MEN! Eat These!

Men are like ........Laxatives ...... They irritate the shit out of you

Men are like ........ Weather ..... Nothing can be done to change them..

Men are like ........ Blenders ..... You need One, but you're not quite sure why.

Men are like ....... Commercials ...... You can't believe a word they say.

Men are like ........ Department Stores .... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.

Men are like ........ Government Bonds ..... They take soooo oooo long to mature.

Men are like ........ Parking Spots . All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

And Nvr, I say again NVr ask your wife to bring breakfast to bed becoz she will reply......

IF YOU WANT BREAKFAST IN BED,

SLEEP IN THE KITCHEN

Fire on an Oil Field

Today was Youth Games Day organised by the Chinese Youth Board of the Anglican Diocese. Suppose to be at AHS by 8.30am. So early. THkfully, Daniel got car and hitch-hiked. Reached there and was like pretty crowded. Our youths are competing in the Street Soccer and Captain's Ball! Started off with worship, followed by a message by a pastor. Den the game began with the street soccer. Pretty intensive. Only six teams particpated. We won every match and eventually we reached the final and we took the Champion. Well done boys and a girl (kuan ren)! Den next was Captain's Ball. Played 3 matches. Lost 2 and drew 1. SOunds bad and demoralising but honestly, the team did a great job considering we nvr had played together as a team. I managed to play the 3rd match which we eventually lost. I guess I was too over passionate for the game. I was becoming a bit worked up with every pass we lost and every shot the opposition score! And becoz I had a pretty good knowledge of playing Captain's Ball, I simply couldn't fit into the passive style our team was playing. Dun get me wrong. I'm not complaining that the team was playing lousy. I think it's very much me lah! I'm one person who can be very easy going with any and everything but sport. I'm way very serious when playing sports and it tends to make me very hostile. I guess I have to really learn to manage this aspects of my emotion. Passion with no control is like setting a fire on an oil field. It does nothing but destroy. I must learn to enjoy playing games at different level of competitiveness! So if in any way, i have been harsh or hostile to any of you have played with me, pls accept my sincerestt apologies. But den again, i think if we train for Captain's Ball rite, we shd be able to win the Trophy next year! SO are you all keen to employ me as the coach????

BIG 25

Actually it's not tat big lah! But den it sound more impressive with the word BIG! A quarter of a century. That's what i'm becoming this year. Really time flies! I still could vaguely remember the little details of my childhood, student life. But all these are HISTORY! Honestly, I nvr would have talk about this topic one. I was happily living my child-like life, enjoying companion of my frens over lunch and they pop this statement, "5 more years and you will be 30!" Hmmm! Sound pretty ok at first. But then it really starts to feel like salt rubbed into a hidden open wound. OUCCCCCHHHHHHH!!!!! Thks for reminding me man! I couldn't have been able to add 5 to 25 to get 30 if you nvr taught me! But then again, it kept me thinking. What do i really want to do? Many of my frens of my age have alreadi started working. Some have even got married and have started acquainted with the different brands of diapers and milk powder. It sounds mad and unbelievable. I'm happily enjoying my life like a kid at this part of the world while on the other side, people are alreadi experiencing parenthood! Haha! Maybe you think I'm writing this as a form of complaint or a form of depression speech. But honestly, i'm still very happy becoz I enjoyed my freedom as a single. All these years, as i look back on how i trouble over not having a stead, managing my moodswing, it may seem pathetic. But I'm glad that i was single becoz it is one of the best time of my life. Dun get me wrong. I'm not saying finding or having a partner isn't good. In fact, i believe 2 heads are better 1 as it will help to bring 2 people to worship God even more intimately. WHat i'm saying is that being single has its pros and purpose in life. But that's for you to find out yourself with God! I believe i'm ending my singlehood soon. (hint! hint!) Gonna miss it! SO those singles out there, dun worry but trust in the timing and plan of God, for every thing has its season!

