Just for Fun 4

Your Dominant Intelligence is Logical-Mathematical Intelligence

You are great at finding patterns and relationships between things.Always curious about how things work, you love to set up experiments.You need for the world to make sense - and are good at making sense of it.You have a head for numbers and math ... and you can solve almost any logic puzzle. You would make a great scientist, engineer, computer programmer, researcher, accountant, or mathematician. AND DEFINITELY YOU ARE NOT JUST A SMART GUY BUT ALSO ONE WITH GOOD LOOKS! Hmmmm! I like the sound of that. Don't you!

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?>

Rise In Price

Oh yah! Another thing. The ice-cream cone from McDonald in S'pore has just been raised from 25 cents to 50 cents. Speculation says that it is due to increase in Oil prices which inevitably causes vegetable oil , used in the making of ice-cream, to also increase in price. Hmmm! How's tat?
GIVE ME BACK MY 25 CENTS ICE-CREAM!

Aliens died of FOOD POISONING!

Yes! Yes! YOu didn't hear me wrongly. Dun start rolling on the floor. Actualli in fact, i tot this is a beta title than the present one, The War of the World. My goodness! IT'S SUCH A LOUSY MOVIE AND IT'S DIRECTED BY STEVEN SPIELBERG. Wat's wrong with him? Age catching up on him? I have been long waiting for this movie ever since i watched the previews. I tot I'm in for a treat. But no....! Its plot is D-Grade, its special effects look cheap, the aliens are pathetic, human-beings are irritating and well, it just make my day. Once again wasted my money. Well! For those who are reading my blog, you may feel tat i had jus spoilt your day by saying all these. But i guess it's beta than 'spoiling' ur pocket. And i'm sure you will feel justified not to watch this movie after reading.

Ok! Let's start with the plot. The story is about aliens wanting to exterminate the whole earth. Hmmm! Sounds not bad! Then the aliens had a conspiracy. They knew man kind will populated the earth. So intelligently, before human start to live on earth, they came to earth, shovel a few holes, here and there and stuffed their 3-legged drive vehicle into the holes and covered them up. So they waited until 29 June 2005(honestly, i have no idea why they chose this day. Must be some kind of Carnival or Games day for the aliens), they sent their fighters into the 3-legged drive vehicle which was still buried in the ground thru lightning. Cool hah! So then they appeared out of their holes and start vapourishing every human in sight. My! My! That sound exciting. But in fact, i laughed at every scene of the vapourishing. But i just dun get it. If the aliens want to exterminate the earthlings, den why did they wait until the whole earth is populated den start to destroy them. Why didn't they just destroy the first pair of human being? That would save them so much time. And why did they hide their vehicles in holes way before human beings existed? Can't they just send their fighters into earth on the day of its attack? Arent' they afraid their vehicles may become obsolete since it has been buried for so many billion of years? Must be not cheap to park their vehicles in outer space. Ok! There could be an explanation why they onli attack now. It's becoz the aliens feed on human beings so they were waiting for the human beings to grow to a certain size then they start harvesting. Which they did later in the movie. But den why did they start vapourishin human beings at the start of the movie? Maybe I could explain tat. The vapourishing weapon was in fact their cooking appartus. They prefer to eat their food cooked. But i guess human's boiling point is way too low and we get vapourish upon being hit by their cooking device. SO without much choice, later in the movie, they had to resort to eating their food raw. Or maybe they are just like animals. They like to play around with their food before eating them. Hmmm! Either sounds perfect to me! #_#

Then the people in the movie is irritating. Firstly, when the aliens were sent to earth thru lightning, the lightning struck the ground. SO people start to 'kay po' and sight-seeing. Den when the earth crack open, they were still like there looking at it. Come on! Be realistic! People will be freaking out by then. So no need for me to tell you what happen after this. Alien came out start vapourishing them, panick here and there. Then TOm Crusie has to have 2 irritating kids. Her daugther Rachael, does nothing but screamed, screeched, freaked out while his son just act like an idiot. Hmmm! Then along the way comes a man who tries to be garang but jeopordising everybody's lives. Hmmm! ARGGGGGGGGHHHH!

And guess how the movie ended. The aliens died becoz of food poisoning, that's how i will put it. The food that we eat has certain immune system which the aliens can't adapt to. So in fact, they get sick and eventually their immune system failed and die. Woah! That's a cool ending. Actualli i guess the ending which was quite close to it. I tot it got to be the food they are eating. I tot they ate too much McDonald and end up having high cholestrol, den eating up the human beings who are filled with too much fats, illness, dieseases, and whatever you can think of. My! My! Who can survive after eating such unhealthy 'food'? Well i was close to the ending. Crap! If this movie ever fall into the hands of 'real' aliens, we are doomed. This is an ultimate insult to any outer space being if there are any to start with. I'm disappointed. Real disappointed. This is a cheat movie. I say this is just a movie to cash in on the profit. I still remember there's another movie on aliens which is crap too. Mars Attack! But at least the movie was honest. It was a Sci-fi, comical movie. War of the World is a Sci-fi, adventure thriller. Hmmm! Sci-fi. Yes yes . Adventure, well i still can manage to accept that. Thriller, are you sure? Wat's so thrilling? I laughed thru out the movie and not becoz it's funny, it's lame. Ok! I think i have say enough of the movie. It sound pretty interesting, won't you say so! Actualli if you do have the extra money, why not waste it on this movie. Definitely you will get 100% enjoyment in wasting money!

Sat - Mon (25 - 28 June)

Well! Well! Honestly, this June has passed by real quick. It seems like I had not done much and I am starting school in less than a week's time. Haizzzzzz! Just wish I had a bit more time to myself and do some reflections. A lot things on my mind, like why I am who I am, why i do somethings in certain ways, why i react do certain things, why I go into swing mood. And I feel one coming up very soon. Hmmmmm! Ok! (SLAP! SLAP!) XIAN JIE! GOT T O HOLD YOURSELF TOGETHER!

SAT:

Erh! Woke up, den went to do some 'work' at the PC. Den met William and Lydia for lunch. Went to Sarkura at Eastpoint. I really thank God for them, for being such wonderful mentors to me. They are very understanding and encouraging and most of all, wise in the Lord. They are kinda like my Aunt Agony. We meet on quite a frequent basis to update each other on what's happening. Accountability. Many a times, I will just freely pour out my problems and sorrows to them and they will really listen and give wise advise. Well today, updated them that I will be rejoining cell group soon. Need to do some clarification before joining one. And I have decided to join a Chinese Cell. It's going to be interesting. First time, I'm joining a non-English cell. It's going to be a new learning experience and also a chance to get to know the Chinese counterparts. Then after lunch, send Lydia back to church while I and William went off for coffee and tea where we share more intimate stuffs. Haha. Really poured out my heart, my frustration, my sorrow, my whatever lah onto him. Hehe! Me a very troubled boy. Won't go into much detail since it is personal and it most prob bored you out. Den after that, make a quick dash to Eastpoint again to buy birthday cake and Milo den went back to church for Saturday Svc. Today, no Youth fellowship but the YOuths are rostered to help out in the svc. Those who are trained in wheel-chair pushing are tasked to go up to the ward to bring the patients down for svc. I was appointed to bring down this lady , who had a fracture in her leg. She has been in the hospital for a month and is soon to be discharged soon. Then I stayed with her thru the svc and at the end of the svc, prayed for her and send her back to her ward. But she is one real independant person. There are times that she just wheeled herself away. Kinda give me a fright since i'm in charge of her. But den i guess she is just fine. Hehe!
After the svc, we had a debrief den had a birthday celebration. After that, went for dinner with Xin Ling, Yvonne and Jamie at TM food court. Then after that, went to buy fruit den went home.

