Thursday, August 18, 2005
17 Aug (Wednesday)
Well! It's mid-week! Trying to stay focus. Getting a bit distracted. Hmmm! Slap! Slap! Ok that will keep the blood flowing into my brain. Haha! Anyway, today was kinda busy for me or rather my stomach. Had a big feasting. ARGHHHHH! There goes my diet! Haha! In the afternoon, went to CCSS to meet up with my befriending group. Jeremy was not in school again. Haiz! Must start to call him up! Den Vince left early becoz he say got something on. So only managed to meet up Teng Seng and Jannah. So brought them to Hans River to celebrate my birthday (actual date is 20 aug, sat) I'm impressed that these 2 Sec 3 kids can eat. I think they nearly devour up a whole cow. Haha! I tried not to eat to much becoz firstly on diet and secondly, i still have dinner at home and after tat i'm meeting some other people for dinner again. WAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Crazy man! But honestly, didn't find the spread too good. Variety not much and the hygeniene of the food, hmmm, i really wonder how clean! Haha! But den guess wat! I'm still alive so i guess it's not tat bad after all. So after the feast with them, we went home. I actually should have told my dad i'm not eatin at home but dun know why lah! I'm scared he will get upset that i'm eating less frequent at home. Hmmm! I'M NEARLY 24 AND I STILL HAVE TO REPORT HOME FOR DINNER! Haha! (I'm saying this as a joke and not in any form of rebelliousness.) I ate very little. Couldn't eat much and some more later got round 3. And i notice that as i grow older, my capability of taking in food is getting smaller. Last time go buffett, always scared that i'll cause the restaurant go into dissolution. But now eat like a bit den cannot eat anymore. So after home-dinner, left house to meet Daniel, Charles, Emily, Ariz and Gary outside TM McDonald. Reached there saw Charles, Emily and Ariz.Then Emily was talking abt making Cheese Cake without using chesse. SO tat is equal to a CAKE. Like Fishball noodle without fishball is called Noodle. Haha! Actualli wat she meant was that she could make something similiar to the textture of cheese cake using other ingredients than cheese. I'm going to learn from her and Ariz also very keen. And we were teasing, saying that now-a-days girls will prefer to eat then cook. Haiz! Men out there, the first survival lesson is learn how to cook. Dan and Gary coming later so we all went to Denki Sushi first. Got a seat but i was too full to order any main dish. So only eat side dishes. Dan and Gary came shortly afterwards. Must thk Charles for the sumptuous meal. Then after tat went to Starbucks for coffee. Carried on chatting. Can't really remember wat we talk but was quite enjoyable as there were laughters. So after the drink, time to go home. My my! My poor pitiful stomach! Have to brave all those harsh food.
Monday, August 15, 2005
I composed music???
Haha! I'm quite amazed that i'm gettin myself involved in composing song(s). I did try to compose songs many years back but i think it was a flop. I think I had composed 2 songs during that time! Was real amateur but then i guess it was a step of faith and a learning process. Now here i am putting my hands and mind to writing songs. I actualli just completed one song. It's in English and is a slow song. It still sound amateur but I tot it was a good effort. Shortly I finished up this song, a tune came into my mind and i quickly jotted it down. The tempo is a faster one and I tot of putting Mandarin lyrics to it. But really it's hard. Though there's the melody but it's hard to fit words into the melody and worst, i'm not really tat proficient in Mandarin. And furthermore, I believe in theological soundness of the lyrics and not just any lyrics that is just sensational or make no sense. This makes the job harder. But I'm not giving up! It's a real fun task to be able to express your feelings in your songs. And I hope I can offer these songs to God and may it be pleasing to Him. And while still trying to figure out the lyrcis for the present melody, another melody has sipped into my mind. Now i have 2 songs to write. Hmmm! Presently, I will not reveal the songs as yet until i present them to the worship team to vet thru. Den when approved, will get it copyright before flashing it on the blog. Haha!
12 - 14 Aug (2005)
12 Aug (Fri)
In the evening, visited FCBC. This American-based Taiwan Worship team was in town. The band is called Stream of Praise. Suppose to meet up with Soo Ping, Claudia and the rest at 7pm outside the entrance. But I haven't been taking bus for such a long time that i forget that evening time is peak hour. Left home at 5.45 but then there was a real long jam from tampines to Bedok. By the time Bus 31 hit Bedok, it was like 6.30 pm. I know i'm goin to be late. Yes and true enough i'm late. Reach there abt 7.10pm. Soo Ping had went in alreadi. Couldn't get him on the phone. Then happened that Xu En was also late. So both of us went in and found Soo Ping. The whole place was alreadi jam packed. Me and Xu En had to sit on the steps. But it was refreshing to hear the band play. And quite excited becoz this is the first time i have seen them face to face. They are kinda like the chinese "Hillsongs". It was pretty grand. There were like 8 singers, 2 keyboardists, 1 guitarist, 1 bassists, 1 drummer and 1 percussionist and also 1 more flutist. I love the flutist the most. It's like when you add a flute into chinese song, it really brings out the flavour. Maybe i shd go pick up a flute or a wind instrument. Dun suggest a recorder to me. After that, got a ride from Xu En's sis to Simei and met up with Daniel to go for dinner. Was like nearly 11pm. A bit late for dinner but i'm real hungry. Haven't eaten. Went to BLK 201 and decide to try at the Malay coffee shop which we had nvr tried. I ordered Nasi Goreng Ikan Bilis while Daniel ordered Mee Soto. Wilfred ordered lamb chop. The nasi was a bit wet but the Mee Soto was splendid. And from the way Wilfred was trying to eat his chop, i was quite certain the lamb was trained in karate.Then had this lime juice. Not too bad. After tat, walked home! Real tired! and very full too. Can't wait for the food to digest. Sleep first! The food can rot in the stomach for all i care. Muahahhaha!
13 Aug (sat)
Woke up pretty late. Abt 11 plus. Kinda woken up by Gary's morning call. Haha! But i can't sleep any longer becoz need to do some stuff. Only went to church at abt 2pm. Usually I'm in church at 12pm on a Saturday. Then there was youth fellowship at 3.30pm. Honestly, i couldn't sit down and enjoy the fellowship. During the time when William was sharing, I had to excuse myself to prepare for my worship practise later in the evening. Haiz! Kinda worried. After the fellowship, started to put up the worship equipment. I actually expected to start at 5.30 and end within an hour. I had a family dinner at 6pm. But den in the end, ended at 7.45. Haiz! Have to excuse myself from the dinner. Then went with Gary to Daniel's house to watch Man U match against Everton. We were at this coffee house waiting for our take-away dinner. There was a TV showing the telecast of the match. Score was nil-nil. Then we left for Dan's house, Van Nisterooy scored. What a waste! haha! Well! Eventually Man U won by 2 goals to nil! After the match, went home.
14 Aug (Sun)
The big day has arrived. Me leading worship! Thkfully everything went pretty smoothly except for certain parts, i'm sure i have either sung out of tune or sung badly. Haha! But wat's new! So after svc, met up with William, Lydia, Charles, Emily, Daniel and Lionel for lunch. By the time lunch was over, it was abt 3pm. Need to go home and change for soccer later. Have invited Xu En to come along. Glad that he could make it. Suppose to meet Daniel on the way but he was not ready. So I went on my own. The drill was like tortourous. I felt like i had played a match after the drill. Haha! Then we had a short match. Was quite happy with my performance. Did some saves and was happy to i had a few chances to rush out and cut out some of the dangers. Most importantly must thk Charles for being the last man. He was really there to help when the danger was there. Match ended 0-0. Daniel was on the opposite side. He did score but was offside. Haha! Nice try! After tat went to Blk 201 to eat Mee SOto. Daniel ordered for me and my one was with extra chilli. SO hot! I drank 2 lime juice, 1 iced tea and 1 A&W. Actualli i drank so much not becoz of the chilli but rather, i become very dehydrated after exercising. And it's like i drank 2 cans of 100 plus after the match. so in total 6 drinks in less than 1 hour. Hmmm! Maybe i shd be called Hydroboy! haha!
In the evening, visited FCBC. This American-based Taiwan Worship team was in town. The band is called Stream of Praise. Suppose to meet up with Soo Ping, Claudia and the rest at 7pm outside the entrance. But I haven't been taking bus for such a long time that i forget that evening time is peak hour. Left home at 5.45 but then there was a real long jam from tampines to Bedok. By the time Bus 31 hit Bedok, it was like 6.30 pm. I know i'm goin to be late. Yes and true enough i'm late. Reach there abt 7.10pm. Soo Ping had went in alreadi. Couldn't get him on the phone. Then happened that Xu En was also late. So both of us went in and found Soo Ping. The whole place was alreadi jam packed. Me and Xu En had to sit on the steps. But it was refreshing to hear the band play. And quite excited becoz this is the first time i have seen them face to face. They are kinda like the chinese "Hillsongs". It was pretty grand. There were like 8 singers, 2 keyboardists, 1 guitarist, 1 bassists, 1 drummer and 1 percussionist and also 1 more flutist. I love the flutist the most. It's like when you add a flute into chinese song, it really brings out the flavour. Maybe i shd go pick up a flute or a wind instrument. Dun suggest a recorder to me. After that, got a ride from Xu En's sis to Simei and met up with Daniel to go for dinner. Was like nearly 11pm. A bit late for dinner but i'm real hungry. Haven't eaten. Went to BLK 201 and decide to try at the Malay coffee shop which we had nvr tried. I ordered Nasi Goreng Ikan Bilis while Daniel ordered Mee Soto. Wilfred ordered lamb chop. The nasi was a bit wet but the Mee Soto was splendid. And from the way Wilfred was trying to eat his chop, i was quite certain the lamb was trained in karate.Then had this lime juice. Not too bad. After tat, walked home! Real tired! and very full too. Can't wait for the food to digest. Sleep first! The food can rot in the stomach for all i care. Muahahhaha!
13 Aug (sat)
Woke up pretty late. Abt 11 plus. Kinda woken up by Gary's morning call. Haha! But i can't sleep any longer becoz need to do some stuff. Only went to church at abt 2pm. Usually I'm in church at 12pm on a Saturday. Then there was youth fellowship at 3.30pm. Honestly, i couldn't sit down and enjoy the fellowship. During the time when William was sharing, I had to excuse myself to prepare for my worship practise later in the evening. Haiz! Kinda worried. After the fellowship, started to put up the worship equipment. I actually expected to start at 5.30 and end within an hour. I had a family dinner at 6pm. But den in the end, ended at 7.45. Haiz! Have to excuse myself from the dinner. Then went with Gary to Daniel's house to watch Man U match against Everton. We were at this coffee house waiting for our take-away dinner. There was a TV showing the telecast of the match. Score was nil-nil. Then we left for Dan's house, Van Nisterooy scored. What a waste! haha! Well! Eventually Man U won by 2 goals to nil! After the match, went home.
14 Aug (Sun)
The big day has arrived. Me leading worship! Thkfully everything went pretty smoothly except for certain parts, i'm sure i have either sung out of tune or sung badly. Haha! But wat's new! So after svc, met up with William, Lydia, Charles, Emily, Daniel and Lionel for lunch. By the time lunch was over, it was abt 3pm. Need to go home and change for soccer later. Have invited Xu En to come along. Glad that he could make it. Suppose to meet Daniel on the way but he was not ready. So I went on my own. The drill was like tortourous. I felt like i had played a match after the drill. Haha! Then we had a short match. Was quite happy with my performance. Did some saves and was happy to i had a few chances to rush out and cut out some of the dangers. Most importantly must thk Charles for being the last man. He was really there to help when the danger was there. Match ended 0-0. Daniel was on the opposite side. He did score but was offside. Haha! Nice try! After tat went to Blk 201 to eat Mee SOto. Daniel ordered for me and my one was with extra chilli. SO hot! I drank 2 lime juice, 1 iced tea and 1 A&W. Actualli i drank so much not becoz of the chilli but rather, i become very dehydrated after exercising. And it's like i drank 2 cans of 100 plus after the match. so in total 6 drinks in less than 1 hour. Hmmm! Maybe i shd be called Hydroboy! haha!
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Tired!
Dun know why? But suddenly just feel very physically drained! May have been doing too much thngs for a period of time. Dun feel it initially but as it accumulates, now feeling the weariness. Need to take a break soon.
But been very happy. Fulfilling one of my new year resolution. Lose weight. Muahahaha. Lost 3kg in 5 weeks! Not too bad actualli! Had been doing work out! Doing skipping at least 1200 times a day, sets of weight lifting. In fact, I had kina stopped for 2 weeks becoz a bit busy and also lazy but surprisingly, I did not gain any weight. haha! Now i'm trying to go for runs but i'm just too lazy to bring my body to the park. And running is so boring. Yah yah! Full of excuse. Maybe i'll go for cycling instead. My target: lose 2 kg a month. So far so good. Muahaha! And crunches are very effective! I have been doing it the last 3 weeks and i could see my upper abs appearing. But den it's still being covered by a spare tyre. I guess i can't run away from running. Haha!