LOVE PROFILE

Xj, your love type is:

That means you are more Extroverted than Introverted, Sensing than Intuitive, Thinking than Feeling, and more Judging than Perceiving.

(I)ntroversion/ (E)xtraversion: This dimension describes how you approach and interact with the world and how you typically direct your energy.

INTROVERSION 50%

EXTROVERSION 50%

Most times, people simply associate introverts with being shy and extraverts with being loud. These descriptions are not entirely correct because those two qualities are only part of what determines whether someone is an introvert or an extravert. For example, typically, to an extravert, the outside world represents both excitement and opportunity. Extraverts often think and perform better in front of others. Also, because an extravert's energy is often directed outwards, extroverts like being around people most of the time. Introverts, on the other hand, usually direct their energy inwards and often need alone time to replenish their energy stores.

When it comes to communication, introverts will tend to formulate their thoughts before they speak up. Extraverts will often think and talk at the same time, saying whatever comes into their heads. This more immediate approach makes extraverts spontaneous, but it can also get them into hot water. Socially, introverts prefer more intimate settings where they have the chance to get to know fewer people on a deeper basis. Extraverts typically feel that in social situations, the more the merrier. As mentioned above — not every introvert or extravert will display every trait tied to this dimension. In fact, people are apt to display a mix of traits.

I(N)tuition/ (S)ensing: This dimension demonstrates how people tend to process information

INTUITION 15%

SENSING 85%

What kinds of information do you naturally notice? That's the main question this scale answers. Sensors tend to focus on concrete information. Intuitives tend to focus on possibilities. By using their five senses to gather data, sensors trust what can be seen, heard, touched, tasted, or felt. By staying attuned to their five senses, sensors are also apt to focus on the present and to have great attention to detail. If you are looking for accurate information, ask a sensor.

Intuitives, on the other hand, are more imaginative types who tend to look for deeper, abstract meanings in the world around them. They do this by inferring things from the data that's in front of them. For example, when presented with information, intuitives usually enjoy pondering over implications of those facts and anticipating future consequences. Intuitives aren't often interested in details and tend to see the big picture of a situation faster than sensors.

(F)eeling/ (T)hinking: This dimension demonstrates how you make decisions.

FEELING 45%

THINKING 55%

The way each one of us makes decisions is influenced by whether we are primarily thinkers or feelers. Thinkers value analytical thinking and tend to be methodical and logical when evaluating their options. Thinkers pride themselves on being objective, rather than letting their subjective feelings or opinions enter into their decisions. Feelers often see thinkers as being somewhat cold. Feelers have a very different decision making process. Theirs takes into account how others will be affected alongside of the objective facts. By putting people's individual situations in the forefronts of their minds, feelers are more likely to make exceptions to rules than thinkers are. Feelers are highly empathic, and sometimes this bent can make them seem too emotional to thinkers.

(P)erceiving/ (J)udging: The last dimension describes whether you prefer closure or openness

PERCEIVING 35%

JUDGING 65%

The final dimension describes whether you prefer closure or openness in your life's situations. For instance, because of their high need for control, judgers like structure and order in the world around them. Judgers are typically organized people who focus on goals and accomplish what they set out to do.

On the other end of the spectrum are perceivers who usually prefer to experience the world spontaneously. Oftentimes a perceiver can't tell you their schedule from one day to the next because they don't know what's going to happen. Perceivers usually like keeping their options open and can pride themselves on adapting to whatever situation they confront. Judgers are most excited when they have finished a project. Perceivers tend to be most excited when a new endeavor begins.