Sunday:

ok! It's sunday. Svc again! I'm not sayin this with complaints but just tat time flies so fast. I have not even smell finished the weekdays and it's like weekend coming to an end. Haha! Got up and went to church. Attended the Chinese Svc. Rev Yong talks abt Faith, Hope and Love. Taken from 1 Corinthians 13:13, it talks about these 3 things but of all these 3 things, the most important is Love. Den after svc, had a worship practise for the upcoming YOuth Sunday svc. ok did pretty well but i think i had to lower my expectation. I am just being too idealistic. Not tat the teams are not playing well but just tat i have to set my targets at their level. And honestly, i feel communication between me and the muscians are still very weak. But i still give thks to God for everything becoz all things are made possible thru Him. After tat, waited for the 2nd svc to end, meet up with the rest and went for lunch. (Me, Joanne, Amelia, Si En, Xin Ling, Yvonne, Jamie) As usual, it's a painstaking experience. If you get a bunch of girls to decide where to eat, it is traumatising and worst, it is long. And i'm those who dun really like to be bother with making such decisions. SO eventually, i suggested we let the Lord decide. We toss coin. East Point. Food court. So went there and i saw this guy with a large portion of fish and chips and taken by my greediness, i ordered tat. But my portion was like only 2/3 of tat's guy's protion. Most prob the auntie thinks tat i shd be cutting on my intake. haha! Den after the meal, ordered desserts. Joanne ordered Red ruby, Amelia ordered Ice longan, and i ordered Egg beancurd. Den joanne her rubies a bit 'chao sheng'. Soury soury one. So i took the order back and told the auntie. She den took one of the rubies from her bucket and munch on it. After a second or two, she nodded in agreement and say got a bit sour so she say she will change for me using a new batch of rubies. Haha! You shd see the auntie's expression. Darn cute and funny. Nearly burst out laughing. Den i ordered one more dessert. Ginko Barley dessert. Not too bad. SLURP!!!!! After the dessert, went to Popular, buy some stuff and den went home. Took a cab so on the way drop Amelia. Den me reached home, and sleep. Yup.

Monday:

Woke up! Went online but can't remember wat i did. Yes! Yes! I was looking thru this website where they had videos from other countries. Very funny one. Then in the afternoon, went over to CCSS and meet Teng Sheng and Jannah. SUppose to go for movie but T.S not free. So instead we went out just for a meal at BK. Den after tat , went home. And den sleep again. Sleeping alot recently. Woke up for dinner. After dinner, went to sleep again. Haha! THen woke up at 8 plus. Did my exerciese. 1200 skippings and some sets of weight lifting. Hmm! I'm feeling fit. Yah rite. Then here I am updating my blog. Hehe! NOthing much happened today. HOnestly, as i say early on, feeling a bid down. Think tat something is goin to affect my quite badly. But i just have to trust in GOd. He is my strength, my fortress, my shelter. Let His love fills me so that my well will never be dry.

Yes! I remember some of the things that I forgotten

Yes! Yes! Now i remember what are the other things that I did. I watched 2 movies. First was Mr and Mrs Smith. I watched this movie becoz that day i simply was bored and this was the only show that was available at that time. Hmmm! Better than I expected. I tot i was in for a show of a couple with MDW. Ka boom here and there! But guess what? Only about 20% of the movie involves that. Finally one movie that tries to give substance in its plot. Well there was a twist at the near end of the movie and i will give a 3 1/2 stars out of 5 for the plot. The shooting scenes are abit lame where Pitt and Jolie were dancing-shooting. My goodness. Thkfully they didn't dance to the Para Para. Pretty entertaining and I would recommend people to watch if they are fans of either stars or they simply ran out of movies to watch. haha.
The next movie i watched was The Hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy. Guess wat? It's one of those another das that I had nothing to do and this was the only movie available at that time. Hehe! THIS IS REAL WASTE OF MONEY. LAME JOKE, STUPID SCI-FI THEORY, CHEAP ROMANCE, UGLY ALIEN-BEING, D- GRADE MOVIE. And the cinema was like only 6 of us in it. I'm sure the rest was feeling like erh erh erh. "Gong shi mi" (hokkien for 'wat are they talking abt') I think i will rest my case. You decide if you want to watch yourself.

And today went to watch Initial D with Daniel and Yvonne at TM GV. Didn't really know wat the movie is abt except tat it is abt racing and had Jay Chou and Edison in it. And Jay Chou is said to be a wooden-log actor. Haha. Well and yes true enough the show was abt racing. I will save your eyes from readin the story. You go watch the movie yourself
. Plot: */******
Humour ***/******
Acting skill requied */************************************************* hahahahahaha
Well tat's my opinion. YOu dun have to agree with me. Go and see it for yourself if you are not convinced.

Ok! Den what's inline for me. Madagascar. (not too much hope but i promised my frens we'll watch together)
Batman Begins (yes! yes! tat will be interesting to see why this hero decide to gear up his underwear-mask)
War of the World (has been long waiting for this movie. I want to see how Tom Cruise defeat the aliens)

Anymore shows. Hmmm! We shall see! So until den, keep your decision wise for now it is not cheap to watch a movie. So @#$#%#@ expensive. Weekday 7 bucks. Thursday 8 bucks. Weekend 9 bucks. ANd the POP CORN ARE 8 BUCKS. MY GOODNESS. ONE FINE DAY, I THINK IT WILL BE CHEAPER FOR ME TO TAKE A TRAIN TO JB TO WATCH A MOVIE. OR MAYBE NEXT TIME YOU NEED A COE TO BE ENTITLED TO WATCH A MOVIE. Ok! Ok! I'm cool. I'm calm. take a deep breath. Haha!

Next thing

Actualli i tot i got lots of things to update but i guess i'm wrong. Age is catching up and the brains dun seems to function like before. It is taking way too much nap and way too long to think. Ai yah! I remembered i was studying v hard for my exams. Puke! I just feel that I'm better off as a farmer or peasant somewhere else in the country side. Peace and quiet. Easy-going. Singing in the fields. (well i'm not very sure if that will affect the crops' growth) Milking the cows. Staring into the diamond-filled sky. Wow! What a beautiful sight! And i guess the pasture is always greener on the other side. IF i was really tat farmer, I most probably complained that life is so routine and boring and really hope I could go out into the world and exposed myself to all the challenges. Life is a paradox, if one is not contended. SO i guess, it still best to be contended and give thanks to God for everything becoz God knows the best for us.

Ok! I remember i miss the youth camp at All Saints' Church becoz of my exams. It was an evangelistic outreach camp and i had always wanted to go to such camp, firstly to encounter the work of God and secondly, to learn how to run such camp. And also i just love to see people responding to God and going forth to accept Christ. It's not so much of self-satisfaction but i rejoice with the Angels when children of God return back to Him. But some of the youths went down as assistant leaders. And I really pray that God has done some 'things' in their life too. I hope that they dun go for such camp, enjoy the 'sensation' and then it is lost. But I prayed that the Lord will touch their hearts and really feel the compassion to spread His word. You dun need to be an evangelist to evangelise. In our daily life's encounter with our loved ones, let's us seize that opportunity to show them the Light.