But been very happy. Fulfilling one of my new year resolution. Lose weight. Muahahaha. Lost 3kg in 5 weeks! Not too bad actualli! Had been doing work out! Doing skipping at least 1200 times a day, sets of weight lifting. In fact, I had kina stopped for 2 weeks becoz a bit busy and also lazy but surprisingly, I did not gain any weight. haha! Now i'm trying to go for runs but i'm just too lazy to bring my body to the park. And running is so boring. Yah yah! Full of excuse. Maybe i'll go for cycling instead. My target: lose 2 kg a month. So far so good. Muahaha! And crunches are very effective! I have been doing it the last 3 weeks and i could see my upper abs appearing. But den it's still being covered by a spare tyre. I guess i can't run away from running. Haha!
10 July 2005
TOday is a sch holiday! But it doesn't matter to me! It doesn't really matter becoz i dun have sch on wednesday to start with. haha! But honestly, really nothing to do. And i was kina tired. So took a long afternoon nap. And funny lah! This few days have been having very funny and wierd dreams which i can't remember but vividly know tat it's not normal. Haha! Time to really slow down my pace. Doing too much things, too many things in my head. Ai Yoh!!
In the evening, met up with Daniel to go crabbing. Fantastic record! 3 nets, 2 1/2 hours, 8 crabs! I caught 5 out of which 1 drop out of the net when i was retrieving the net. Daniel caught the biggest and yet it's the dirtiest. Full of rubbish on it's shell. At the end, throw all the crab back into the water. Most of them still toddler size. Definitely the season of crabs is nearing. Will come back soon when the crabs are bigger!
In the evening, met up with Daniel to go crabbing. Fantastic record! 3 nets, 2 1/2 hours, 8 crabs! I caught 5 out of which 1 drop out of the net when i was retrieving the net. Daniel caught the biggest and yet it's the dirtiest. Full of rubbish on it's shell. At the end, throw all the crab back into the water. Most of them still toddler size. Definitely the season of crabs is nearing. Will come back soon when the crabs are bigger!
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
One People, One Nation, One Singapore
Praise the Lord! 40 years of prosperity, harmony, peace and growth in Singapore. And even though Singapore is still considered a young nation, I'm sure that Lord has many greater plans for Singapore. Then let's brothers and sisters in Christ come together as one to pray for our nation.
Well! Today woke up and really didn't know wat to do. Didn't feel like watching the holiday shows on the TV. Usually it's those outdated, since 1980's movies or some animations which are like 1 episode out of the billion series. Ai yoh! Watch alreadi also 'xian'. Haha! Went online and den Magdalene say she want to watch firework but dun think her sis will bring her. And the funny thing is she didn't even ask her sis yet. So told her to ask her but den Yvon going watch movie so couldn't bring her along. Wat a pity! But anyway, I'll arrange one more firework watching year end, during New Year. And Yes! Tonight we'll be going down to watch the firework from the Singapore River. The firework will be fired from a water platform in the Singapore River.
Then while online, i was touching up on my song composition. Haha! Yes! Finally finished it off. I had tried composing songs a few years ago. I think i came up with 2 songs but really amateur. I think i chunk it off some where alreadi. So this time round, really put in alot of effort in the tune and the lyrics. Well! I won't say it's going to be fantastic like Hillsongs but i'm still very proud. Hopefully can present it to David Lee and the worship team and let them give their comment! Then after that, I had a tune ringing in my mind and i jotted it down. Haha! Another song coming. This one i'm trying to do a Mandarin one instead. This will be a greater challenge but i'm all geared up for it.
Time flew real fast and it was time to meet up with the rest to go and see firework. Suppose to meet at Tampines MRT at 5.45pm. So I left my house at 5.20pm to take a bus. It was like so long. I waited for 25 min, usually at most 10min. Then i knew i was late. And while the bus is travelling the Tampines Central, the whole place was jam packed with people. This year, Singapore has added 3 other neighbouring town to celebrate the nation's birthday. Every where was filled with red shirts. And the road was moving real slow. By the time i met them, it was like 6.05pm. So pai seh! Haha! Then we took a train down to Raffles Place and we walked towards our destination. The place is like at one end of the Singapore River which is beside the Marina Bay's open field. There were some people alreadi camping at that place. Definitely it's the best place to watch firework! So we waited while we eat and talk rubbish. Finally the firework began. It was beautiful and lovely. You could feel the trembles and the sights were just filling the eyes. But it was not as good as when the first time i saw the fireworks at an even closer distance a couple of years ago. The ground shook and as i was closer to the firework, the fireworks seemed to have filled up the whole sky span and as it falls, it seems like it was going to fall on me. That's was the best. Hopefully New Year, they will fire on ground and not on water. Can't get any closer unless we swim. Haha!
After that we went to Sempang Bedok to eat. I ordered mutton soup and plaster and one chicken muartabak to share. My soup came and was splendid but the plaster didn't come. But the soup was actualli very filling. Thkfully the plaster didn't come. Den somemore still has the muartabak. Woah! After the sumptuous meal, took bus 9 den alighted at Eastpoint and walked home. Took a bath, watch my korean serial and den had a chat with my sis and time was 2am. Cannot tahan. Must sleep!zzzzZZZZ
Well! Today woke up and really didn't know wat to do. Didn't feel like watching the holiday shows on the TV. Usually it's those outdated, since 1980's movies or some animations which are like 1 episode out of the billion series. Ai yoh! Watch alreadi also 'xian'. Haha! Went online and den Magdalene say she want to watch firework but dun think her sis will bring her. And the funny thing is she didn't even ask her sis yet. So told her to ask her but den Yvon going watch movie so couldn't bring her along. Wat a pity! But anyway, I'll arrange one more firework watching year end, during New Year. And Yes! Tonight we'll be going down to watch the firework from the Singapore River. The firework will be fired from a water platform in the Singapore River.
Then while online, i was touching up on my song composition. Haha! Yes! Finally finished it off. I had tried composing songs a few years ago. I think i came up with 2 songs but really amateur. I think i chunk it off some where alreadi. So this time round, really put in alot of effort in the tune and the lyrics. Well! I won't say it's going to be fantastic like Hillsongs but i'm still very proud. Hopefully can present it to David Lee and the worship team and let them give their comment! Then after that, I had a tune ringing in my mind and i jotted it down. Haha! Another song coming. This one i'm trying to do a Mandarin one instead. This will be a greater challenge but i'm all geared up for it.
Time flew real fast and it was time to meet up with the rest to go and see firework. Suppose to meet at Tampines MRT at 5.45pm. So I left my house at 5.20pm to take a bus. It was like so long. I waited for 25 min, usually at most 10min. Then i knew i was late. And while the bus is travelling the Tampines Central, the whole place was jam packed with people. This year, Singapore has added 3 other neighbouring town to celebrate the nation's birthday. Every where was filled with red shirts. And the road was moving real slow. By the time i met them, it was like 6.05pm. So pai seh! Haha! Then we took a train down to Raffles Place and we walked towards our destination. The place is like at one end of the Singapore River which is beside the Marina Bay's open field. There were some people alreadi camping at that place. Definitely it's the best place to watch firework! So we waited while we eat and talk rubbish. Finally the firework began. It was beautiful and lovely. You could feel the trembles and the sights were just filling the eyes. But it was not as good as when the first time i saw the fireworks at an even closer distance a couple of years ago. The ground shook and as i was closer to the firework, the fireworks seemed to have filled up the whole sky span and as it falls, it seems like it was going to fall on me. That's was the best. Hopefully New Year, they will fire on ground and not on water. Can't get any closer unless we swim. Haha!
After that we went to Sempang Bedok to eat. I ordered mutton soup and plaster and one chicken muartabak to share. My soup came and was splendid but the plaster didn't come. But the soup was actualli very filling. Thkfully the plaster didn't come. Den somemore still has the muartabak. Woah! After the sumptuous meal, took bus 9 den alighted at Eastpoint and walked home. Took a bath, watch my korean serial and den had a chat with my sis and time was 2am. Cannot tahan. Must sleep!zzzzZZZZ
Monday, August 08, 2005
Hand Bags? NO! Plastic Bags? NO! It's just my BAGS!
Hmmm! Earlier on i mentioned i got a new bag and that I have a craving for collecting bag. So i decided to show off most of my bags that i'm presently using. Haha!
Ok! THis is the latest bag that i bought. It's a sling bag. Really like it becoz the material is very cushioned and it's big enough to hold most of my things. And the best, it only cost me
18 BUCKS !
And this is the 2nd latest bag. I bought this bag at a Par Sa Ma Lam (night market) in either April or May I was staring at it for 3 days. I was deciding whether to buy or not. So you could see that i actualli dun anyhow buy bag. I do look, compare and take in factors before deciding to buy or not. Haha! Sound like auntie. Guess how much?
20 BUCKS!
Ok! This bag was bought during last year. Maybe in Aug or Sep. It's a High Sierra bag with water carrier. It was something that i always wanted to get but has always been very expensive. Those good one with brand can cost up to 60- 100 bucks. My goodness! Too expensive. So when i saw it, i just couldn't resist it. And I was going to Cambodia during that year end. So it will come in handy. And the price is.....................................
30 Plus
(can't exactly remember how much)
Ok! This is also one of my fav bag. Dun know why but just love it. The colour and the material, i guess. Bought this last year around May at another Par Sa Ma Lam. And bought it with me during my exams. Den i also brought with me for the Church Camp. But sadly, this bag's quality not very good. The water-proof material was not properly sew onto the bag and it was reaped out. Haiz! Still can use lah but if rain, that's it, water will soak thru. Well! Nvr the less, I still love this bag and i kinda retired it at home. It just stay at one corner, holding some of my stuff. This bag cost me
26 BUCKS
These are pouches that i bought once again at Pa Sar Ma Lam. As you can see, i get alot of my bags from Nite Mkt. Becoz i suppose it's cheap. I bought both of it together. Very convenient. Sling on and you are ready to go. Both of them cost
10 BUCKS
each
Ok! From this bag on, it's not in any chronological order. Can't really remember when exactly i bough it. Well! This bag is a gift from my sis. She went to Thailand for a biz trip den she bought it. It's not a fake. She bought it directly from a genuine Adida factory outlet. Not sure how much it costs but remember it's relatively cheap.
It's supposed to be a yellow, sling bag. LOve it! Relatively small and nice to carry around. But the opening a bit small. Couldn't fit thru anything bigger than an A4 size. Have to like squeeze it it. So not very good for bringing to school. But I still love it. Let me see, it cost me less than
20 BUCKS
This is yet another yellow bag. Interest bag! Can sling or be carried in the conventional way. It's a birthday present fr my sis. As you see, my sis loves to give bags. I told you, it's in the blood! WE just love bag. Maybe i shd adopt Bag as my middle name. Well i'm not sure how much it cost!
This is a bag which i had obtained in my army camp. Very spacious but yet small and compactable. Love this alot. And the price is
FREE
Look! This is my working bag or rather briefcase. Love this. It's like a briefcase but the plastic makes it look contemporary. Guess where i got it from! Popular Bookstore. haha! I'm quite surprised i could find a decent bag from Popular. It's like the compartments inside the bag are just perfect for wat i want. And the price is, i think about
16 BUCKS
Well! This is a yellow and dirty pouch. Have been with me for very long. Maybe about 6-8 years. Bought at Bossini. Well! YOu may be wondering that i got so many yellow stuff and would think yellow is my fav color. Well! Guess wat! YOu are wrong. i like yellow but it's not my fav color. My fav color is sky blue. I shall not move away from my main topics. This pouch cost me, (too long to remember, but at that time i was still a poor student so i assumed i would not buy too expensive stuff) around less than
20 Bucks
Well many of you will think that i'm a big spender or even worst, one who waste money on too much bags. But i guess it's fine with me Some people like spend a few hundred on just a bag. I just simply spread out the dollars into more bags,tat's all. ANyway, it's a hobby lah! And also a form of retail theraphy. But i won't encourage pple to buy bag for me as a present. I'm quite seasonal. There are times i'm just not attracted to any bags. I think i still have a few more bags lying around. I'll go and dig them out and put them on display. So until then. Envy me! Muahahaha!
Ok! THis is the latest bag that i bought. It's a sling bag. Really like it becoz the material is very cushioned and it's big enough to hold most of my things. And the best, it only cost me
18 BUCKS !
And this is the 2nd latest bag. I bought this bag at a Par Sa Ma Lam (night market) in either April or May I was staring at it for 3 days. I was deciding whether to buy or not. So you could see that i actualli dun anyhow buy bag. I do look, compare and take in factors before deciding to buy or not. Haha! Sound like auntie. Guess how much?
20 BUCKS!
Ok! This bag was bought during last year. Maybe in Aug or Sep. It's a High Sierra bag with water carrier. It was something that i always wanted to get but has always been very expensive. Those good one with brand can cost up to 60- 100 bucks. My goodness! Too expensive. So when i saw it, i just couldn't resist it. And I was going to Cambodia during that year end. So it will come in handy. And the price is.....................................
