my life. No sweet dreams but it seems so light and sweet, like a big stone is tossed away. Thk you so much to those who had lent me your ears and share with me!

My Crutches

hmmmm! Unfortunate, I must say! What a perfect time to sprain my ankle. Decided to go for an evening jog and to be destined by a small but diastrous fruit on the ground. A freak accident. I was jogging and I saw this fruit on the ground and passed by it. I u-turned back and once again came across the fruit. I didn't know why instead of running past it, I stepped on it. And that was the start of the disaster. I stepped on it in an awkward way and it caused my left ankle to sway in a left-right manner. Immediately, I knew my ankle was gone. It was like a bird that flew directly into a full speed plane. I laid on the floor in agony. Thankfully, I managed to drag myself home. And quickly I applied oilment and bandaged it up.

The next day, the foot was better but I needed a crutch to move around comfortably. Praying hard that I will be off crutch by Saturday. Looks pathetic to go for a wedding in a crutch. Haha! Here are some fotos of my pig trotters

Can you see the swell in the ankle? Like pig trotters siah! haha!

FOtos

This is the bouquet that I make for Claudia! Yes! It's one of the Princess series - I name it the Shalom which means peace in Hebrew. In the middle is 3 white roses which represents God as Trinity. Around the white roses are smaller light blue roses which represents the peace of the Lord. The next ring is bigger dark blue roses that represents the Sovereignty of God that He is in control. My prayer to Claudia is that as she moves to Vietnam, the peace of the Lord is with her and that the Lord is in control, taking care of her every needs and protecting her.

Hehehe! One of my flower arrangements that I like alot. Haha! I quite like the way I use the different leaves to create the shape of the arrangement. I must say it's a very unique gift the Lord has blessed me with. And I am not ashamed to show it. Thank You Lord! MuackS!!!!

The wardrobe that I bought from Ikea. I badly needed an extension. My original wardrobe (in the backdrop) is fulled. And the bar is bending like beckham. It will give way any time. So I had no choice but to look for one. Actually thought I may need to spend $100 plus. But I found this. It work perfectly and it only cost $50. Muahhaha! Thank God. Save money so I can spend on other things! Ops! hehe! Retailtheraphy is good for the mind and body! Muahaha!

Youth Sunday

Haha! To be very frank, I was very annoyed and frustrated on Saturday. Practise so hard then at the end tell me change in flow of service. Then practise so hard on one song then at the end never use. I wasn't angry with people lah but I was just annoyed because being musically declined, it takes me longer to adapt to changes. But I thank God along these years, I am learning to control and manage my emotions. Haha!

Then today at service, I must say I felt so comfortable even though we only manage to practise the day before. And also considering Darren and Natasha playing the first time as a team and also James and Amelia first time on the Sax and Violin respectively. I really enjoy every moment of it. With the violin and sax solo part, it really give a new dimension to the whole worship. I do believe we still have space for improvement but I still must really affirm the whole team. I had a few compliments from the adults. They say the vocals were clear and distinct and the musicians provided a nice mellow feel to the worship. Hehehe! Well done people! There is also suggestion to keep this combination as a band.

Then Pastor Edwin preached about the cost of being a disciple of Christ. Then Rev Wong added on with some sharing which I thought was pretty interesting and funny.
He was having a conversation with his ex- fellow collegue who was a Christian as well. Then his friend ask him when is it the best time to serve the Lord. And he say that the best time to serve the Lord is in the youth because that's the time when one is carefree and don't have to worry about putting the bread on the table. And his friend carried saying that if we missed this chance, there's another better chance to serve the Lord. That is when one just started out in work because as a junior staff, there's less responsibility and will have more time to serve the Lord. Then he carried on saying that if one miss this chance, there's another better chance to serve the Lord. When one is a high authority personnel in the work because one will be experienced, influencial and wise to serve the Lord. Then again he said that if one missed all these chances, there's still a better chance to serve the Lord. When one is lying on the bed, breathing one's last. There is no worries and everybody comes to visit you. It's a good chance to evangelise. It is pretty comical but yet so true. The best time to serve the Lord is now, wherever we are, whoever we are and whatever we have.

Lord, may I be a vessel for Your glory and Your work! Use me as who I am, where I am and what I have.