Yes! the next thing is the family camp. It was from 12 June- 15June. As i had a paper on 15, i could onli stayed until 14June. First nite was relatively free and easy. Had a youth gathering at nite, den after tat, stayed a bit longer in Daniel's room to watch Ru Hua! haha! Evil! Den next morning was a hectic day for me. In fact, I considered a horrendous day for me. I was supposed to lead worship for the morning and evening session. And during the morning ice-breaker, I acted too garang and shouted at the top of my voice to create atmosphere. Yah rite. Act smart and act cute! Ended up i lost my voice and i couldn't lead worship but have no choice. I lead with such broken voice that i felt like ending my life. Well! NOt much of choice. Carried on leading. Then followed by Rev. Wong's message about Affirming our brothers and sisters in Christ. After that, we had lunch and went to the Theme Park. Went to the dry one. First time taking theme ride and very excited. Of all the rides, the Lost in the Gold City and the Tomahawk were the best. In fact, Tomahawk was the killer. It rotates 360 degree. I nearly puke. Drank too much during lunch. Then some of the youths v funny. Xin Ling was like "MA MI, I WILL NEVER DARE TO TAKE THE RIDE AGAIN". Oh my goodness. I tot she broke out into tears. Den thankfully every ride, i sat with Ding Yi. Becoz both of us are of substantial volume and when we sit together, we kinda act as cushion for one another and we restricted each other from moving about too much in the seats. haha. After tat we went to take 3 water rides. COol man! I'm loving it. But after the rides, i regretted taking it. I shouted too much AGAIN! Well you shd know wat that means. Den I had injured my back before and the rides are real bad for the back. End up having a slight back pain. So I shdn't say much abt the Evening worship svc. Den there was ministry time and i wasn't prepared and i didn't have enough songs. OH! MY! What a mess! But thkfully David was there to salvage. Despite all these big 'hu ha', i still give thks to God for His grace and mercy. Then tat nite didn't go for supper becoz was a bit down. Dun know why. Not sure if it is becoz of the worship session but somehow i felt that i went to the camp not well prepared. I meant more on the Spiritual side. That's something for me to take note when i go for camp again. The heart and spirit must be right.
Then next morning, after the morning session and the games, I left with David and Veron. Reached S'pore abt 6.30pm. Then slept and woke up to study for exams.

Actualli, those youths who are out there reading my blog. I just wan to tell you something. I have been trying to teach you all something. Though i did it discreetly but it is actually quite frequent so it is not tat hard to miss. And i say this with no pride that i also do it by example. And i hope you all can see it and its value and you yourself embrace that value. I won't tell you what it is. The only clue i will give is that I do it after nearly every major events. I ask last year youth mission team members to do SOMETHING for some people after the trip. I ask most of the youths to do SOMETHING for some people after the Easter Outreach. I ask the youths that went for the camp to do SOMETHING to someone. I did something to the people who help out in the WOrship during the camp. I hope you all can see that value becoz it may not matter much to you but it matters alot to other people. And i guess this is the first lesson we learn during the camp - Affirmation. Well! it's for you to go and figure out. And if you want an answer, you can always check with me. No prize for right answer!

I'm back with alot of missing things in my life

Woah! Finally, I'm back and I just love to update on all the missing things during my absence of about a month. BUt guess what? I dun seemed to be able to remember most of the things. I think i can only update according to what i can recall and it may not be in the right order. Hehe. Let me see!
I could remember the Crossroad Adventure. Held on one of the saturdays. Basically it is a competition where the teams have to compete to finish the food race. But the trick to the game is you got to link the last word of the food to the first word of the next food. And it goes on until the last and final dish. The first 4 dishes were pre-fixed. Maybe i introduce my team. My team got Ding Yi, Xin Ling, Yvonne, Jamie, Joanne. Within our own team, we played UNO and the loser of the round will get to miss one of the dish. COol! Then the first dish was to go to Bedok Central and look for a Holloywood Dessert stall. Suppose to eat Chendol. I kinda of cheated. I 'ta bao' (packet) the chendol, took the next clue and left with my team. Charles had to call me and tell me gently that that was against the rule. I cheekily smiled and said I dun know. Haha! Then the next stall was at Upper East Coast Road. Suppose to eat Yong Tau Fu but the stall is closed. So ended eating Thosai. Expensive boy! One normal thosai cost us 4 bucks. After the thosai, we move further down to a Chicken Rice Stall where we eat their Steam fish with bean sauce. Waited for quite a while but it's worth the waiting. Splendid dish, i would have to say. But not cheap! A small slice for 5 bucks. Then we headed for our last pre-fixed dish Katong Laksa. Ok not too bad. Eaten a few times so nothing special. Then we got our last clue. Ginger -based soup Rice Ball. Anyway the game is played in Mandarin. So from now and the next 3 dish, we must link the first word of the dish to the next and goes on until the 9th dish must end up as the Ginger-based soup Rice Ball. Well my group wasn't very imaginative, so we keep it simple and our first dish is Coarse Suger, den followed Sweet, den Chilled-Fruit Juice, Chilled Soya Bean Milk, which den the last dish was at Bedok North. By the time we reached there, we tot tat we may be the third or fourth. But to our surprise, we were first. Haha. Then after tat, we headed off to the final destination where we will have BBQ for dinner. Erh! After such a hectic race, i'm not sure if my 'warehouse' is ready to store any more things. 10min after reaching the venue, the next team came in and another 5 the next. Then we kinda waited for another hour before the rest of the teams came in. I guess they all tried to be too creative. Becoz teams with creative items on their list will get extra bonus point. After BBQ, the results were announced. Though my team came in first we didn't get first becoz there was a team who got the bonus point for their extraordinary dish, Claypot-frog legs. Haha. Maybe i shd have gone for Steam fish with earthworm kinda dish. Haha. But honestly, it wasn't really important for me to win the race or not. But from this race, I was very pleased to hear 2 things. Initially, when the group was formed, i jokingly told my team members that i nvr won a race, just like the previous race, Amazing Race! Everybody laughed at the remarks except for Ding Yi. He told me and i believe quite seriously, that this time will be different becoz this time the team has me and him. Both of us will make a difference. I was really touched by what he said and also very proud becoz of his confidence. Then another thing was during the race, I briefly mentioned that the next time the organiser shd organise on a bigger scale den it will be more fun. Then some of my team members replied saying that it's no point for them becoz by the next time, they would have most probably been put in charge to run the race. I thank God that they see a continuity in themselves in the YOuth Ministry. The youth ministry will not end with the Youth advisor but they the youths are starting to see a need to carry on the good work that God has started in the Youth Ministry. I praised the Lord for such thoughtful and selfless youths.

Just For Fun 3

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: August 20

Your birth on the 20th day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your reading. The 2 energy provided here is very social, allowing you to make friends easily and quickly. Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group. You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection. You are very prone to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil. It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in. When things are going well, you can go just as far the other way and become extremely affectionate.

Just For Fun 2

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

(those wordings in red are those that I dun agree with)

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

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What's" Your Personality Type?