30 Plus
(can't exactly remember how much)
Ok! This is also one of my fav bag. Dun know why but just love it. The colour and the material, i guess. Bought this last year around May at another Par Sa Ma Lam. And bought it with me during my exams. Den i also brought with me for the Church Camp. But sadly, this bag's quality not very good. The water-proof material was not properly sew onto the bag and it was reaped out. Haiz! Still can use lah but if rain, that's it, water will soak thru. Well! Nvr the less, I still love this bag and i kinda retired it at home. It just stay at one corner, holding some of my stuff. This bag cost me
26 BUCKS
These are pouches that i bought once again at Pa Sar Ma Lam. As you can see, i get alot of my bags from Nite Mkt. Becoz i suppose it's cheap. I bought both of it together. Very convenient. Sling on and you are ready to go. Both of them cost
10 BUCKS
each
Ok! From this bag on, it's not in any chronological order. Can't really remember when exactly i bough it. Well! This bag is a gift from my sis. She went to Thailand for a biz trip den she bought it. It's not a fake. She bought it directly from a genuine Adida factory outlet. Not sure how much it costs but remember it's relatively cheap.
It's supposed to be a yellow, sling bag. LOve it! Relatively small and nice to carry around. But the opening a bit small. Couldn't fit thru anything bigger than an A4 size. Have to like squeeze it it. So not very good for bringing to school. But I still love it. Let me see, it cost me less than
20 BUCKS
This is yet another yellow bag. Interest bag! Can sling or be carried in the conventional way. It's a birthday present fr my sis. As you see, my sis loves to give bags. I told you, it's in the blood! WE just love bag. Maybe i shd adopt Bag as my middle name. Well i'm not sure how much it cost!
This is a bag which i had obtained in my army camp. Very spacious but yet small and compactable. Love this alot. And the price is
FREE
Look! This is my working bag or rather briefcase. Love this. It's like a briefcase but the plastic makes it look contemporary. Guess where i got it from! Popular Bookstore. haha! I'm quite surprised i could find a decent bag from Popular. It's like the compartments inside the bag are just perfect for wat i want. And the price is, i think about
16 BUCKS
Well! This is a yellow and dirty pouch. Have been with me for very long. Maybe about 6-8 years. Bought at Bossini. Well! YOu may be wondering that i got so many yellow stuff and would think yellow is my fav color. Well! Guess wat! YOu are wrong. i like yellow but it's not my fav color. My fav color is sky blue. I shall not move away from my main topics. This pouch cost me, (too long to remember, but at that time i was still a poor student so i assumed i would not buy too expensive stuff) around less than
20 Bucks
Well many of you will think that i'm a big spender or even worst, one who waste money on too much bags. But i guess it's fine with me Some people like spend a few hundred on just a bag. I just simply spread out the dollars into more bags,tat's all. ANyway, it's a hobby lah! And also a form of retail theraphy. But i won't encourage pple to buy bag for me as a present. I'm quite seasonal. There are times i'm just not attracted to any bags. I think i still have a few more bags lying around. I'll go and dig them out and put them on display. So until then. Envy me! Muahahaha!
7 July 2005
7:30am Suppose to wake up; but too tired Snooze my handphone alarm
7:50am Finally drag myself out of bed; still very tired but no choice
8:00am Left house; Actually beside being tired, i was not feeling too well, dry throat, slight cough, half-dead brain......
8:10am Reached church den just sat at the MPH, stoning.
9:00am Svc started; Maan was leading worship and the projector was giving problem. So had to bring in the spare one.
9:xxam Praise and worship ended; I was feeling worst. So left the hall and went to get myself a cup of coffee. Was really tempted to just find one corner and rest. But after much prompting from the Spirit, I knew that it was better for me to go back to the svc. And guess wat, i really felt so much better at the end of the svc. Thk God I attended the svc.
11:30am Bible class; i didnt' attend becoz i was on duty to count offertory. By the time i finished counting, the bible class was over.
01:10pm My sis needed her laptop to do her work and i had to deliver back home. But i was really not feeling too well. I actually was tempted to just blame my sis becoz she nvr come to church and now i had to SPECIALLY send it back for her. But i knew that was just a selfish way of thinking. But i dun think i could walk back home den back to church in tat hot sun with my sick condition. So thkfully Alice was around and i just tot of borrowing her car and drive home instead. So took her car and drove home. Nearly 'lan ga' a car. Was at this junction turning right and the light had turned to right turning. So the car in front of me went forward and suddenly stop and i had to quickly stop. Dun know wat the driver was thinking. Thkfully i managed to stop in time. After pass the laptop back to my sis, i went back church
1:25pm Then the mission team training was over by then. Met up with Daniel and went to Eastpoint BK to look for the rest of the youths. I didn't know i could use my student card to get the student valued meal in BK. haha! Save money. Anyway after lunch, went back to church
3:xxpm The youths were doing their h/w will i changed my guitar's strings.
6:00pm Had our worship practise for tonight's Cambodia Prayer meeting
6:45pm Went to CGH for our dinner
7:00pm Rush back to church to settle the transparencies for the nite's worship session
7:30pm Started the prayer meeting by Past Edwin, followed by the worship
8:00pm Rev Mok open up with a time of God's word den followed by prayer request, and we prayed
9:30pm Ended the meeting; wanted to actually talk with Rev Mok or Mee Hwa on some things but didn't had the chance. Was just busying clearing the Chapel. Nvm. I'm sure there will be other times.
10:00pm Went home and can't remember wat i did
7:50am Finally drag myself out of bed; still very tired but no choice
8:00am Left house; Actually beside being tired, i was not feeling too well, dry throat, slight cough, half-dead brain......
8:10am Reached church den just sat at the MPH, stoning.
9:00am Svc started; Maan was leading worship and the projector was giving problem. So had to bring in the spare one.
9:xxam Praise and worship ended; I was feeling worst. So left the hall and went to get myself a cup of coffee. Was really tempted to just find one corner and rest. But after much prompting from the Spirit, I knew that it was better for me to go back to the svc. And guess wat, i really felt so much better at the end of the svc. Thk God I attended the svc.
11:30am Bible class; i didnt' attend becoz i was on duty to count offertory. By the time i finished counting, the bible class was over.
01:10pm My sis needed her laptop to do her work and i had to deliver back home. But i was really not feeling too well. I actually was tempted to just blame my sis becoz she nvr come to church and now i had to SPECIALLY send it back for her. But i knew that was just a selfish way of thinking. But i dun think i could walk back home den back to church in tat hot sun with my sick condition. So thkfully Alice was around and i just tot of borrowing her car and drive home instead. So took her car and drove home. Nearly 'lan ga' a car. Was at this junction turning right and the light had turned to right turning. So the car in front of me went forward and suddenly stop and i had to quickly stop. Dun know wat the driver was thinking. Thkfully i managed to stop in time. After pass the laptop back to my sis, i went back church
1:25pm Then the mission team training was over by then. Met up with Daniel and went to Eastpoint BK to look for the rest of the youths. I didn't know i could use my student card to get the student valued meal in BK. haha! Save money. Anyway after lunch, went back to church
3:xxpm The youths were doing their h/w will i changed my guitar's strings.
6:00pm Had our worship practise for tonight's Cambodia Prayer meeting
6:45pm Went to CGH for our dinner
7:00pm Rush back to church to settle the transparencies for the nite's worship session
7:30pm Started the prayer meeting by Past Edwin, followed by the worship
8:00pm Rev Mok open up with a time of God's word den followed by prayer request, and we prayed
9:30pm Ended the meeting; wanted to actually talk with Rev Mok or Mee Hwa on some things but didn't had the chance. Was just busying clearing the Chapel. Nvm. I'm sure there will be other times.
10:00pm Went home and can't remember wat i did
Saturday, August 06, 2005
4 - 6 July 2005 ( Thursday - Saturday)
4 July 2005 (THURSDAY)
3 July - 11pm
I started to make my paper roses for the Dinner under the Stars. It's so exciting. I just can't wait for that nite. The guys suppose to be a gentleman and go to bring a girl to their seat. And at the same time, they will present the rosse to them as an expresesion of friendship. Intending to make light yellow for all the youths. There's a significance of the rose. Light yellow is actually the mixture of yellow and white. Yellow stands for Friendship and White stands for purity. And the rose is paper which means it will not wither and it represents eternal. So the Frendship between them will be one that is pure in God's eyes and one that is for eternal. Isn't this sweet. Hmmm! I'm proud of my masterpieces and i thank God for this gift He has given to me. Then the married couple, i make red roses for the husband to give to their wife. Well, the colour speaks for itself. Need no explanation. By the time I'm done, it's like about nearly 2am.
4 July - XXpm
Can't really remember wat time i woke up. Should be quite late. But I did manage to wake up in time to catch the repeat of my present favourite korean serial, Da4 Chang2 Jing2 at 10.30am. Suppose to go down to Marina South to check out the firework display area. Going down over there to watch fireworks during National Day. It's really eye-opener becoz you are like 1 km away fr the firing area. And the fireworks seem like they are filling up the whole sky and it's really beautiful. So trying to bring some of the youths to have a look. But then, the sky was getting dark, so couldn't go. Guess have to wait for another day to go down and check up the place. If i didn't remember wrongly, i dropped by church to have lunch with Lydia, Eleanor, Li Boey and Pastor Ngiam Koy. Then there was this new dish. - shelled seafood called 'joot joot' becoz you need to suck the meat out fr the shell and you make that sound while sucking. Then when i was paying, i got a shock. That "joot joot" cost 2 bucks. Wow! SO expensive. Anyway it's my first time trying. So actually, had quite a difficult time getting the meat out and honestly, i dun think i want to make such a loud 'joot joot' sound in the midst of the crowd. Haha! Finally after a long and hard fight, I was the victorious one. Though I suffered much damaged to my dignity. The rest was like laughing at me. But never the less, I know I had done a great job. My smile was one with pride and esctasy. Yah! Yah! Crap. After lunch, I had the final number for the Dinner under the Stars. Realise not enough roses, so got to make more this evening. So went home, den at night, make the remaining roses. Yawn! So tired!
5 July 2005 (FRIDAY)
Woke up a bit earlier. Had school in the afternoon. After school, I went to Singapore Plaza to do some of my shopping. Needed to buy some scented rose petals to scent my paper roses. Den also need to buy some ribbons to tie up the guys gifts. Anyway the guys gifts are a blue frenship band. Really thk God for this. Usually the band cost 1.95 per ring but when i went to check it out, it was on offer. Buy 1 get 1 free. Really good deal. So after the purchase, went to Kallang MRT to meet the youths. GOing for Festival of Praise. Suppose to meet 5.45pm but as usual some are late. I think we left at abt 6pm, den queue up for the Chartered bus. When we reach Indoor stadium, it was like packed and this time, the whole situation was different from last year. Very organised and systematic. Only 2 gates were opened. The North and South gate. We tried to get in thru the North Gate. By the time we got in, we only managed to get the South Gate seats which is like we are admiring people's bums. I just dun get it, they shd have opened the gallery seats but they didn't. End up late-comers got a better seat than us. So frustrating! haha! This year, FOP invited Hillsongs and Delirious. So both band took turn to lead. Well! I haven't been keeping in touch with Hillsongs so most of the songs are relatively new to me. Making it worst, was that the screen was facing indirectly at us which means everything was mirror imaged. Cant' read the lyrics. Then Delirious is too heavy for me. The music was blastin at my ears. Just couldn't worship. Tried shutting them out. Work initially but after a while, it becomes too heavy for the head. Nearing to the end, I left early with Ding Yi. BOth of us couldn't take it. Den took this chance to fellowship a bit with him. Finally when FOP is over, met the rest and walk back to Kallang MRT to take the train. So finally reached home was like real late. So tired.