MY LOVE TYPE:

Being an ESTJ, you can stand out from the crowd for all kinds of reasons. Among your unique qualities are strong determination and a sharp mind. Together, these traits often mean that an honest day's work isn't likely to strike fear into your heart. On the contrary, you're one who can truly appreciate commitment to a job well done. This steadfast nature usually carries over to your relationships as well; you're rarely one to run off because things have gotten tough. This is an admirable quality. You also are a fairly outgoing person and are energized by being around others

Your philosophy of relationships appears much like your work ethic. You're the kind who believes that what you put into a relationship is typically what you get back. Because of this no-nonsense approach, you aren't the type to overwhelm others with your warm and fuzzy ways. However, when people want to hear truth, they should knock on your door. No matter the topic, you're usually happy to tell it like it is. This said, you seem to find a balance between being honest and sparing others feelings. Perhaps you've learned that how you say things is often as important as what you say.

Before confronting someone about a problem, you'll usually use your head and think about all the angles before opening your mouth. You piece together information like a detective, carefully looking at the facts rather than letting your imagination run away with you. As a result, you're usually not the insecure type in a relationship because you aren't apt to jump to wild conclusions. When new people come into your life, they may find you a bit standoffish at first. However, given the chance over time, you will show them the depths of your generous heart and your impressive capacity for forgiveness.

What makes you a good partner and friend?
Your sincerity inspires others to be true to themselves
You are trustworthy and not prone to gossip
You know how to be sensitive to other people's feelings
You're not the kind to leave when the going gets tough

Your most compatible type

Because you're a Sensing Thinker (ST), you're someone who tends to be logical and more in tune with your rational side than your emotions. STs like you are known for having strong intellectual skills. Because of this mix of traits, you typically appreciate those who enjoy analytical thinking and the world of ideas as much as you do. As a result, you're most compatible with Intuitive Thinkers (NTs). NTs are intellectual in their own right but tend to excel at more creative, big picture thinking. This skill in coming up with great, innovative ideas can really inspire you. That's one reason an ST/NT pairing often results in a great meeting of the minds. There are four ST/NT matches for you: ENTJ, INTJ, ENTP, INTP.

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LOVE PROFILE

Baseline for all Bassists

Haha! Jokes abt Bassists which i came across the net. Funny if you are a bassist or you know how a band works. Haha! Enjoy it! (by the way, I am a bassist, so no offence intended to bassist)

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A scientific expedition disembarks from its plane at the final outpost of civilization in the deepest Amazon rain forest. They immediately notice the ceaseless thrumming of native drums. As they venture further into the bush, the drums never stop, day or night, for weeks.

The lead scientist asks one of the natives about this, and the native's only reply is "Drums good. Drums never stop. Very BAD if drums stop."

The drumming continues, night and day, until one night, six weeks into the trip, when the jungle is suddenly silent. Immediately the natives run screaming from their huts, covering their ears. The scientists grab one boy and demand "What is it? The drums have stopped!"

The terror-stricken youth replies "Yes! Drums stop! VERY BAD!"

The scientists ask "Why? Why? What will happen?"

Wild-eyed, the boy responds,

" . . . BASS SOLO!!!" -
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There was a poor ragged bass guitarist panhandling for spare change on a street corner. One day someone came by and threw a brass lamp into his guitar case.

Upon rubbing the lamp, a genie appeared and offered the bass player three wishes. "I wish I was a better musician", said the bass man. Next thing he knew he was in a band that was cutting its first CD and had a loyal following.

He was pretty happy, but he wanted more. "I wish I was an even better musician", said the bassist. Before long he was playing on an extended world tour in front of tens of thousands of adoring fans. He was ecstatic, but he wanted even more.

"Genie", he said, "make me an even BETTER musician!" Poof! He found himself standing on his old street corner . . . playing drums.
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A couple, who's relationship was on the rocks, went to a marriage counselor who could not get them to discuss anything. The communication block was so heavy that nothing he suggested could make them open up and talk.

Finally after several sessions of non-communication, the counselor stands up, walks to the corner of the room and produces a bass guitar. He brings it to the couple, plugs it into a small practice amp and begins to play fervently. Gradually their barriers break down and they begin to discuss their problems and little things that always bothered them that they never felt encouraged to bring up before.

At the end of the session, they were smiling and laughing just like old times. They paid their bill and before leaving, the couple asked the counselor, "What did you do? How did that song help make everything work out?"