My #1 Match: ISFJ
The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

My #2 Match: ISFP
The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

My#3 Match: ESFJ
The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

My #4 Match: ISTJ
The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

My #5 Match: ESFP
The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Matthew 28:19

I'm sure this verse is well-known to most of us. Matthew 28:19, the Great Commission. And to all those Sale agents, dun get too happy. It has nothing to do with your year end bonus. This is in fact an instruction from our Lord, Jesus Christ, to go forth to the world and spread His teachings and help people to walk in His light. And this brought me the memories when I first went to Cambodia for my first mission trip.
It was in the year of 2002. I went for 2 weeks starting from the last week of Nov to the first week of Dec. I didn't know what to expect because I had nvr really visited nor seen any 3rd world country. I am not sure if i could adapt to the condition and I hope that what ever training I went thru in the army would come in handy. But I just knew tat i just had to trust in God. When we left S'pore and reached Cambodia, we met Rev Mok and his wife, Mee Hwa. Less than a few hours, we loaded onto the 4-wheel-drive truck and set off to the province of Pursat which was nearly 6 hours ride away from Phnom Penh. And the road was dusty (dirt road) and the bumpy (pothole). At the end of the ride, my bum felt firmy. By evening time, we reached the first village, Phum Themai. The next morning, we took motorbikes into the our destinated village, Syaet Borei. The bikes went thru padi fields, forested areas and after an hour, we reached the village. I told myself i will nvr sit in a bike ever again. I would rather walk. Then the first week was to make a concrete flooring underneath the church in the village. As the materials for the cement mix was insufficient, the next few days, some of us have to travel out to get the pebbles and sand. It was really harsh work. But i really enjoyed it and to see the final product was very fulfilling. At the end of that week, we left the village and yes, without any choice, i took the bike out of the village. Then we set off back to Phnom Penh. The first team left while i stayed on to wait for the nex team. And again we set off to Pursat and den took the BIKE into Syaet Borei again. This time, the team is doing Christmas Outreach and we did a mime, helped out in Children Ministry and it was indeed a fruitful trip.
At the end of the trip, as i reflected, I see that i adapted pretty well and in fact I love Cambodia. And I somehow feel a passion for the people. I'm not sure if it is Cambodia that God wants to send me into but I'm pretty sure that God has a purpose for me in the mission field. It's just a matter of time only. So meanwhile, just have to keep myself in shape and let the Lord continue to mould me.
And on Sunday, Rev Mok and Mee Hwa were back in town. They were back to settle some stuff and on tat Sunday held a Prayer meeting for Cambodia. Many people came but SACC was the main 'shareholders'. Haha. We were there to pray for the staff in Cambodia and also to pray for more people internally and externally to rise up and help out in the ministry. Also prayed for the activities and programs. I am really glad to have know Rev Mok and Mee Hwa. They are really a couple with great faith and love for God. It's nearly a decade since they left home and set off to a faraway land. It must not have been easy for them but then after all these years, one could see that the Lord is faithful and doing many great things thru them. I really prayed that I could be as bold as them. Lord, not my will, but Yours be done!

Matthew 28:19-20
Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in[a] the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age

When Death met Creator!

Well it has been a while I update my blog. Guess I'm busy studying for my exams just like many of you all. Or rather I'm trying to look busy studying for my exams. Haha. Nah! I'm really studying. Stress! O.o" Nothing much happen to me the week before. Except for a few 'accident'. Haha. On saturday, had worshp pract in church. So the team was testing sound and I decided to go over to Chapel to see if the sound was too loud. As the Chapel is locked, I entered thru the store room that was linked from the MPH to the Chapel. As I entered the Chapel, my hand happily swung the door close. And the door can either only opened from inside the room or a key if from the Chapel. ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHH! I was trapped in Chapel. Thkfully, I was calm and i started banging on the door frantically. But to no avail. Then i called David, nvr picked up den I called Gary and thkfully his phone is with him. He came to my rescued. Haha. The things that I nvr imagined myself doing. Haha.

I guess the moment of the week was on Sunday. Beside leading 2 sessions of worship, I was also at Leng Leng's mum encoffining svc. After the svc as the coffin was driven out and the relatives and frens followed behind. I was looking from afar and somehow I started to tear. I didn't know Leng's mum in personal but somehow I felt grieved. Grieved not becoz of fear of death but rather the feeling of losing someone important.
I remembered when I was very young, there was this incident where I cried so badly because I was scared of death. I didn't know where i would go when I die. I was pretty young in faith at that time. And I had no idea why i suddenly thought of that. It could have been God talking to me. Haha! But now, I gave thks to God because we are people of hope and need not fear death. But rather death should be joyous ocassion becoz we know that the race is completed and there will no longer be pain and suffering.
I also remembered when my 2nd elder sister passed away, I shed no tear. Not because I felt nothing. In fact, I was very close to her and I was really very young at that time. 9 yrs old. I tried to cry but just couldn't. I believe that God was there with me and He had somehow or rather assured me that my sister is safe with Him and I need not worry nor grieved.
After hearing what i say, you all may think that I definitely look forward to my death bed. Haha. Actually not really! I'm not contradicting myself. It is just that since i'm assured that death is merely going back to my Creator, I think it is more important to look at the days that we have on earth. How am I going to spend these years? I definitely want to spend it wisely and we really need the Lord's guidance and wisdom. I prayed hard that when I lie on my final bed and take my last breath, the Lord is pleased and draws me to Him saying, "Good and faithful servant" Amen!

Where is the barber?

A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut andhis beard trimmed. As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation. They talked about so many things and various subjects.When they eventually touched on the subject of God, thebarber said: "Idon't believe that God exists.""Why do you say that?" asked the customer."Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if Godexists, would there be so many sick people? Wouldthere be abandoned children? If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."The customer thought for a moment, butdidn't respondbecause he didn't want to start an argument.The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop. Just after he left the barber shop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty andunkempt.The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber: "Youknow what? Barbers do not exist.""How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber. "I am here, and I am a barber. And I justworked on you!""No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbersdon't exist because if they did, there would be no people withdirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside.""Ah, but barbers DO exist! " answered the barber."What happens, is, people do not come to me.""Exactly!"- affirmed the customer. "That'sthe point! God, too, DOES exist! What happens, is, people don'tgo to Him and do not look for Him. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

I had read this many times but i always forgot the ending. But i tot tat this is a very good illustration to share with people about God. But for us to take note is tat, even when we know God, we still will be face with sufferings and pain. We are still pretty much in the world like before knowing God. But after knowing God, our trust and confidence is in God. Even through our trials and tough times, we know that our God is faithful and will deliver us through.

21 - 24 Apr (Thu - Sun)

21 Apr (Thu)

My dad was warded into SGH to prepare him for operation on Friday. He went in during the noon. As I had class, I could only visit him in the evening. Caught a cab, swung by to grab my sis den went to SGH. My mum was with my dad when we met him. Then we went for a quick munch at the Kopi Tiam. He was still quite positive but I knew deep in him, he was worried sick. I know he was worried if the operation will succeed or not. Then Pastor Priscilla came and visited him. Had a chat with him and before leaving, prayed for him. I was not feeling very right. My soul felt very down. Though I had earlier said that I could not feel as much for my dad, somehow or rather, knowing that he will be goin under the knife, hurt me too. And knowing his worries, make me feel very sad.

22 Apr (Fri)

My mum, sis and I visited my dad in the morning before he went for his operation. Though he seems normal, I could sense his worries and fears. After a while, the nurse came and prepared him for the operation. After he was wheeled into the theatre, mum, sis and I went to have a drink. After which i left for church to give tuition to Calvin while mum and sis went to walk around. After that we met again at about 5pm and dad was not out yet. The doc said the op will be abt 3-4 hrs but it has been nearly 5 hrs. Kinda freaking out my sis and mum. But finally he was pushed out and delivered to ICU. We managed to catch a glimpse of him outside the ICU. He was still unconcious but seems like he was waking up. Could see that he was struggling, i guess in pain and dun know why it was emotionally upsetting. Somehow or rather, I could feel his pain. Tears were filling my eyes. I remembered the precious time when i was hospitalised, he told me that he was too near to tears. I brushed that comment off as something which he exaggerated. But now I knew what he meant and felt. It was a long day for the whole family and we all retired home.