6 July 2005 (SATURDAY)
Woke up! Did some rearrrangement for this evening dinner. Then late morning went over to Eastpoint to get some of my materials, den drop by church to print some stuff and went home.Then was like nearly 2 plus. So did up last minute touches to my flowers and gifts. Then finally changed into my shirt and pants. The guys say they wanted to wear tie. I was like erh over my dead body. No way. I rather go in a suit. Haha. Did i mention this somewhere before? SOund very familiar. Den went down with my 'ba rang ba rang' and took a cab. Then went to pick up Claudia and Li Boey. By the time we reached Novena Square, it was like nearly 6pm. Lydia and some of the youths were still doing last min decorating of the dining area. So when every thing was up, more or less everybody had arrived. Then every one mingle around and we had a cocktail reception. Cool! Very formal ocassion. Then we started off with games led by Khim. Didn't know wat they were playing. I was doing some thing eles. Then after tat was worship. And after tat was the highlight of the day. The guys were supposed to go and pick up the girls and bring them to their seats. And they were suppose to present a rose to them. I told the married men to lead by example. So Robert, William and Zhi Yang went first to their partner. Then the rest of the guys were all very shy shy. All hesistating. HAHA! I really found it funny. But eventually, all the guys swallowed their pride and went forward to pick up their partner. Well! Done Gentlemen! Oh yah! Another thing abt the girls. They all look superly wonderful and beautiful. All came in dress. I'm really like jaws dropped to my knee and tongue was rolling onto the floor. Honestly, they should really wear skirt or dress more frequently. It's like dress or skirt is really an invention by God for ladies so as to really bring out the true beauty in them. So gracious and attractive. Hmmm! I'm sure some of you are already like saying Wait long long. So after being seated, the guys were suppose to fetch erh or rather help to serve the girls. And i'm sure all the guys did a pretty good job. And yes! I did a pretty good job too. So along the way, there were some table games. Then i went around to check how's the 'situation' like in every table. Some table were a bit on the quiet side while there are some that was talking like none stop. My worst mistake was to put Jerome, Si Yuan, Natanielle and Samantha in one table. They were the cheekiest of the lot. I was being teased by them. Can't believe it. A 24 yr old guy being bullied by a bunch of sec 1 and 2 kids. Hmmm! Life is just so hard now-a-days. Haha! So nearing the end of the dinner, the girls were suppose to present the frenship band to the guys as an expression of thanking the guys for taking care of them for that night. And Claudia was like very splendid. She did up a small booklet for everyone which talks about frendship and etc things and was like really beautiful. Every card is custom made for that individual. It bears the name and the foto of the person. Really a lot of hard work for her. haha! Me feel like i didn't do much for the dinner. Then at the end of the dinner, guess wat? Yes! Clear rubbish lorh. I hope everyone had enjoyed themselves. One lessson I learnt though from this dinner. Yes we may come dress up for the ocassion but i personally still feel the character of one is the most important. A gentleman or a lady is not seen in how or wat he or she dresses in. It's in the character. Yes the dress code does make one look different but it's the heart that the Lord sees. Then was speculating whether to take cab or mrt but den take mrt lah since have to escort the youths back. Really a long and tired day. But really very exciting.Praise the Lord for this ocassion becoz He provided for that wonderful place and also that night's weather was really good. (Though i still melted and felt a bit unpresentable lah! Imagine my partner has to keep seeing me wiping my sweat off myself. Haha!)
3 July - 11pm
I started to make my paper roses for the Dinner under the Stars. It's so exciting. I just can't wait for that nite. The guys suppose to be a gentleman and go to bring a girl to their seat. And at the same time, they will present the rosse to them as an expresesion of friendship. Intending to make light yellow for all the youths. There's a significance of the rose. Light yellow is actually the mixture of yellow and white. Yellow stands for Friendship and White stands for purity. And the rose is paper which means it will not wither and it represents eternal. So the Frendship between them will be one that is pure in God's eyes and one that is for eternal. Isn't this sweet. Hmmm! I'm proud of my masterpieces and i thank God for this gift He has given to me. Then the married couple, i make red roses for the husband to give to their wife. Well, the colour speaks for itself. Need no explanation. By the time I'm done, it's like about nearly 2am.
4 July - XXpm
Can't really remember wat time i woke up. Should be quite late. But I did manage to wake up in time to catch the repeat of my present favourite korean serial, Da4 Chang2 Jing2 at 10.30am. Suppose to go down to Marina South to check out the firework display area. Going down over there to watch fireworks during National Day. It's really eye-opener becoz you are like 1 km away fr the firing area. And the fireworks seem like they are filling up the whole sky and it's really beautiful. So trying to bring some of the youths to have a look. But then, the sky was getting dark, so couldn't go. Guess have to wait for another day to go down and check up the place. If i didn't remember wrongly, i dropped by church to have lunch with Lydia, Eleanor, Li Boey and Pastor Ngiam Koy. Then there was this new dish. - shelled seafood called 'joot joot' becoz you need to suck the meat out fr the shell and you make that sound while sucking. Then when i was paying, i got a shock. That "joot joot" cost 2 bucks. Wow! SO expensive. Anyway it's my first time trying. So actually, had quite a difficult time getting the meat out and honestly, i dun think i want to make such a loud 'joot joot' sound in the midst of the crowd. Haha! Finally after a long and hard fight, I was the victorious one. Though I suffered much damaged to my dignity. The rest was like laughing at me. But never the less, I know I had done a great job. My smile was one with pride and esctasy. Yah! Yah! Crap. After lunch, I had the final number for the Dinner under the Stars. Realise not enough roses, so got to make more this evening. So went home, den at night, make the remaining roses. Yawn! So tired!
5 July 2005 (FRIDAY)
Woke up a bit earlier. Had school in the afternoon. After school, I went to Singapore Plaza to do some of my shopping. Needed to buy some scented rose petals to scent my paper roses. Den also need to buy some ribbons to tie up the guys gifts. Anyway the guys gifts are a blue frenship band. Really thk God for this. Usually the band cost 1.95 per ring but when i went to check it out, it was on offer. Buy 1 get 1 free. Really good deal. So after the purchase, went to Kallang MRT to meet the youths. GOing for Festival of Praise. Suppose to meet 5.45pm but as usual some are late. I think we left at abt 6pm, den queue up for the Chartered bus. When we reach Indoor stadium, it was like packed and this time, the whole situation was different from last year. Very organised and systematic. Only 2 gates were opened. The North and South gate. We tried to get in thru the North Gate. By the time we got in, we only managed to get the South Gate seats which is like we are admiring people's bums. I just dun get it, they shd have opened the gallery seats but they didn't. End up late-comers got a better seat than us. So frustrating! haha! This year, FOP invited Hillsongs and Delirious. So both band took turn to lead. Well! I haven't been keeping in touch with Hillsongs so most of the songs are relatively new to me. Making it worst, was that the screen was facing indirectly at us which means everything was mirror imaged. Cant' read the lyrics. Then Delirious is too heavy for me. The music was blastin at my ears. Just couldn't worship. Tried shutting them out. Work initially but after a while, it becomes too heavy for the head. Nearing to the end, I left early with Ding Yi. BOth of us couldn't take it. Den took this chance to fellowship a bit with him. Finally when FOP is over, met the rest and walk back to Kallang MRT to take the train. So finally reached home was like real late. So tired.
6 July 2005 (SATURDAY)
Woke up! Did some rearrrangement for this evening dinner. Then late morning went over to Eastpoint to get some of my materials, den drop by church to print some stuff and went home.Then was like nearly 2 plus. So did up last minute touches to my flowers and gifts. Then finally changed into my shirt and pants. The guys say they wanted to wear tie. I was like erh over my dead body. No way. I rather go in a suit. Haha. Did i mention this somewhere before? SOund very familiar. Den went down with my 'ba rang ba rang' and took a cab. Then went to pick up Claudia and Li Boey. By the time we reached Novena Square, it was like nearly 6pm. Lydia and some of the youths were still doing last min decorating of the dining area. So when every thing was up, more or less everybody had arrived. Then every one mingle around and we had a cocktail reception. Cool! Very formal ocassion. Then we started off with games led by Khim. Didn't know wat they were playing. I was doing some thing eles. Then after tat was worship. And after tat was the highlight of the day. The guys were supposed to go and pick up the girls and bring them to their seats. And they were suppose to present a rose to them. I told the married men to lead by example. So Robert, William and Zhi Yang went first to their partner. Then the rest of the guys were all very shy shy. All hesistating. HAHA! I really found it funny. But eventually, all the guys swallowed their pride and went forward to pick up their partner. Well! Done Gentlemen! Oh yah! Another thing abt the girls. They all look superly wonderful and beautiful. All came in dress. I'm really like jaws dropped to my knee and tongue was rolling onto the floor. Honestly, they should really wear skirt or dress more frequently. It's like dress or skirt is really an invention by God for ladies so as to really bring out the true beauty in them. So gracious and attractive. Hmmm! I'm sure some of you are already like saying Wait long long. So after being seated, the guys were suppose to fetch erh or rather help to serve the girls. And i'm sure all the guys did a pretty good job. And yes! I did a pretty good job too. So along the way, there were some table games. Then i went around to check how's the 'situation' like in every table. Some table were a bit on the quiet side while there are some that was talking like none stop. My worst mistake was to put Jerome, Si Yuan, Natanielle and Samantha in one table. They were the cheekiest of the lot. I was being teased by them. Can't believe it. A 24 yr old guy being bullied by a bunch of sec 1 and 2 kids. Hmmm! Life is just so hard now-a-days. Haha! So nearing the end of the dinner, the girls were suppose to present the frenship band to the guys as an expression of thanking the guys for taking care of them for that night. And Claudia was like very splendid. She did up a small booklet for everyone which talks about frendship and etc things and was like really beautiful. Every card is custom made for that individual. It bears the name and the foto of the person. Really a lot of hard work for her. haha! Me feel like i didn't do much for the dinner. Then at the end of the dinner, guess wat? Yes! Clear rubbish lorh. I hope everyone had enjoyed themselves. One lessson I learnt though from this dinner. Yes we may come dress up for the ocassion but i personally still feel the character of one is the most important. A gentleman or a lady is not seen in how or wat he or she dresses in. It's in the character. Yes the dress code does make one look different but it's the heart that the Lord sees. Then was speculating whether to take cab or mrt but den take mrt lah since have to escort the youths back. Really a long and tired day. But really very exciting.Praise the Lord for this ocassion becoz He provided for that wonderful place and also that night's weather was really good. (Though i still melted and felt a bit unpresentable lah! Imagine my partner has to keep seeing me wiping my sweat off myself. Haha!)
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
3 August (Wednesday)
Today no school. Suppose to go to Changkat Changi Secondary School for my volunteer work but today the kids are not in school. They all having Camp. But I still went over to talk to the teacher in charge. Need to settle some stuff with him.
So after that, I left for Tampines to do some shopping. I went to Tampines Mall. The first shop I visited was a bag shop. HAH? BAG SHOP? Yes! I'm a bag collector by the way. Realised that it's in the gene. My sis collects handbag, i collect school and sports bags. Haha! But I usually dun buy too expensive bag. I usually dun spend more than 30 dollar for a bag. So today spotted a Vertical bag which i thought was nice and lovely and after discount cost only 18 bucks. So without much hesistation, I paid for the bag. Muahahaha. Retail theraphy.
After that, I went to get some stuff for the preparation of this coming Dinner under the Stars. So exciting. This is a dinner arranged by the Youth Ministry, when the youths will come together not just for a meal but also a time to teach them on dinner etiquette. Then all of them suppose to dress up casual smart. I heard the guys going to wear Shirt and tie. And the girls also talking abt wearing skirt. If you wonder what so great abt girls wearing skirt, well, in our context our girls hardly wear skirt except for in school. I'm sure the girls are going to look fantastic in skirts. And the guys are going to look charming in their shirt and tie. Hehe! Over my dead body if i have to wear a tie. I always find myself look funny in a tie. I rather come in a suit.
So after purchasing for the necessary stuff, I went to GV and bought a ticket for a 2pm show, Little Brother. Korean movie. Charles and Emily highly recommended it. So I thought must be a good movie. Good is an understatement. It's beautiful and touching! Hardly can find movies that is so real and so close to one's heart. It talks abt this 2 brothers. The older brother is diagnosed with brain tumour. The younger brother is still very young and mischevious so initially he could not really relate and behave to this situation. Den the movie progressed in coaster ride manner. One moment is so sad den next something good happen, den next the mood depressed den next there's hope and it goes on for a few scenes until the final scene, just couldn't hold the emotions anymore. You will just automatically go into tears. Thkfully the hall was not filled. Only a handful of people. Even then i was trying to control my crying sound. Haha! I love foreign movies. The acting is so good. Their body language is so strong and emotional. It's like even before i read finish the subtitle, from their expression you could alreadi feel the whole atmosphere. Beautiful! Highly recommended! (But if you are those who only goes for Arnold's, Stallone's high action movie, give this a miss)
So after the movie, i went home.
So after that, I left for Tampines to do some shopping. I went to Tampines Mall. The first shop I visited was a bag shop. HAH? BAG SHOP? Yes! I'm a bag collector by the way. Realised that it's in the gene. My sis collects handbag, i collect school and sports bags. Haha! But I usually dun buy too expensive bag. I usually dun spend more than 30 dollar for a bag. So today spotted a Vertical bag which i thought was nice and lovely and after discount cost only 18 bucks. So without much hesistation, I paid for the bag. Muahahaha. Retail theraphy.
After that, I went to get some stuff for the preparation of this coming Dinner under the Stars. So exciting. This is a dinner arranged by the Youth Ministry, when the youths will come together not just for a meal but also a time to teach them on dinner etiquette. Then all of them suppose to dress up casual smart. I heard the guys going to wear Shirt and tie. And the girls also talking abt wearing skirt. If you wonder what so great abt girls wearing skirt, well, in our context our girls hardly wear skirt except for in school. I'm sure the girls are going to look fantastic in skirts. And the guys are going to look charming in their shirt and tie. Hehe! Over my dead body if i have to wear a tie. I always find myself look funny in a tie. I rather come in a suit.