He answered simply, "Everybody talks during the bass solo."
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Q- What do a vacuum cleaner and an bass guitar have in common?

A- Both suck when you plug them in.

Q- How many bass players does it take to change a light bulb?

A- None--they just steal somebody else's light.
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2 Years 3 Months!

That's how long it took me to come to senses to know that all those senses that I try to make out of the unknowns are all no sense at all. Running a race that has no hope. I am totally battered. I am totally out of reasons to convince myself. I don't want to run away. Neither do I want to force my way through. I have given up. It's not in my control. I have thrown myself into the well. I am died.............

Lord, not my will but Yours. Amen!

ShAtTeReD!

向左走， 向右走？
左右为难？

进退俩难？

不知所措。

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Well! I'm not sure if this entry will be a long one. And i will simply just update on the things i could remember.

31 Mar (Fri)

Had small group in the evening. Den learn about my grandma had a bad fall again. I think this time is quite serious one. Somehow felt very sad. My grandma is like nearly 83y/o. And she lives alone becoz none of her sons are financially abled to support her. Her daughters, however are able to but den grandma sure won't want to becoz in the older generation, it is not a practise for parents to stay with the son-in-law. Ai yah! So rubbish! NVM! Then i myself feel very frustrated becoz i can't communicate with her. She kinds of dote on her grandchildren and yet I'm not able to reciprocrate that love back to her. Whenever she is in my presence, all i could is smile and try to make out those simple Hainanese word that i know. It's pathethic. Crap! How i wish I know Hainanese? I try picking it up but den i'm just simply not a language person. Haizzzzzz.

1 Apr (Sat)

April's Fool day! I guess it has been a long time i had play April's fool day after I'm out of school. But i'm still very cautious. And true enough there were some pranks going around. Haha! Morning, meet up with Ding yi, Xin Ling and Amelia to play basketball. Did some shootout. Then went home to bath and went to TM to buy gift voucher for Si En's belated birthday. Den went TM food court to eat. Den i curiously bought this $3.80 Jumbo Ice Kachang. Hmmm! it sure did attracted a bit of attention. Even with Ding Yi, Si En..... and Xin ling, all 4 of us can't finish it. Haha! Then went church. During Youth Fellowship, we had "Parents - You are Invited Day." Had a lot of fun and excitement. Praise the Lord. Then after tat, nobody eating dinner so had to settle my own dinner. Didn't eat anything but went home. Den had news of grandma's condition. It seems like it was pretty serious. She broke her ligament and won't be able to use her left leg normally again. I'm really sad. Tentatively keeping the news from her since letting her know also won't help much.

2 Apr (Sun)

Woke up and went church with sis. Attended Chinese Svc but was too distracted to catch the flow of the svc. Haiz. After svc, went with sis to NUH to visit grandma. Reach there but she was asleep so went down to the foodcourt ate a dessert and then went to the main lobby and sleep. Haha! Tired boy! Then at about 2pm went up again and she was awake. Dad and mum and some of the uncles and aunties were there. So went to try to talk to grandma. She was high spirit as usual, her normal personality. As i see her aged, frail face marked with the lines of passing years, it somehow dawn on me how much more years will she have. Dun get me wrong. I'm not counting her days to her final bed but i'm just thinking how much longer do we have to spend this (hopefully) blissful years with her. Hmmm! Life is so unpredictable. But thank God we have God who is in control of everything. After an hour, we left and took a cab home. Stop halfway to go church meet Marcus, Yvon and Mag. Den when reached there, realised they abandoned me to go to Li Boey's house. Hmmmm! Then was waiting to go for soccer training and then it rained. ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH! Why? Why? Always on Sunday and this time. 2nd week in a row. Then met up with Marcus they all to eat dinner at TM's LJS. After that went NTUC to stock up food. Went home!