25 Apr (Sat)

Woke up early to prepare worship and word time for youth fellowship. Then went to church to give tuition to Wei Ren. Then followed by worship practise. After which had a talk with the youth worship team abt helping to lead worship for the month of May. Thkfully almost all of them agreed to it. And really glad that they take the step of faith. I know it may be very taunting and uncomfortable for them to lead worship without any experience. But the whole idea is for them to have a feel of leading worship. It's not so much abt whether at the end did they lead a superb worship or not. But rather, more importantly, is that are they able to trust in God to help them. And I believe for those who takes this step of faith will emerge a stronger person. Then i lead worship for the youth fellowship alone that Saturday. Kinda disatrous. Haha. Couldn't really focus. But still thk God for His grace. Then went into word time. Again only Ding Yi and Jason. Not a complaint but actually gladful that both of them make the effort to come. Theme was still on beattitudes. Matt 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful for they will be shown mercy" Once again, it's a value that the world dun embrace. And that's what our Lord is teaching. To give pple not just 2nd chance but many chances. Not to step on those who had fallen but to lend a helping hand to them. To forgive becoz we were being forgiven first. Yes! It is not easy to be merciful becoz honestly the world will nvr be merciful to us. But let's follow the footsteps of Christ for He first show mercy to us.
After the youth fellowship, rushed back home in a cab to fetch mum then went hospital to see dad. He was still in ICU and after a few minutes with him, he was tired and kinda chase us out. Then mum and i took a cab home. I then went to meet up Daniel and the rest in Tampines Central. Hang around at Mc, before going home.

24 Apr (Sun)
Woke up early as playing at worship today. Well everything went quite smoothly but i still can't hear myself. Really hard for me to play if i can't hear myself. I'm sound deficient. And to have like a few instruments playin at the same time, it makes it even harder to listen. Haiz! wat to do! No talent means no talent! haha! Then after service was AGM. 2 and a half hour! Phew! Then went to TM to eat at LJS with Daniel, Xin Ling, Yvonne, Jamie and Magdalene. After that I went back church to meet sis before swinging back home to fetch mum den visited dad. He was now transferred fr ICU to High Dependency Ward. He was more energetic than the few days before. But still can see that he was v weak. After a while, we were chased away by him again. Went home in a cab.

17 Apr (Sun)

Today woke up at 7.45am. Preparing to go for church. Then left house with my sis and took a cab down to church. Today, I would be attending the Mandarin Svc. I missed the beginning of the sermon becoz went to look for Ding Yi. He disappeared half way thru the worship. Tot tat he got lost. Haha. FOund him at Children Min. He suppose to help out. After much relief, went back to Chapel and the sermon started. Didn't get the topice but from the rest of the sermon, i believe it is about what our life is like. The preacher mentioned 3 things that our life is like.
Firstly, our life is like a mirror. We are initially a piece of uneven mirror and what we reflect are not truthful and realistic. But as we let Jesus come into our life, He is like a tool that will help to even up the uneveness on the mirror. Then as time goes by our life will reflect a clearer and more reaslistic image. And at the same time we will also reflect the characters of God.
Secondly, our life is like the wheat. A kernel of wheat may seem nothing much but in fact its potential is great. When the time is ripe, it will bear into fields of wheat. In John 12:24, it says "I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds" Likewise our life shd die so that Jesus can enter our life and result in not just renewal of life but also greater harvest.
Thirdly, our life is like a butterfly. A butterfly start off as a caterpillar which nobody admire or adore. The caterpillar after its eating feast, turn itself into a cocoon . In the cocoon, the genes of the butterfly manipulate the cell to devour all the cells of the caterpillar. This is not to kill the caterpillar but to fully transform itself into a butterfly which is greatly appreciated and admired by people. The gene of the butterfly is like Jesus. And the cells of the caterpillar are like our pasts. In order to be fully transformed, we need Jesus to eat up our past. Then when the caterpillar is no more, what is left is a butterfly reflecting the characters of Jesus.

Life is not easy but it's not impossible or beyond what we can bear. But we need Jesus to be in our life. Unless we die to ourself and allow Jesus to take control, our life will be lived in vain. So brothers and sisters, let us look to our God who is faithful and loving and hold on to the promise He has given to us. Live a life for our God.

16 April (sat)

YEEAAAAHHHHHHHHH! Small group outing. My group and Claudia's and Khim's group going to Kayak at East Coast Park. Finally we are going to Kayak after much failed attempt. Haha. But we are meeting quite early in the morning becoz we wanted to miss the sun. Meeting at Tampines Interchange Small MacDonald at 7.30am. And I make a big mistake on the nite before the outing. At 11pm, I was about to sleep but the weather was hot. So I decided to make myself an Iced Moccha. Bad choice. After that I could only sleep at 12am. Then I woke up at 2.30 am and couldn't sleep. I literally lied in bed wide awake unti l 5am before sliding into a short nap. Officially woke up at 6.30am, got myself prepared and left house. Reached there at about 7.20am. Then as usual, there will be people who will be blur blur and come late. I thinked we left Mac at about 8am. When we reached there, it was about 8.45am. We met auntie Khim at East Coast Mac. Then we set off to find the Kayak place. Yes you heard me correctly, find the Kayak place. So from Mac, it's either left or right as nobody know where exactly is the location. Nobody WANT to give a suggestion, so i took upon myself to decide. Right. Well! Bad choice. Walked for 20 min then i told the rest to stop while i carried on. After i walked on 20 min, i called Claudia saying that it's most probably the wrong direction, so going to turn back and they asked somebody who confirmed that's it is on the other side. Haha. Yes! Well done! I actually hate to make guesses. I'm ver y bad at such 'ti kam ti kam' stuff. It's like in exam when I have uncertainty on a MCQ, i could never 'ti kam ti kam' the answer becoz I always get wrong. Even if it's only 2 options, i will always choose the wrong one. Haha. So when it comes to such situation, nvr give me the liberty to choose becoz I WILL CHOOSE THE WROND ONE. ^0^ Muahahahahaaahhahha.
So we walked back to Mac, and they decided to either blade or cycle. I choose blade since it's a long time i had bladed. But I always had this prob. My feet is too broad and it is flat feet. So the side of the feet is always subjected to more pressure and weight and it will have an excruciating pain. But I still love to blade becoz it really make me feel like i can fly. Pigs flying? Haha. Khim, Claudia, Yvonne, Zhengda and me chose blading while Xin Ling, Jason and Jasmine chose cycling. Then Khim, Claudia, Ah Da and me went to the learners' corner. It seemed like it's the first few tries for Claudia and Khim. Haha. Tried to help them though i am no much better. I didn't fall but in the process of not falling, I did some 'stunts'. Then after we were done, Khim left first followed by Claudia, Jasmine and Ah Da. So the rest of us make our way to Bedok SOuth for lunch before going to Khim's place. Took a bath then went to help her make cake and bread. Was making a chococlate cake and custard bun. Hehe. Was a lot of fun. I really love to bake though i dun bake at home. Too much of a trouble and my mum always find it very messy. Then it's a sum of money to be spent. So most of the time i prefer to help and bake at people's house. Then the buns that i make, Auntie Khim say got 'backside'. Didn't close up all the openings. haha. Then when the bun was done, no time to bake so had to bring it over to Lydia's place to bake. Reached Lydia's place and alreadi baked some pizzas. Then the whole ntie was makan and makan. Muahahahahahahha. Then I tried to do some magic trick which was seen thru by the youths. Haiz. I tot it was a good magic trick but i guess i'm just simply not good enough. Nvr mind. I will do the sawing trick the next time round. I bet you all can see thru it. Haha. Get it, see thru it See thru the person I had saw up into half. HAHAHAHHA. Ok not funny! Then some of them wanted to play "Dai Di" but the house rules didn't permit. But i'm proud that the youths didn't try to break the rule. They could have just not be bother with the rule and just play until they get caught but they didn't. Prasie the Lord for all these righteous and rule-abidding youths. Then at the end, had a short worship and a time of sharing and testimony. Felt very touched by the youths coming up to share their experience and what they see God is doing. And my prayer is that the youths will continue to uphold their Lord and faithfully follow His way. Keep up the good work for the race will bear many fruits beyond your imagination.