So after purchasing for the necessary stuff, I went to GV and bought a ticket for a 2pm show, Little Brother. Korean movie. Charles and Emily highly recommended it. So I thought must be a good movie. Good is an understatement. It's beautiful and touching! Hardly can find movies that is so real and so close to one's heart. It talks abt this 2 brothers. The older brother is diagnosed with brain tumour. The younger brother is still very young and mischevious so initially he could not really relate and behave to this situation. Den the movie progressed in coaster ride manner. One moment is so sad den next something good happen, den next the mood depressed den next there's hope and it goes on for a few scenes until the final scene, just couldn't hold the emotions anymore. You will just automatically go into tears. Thkfully the hall was not filled. Only a handful of people. Even then i was trying to control my crying sound. Haha! I love foreign movies. The acting is so good. Their body language is so strong and emotional. It's like even before i read finish the subtitle, from their expression you could alreadi feel the whole atmosphere. Beautiful! Highly recommended! (But if you are those who only goes for Arnold's, Stallone's high action movie, give this a miss)
So after the movie, i went home.
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Hmmm
Oh my! I haven't been bloggin for like erh a while. Time to do some catching up. And yes, my daily scripture verse has been overdue since last Tuesday. Well! I will fill in the missing days. Soon enough! Or maybe I'll just from a new day. Haha.
Saturday (30 July)
Well! Last Saturday (30 July) was quite eventful. Afternoon had our youth fellowship. Haha! I was leading worship and I did a session on Silent Worship or rather this is the 2nd time i'm doing it. (i titled it Return of the Silence of the worship). I did something similar 3 weeks ago. I played some Christians songs and i told them to remain silent and to either write out love letters, poems to God or draw something that symbolises God or scripture verse that God is speaking to them . Basically just to keep them thinking about God. Den this time, i was goin to try something new. Yes! I will still require them to be silent and all i need them to do is to sing with their heart and medidate upon the lyrics. I guess there are many a times, when our lips just dun want to worship God whether if it's rebellious or tired, we know our hearts want to worship God. And when we truly worship God with our heart, we really can encounter His presence. It really makes a lot of sense to the song "The heart of worship". "When the music fades, all is stripped and i simply come." But many people questioned me if i'm just taking a short way out of leading a proper worship session. Haha! Honestly, i dun find it in any way shortcut. In fact i find it quite hard since it's something new. What happen if people got too bored and walk out of the worship session. Hmmm. But thk God it work out fine.
After tat we broke into the boys and girls group. This is our 4th session for the series of For Men/For Women. So Charles first ask us wat do we look for in our future partner. (The girls did tat in the opening week and that one of which they say is tat the guy must be less smart and rich) So the guys pointed out that the girl must be stupid, rich and pretty. Sweet revenge! We had a good laugh but den the guys were serious and they did list out certain criterias that are worthed thinking abt. Then after that Charles referred us to a scripture chapter that talks abt what a Godly wife shd be. Hmmm. Am i suppose to make my way to Venus to try my luck? Haha! OPSS! Offended some people! Well it may sound hard but it's not impossible. Just got to trust in God to provide the right one at the right time.
After that, i went for my worship practise. Wanted to teach a new song, "Now that You are near" by Hillsongs. Hmmm. Quite annoyed with myself. I am just a beatless and rhythmless person. I just can't enter on time at some part of the songs. But after much encouragement from my team members, we manage to run thru the songs.
Den tat evening suppose to meet up with some of my Secondary Sch classmates for a birthday celebration. But worship practise ened a bit too late. So when i called them, they were going off soon and my presences is not required. Hmmm. So sad. So end up meeting the rest of the youths who were eating at Eastpoint Food Court. Then we discussed abt meeting for Festival of Praise on this coming Friday. Then after dinner, talked a bit more den went home.
Sunday (31 July)
Woke up early den suppose to start worship pract at 8am but onli manage to start at 8.30am. Ended up being very panicky. Have to try to calm myself down. But i guess nothing unusual lah. Always like tat one. But now better at managing this feelings. Well did my best at the worship but something happen and really kinda annoyed (with myself lah) and kinda of make me lose my confidence. Hmmm. Somehow i felt like i was reverting to my old self - low self esteem and always running away fr confrontations. But i told myself i just have to manage my feelings. So things got a bit better. After church, met with William, Lydia, Charles, Emily, Danile, Wilfred, Lionel, Xin Ling, Yvonne for lunch at Hola. Talk a lot abt Mission Trip.
After tat went home, changed and prepared for evening soccer match. Met Daniel and went down together. We eventually won the match 4-2. Darren finishing his hat-trick with ease and Marcus adding one from a far range into the top corner. Then Jason was playing as keeper. Well! I would rate him a not too bad job. Hmmm. But he got to learn how to save shots using his HANDS and not his legs. I nearly vomitted blood everytime a shot is taken at him. Haha! After the official match, we had a 2nd round. I played as keeper and den was the first to let in the first goal. Den Colin equalised with a trapping from a cross and den tapping the ball pass the keeper with style. And tat's the final whistle. After tat , took a ride home from Kenny.
Oh yah! Just remember something, Have been sneezing quite frequently for the last few days. I dun usually sneeze that frequently. Hmmm. Must be either someone is thinking of me or CURSING me like mad. Haha! I think it's the latter.
Monday (1 Aug)
Went to sch today. Was alighting from Dolby Ghaut MRT den notice this bride and groom taking wedding fotos in the station. So interesting. It's like they are in their happy world while the backgrounds are surrounded by rushing people. Hmmm. Maybe I'll take my wedding fotos at the graveyard. Haha! Till death do we part! Muahahahahha.
Saturday (30 July)
Well! Last Saturday (30 July) was quite eventful. Afternoon had our youth fellowship. Haha! I was leading worship and I did a session on Silent Worship or rather this is the 2nd time i'm doing it. (i titled it Return of the Silence of the worship). I did something similar 3 weeks ago. I played some Christians songs and i told them to remain silent and to either write out love letters, poems to God or draw something that symbolises God or scripture verse that God is speaking to them . Basically just to keep them thinking about God. Den this time, i was goin to try something new. Yes! I will still require them to be silent and all i need them to do is to sing with their heart and medidate upon the lyrics. I guess there are many a times, when our lips just dun want to worship God whether if it's rebellious or tired, we know our hearts want to worship God. And when we truly worship God with our heart, we really can encounter His presence. It really makes a lot of sense to the song "The heart of worship". "When the music fades, all is stripped and i simply come." But many people questioned me if i'm just taking a short way out of leading a proper worship session. Haha! Honestly, i dun find it in any way shortcut. In fact i find it quite hard since it's something new. What happen if people got too bored and walk out of the worship session. Hmmm. But thk God it work out fine.
After tat we broke into the boys and girls group. This is our 4th session for the series of For Men/For Women. So Charles first ask us wat do we look for in our future partner. (The girls did tat in the opening week and that one of which they say is tat the guy must be less smart and rich) So the guys pointed out that the girl must be stupid, rich and pretty. Sweet revenge! We had a good laugh but den the guys were serious and they did list out certain criterias that are worthed thinking abt. Then after that Charles referred us to a scripture chapter that talks abt what a Godly wife shd be. Hmmm. Am i suppose to make my way to Venus to try my luck? Haha! OPSS! Offended some people! Well it may sound hard but it's not impossible. Just got to trust in God to provide the right one at the right time.
After that, i went for my worship practise. Wanted to teach a new song, "Now that You are near" by Hillsongs. Hmmm. Quite annoyed with myself. I am just a beatless and rhythmless person. I just can't enter on time at some part of the songs. But after much encouragement from my team members, we manage to run thru the songs.
Den tat evening suppose to meet up with some of my Secondary Sch classmates for a birthday celebration. But worship practise ened a bit too late. So when i called them, they were going off soon and my presences is not required. Hmmm. So sad. So end up meeting the rest of the youths who were eating at Eastpoint Food Court. Then we discussed abt meeting for Festival of Praise on this coming Friday. Then after dinner, talked a bit more den went home.
Sunday (31 July)
Woke up early den suppose to start worship pract at 8am but onli manage to start at 8.30am. Ended up being very panicky. Have to try to calm myself down. But i guess nothing unusual lah. Always like tat one. But now better at managing this feelings. Well did my best at the worship but something happen and really kinda annoyed (with myself lah) and kinda of make me lose my confidence. Hmmm. Somehow i felt like i was reverting to my old self - low self esteem and always running away fr confrontations. But i told myself i just have to manage my feelings. So things got a bit better. After church, met with William, Lydia, Charles, Emily, Danile, Wilfred, Lionel, Xin Ling, Yvonne for lunch at Hola. Talk a lot abt Mission Trip.
After tat went home, changed and prepared for evening soccer match. Met Daniel and went down together. We eventually won the match 4-2. Darren finishing his hat-trick with ease and Marcus adding one from a far range into the top corner. Then Jason was playing as keeper. Well! I would rate him a not too bad job. Hmmm. But he got to learn how to save shots using his HANDS and not his legs. I nearly vomitted blood everytime a shot is taken at him. Haha! After the official match, we had a 2nd round. I played as keeper and den was the first to let in the first goal. Den Colin equalised with a trapping from a cross and den tapping the ball pass the keeper with style. And tat's the final whistle. After tat , took a ride home from Kenny.
Oh yah! Just remember something, Have been sneezing quite frequently for the last few days. I dun usually sneeze that frequently. Hmmm. Must be either someone is thinking of me or CURSING me like mad. Haha! I think it's the latter.
Monday (1 Aug)
Went to sch today. Was alighting from Dolby Ghaut MRT den notice this bride and groom taking wedding fotos in the station. So interesting. It's like they are in their happy world while the backgrounds are surrounded by rushing people. Hmmm. Maybe I'll take my wedding fotos at the graveyard. Haha! Till death do we part! Muahahahahha.
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Loneliness - A Curse or is there something more to it
I happened to 'bump' into this website and somehow it caught my attention. The content inevitably spoke into a part of me and I really took some time to think about it. Here are some of the things I have cut-and-paste from the article:
(original website: http://www.actsweb.org/daily.php?id=409)
"Ron Clarke of Tasmania shared how "one of England's great poets, Rupert Brooke, who died in 1915, wrote the following note: 'I felt a trifle lonely before I left Liverpool; everybody seemed to have people to see them off. So I went back on shore and found a dirty little boy who was unoccupied, and said his name was William. 'Will you wave to me if I give you sixpence, William?' I said. 'Why, yes,' said William. So I gave him sixpence and went on board. When the time came he leaned over the railing on the landing stage and waved. So I got my six-pennyworth and my farewell—thanks to William.'"
"How very sad. Karen and Richard Carpenter in one of their popular songs some time ago sang with deep meaning, "Loneliness, it's such a sad affair … and I can hardly wait to be with you again…." How true these words were for Karen who starved herself to death because of her own loneliness and the feeling of not being loved. Being popular and in the limelight can never compensate for the need for close, loving relationships. I believe it was Janis Joplin, another popular vocalist, who said that the only time she felt okay was when she was on stage. The rest of the time she suffered from deep loneliness. She, too, took her own life with an overdose of Heroin in 1970. Even though "her career lasted only a few years, she has been hailed as the greatest white female blues singer who ever lived."
"The fact is we were created for relationships and while it may not be the most desirable, we can live without romantic love, but we cannot live healthily without close, loving relationships. Within the Holy Trinity God is in relationship, and one of the first things Jesus did when he commenced his ministry was to choose the twelve disciples "that might be with him." And while he never married, he certainly had close friendships with Mary and Martha as well as with their brother, Lazarus. And if Jesus needed close friends, how much more do we? "To be, is to be in relationship."
I guess there are times when we do feel that loneliness, as if no one is there, no one understands you, no one cares for you, you are nobody. I feel that too! But i choose not to believe because that's what Satan wants you to believe. I'm not saying that we should deny our feeling of being lonely but rather we should not be so deep into feeling lonely that we shut ourselves from the world. Satan wants to shut you from other people so that you will have no ways to receive help from others and slowly, you will be disillusioned and before you know it, you are gone! Don't just sit there and cry over our sorrows but stand up, face it and learn to deal with it.
And another lesson I learn is that when we have no one close with us, we feel intense loneliness, misery, sorrow, ..... (fill in your own blank). If i would take a step further, how much more pain, sorrow,... will we feel if we are alone without God. God has created us so that we can have a relationship with Him. Even before we were created, God has always believe in relationship. He Himself existed as 3, the Trinity. 1 is alone, 2 is a couple and 3 is a crowd. He had always wanted to relate to one another and we created in His image will desire to be in a relationship. And most importantly, be in an intimate relationship with God.
(taken from: http://godonline.co.za/Article833.html)
"We’ve all experienced some form of loneliness, but there are some who experience such deep loneliness that it feels as if it has permeated the heart and soul. You are not alone! Your Father knows you completely and understands your loneliness better than anyone else- AND – there is absolutely nothing you can hide from Him!
He created you and He loves you more than human understanding. Grasp that with your whole being and know that He is with you always!"
And here something I believe it's a hope for us. Our Father knows how we feel and He definitely can sympahtise with us. He definitely has not abandoned nor forsaken us. He is always with us, ALWAYS!
After reading all these and you want to make a differnce, here's some help:
(taken from:
http://www.backtothebible.org/
lifeissues/relationships/what_you_can_do_loneliness.htm)
"God can use the pain of loneliness to move you into a deeper relationship with Himself and others, as an opportunity to learn, grow, deepen, develop and mature. What Satan has designed for evil, God can use for good. We can become more than conquerors (Rom. 8:37). But where do we start?