Well! That's about what happened these few days. Rather feeling down these days. Going into a mood swing again. AAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!! Somehow having this feeling of playing Hide and Seek. Andworst is that i do not know when to Hide or when to Seek! Lord, pls help me! I'm really in a state of confusion. I know there are things that are not meant for me to know now because it is not time yet. In my anxiety and yet knowing that i had to be patient upon Your timing, my mind and heart is at conflict. Help me Lord! Take away whatever that is not from You. Help me to focus on You and not of the things of the flesh or the world. Amen!

Weakest Link

Hiazzzzzzzz! Why am i so musically untalented? I just simply can't play in beat and when playing as a band, i utterly can't hear myself and I'm totally playing out of beat. ARGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH! Today playing guitar for Darren and Xin Ling. But was like really struggling to keep in beat for the fast song. Then with the distortions, I really can't concentrate. Den the song "My redeemer lives", i was totally unable to keep the beat when everybody plays. ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH! I'm the weakest link. Maybe that's why i got demoted to being a Worship Leader. Hahahahah! Hmmmmm! Honestly 2 things that a musician will not want to be. Either tone deaf or beatless. Haha! Feel like giving up! Dun wan to ever play guitar again. Yah rite! That's an easy way out but i know i can never stop playing guitar becoz until now, it has always been God's grace in my guitar playing. I must do something about it. I really want to pick up drum. At least playing this instrument, i am force to pay attention to beat and rhythm. Yes! that's what i'm goin to do. But den the problem is which teacher is willingly to suffer for me. Haha! We shall see. HE will provide rite. Haha! Hmmmm! Must also start to pick up guitar as a student. Must go and learn from everybody and anybody. YAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

25 - 26 Mar (Sat - Sun)

25 Mar

Woke up 6am this morning. Couldn't sleep. Dun know why. This morning have a seminar to attend at St John St Margaret at 9am. Den meeting some of the youths at 7.45am at Simei MRT platform. Ding Yi and Xin Ling came over at abt 7.10am to my house to put their barang barang as there's a stayover tonight at my place. Den being the hospitable me, I make them breakfast. After breakfast, left for Simei MRT. Then took us about an hour to reach Dover MRT station. Suppose to meet Darren, Yvon and Jamie at that time but they were late. Hmmmm. Ai yoh! Then told the rest to go first while i wait for them. By the time reach SJSM, was like 9.10am. Late and worship had started. And only managed to get back seats. Anyway i haven't say what seminar i'm attending. Attending this seminar "10 keys to choosing life partner'' by Pastor Benny Ho. I must say he is indeed a very good speaker. The way he carry his message was humorous but yet straight to the point. Just a quick run thru of the 10 keys.

1) The Wisdom of Seeking Counsel
2) The Principle of Equally Yoked
3) The beauty of Purity
4) The Principle of Shared Inheritance
5) The Presence of Willingness
6) The Key of Prayer
7) The Important value of Kindness
8) The need for Family Blessing
9) The Principle of Timing
10) The Principle of Well

I guess the last 2 points really kept me thinking. Timing. I believe that in God's timing, all things will fall into place. And I believe that God will give the best to me. But many a times, I just simply sit there and wait for God's timing. Is tat good? No in fact it's so wrong not so much in waiting upon God but in that I'm so engrossed in focusing on the timing that i do nothing but just day and night, waiting anxiously. How foolish! And also the principle of well which actually talks abt many characters in the bible found their partners near the well. Well symbolishes community gathering and for us our well is the church. Stay around the 'well' and the right one may appear rite before your eyes. Hmmmm! haha! Well after the seminar went back to Simei, had lunch at KFC and went to church. Was a bit rush for me becoz i agreed to help to lead worship for the English Patient Svc. It is like at 3.15pm and i got back to church at abt 2.30pm. Den after the svc, i'm leading worship at the youths. Den after the worship, there's a meeting with senior pastor. I left half way becoz i was simply too tired. Since 6am i woke up and my mind was dying away. So after that went to NTUC bought some food to cook dinner. Some of the youths staying over. Watch soccer, play majong, talk some rubbish, den before you know it, it was nearly 1am. Lights off. Lionel and Ariz slept in my room. Darren fitted just nice in my living room sofa. Xin Ling, Wen Yuan, Yvon and Joanne squeezed in my parent's bed. I and Ding Yi slept on mattress in the dining room. Yawnnn!