Not one of those good songs but it's funny (becoz it's evigan singing. Yes you heard me corretly. It's evigan)

Muahahahhahahhahahahaha!

15 April (FRI)

Yes! Finally it's friday. Weekend is comin. Youuuhoooooooooooooo!!! And Friday = no class for me also. Haha. Good life man! People all think that i "pon tan'' school. Well in fact nope. I'm a genius so need to go for too many class lah. Haha.^0* Yes i guess by now most of you had puked all over the computer screen But it is really good to not have sch for a day. Woke up at 10am then slowly do my things. Then went over to church at 11am to meet Daniel. Helping him in his cell worship. Then Christine came over and bought lunch for us. Had duck rice. Then went to Simei Care Centre and had a second round of Mee Goreng. SLurrppppppp! Bagus!
Then stayed in church to do some admin stuff. Finished at 2pm so took a nap in church until 4pm. Then was goin to prepare to leave for Changkat Changi Secondary School. They having a Speech Day and I'm receiving an award for After-School Care Programme. Suppose to be there by 4.30pm. Then i was just flipping thru the invitation card and saw in small print the attire. Shirt and tie. What! TIE! My goodness. I didn't had a tie and gosh! I had to return home to change. Had to kinda rush. By the time I reached the school, i was half-drenched in perspiration. I went straight to hall and parked myself at a fan. Thankfully, I managed to dry myself. Or else people will think that it's my first time receiving award. Panicked unti l perspire like a pig. Muahahahahhaha. Then the Principal and the Chairman of SAC gave their speech followed by the Modern and Malay dance performance. Afterwhich was the Prize presentation for the students with good academic results. Then followed by the Choir and then the 2nd round of prize presentation for students with good service in CCA and followed by the other external prize receiptent. That's me. Yeah! Long time never received award. So good to receive award. Haha. Then the Speech Day ended with the Chinese Ochestra. Quite cool! Maybe I shd go and pick up "Er Hu" and play the tune "Unchained Melody" Then was followed by dinner which I left. Didnt' really want to stay around. Dun like to do PR. Not my cup of tea. So after excusing myself, went home.

11 - 13 April (Mon - Wed)

Mon:

As usual Monday, I had no school. In the afternoon, went down to Changkat Changi Sec Sch to do my volunteer work. Can't believe it. Had been doing this for alreadi 3 years. Praise the Lord for His guidance and direction. But can be a bit lonely doing this alone. And some more, I will be graduating next year and won't be able to carry on. Really pray hard that God will bring in new blood. And this coming friday, I was going to receive an award for Volunteer work in the sch. Haha.

Tue:

Had a class in the afternoon.

Wed:

Had a class in the afternoon Then evening suppose to go down to William's place for dinner at 7pm. My class ended at 5 so went to PS to shop shop. Haha. Actually wanted to buy dessert but I decided to go Tiong Bahru Plaza instead. So when I reached there, wanted to buy durian puff but Lydia said she and William not feeling well. So I just bought Sara Lee Pound Cake to go with ice-cream. When I reached William's place, Lydia was alreadi in the midst of cooking. Wanted to help but i guess i will be too much of a trouble. So i went to entertain the son, Daniel. Watching The Incredibles. After a while, William was also back from work. Then we had dinner together. Spaghetti with ham and crab roll sauce, with brocolli and BBQ ribs. HMMMMM! Delicious! After dinner, sat down with William and Lydia and chit-chat over ice-cream with cake and coffee. It is really nice to have mentors like them. Serve good food and provide good advise. Why didnt' i get to know them earlier? Hehe. But thank God for them becoz this year had been quite a tough year to start with and thkfully they had been there for me. After dinner, yes it's time for me to say Goodbye. TOok MRT home.

Sunday

After a break of more than 9 months from leading worship, I will be back onto leading worship in the main church service. Pretty excited and nervous. But i'm sure things will turn out for the best. Haha. I hope!
Woke up at 7am. Actually thought of going down to church early to get myself prepare. But then I received an sms from Eleanor asking if i will be bringing down the powerpoint for the worship svc. I nearly fainted. I totally forgotten about it. And yesterday i was way too dead tired to remember about it. Thank God I woke up early. So i quickly rush to do the powerpoint. When i was done, it was nearly 7.50am and I had to be in church by 8. So quickly changed and rush down to church. Reached there by 8.10. And the sound people were not there yet. Was a bit anxious becoz sound setup usually can take from 15-30min. Apparently sound man had stomachache so he was late. And Daniel had to rush down to help out. So with Daniel and Peter's help, we quickly set up the system. By the time we started the practise, it was nearly 8.30. Thankfully, there were minimal instruments. Denise on the clavi, Gary on bass and David on guitar. Didn't manage to practise all the songs but the first service was pretty fine. I couldn't hear the instruments properly so ended up at certain intervals not able to enter or link the song. Haha.Then second svc was pretty much the same with the same problem. Overall, I am pleased with what I had done. And praise be to God for He is gracious and loving.

After 2nd service, went to TM foodcourt with Daniel for lunch. Ate beef ball noodle. After that, both of us went home. I was too tired that I decided to pamper my self. I shall take a cab home. When i reached home, I was real dead tired. My brain was not thinking and my body is on the verge of giving up. Going against the will of the whole body was not a good idea. If it's the bed it want, i will give the bed to it. Yes. I slept until dinner time. Then after that I went out with my sis to TM. It's a long time since we go out. We went to TM Popular first. Saw these nail stick-on deco which was very nice. Actually both of us wanted to buy but then when we saw the price, nah! NOt worth it. After that we went to this shop which i cant' remember what's its name. A lot of cute stuff and there i saw the frenship band. Haha. I havent' got myself to buy any yet. Was waiting for the trend to wear out before buying. So i bought 4 of it. White, black, blue and yellow. Each costing $1.90. Then went to comic bookshop at Century Square. My sis bought comics costing nearly $100. Woah! Haha. She is one comic freak. At the shop i found more frenship band of other colour. Bought 3 more. Pastel orange, pastel blue and orange. That make my total to 7. Muahahahahaha. I'm mad. But I guess the retailtheraphy was very healthy for the mind. After that went Coffee Bean to have a drink. After that, we went home in a cab. (Disclaimer: I dun usually take cab. It's my sis.She is the one that can't survive without cab. Muahahaha.)