First, seek fellowship with God. Thank Him and praise Him for His person, His promises and His lovingkindness. That's what David did in Psalm 142. Pour out your heart to Him in prayer. Share your concerns, hurts, fears, frustrations and discouragements.
Second, notice what you are telling yourself about your loneliness. On a sheet of paper, complete the phrase "I am lonely because . . ." ten times. Are you blaming yourself, God, other people, fate or circumstances? These may be excuses to keep you from trusting God and risking growth. On the back of that paper, write ten specific promises from God's Word regarding His love and His plans and provisions for you.
Third, develop some creative options. What are the possibilities? Thank God that you don't have to suffer from chronic loneliness. Take another sheet of paper and complete the phrase "With God's help I can. . ." ten times. What haven't you tried? What have you tried that you can try again? Talk to others who have overcome loneliness and find out what worked for them. "
"Most lonely people have inadequate communication skills, which make reaching out even more threatening. A valuable fourth step for lonely people is to work on increasing your communication skills. John Powell, in his book Why Am I Afraid to Tell You Who I Am? lists five levels of communication.
Level 1: Circle Conversation. Small talk is safe because there is no real sharing of ourselves.
Level 2: Reporting the Facts About Others. This is also fairly safe for lonely people. There is little risk involved in reporting the ideas of other people. Approximately 90 percent of the communication of those who suffer from chronic loneliness takes place at Level 1 or Level 2.
Level 3: Sharing My Ideas and Judgments. Here we begin to take some risk. As I tell you some of my opinions, I will be watching you carefully to see your reaction. If you respond favorably, then we can probably go to the next level. If not, then I will play it safe and stay at Level I or 2.
Level 4: Sharing My Feelings. When we share our feelings, we tell another person a lot about us. Because of the fear of rejection and failure, sharing feelings can be risky. But it provides a unique opportunity for growth. If we don't take the risk and share, we are guaranteed failure.
Level 5: Peak Communication. This involves complete commitment and trust. We know we are safe, so there is no need to held back. Powell compares Level 5 communication to two musical instruments playing in perfect harmony.
Now it's time to take action. Sitting around feeling bad and waiting for something to happen is not what the Bible means when it talks about "redeeming the time." Don't ignore your feelings, but do take your eyes off yourself and your problems and focus on specific things you can do. If you have followed my suggestions so far, then you already have a number of options. Make a list of the ideas you came up with and put them in order, starting with the easiest and least threatening task first. Start the change process by taking some small and safe steps.
Since our patterns of thinking and responding have taken years to develop, they won't change overnight. In fact, an overnight transformation is probably only a surface or cosmetic change. Meaningful change involves a series of small steps and takes time. The process is usually simple, but it is rarely easy.
Also remember that, although you often feel alone, you are not alone. God designed us to be in relationship. One of the many effects of the Fall was the creation of a barrier between God and man and between man and other men. One of the results of the cross was to provide a basis for restoring our relationship with God and with one another. We don't all have to become extroverts, but we all need some companionship and a few close friends. What God has promised, He will accomplish--if, with His help, we are willing to set aside our fears, trust Him, and by faith take some new steps."
Cursed? I have my doubts. Loneliness is very much alive but it is not a terminal illnes. In fact, it draws me to the point that I am not meant to be a lone ranger but one who needs companionship of close friends and most importantly a relationship with God. And even when man fails, God is still faithful. Let's put our faith in God.
(original website: http://www.actsweb.org/daily.php?id=409)
"Ron Clarke of Tasmania shared how "one of England's great poets, Rupert Brooke, who died in 1915, wrote the following note: 'I felt a trifle lonely before I left Liverpool; everybody seemed to have people to see them off. So I went back on shore and found a dirty little boy who was unoccupied, and said his name was William. 'Will you wave to me if I give you sixpence, William?' I said. 'Why, yes,' said William. So I gave him sixpence and went on board. When the time came he leaned over the railing on the landing stage and waved. So I got my six-pennyworth and my farewell—thanks to William.'"
"How very sad. Karen and Richard Carpenter in one of their popular songs some time ago sang with deep meaning, "Loneliness, it's such a sad affair … and I can hardly wait to be with you again…." How true these words were for Karen who starved herself to death because of her own loneliness and the feeling of not being loved. Being popular and in the limelight can never compensate for the need for close, loving relationships. I believe it was Janis Joplin, another popular vocalist, who said that the only time she felt okay was when she was on stage. The rest of the time she suffered from deep loneliness. She, too, took her own life with an overdose of Heroin in 1970. Even though "her career lasted only a few years, she has been hailed as the greatest white female blues singer who ever lived."
"The fact is we were created for relationships and while it may not be the most desirable, we can live without romantic love, but we cannot live healthily without close, loving relationships. Within the Holy Trinity God is in relationship, and one of the first things Jesus did when he commenced his ministry was to choose the twelve disciples "that might be with him." And while he never married, he certainly had close friendships with Mary and Martha as well as with their brother, Lazarus. And if Jesus needed close friends, how much more do we? "To be, is to be in relationship."
I guess there are times when we do feel that loneliness, as if no one is there, no one understands you, no one cares for you, you are nobody. I feel that too! But i choose not to believe because that's what Satan wants you to believe. I'm not saying that we should deny our feeling of being lonely but rather we should not be so deep into feeling lonely that we shut ourselves from the world. Satan wants to shut you from other people so that you will have no ways to receive help from others and slowly, you will be disillusioned and before you know it, you are gone! Don't just sit there and cry over our sorrows but stand up, face it and learn to deal with it.
And another lesson I learn is that when we have no one close with us, we feel intense loneliness, misery, sorrow, ..... (fill in your own blank). If i would take a step further, how much more pain, sorrow,... will we feel if we are alone without God. God has created us so that we can have a relationship with Him. Even before we were created, God has always believe in relationship. He Himself existed as 3, the Trinity. 1 is alone, 2 is a couple and 3 is a crowd. He had always wanted to relate to one another and we created in His image will desire to be in a relationship. And most importantly, be in an intimate relationship with God.
(taken from: http://godonline.co.za/Article833.html)
"We’ve all experienced some form of loneliness, but there are some who experience such deep loneliness that it feels as if it has permeated the heart and soul. You are not alone! Your Father knows you completely and understands your loneliness better than anyone else- AND – there is absolutely nothing you can hide from Him!
He created you and He loves you more than human understanding. Grasp that with your whole being and know that He is with you always!"
And here something I believe it's a hope for us. Our Father knows how we feel and He definitely can sympahtise with us. He definitely has not abandoned nor forsaken us. He is always with us, ALWAYS!
After reading all these and you want to make a differnce, here's some help:
(taken from:
http://www.backtothebible.org/
lifeissues/relationships/what_you_can_do_loneliness.htm)
"God can use the pain of loneliness to move you into a deeper relationship with Himself and others, as an opportunity to learn, grow, deepen, develop and mature. What Satan has designed for evil, God can use for good. We can become more than conquerors (Rom. 8:37). But where do we start?
First, seek fellowship with God. Thank Him and praise Him for His person, His promises and His lovingkindness. That's what David did in Psalm 142. Pour out your heart to Him in prayer. Share your concerns, hurts, fears, frustrations and discouragements.
Second, notice what you are telling yourself about your loneliness. On a sheet of paper, complete the phrase "I am lonely because . . ." ten times. Are you blaming yourself, God, other people, fate or circumstances? These may be excuses to keep you from trusting God and risking growth. On the back of that paper, write ten specific promises from God's Word regarding His love and His plans and provisions for you.
Third, develop some creative options. What are the possibilities? Thank God that you don't have to suffer from chronic loneliness. Take another sheet of paper and complete the phrase "With God's help I can. . ." ten times. What haven't you tried? What have you tried that you can try again? Talk to others who have overcome loneliness and find out what worked for them. "
"Most lonely people have inadequate communication skills, which make reaching out even more threatening. A valuable fourth step for lonely people is to work on increasing your communication skills. John Powell, in his book Why Am I Afraid to Tell You Who I Am? lists five levels of communication.
Level 1: Circle Conversation. Small talk is safe because there is no real sharing of ourselves.
Level 2: Reporting the Facts About Others. This is also fairly safe for lonely people. There is little risk involved in reporting the ideas of other people. Approximately 90 percent of the communication of those who suffer from chronic loneliness takes place at Level 1 or Level 2.
Level 3: Sharing My Ideas and Judgments. Here we begin to take some risk. As I tell you some of my opinions, I will be watching you carefully to see your reaction. If you respond favorably, then we can probably go to the next level. If not, then I will play it safe and stay at Level I or 2.
Level 4: Sharing My Feelings. When we share our feelings, we tell another person a lot about us. Because of the fear of rejection and failure, sharing feelings can be risky. But it provides a unique opportunity for growth. If we don't take the risk and share, we are guaranteed failure.
Level 5: Peak Communication. This involves complete commitment and trust. We know we are safe, so there is no need to held back. Powell compares Level 5 communication to two musical instruments playing in perfect harmony.
Now it's time to take action. Sitting around feeling bad and waiting for something to happen is not what the Bible means when it talks about "redeeming the time." Don't ignore your feelings, but do take your eyes off yourself and your problems and focus on specific things you can do. If you have followed my suggestions so far, then you already have a number of options. Make a list of the ideas you came up with and put them in order, starting with the easiest and least threatening task first. Start the change process by taking some small and safe steps.
Since our patterns of thinking and responding have taken years to develop, they won't change overnight. In fact, an overnight transformation is probably only a surface or cosmetic change. Meaningful change involves a series of small steps and takes time. The process is usually simple, but it is rarely easy.
Also remember that, although you often feel alone, you are not alone. God designed us to be in relationship. One of the many effects of the Fall was the creation of a barrier between God and man and between man and other men. One of the results of the cross was to provide a basis for restoring our relationship with God and with one another. We don't all have to become extroverts, but we all need some companionship and a few close friends. What God has promised, He will accomplish--if, with His help, we are willing to set aside our fears, trust Him, and by faith take some new steps."
Cursed? I have my doubts. Loneliness is very much alive but it is not a terminal illnes. In fact, it draws me to the point that I am not meant to be a lone ranger but one who needs companionship of close friends and most importantly a relationship with God. And even when man fails, God is still faithful. Let's put our faith in God.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Scripture Verse 12
25 July 2005 (Monday)
In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so,
I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you
And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will
come back, and take you to be with me that you also may
be where I am
John 14:2-3
In this passage, Jesus was talking to His disciples. It is clear that Jesus told them that there are many rooms prepared for them and after He left(die), He will come back to bring us there. This is a promise of Jesus, that He will come back for us. Isn't that wonderful, to be living under the same roof with Jesus. But from this, we could see that when God created us, He has everything in mind for us. He had already prepared many rooms for us. He gave His one and only Son to redeem us. And now He is just waiting for that day when His Son will bring all of us to our promised room. Isn't God wonderful and great. Praise be to God
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Scripture Verse 011
24 July 2005 (Sunday)
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.
Psalm 23:6
This Psalm is written by David. Indeed it shows that David is a very positive person when it comes to deal with his life. He said 'surely goodness and love will follow him ALL the DAYS OF HIS LIFE'. I'm not sure if I'm ready or even convinced to say this. Life is like a box of chocolate. There are so many flavours. Life can at this one moment be happy but then the next, one with trials and tribulations. But I have learn something. Even at such bad times, I always remind myself, things could be worse and surely the Lord will deliver me through. As i look in this light, definitely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life.
David added saying that he will dwell in the house of the Lord FOREVER because he knows that all the goodness and love is from Him and he wants to be as close to Him to experience all these. Do I want to dwell in the house of the Lord? Definitely.
Saturday, July 23, 2005
Scripture Verse 010
23 July 2005 (Saturday)
In him and through faith in him we may approach God
with freedom and confidence.
Ephesians 3:12
When we didn't know God, we were far away from Him in our sins. We were enslaved by sins and we had no rights to go to God. But when we believe in Jesus and that He died for our sins, our gap with God has been bridged. We no longer are distanced away from God. As we come before God, He does not see the 'filth' in us but He sees Jesus. We can now freely approach God through Jesus Christ.
21-23 July (Thur- Sat)
21 July (Thursday)
My mum slipped in the toilet and had knocked her right knee against the toilet bowl the day before. And now her knee is in such pain that she has to limp around. Seeing that it was worsening, we persuaded her to go for an X-ray and see a doctor. So this morning, I brought my mum to Tampines Polyclinics with my Dad tagging along. At the end of the check-up, I thank God that there were no fractures or major issues. It is just simply because that such knock at her age may be more painful for her and will take longer to heal. So got her painkillers, my dad went back with her while i went over to Tampines Central to get some stuff.
So i went to Tampines Mall NTUC. It has just been renovated and honestly, everything was in a mess. At one corner, you can find tinned food mixed with other non-edible stuff. And I just simply couldn't find my stuff. After one round of quick glancing, I was frustrated and becoming impatient because i simply can't find my stuff. So I left with much irritation. So i decided to go to Simei, East Point Mall NTUC instead. Took a train down. Then when reached there, i got all my stuff with little effort. The tricky part was that all the queues were pretty long. So i spotted this queue with only 2 person but with many stuff. But i didn't mind since only got 2. Shd be quite fast. So i took the queue. And guess wat. SOme technical problems. Den end up waited like about 10 minutes before my turn. ARGGGHHH! NVM!
After paying up, i went to one of the coffee shop for lunch. The shop sell chicken rice and economic rice but different counter. At first, i queued at the chicketn rice stall but the queue was not moving so i jumped to the shorter queue at the economic rice. But guess wat, as i changed, the queue on the other side grew longer while the chicken rice stal was getting shorter. I was pretty annoyed. And then the queue stop moving. So fickle-minded as i am at times, i changed back to Chicken rice and then the queue at the Economic rice cleared. Haiz.... Pretty annoyed. But eventually got my chickent rice and sit down to eat. Then i start to think about the 3 incidents that happen. All similiar in nature and i dun believe that it is so coincidental. As i came to the Lord, i feel that He was telling me that I got to be more patient and not to rush into doing things simply becoz it looks like a better choice at that moment. And i guess i tend to do things in this way. Got to be more patient and not so haste in making unnecessary changes. Really thk God for His valuable lesson.
Another lesson that I learn today. As you know my mum is injured, so nobody is doing dinner. I offered to. OK! DUN GIVE ME TAT LOOK! I CAN COOK! (My rationale is that nowadays girls dun do or rather do minimal house work. Having said this, how can i depend on them in this area. SO best is that at least i'm independant in this area) It's something that I'm proud of and i see it's something worth investing in since i always see that when i do get married, houseworks have to be shared between the spouses. So i always tell myself that i will do housework, cooking, washing when i get married. But this day, the Lord impressed upon me this. Why not do it now? Why wait until only when i'm married? If i start now, it is preparing me and not until I get married den i figured out how to go about doing it. And really thk God for helping me see it in such a way. And as i do the cooking, i do it with so much joy.
22 July (Friday)
NO class today. MUAHAHHAHAAHA! Went to church to look for Eleanor and Lydia but they all not in. On course. So i went to Chapel and played the piano. So nice. How i wish i had taken keyboard lesson when i was young. Really love the piano. But since i'm such a beat-deaf person, i'll most probably shortened my teacher's life span. Den in the evening, went over to Novena to meet Claudia. Going to see the restaurant where the Youth Ministry is organising this "Dinner under the stars" dinner for the youths. It is meant to mark the end of our recent programme For Men/ For women and also the start of abstinance, remaining pure for God and our future spouse. The place looks splendid but need to finalise further details. So after that, decided to drop by Claudia's cell. For the last 3 yrs, i have been out of cell because I was with the Youth Cell (THIS IS NOT A COMPLAINT) And i really miss the times when i was in cell where i just sit there and do nothing and enjoy the fellowship and God's word. SO that nite was really enjoyable and brought back a lot of memory. Though i struggled with my Mandarin, I tot it was a good practise to 'retrieve' back my mother's tongue (no intention pun in it) and also to know God's word in another language. And the best part is the makan session. Got glutinous rice ball, rice dumpling, 'kueh', vegetable pao, bombay toast, and durian. Muahahahaha.
23 July (Saturday)
Had a worship practise with Si En and Xin Ling in the early afternoon. Den followed by Bass practise with Yvonne. After tat we had our NO Apologies, session 2. Then after that, went to TM to celebrate Joanne's birthday. Went Genki Sushi. WOah! 7 of us but eat until 100 plus. Thkfully got discount, end up onli 86 bucks. After that went home.
One thing i just want to thk God and also to the people involved (no name mentioned) TOday need some rearrangemet of chairs in the church MPH for next day's service. I didn't really bother to rally people to help. I just tot tat if the youths really understand the meaning of servanthood, without me asking, they will take notice and come and help. And true enough, a few of them, came and help. Not just the guys but the girls also. I won't mention names but i'm sure you know who you are. If you are reading this, I want to affirm you and say a well-done to you.
When we offer ourself to help out, i always see 2 aspects of it. 1st is Service and the 2nd is Servanthood. Service is offering ourself to do things that we are able to do becoz either we have knowledge in it, skilled in it or trained in it. For eg, if you are able to play an instrument or can sing, you will provide the Service to the music ministry. As for servanthood, it's beyond just doing what we are good at. It's doing things that may not even be within our area of work. For eg, like the rearranging of chairs or even other small things like clearing up or throwing rubbish bag. We may not have the 'skill' or the 'strength' to do such things but that does not mean we can say it's none of our biz. As those girls who help out in the chair arrangement, I'm proud to say that this is called servanthood. I know to remove the chairs from the stack is not easy and 'dangerous', and that could be your best reason to excuse yourself from doing the job. But you all did not. Though you didn't help with the removing from the stack (which is understandable), you all help to rearrrange the chairs. And all these are done with your own initiation. That's another part of servanthood. Own initiation, without people asking, not under any obligations but purely becoz you choose to you. Good job and keep it up. I can guarantee that if your life is a life of servanthood, God is going to do great things in your life. Just like Jesus, He came not to be served but to serve.
My mum slipped in the toilet and had knocked her right knee against the toilet bowl the day before. And now her knee is in such pain that she has to limp around. Seeing that it was worsening, we persuaded her to go for an X-ray and see a doctor. So this morning, I brought my mum to Tampines Polyclinics with my Dad tagging along. At the end of the check-up, I thank God that there were no fractures or major issues. It is just simply because that such knock at her age may be more painful for her and will take longer to heal. So got her painkillers, my dad went back with her while i went over to Tampines Central to get some stuff.
So i went to Tampines Mall NTUC. It has just been renovated and honestly, everything was in a mess. At one corner, you can find tinned food mixed with other non-edible stuff. And I just simply couldn't find my stuff. After one round of quick glancing, I was frustrated and becoming impatient because i simply can't find my stuff. So I left with much irritation. So i decided to go to Simei, East Point Mall NTUC instead. Took a train down. Then when reached there, i got all my stuff with little effort. The tricky part was that all the queues were pretty long. So i spotted this queue with only 2 person but with many stuff. But i didn't mind since only got 2. Shd be quite fast. So i took the queue. And guess wat. SOme technical problems. Den end up waited like about 10 minutes before my turn. ARGGGHHH! NVM!
After paying up, i went to one of the coffee shop for lunch. The shop sell chicken rice and economic rice but different counter. At first, i queued at the chicketn rice stall but the queue was not moving so i jumped to the shorter queue at the economic rice. But guess wat, as i changed, the queue on the other side grew longer while the chicken rice stal was getting shorter. I was pretty annoyed. And then the queue stop moving. So fickle-minded as i am at times, i changed back to Chicken rice and then the queue at the Economic rice cleared. Haiz.... Pretty annoyed. But eventually got my chickent rice and sit down to eat. Then i start to think about the 3 incidents that happen. All similiar in nature and i dun believe that it is so coincidental. As i came to the Lord, i feel that He was telling me that I got to be more patient and not to rush into doing things simply becoz it looks like a better choice at that moment. And i guess i tend to do things in this way. Got to be more patient and not so haste in making unnecessary changes. Really thk God for His valuable lesson.
Another lesson that I learn today. As you know my mum is injured, so nobody is doing dinner. I offered to. OK! DUN GIVE ME TAT LOOK! I CAN COOK! (My rationale is that nowadays girls dun do or rather do minimal house work. Having said this, how can i depend on them in this area. SO best is that at least i'm independant in this area) It's something that I'm proud of and i see it's something worth investing in since i always see that when i do get married, houseworks have to be shared between the spouses. So i always tell myself that i will do housework, cooking, washing when i get married. But this day, the Lord impressed upon me this. Why not do it now? Why wait until only when i'm married? If i start now, it is preparing me and not until I get married den i figured out how to go about doing it. And really thk God for helping me see it in such a way. And as i do the cooking, i do it with so much joy.
22 July (Friday)
NO class today. MUAHAHHAHAAHA! Went to church to look for Eleanor and Lydia but they all not in. On course. So i went to Chapel and played the piano. So nice. How i wish i had taken keyboard lesson when i was young. Really love the piano. But since i'm such a beat-deaf person, i'll most probably shortened my teacher's life span. Den in the evening, went over to Novena to meet Claudia. Going to see the restaurant where the Youth Ministry is organising this "Dinner under the stars" dinner for the youths. It is meant to mark the end of our recent programme For Men/ For women and also the start of abstinance, remaining pure for God and our future spouse. The place looks splendid but need to finalise further details. So after that, decided to drop by Claudia's cell. For the last 3 yrs, i have been out of cell because I was with the Youth Cell (THIS IS NOT A COMPLAINT) And i really miss the times when i was in cell where i just sit there and do nothing and enjoy the fellowship and God's word. SO that nite was really enjoyable and brought back a lot of memory. Though i struggled with my Mandarin, I tot it was a good practise to 'retrieve' back my mother's tongue (no intention pun in it) and also to know God's word in another language. And the best part is the makan session. Got glutinous rice ball, rice dumpling, 'kueh', vegetable pao, bombay toast, and durian. Muahahahaha.
23 July (Saturday)
Had a worship practise with Si En and Xin Ling in the early afternoon. Den followed by Bass practise with Yvonne. After tat we had our NO Apologies, session 2. Then after that, went to TM to celebrate Joanne's birthday. Went Genki Sushi. WOah! 7 of us but eat until 100 plus. Thkfully got discount, end up onli 86 bucks. After that went home.
One thing i just want to thk God and also to the people involved (no name mentioned) TOday need some rearrangemet of chairs in the church MPH for next day's service. I didn't really bother to rally people to help. I just tot tat if the youths really understand the meaning of servanthood, without me asking, they will take notice and come and help. And true enough, a few of them, came and help. Not just the guys but the girls also. I won't mention names but i'm sure you know who you are. If you are reading this, I want to affirm you and say a well-done to you.
When we offer ourself to help out, i always see 2 aspects of it. 1st is Service and the 2nd is Servanthood. Service is offering ourself to do things that we are able to do becoz either we have knowledge in it, skilled in it or trained in it. For eg, if you are able to play an instrument or can sing, you will provide the Service to the music ministry. As for servanthood, it's beyond just doing what we are good at. It's doing things that may not even be within our area of work. For eg, like the rearranging of chairs or even other small things like clearing up or throwing rubbish bag. We may not have the 'skill' or the 'strength' to do such things but that does not mean we can say it's none of our biz. As those girls who help out in the chair arrangement, I'm proud to say that this is called servanthood. I know to remove the chairs from the stack is not easy and 'dangerous', and that could be your best reason to excuse yourself from doing the job. But you all did not. Though you didn't help with the removing from the stack (which is understandable), you all help to rearrrange the chairs. And all these are done with your own initiation. That's another part of servanthood. Own initiation, without people asking, not under any obligations but purely becoz you choose to you. Good job and keep it up. I can guarantee that if your life is a life of servanthood, God is going to do great things in your life. Just like Jesus, He came not to be served but to serve.
Scripture Verse 009
22 July 2005 (Friday)
I know that my Redeemer lives,
and that in the end he will stand upon the earth.
Job 19:25
As Christians, we know that God send His one and only Son to come to earth and that the Son died for our sins on the cross. And after 3 days, he rose from the stone grave. Indeed our Redeemer lives. We do not worship a dead God but one who had love us so much that He died for us and eventually, revealing His great plan, rose again. And we know that we are victorious in Jesus and that at the end of the world, He will come again to earth to bring His people to their promised land.
Scripture Verse 008
21 July 2005 (Thursday)
When every day of our life is planned with a purpose, I believe we will not stray away from God. In every day of our life, we should ask God to teach us to make it aright. So then we will know what to do and be more focus and less likely to be distracted and in turn, do something that is wrong. As we constantly everyday ask the Lord to teach us, we will begin to understand and know God better and our heart will be in tune with His. That's heart of wisdom. A heart that chases after God. So let's number everyday aright.
Teach us to number our days aright
that we may gain a heart of wisdom.
Psalm 90:12
When every day of our life is planned with a purpose, I believe we will not stray away from God. In every day of our life, we should ask God to teach us to make it aright. So then we will know what to do and be more focus and less likely to be distracted and in turn, do something that is wrong. As we constantly everyday ask the Lord to teach us, we will begin to understand and know God better and our heart will be in tune with His. That's heart of wisdom. A heart that chases after God. So let's number everyday aright.
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Scripture Verse 007
20 July 2005 (Wednesday)
If we look into context, this words are spoken by David. He and the Isralites had built a temple for God and the 'funds' for building the temple were from them. But David choose to acknowledge that the funds they have come up with comes from the Lord. And he used the word abundance which signifies that God had given not just sufficient but above what they need. (v16). And David wanted to testify of the faithfulness and the sincerity of the heart of the Isralites and ask God to test their heart. And David boldly declared that all the people had given willingly with an honest intent.