9 April (yet another busy Saturday)

YEah! Finally the weekend had arrived. I always looked forward to Sat and Sun. Somehow or rather I feel so much relax and enjoyable. Maybe becoz weekend tends to be a more carefree time. And I guess I will meet all my church frens. Which is equaivalent to fun.
This morning woke up extremely early. Was actually suppose to send some of the church memebers off at the airport. They are going to Cambodia for a short Mission Trip. Their flight was 8.30am so they had to be at the airport by 6.30am. So had to be there the same time. I decided to wake up at 5am. Needed to rush some last minute stuff. One day procrastination is goin to make my head roll. Haha. Then had to meet William at 6.20am at Simei MRT. Thankfully got him to fetch me. Or else had to wake up even earlier. Then picked up Charles and Daniel on the way. Reached there about 6.45am. Quite a big crowd. Those going involves members from both the Chinese and English Congreg. And both congreg other members had come to send them off. I estimated that there were at least 40 people. Could had started a service on the spot. haha. Then after sending them off, some of us went to McDonald for breakfast. Honestly, fastfood is getting way too expensive. There will be a day when you will pay a red dollar note for just a meal.
After that William send me back to church where i did some work before goin to Eastpoint to hang around. Then came back to church at 12pm for worship practise. Finished pract at 1.30 and went for Wheelchair training. Then ended at 3pm and rushed for the worship pract for youth fellowship. And then 3.30pm Youth Fellowship started. And there was game followed by worship then small group. Well my group was the smallest. 3 person including me. Dingyi and Jason. Haha. Though small but we had our fair share of laughter and serious bible study. Then after the Fellowship, did some briefing with the Worship team and after that, cleared up the MPH and left for Hola for dinner with Charles and Daniel. After that, went home. And can't really remember what i did. I think by then i was too tired to think. I guess i dozed off.

7 & 8 April (Thursday and Friday)

Thursday:

Today woke up and honestly, i drag waking up this morning. THough there is no school, I just wish i could sleep thru and wake up on Sat. My dad is going to SGH to see the heart surgeon. I'm worried but at the same time my past is denying that. My mind is confused, my mind is not in the right frame. I'm just fuzz up (dun know what it means but that's how i felt. and by the way if's not a substitute for the other "F" word). I just couldn't stay at home and see how he is worried but yet he still keeps on smoking. Contradiction to life. Want to live but yet still wasting it away. And my mum is starting her paranoid self again. I dun blame her becoz since when i was young, my family is not well-to-do. And my mum always felt very insecured. So now the operation is goin to cost a sum and she is feeling insecure and becoming very paranoid. And she will go into a state where she will start to grumble over this and that. Initially, it is still managable to hear her but after a while, it really stretch my patience to the limit. I thought i just needed to get out of the house. Yes I did and I know where exactly to go. Church, the place which is my 2nd home. That's the place I will always go to whether I'm in good or bad mood. That's where i can really find peace and quietness.

So I went to church and Ting2 happened to be there too to help Lydia. I tried to keep myself busy so that i'll not think too much. Can't really remembered what i did. All I knew was that i just didn't want to think too much. Then before I knew, it was 7pm. Ate dinner, then went over to Daniel's place to run some errand. Then went to eat supper and went home at about 10 plus. By then, i was too tired to even think about anything. Found out that my dad's op will be on 20 May. And it's near my exam period. Haiz. Dun know what to do. Dun want to think that far. All I can pray is that the Lord to give me rest and peace of mind. Though I'm in a big struggle but I know i cannot break down now. Though i can't do much for the family, I cannot break down or else I will be an extra burden and worry. Lord, when i'm lost in the valley, You'll be my light. When I'm alone in the desert, You'll be my companion.

Friday:

WOke up again for the 8656th time of my life. Haha! And morning wasn't that good. Mum was still a bit hangover from her paranoid mood. After learning my ear to her, I left home for church again. I'm goin to church to help out but i guess more of running away from home. After lunch, gave tuition to Calvin and didn't manage to have time to do any flower arrangement for the weekend svc. Nvm. There's always another time. And den I left for home. Tonight will be a busy night. Need to prepare many things for Sat. Saturday morning going airport in the morning to send off those going to Cambodia for mission trip. Then need to write up my pen-pals letter to pass to the mission team to pass to the Cambodian pen pal. Then afternoon got 2 worship practise which i had to prepare the scores. Then after that there's youth fellowship and i had to touch up on my lesson. Woah! Plenty things for me to do to keep me busy. haha!

6 April Wednesday

Yes. Praise the Lord! I woke up once again by God's grace. haha. This morning is a good morning. Felt refreshed. Then as usual, after my necessary biz, got in front of the PC to do some of my 'constructive' stuff. Haha. Yah rite. Then at about 12pm, received an sms from sch saying that the lecture for today and tomorrow are postponed. At that moment, a smirk appeared on my face but den i remembered this guy who mentioned on his blog that the students may be glad that the lesson is cancelled but den something serious could have happen to the lecturer. Very true! We shdn't always just think about ourself. We shd always think of others first and not just for our own benefits. Just really hope that nothing bad had happened to the lecturer. Actualli this is one of my favourite lecturer. He is one of the lecturer that I won't find it boring.

Since afternoon was free, I decided I could do some "housekeeping". Got to get rid of those unwanted things. I meant the fat. Haha. So did a few hundreds of skipping den followed by weight lifting. Not sure if i did burn any calories but well, at least I did work out. Then went online onto Friendster and searched for my 'old' frens, those in Primary Sch. Manage to find 3 of them. It's like been 12 years. Not sure if they still remember me. After dinner, met Daniel for supper. Then went Cheers where i found Piglet (Winnie the Pooh) in the very cute toddler size. Love it so much that i bought it. Cost me $8.90. Actualli wanted to buy the Tiger and Ehor but not enough money. SO maybe buy on another day. Hehe! My soft toy collection illness is back. Hehe. Then went home and stucked at the PC once again. So much for the day. I think I'll do my quiet time and update it on Blogspot tomorrow. So for now! Tar tar. God bless!

Another Nice Song

他和她

他习惯把自己丢在热闹的场
他以为这样可以掩饰掉落寞
她喜欢往这个城市最安静角落走
担心脆弱被人识破

他和她住在同一栋楼 遗憾的是爱擦肩而过
他们孤独时候 都望著同一颗 星球
他和她都在城市飘流 遗憾的是心无缘邂逅
他们彼此适合却无奈的错过 在人群中掩没

他渴望能有人分享夜晚和失落
她最怕独自面对黄昏和脆弱
其实他们彼此距离才两三个窗口
不同的心 一样寂寞

5Apr Tue

Rise and shine! Woke up feeling much better. But still rather cloudy in certain areas. Haha. The whole day was spend quite aimlessly. Just keeping myself pre-occupied so I won't have to think too much. Was on the PC most of the time. After lunch, took a nap. WOke up den went online again. Haha. Not much of a life I would say. Then after that, I had to go for my evening class. After evening class, came home and went online again. Well that's all for today. Just really wish that there is someone whom i'm close enough to pour out to. But I guess there is always God. Hehe.

Monday Blues

TOday no school. Should be quite a good day but in fact, it was a very down day for me. My dad went for a review in the hospital and the doctor recommended him to go for a heart by-pass operation. I really dun know how i should feel. I am worried for him but yet i am also angry with him. Why don't he just stop smoking? Does he care about the family? He spend so much on cigarettes and not only does he harm himself, his smoking affects his family. And now the family has to fork out a sum to pay for his medical bills. I'm really in struggle. God has given me this father and i cannot deny him. But just that so many things had happened and I'm numb. I just can't feel as much for him. I tried recalling in the past all those good times with him, I tried remembering him carrying me when i was a little boy, i tried but i just couldn't remember any. And I felt so useless. I can't do much for the family. I just feel like a liability to the family.
And there's also my life which is practically in a mess. Trying to sort out my own studies, trying to keep myself focus. Dealing with my own emotions. Serving in church ministry. There is just too much things on my mind. My emotion is so weak that anything could easily bring me to tears. Lord, in my weakest moment, you will never forsake me and You are my strength and fortress. That night, when i went to bed, I just cried myself to sleep. But somehow or rather I knew i was not alone. I was crying in His embrace. Behind every storm, there is always a rainbow.