I truly believe that we should be like David. Man of great faith, thanksgiving and with great love for God. As he give unto God, he gave in faith, believing that God had given them more than enough. Then as we tithe and give offertory unto God, do we give with such faith and joy? (2 Corinthians 9:7 - God loves a cheerful giver) Why do I say David is a man of thanksgiving? I feel that when he used the word 'abundance', firstly, I see that He acknowledged God's providence and secondly, a way of thanksgiving for the 'extra' providence. So next time when we give, let's not just quickly dispose the offertory into the offertory bag, but take some time and really see the goodness and blessings the Lord is doing in your life. Lastly, David is a man of great love for God. To be frank, sometimes when I have more, I do feel a bit heart-pain to give more. But David did not see it that way. He was more willingly to give the 'extra' back to God. And I believe he did it out of his love for God. If we truly love God, we will give Him the best and also trust that He will give us the best.
I know, my God, that you test the heart and are pleased
with integrity. All these things have I given willingly and
with honest intent.
1 Chronicles 29:17
If we look into context, this words are spoken by David. He and the Isralites had built a temple for God and the 'funds' for building the temple were from them. But David choose to acknowledge that the funds they have come up with comes from the Lord. And he used the word abundance which signifies that God had given not just sufficient but above what they need. (v16). And David wanted to testify of the faithfulness and the sincerity of the heart of the Isralites and ask God to test their heart. And David boldly declared that all the people had given willingly with an honest intent.
I truly believe that we should be like David. Man of great faith, thanksgiving and with great love for God. As he give unto God, he gave in faith, believing that God had given them more than enough. Then as we tithe and give offertory unto God, do we give with such faith and joy? (2 Corinthians 9:7 - God loves a cheerful giver) Why do I say David is a man of thanksgiving? I feel that when he used the word 'abundance', firstly, I see that He acknowledged God's providence and secondly, a way of thanksgiving for the 'extra' providence. So next time when we give, let's not just quickly dispose the offertory into the offertory bag, but take some time and really see the goodness and blessings the Lord is doing in your life. Lastly, David is a man of great love for God. To be frank, sometimes when I have more, I do feel a bit heart-pain to give more. But David did not see it that way. He was more willingly to give the 'extra' back to God. And I believe he did it out of his love for God. If we truly love God, we will give Him the best and also trust that He will give us the best.
NOT ANOTHER CHINESE SONG!
一千年以前
心跳乱了节奏
梦也不自由
爱是个绝对承诺不说
撑到一千年以后
放任无奈淹没尘埃
我在废墟之中守着你走来
我的泪光承载不了
所有一切你(需)要的爱
因为在一千年以后
世界早已没有我
无法深情挽着你的手
浅吻着你额头
别等到一千年以后
所有人都遗忘了我
那时红色黄昏的沙漠
能有谁
解开缠绕千年的寂寞
心跳乱了节奏
梦也不自由
爱是个绝对承诺不说
撑到一千年以后
放任无奈淹没尘埃
我在废墟之中守着你走来
我的泪光承载不了
所有一切你(需)要的爱
因为在一千年以后
世界早已没有我
无法深情挽着你的手
浅吻着你额头
别等到一千年以后
所有人都遗忘了我
那时红色黄昏的沙漠
能有谁
解开缠绕千年的寂寞
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Scripture Verse 006
19 July 2005 (Tuesday)
Do not let your heart envy sinners,
but always be zealous for the fear of the LORD.
There is always a future hope for you,
and your hope will not be cut off.
Proverbs 23:17-18
Sometimes when people do wrong things, get away with it and worst, they end up getting credit or being 'praised' for the actions, it keeps you wondering if there is justice at all. And honestly, I would most probably be tempted to follow that guy's footsteps. But in these verses, God clearly instructs that we should not envy the people who had done wrong. In 2 Chronicles 19:7 - "Now let the fear of the LORD be upon you. Judge carefully, for with the LORD our God there is no injustice or partiality or bribery." In Ezekiel 33:20 - "But I will judge each of you according to his own ways." From these 2 sets of verse, we know that our God is impartial and just and He will judge every one according to his ways. (You can read Scripture Verse 003) Even though that person may get away from his acts, he still will have to account it to God and be judged. So there isn't anything to envy about that person but let us be zealous for the fear of the Lord. Sounds a bit funny dun you think so. Be passionate about fearing the Lord. I always choose to fear God out of respect and awe and not just merely because I'm afraid. And if you eager to show respect and awe, you will not do things against the Lord. And lastly, God promised us that if we choose to honour Him, He has a future for us and He will definitely cut us away. Isn't that a good news. Praise the Lord!
Scripture Verse 005
18 July 2005 (Monday)
There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
Ecclesiastes 3:1
This is a simple sentence but honestly, I find it quite difficult to comment on it. To put it in simple terms, it means that everything that is to happen, will happen in its due time appointed by God and no one can alter it. And if you read on to verse 9 it talks about 'What does the worker gain from his toil?' This verse talks about man trying to make things happen by their own effort when it is not God's will. And eventually they work in vain. But if you see the other side of it, it is actually telling us that if we work according to the timing and season of God, we will see enjoy our work and the blessings that comes along. But having said all these, I'm not just talking about good things and activities. It could come in forms of calamaties, trials, painful experience and etc, things that are not 'nice' in its nature. But if you fully understand this verse that everything happens in God's timing and that God's purpose for us is to prosper and not harm us (Jeremiah 29:11), even when times are bad, you will still trust in God that He is in control and He will deliver you through. So my brothers and sisters, if you are in any hard times, dun give up on yourself and nvr give up on God. He will definitely see you through.
Another Chinese Song (童话) including my version
童话 by 光良
忘了有多久 再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了 是不是我又做错了什么
你哭著对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
你哭著对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局
(This is the original version which talks in the perspective of the girl not feeling compatible to the guy and the guy is actually willingly to accept her and wants to protect her)
(I have took the song and changed some of the lyrics. I have changed the perspective to the guy liking this girl but not sure if she likes him. Even if he can't tell her that he loves her, the least he want to do is to be near her and give her happiness)
童话 by ME
忘了有多久 再没听到你在钢琴弹你最爱歌曲
我想了很久 我开始慌了 是不是我已错过了什么
我哭著对我说 童话里不属于我的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你出现那一刻 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
我很渴望 渴望我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
我哭著对我说 童话里不属于我的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你出现那一刻 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
我很渴望 渴望我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
我很渴望 渴望我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
(但愿)我能变成童话里 你的神秘的天使 张开双手默默一旁守护你
每分每秒 无时无刻守在你的身旁 幸福和快乐是给你
也许我只是个回忆
忘了有多久 再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了 是不是我又做错了什么
你哭著对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
你哭著对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局
(This is the original version which talks in the perspective of the girl not feeling compatible to the guy and the guy is actually willingly to accept her and wants to protect her)
(I have took the song and changed some of the lyrics. I have changed the perspective to the guy liking this girl but not sure if she likes him. Even if he can't tell her that he loves her, the least he want to do is to be near her and give her happiness)
童话 by ME
忘了有多久 再没听到你在钢琴弹你最爱歌曲
我想了很久 我开始慌了 是不是我已错过了什么
我哭著对我说 童话里不属于我的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你出现那一刻 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
我很渴望 渴望我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
我哭著对我说 童话里不属于我的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你出现那一刻 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
我很渴望 渴望我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
我很渴望 渴望我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
(但愿)我能变成童话里 你的神秘的天使 张开双手默默一旁守护你
每分每秒 无时无刻守在你的身旁 幸福和快乐是给你
也许我只是个回忆
Monday, July 18, 2005
Scripture Verse 004
17 July 2005 (Sunday)
And we pray this in order that you may live a life
worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way:
bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the
knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power
according to His glorious might so that you may have
great endurance and patience, and joyfully giving thanks
to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the
inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light.
Colossians 1:10-12
Paul is writing to the people of Colosse. He mentioned that he had heard about their faithfulness and that he and other brothes and sisters-in-Christ were praying for them. Praying that 1) bear fruit in every good work 2) grow in the knowledge of God 3) strengthened with all power according to His glorious might
I think as Christians ourselves, we shd pray this prayer as well. Even more for those who are serving in ministry. Every work that we had done, we are just simply sowing seeds. Whether the seeds grow and bear fruit, that is the work of God. So in order to see the fruits, we have to commit our work into God's hands.
We also need to grow in the knowledge of God. How? Well i guess there's only one way. The bible. The bible is His word, His knowledge that He want to impart to us. By reading and medidating on His Word, we will grow in wisdom and we will be able to know God and His will better.
And we need the strength from Him. Our energy is limited and there is only a distance that each of us can go. By our strength, we will accomplish nothing. Nothing! Until we learn to draw strength from Him, we will soon be a dried-up well.
As we allow God to bear the fruits, and we ourselves, constantly rooted in God's Word and drawing strenth from Him, we will cultivate greater endurance and patience. Why? Becoz we are not striving towards our goals by our own effort but with our God in control.
And lastly, like what Paul mentioned, to joyfully give thanks to God who has qualified us to share in the inheritance of the saints of the kingdom of light. Let us never forget that it's our Father in heaven, who has graciously and mercifully, drawn us back to Him and to be able to share in all His heritance. Praise be to God!
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Scripture Verse 003
16 July 2005 (Saturday)
Ecclesiastes 12:13-14
Fear God and keep his commandments,
for this is the whole duty of man.
For God will bring every deed into judgement,
including every hidden thing,
whether it is good or evil.
Ecclesiastes 12:13-14
Fear God not becoz we are afraid but out of respect and awe. And we keep His commandment becoz we know that these laws are good and beneficial. And one of things that is very clear in these verses, is that every deed will be judged. We can never run away from our actions. There is no running away from consequences. One day, every body will have to come before God and account for everything, big, small, right or wrong, all deeds. So let's really consider our actions before executing it. However one point not to mix up with is that Salvation is not by deeds but by faith. As long as you believe that Jesus is God and had died for you and was risen again, your salvation is secured. But that doesn't gives us the liberty to do whatever we want. That's why coming back to the top of these verses, it says, Fear God and keep His commandments. We still have to follow the rules of God. People often mentioned that there are too many rules in Christianity and all these make it boring and dull. But I think otherwise. In any game, there must be rules and regulation. So that every player will know what they can do and cannot and what is their roles and responsibility. That's when everybody knows their roles, then can the game be played and played in a regulated and enjoyable way. Imagine a soccer match that has no rules. I can imagine chaos. So likewise in our walk with God, we need to know the commandments so that then our walk with God will be enjoyable. The commandments are not meant to tie us down but help us to know how to have a closer and intimate relationship with our Father.
Friday, July 15, 2005
Scripture Verse Day 002
haha! I think it's better to call this Scripture Verse than Memory Verse. Some of the verse are real long. Dun think can memorise everything. But if you can, i still encourage you to memorise.
Today's Verse:
Today's Verse:
You were taught, with regard to your former way of life,
to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its
deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of our
minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God
in true righteousness and holiness.
Ephesians 4:22-24
Yes! Unless the old is removed, the new cannot be received. Our old self has been tainted, corrupted, destroyed by our own evil desires. No matter how hard we try to change by our own effort, it is pointless and in vain. But this does not mean that we are hopeless and doom for sure. We do have hope. The only way to put away our past behind is to accept Jesus becoz He is the truth, the way and the life. (John 14:6) As we accept Him, we have to also accept and learn His attitudes, His teachings. It simply means transforming our old self into the likeness of Jesus. And this verse specifically mention the changing of our attitude in our mind. It means to change our way of thinking. Not to think like the world but to think of what is right and holy in God's eyes. It may sound tough and impossible but it's not. There's a chinese saying, "If there's perseverance, a rod can be filed into a needle." So have faith and dun give up.
Thursday, July 14, 2005
Memory Verse Day 001
Hi to all, I guess I had always wanted to do this but just seemed like I never had the chance nor the time to really sit down and materialise it. But thankfully due to a coincidental incident, I'm able to do it. Oh! Yah! I think you all must be wondering what I am talking about. I'm talking about having a daily scripture verse being put up. Cool! Then everybody will get to learn the Word of God!
So today, is the first day that the verse will be put up. And the verse is:
So today, is the first day that the verse will be put up. And the verse is:
"Honour the Lord with your wealth,
with the firstfruits of all your crops;
then your barns will be filled to overflowing,
and your vats will brim over with new wine."
Proverbs 3:9-10
Bless the Lord and you will see the floodgate of blessings opening and pouring into your life. Don't get me wrong. I'm not talking about prosperity gospel. The blessings I'm talking about can be in any form from material to emotional to spirtual to physical blessings. So let's not be just be blinded that the only blessing is money, wealth, materialistic stuff. Our God knows our needs and He will give us the best. I think the point here in this verse is to really love our God that we are so quick and sincere to honour Him with our best. The Lord loves a cheerful giver. (2 Corinthians 9:7)
Just For Fun 17
| Your EQ is |
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. |
Just For Fun 16
| You Are Strawberry Pocky |
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Just For Fun 15
You Are a Peacemaker Soul |
 You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can. War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace. You are a good mediator and a true negotiator. Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy. While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental. You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take. On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit. You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice. Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul |
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