3 April Sunday

After service, I realised that I forgotten to bring my backpack which was meant for Dino. So I decided to borrow Alice's car and drive home to pick it up. Hehe. Got the car and got daniel to follow me. So manage to drive back safely and passed the backpack to Dino and returned the car key to Alice. Honestly, I love driving but I have no money to buy car. SOb Sob! Then after that waited for some of them to finish their meeting before going for lunch. Decided to go Ajisen to eat. Went there ordered a new dish which i had no idea what meat it was. But who cares. After lunch went to arcade for a while. SOme people really have their own style of dancing. I have to take my hat off them. Real daring and eccentric. Then we played the Table Air Hockey. Played four rounds. I played the first round with Joanne versus dun know who. Trashed them 18 to 12. Muahahahahaa. After that went to take Neoprints which the rest of the guys find it not appealing at all. SO ended up me and another 11 girls take photo. Not bad hah! My blessings. As the english saying goes, thorns among the rose. I can't agree any more. Hehe. But it was hot and stuffy with 12 people in that box and somemore we took 3 sets. I literally melt in that box. By the time we were out, i was half drenched. But it was fun boy. They should have bigger screen and air-con in that box. After that, some left while the remaining 'float' around the mall before going home. When I hit home, i zzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ until dinner time. It seems like sleeping and eating compliments very well with me. I should do that as often as possible. HAHAHA! They dun call me "zhu" for nothing.

Friend of God

This Sunday, our senior Pastor was preaching about how to be 'friends of God'. He talked about why Moses was called the Friend of God. It was because Moses trusted in God and was always dwelling in His presence. He experienced God's presence. Then pastor drew us to the tarbenacle where he showed us how we could learn from it to be close with God. In the tarbenacle, there were the 1) the table of the Bread of the presence, 2) the Golden lampstand 3) Altar of incense. From these 3 items, we could learn one lesson from each item to experience God's presence.

1) Trust in God's provision
- the bread of the Presence is made from the additional supply of manna collected the day before the Sabbath
- it testifies of His Providential Presence from one Sabbath to the next
- we experience His presence when we trust completely in His provision

2) Follow God's guidance
- the 7 Golden Lampstands are the only source of light in the tarbenacle; it prevents the priest from stumbling in the dark
- the Bible, God's word, is a lamp to our feet and a light for our path (ps 119:105)
- we experience God's presence when we rely on Him for guidance

3) Worship God's worthiness
- the Altar incense offer fragrant incense to God constantly and fills the Holy Place
- it symbolises our ceaseless prayer to God as we walk closely with Him, no matter what we are doing
- it speaks of our constant praise to God thru all we do becoz He deserves it
- we experience God's presence when we live with Him, in constant conversation and endless worship


QUOTE of the day:
The bigger your vision of God, the smaller your vision of your problem.

2 April Saturday

Suppose to go for kayaking early in the morning but was postponed due to unconfirmed answer. But thank God we didn't go becoz it rained in the morning. Woke up about 10 plus. Then did some work before goin to church. Reached church and needed to do up the Powerpoint for the Youth Fellowship worship session. But then Eleanor and Christine 'jiou' me for lunch. So why not? Went over to Simei Care Centre and I ordered Mee Rebus and ice Teh Tahrik since it is served immediately. Remembered the last time they took so long to serve. Yes indeed it was faster. Got down to eat and after that went back to church to work. Tried opening a file which i saved in the A drive and the file was corrupted. Darn. ALways like that. Then end up have to retype the whole songs for the Powerpoint. But thankfully, Lydia and William just arrived and Lydia offered her help. Hehe. So I was freed to have a chat with William. Haha. Nice to have nice people around.

After that, I went down to the MPH to prepare for worship practise. Suppose to start at 2.45pm but the musicians didn't start to appear until 3pm. I had to set up everything with only Daniel, Ding Yi and Xavier's help. Was honestly quite disappointed. Felt that the musicians were not really serious about the whole worship. Then finaly when we settle down, had to rush thru and was not really able to do much but by God's grace things still turn out quite pleasantly. (with a few of my mis-timing and wrong playing) Didn't manage to attend the sharing part becoz me and Daniel went to pick up the beverage for the refreshment. Then after the fellowship had a commission for Ting2 becoz she passed her driving test. Finally! Muahahhahahahahaha. 3 times. Ok lah! me not any better. 2 times. Then was the makan. The Milo was bad. Diluted and smelt funny. But the cake that William's auntie made was interesting. Fusion. It's like chinese 'kueh' with english cake. I would give a 7.5 out of 10. Then when it came to the clearing part, only me, Lydia, William and Daniel were doing it. The rest of the youths just simply stood there and continued to chit chat. Honestly, I was real irritated by then. I was contemplating whether to share this with the youths during our dinner time. But somehow or rather I just couldn't deliver it to them. Must be the Holy Spirit. Telling me that I was too angry and most probably spoil the whole situation and later I found out some of them already got a 'session' from someone. Thankfully. But i have to say this. All the youths had no initiative to help out. Most of the time it seemed like the youth workers have to serve them. I sorry about it, guys. I'm sure some of you are reading these. Dun blame me for being harsh but I'm being frank here. The only way for the youth to grow is to take ownership of it. How many more years do you think William and Lydia would stay in the Youth? I may also not stay for long depending on where God calls me. You all are the next batch of people to take over. Then start to take ownership. Some more Lydia is pregnant and nobody seemed to take extra care for her. Can I plead to you as a brother-in-Christ, that in your own capacity, try to help out in any ways. I know you all are capable to do great things. And also instead of waiting for others to start, you initiate first and encourage others to help out. Having said all these, don't be mistaken that I'm simply just offloading workload or that you are doing these for any of us but rather this is a service onto the Lord. Do it unto the Lord and He sees it and will bless you bountifully.

APRIL's FOOL DAY

Haha. It's April's Fool Day and suppose to be a day of prank and nuisance. But no school and not as if i know anybody well enough in school to play a prank on. Most probably get arrested for harressment. Haha. Still remember the good old days when I was in Secondary School. Always feel good after a nice old good trick on someone.

This morning woke up pretty late for once since there wasn't any school. Muahahahahaha. Did nothing constructive in the morning. Just slack in front of the glass which people call PC. Then in the afternoon went over to church. Suppose to give tuition to one of the church kids. Before tuition, went to Simei Care Centre with the church staff for lunch. Oh boy! The service was real slow. I'm not kidding. Real s..l..o..w. But lunch was still satisfying. Then called the boy i was suppose to give tuition. He told me he couldn't make it. Erh. Make me 'fly kite'. Haiz

So stay on in church to see if i could be of any help. Lydia and some of the church members were doing flower arrangement for the weekend svc. So i decided to KPO a bit. Had done flower bouquet but never done flower arrangement. So very curious. Hehe. Then Lydia offered one basket for me to arrange. Hehe. So without much hesitation, i decided to let my green fingers do the talking. After the arrangement, I had to say I was not bad. Quite pleased with my final product though there was still much space for improvement. Tried doing a second arrangement but then I ran out of ideas. I guess the first one had drained out all my creativity. Haha. Crap. Excuses. Yes yes. I guess i'm not that good after all. But I am very keen and I will come back for more session. Hehe.