26 Mar

Woke up at 7am. Saw a figure sitting down in the living room. (not wearing spects) so was wondering who it was. It was Xin Ling. Apparently she got jostled out of the bed at around 4am den end up sitting and sleeping on one of the single seat sofa. SO poor thing. Den quickly got up, woke the rest up and prepare breakfast. Scrambled egg and picnic chicken with bread and milo. Suppose to leave home by 7.50am. End up leaving at around 8.05am. As usual someone taking HER own sweet time. Haiz. Dun know wat to say. The perfect Melancholy in me was getting impatient but den the Peaceful Phlegmatic side of me is telling me to be erhhhh.... be peaceful. haha! So reached church at abt 8.20am den some of us Joanne, Wen Yuan, Darren and Yvon joined some of the adults in the morning prayer. So glad they join in becoz this morning prayer is very important. It is kinda like the spiritual foundation of the Sunday's svc. Really hope they will come to pray more often.
After svc, waited for William and Lydia to go for lunch. Went to Sakura to eat. Then chit-chat a bit and shared about my life and wat was going on. Haha! Then rush to AHS for the Street Soccer tournament. Darren, daniel, james, colin, jason and me playing. Our first match will be the tournament 5th match. However after 3rd match, rained den stop playing for a while. Den resume match and our turn, we went in with style. The first thing the opponents commented was, "Woah! They all so big sized one!" Haha! Not too sure if he meant it big-tough or big-flabby. Hmmm! Then next we had some pre-shooting. First shot, i make a diving saved. Trying to pyschologically affect the opponents. Den next Daniel took a blistering shot at me. I tried to parry the ball with both hands but it was so strong, it pierce thru my parry and smack right into my face. Kinda twisted my right wrist. Den next Darren rammed a shot at me while i was not looking. Hit right into my left shoulder. Power man! I think by then, the opponents were pyschologically affected. Then we started the match. We were doing fine, having good possession and a few attempt. They had a few fair chance. One shot parried by me and thkfully, it hit the pole and rolled away from the line. But never did we know, a quick attack on the right by the opponents and a bit of luck, they squeezed the ball pass me at the near pole at a tight angle. We were a bit taken a back but we weren't going to give up. We fought stonger and increased our fire power. Finally, Jason got his chance and sliced the ball pass the keeper at the far pole. Beautiful. And minutes later, Jason added his No.2 with a volley. Superb. And the game ended. 2-1. Brillant. Haha! Then after the nextt match, the rain started to pour again and the match was postponed to 9 Apr. And guess what , i can't play. Church got AGM and definitely AGM is more important. Pity i have to say but i'm sure the team will still do pretty fine without me. Den another bad news. Uncle Bryan say the 5pm soccer, cancelled. So xian. Haiz. So they ferried us to Tanah Merah MRT and went to TM to eat dinner. Everybody was stoning. Haha! So after dinner, all went home. Reached home at abt 6pm den sleep until 9.30pm. Haha. WHat a day! And dad and mum is coming home tmr. Hehe! Quite fun to be home alone but den also realised a lot of housework to do.

If you can't be a gentleman, dun be anything at all!

Men out there! Listen carefully! Yes, if you can't be a gentleman or even at least act as once, go vaporised yourself. If you can't be a good father or husband dun get married. If you think that you are of superior being, maybe you should go see yourself in the toilet bowl. I'm blowing my top again. That father of my is really getting on my nerves. I really dun know wat to do. I just wish i was a bad kid and den i will have no reasons not to give him a good lesson. After his surgery, his attitude nvr improves but becomes more erractic. Maybe you think that I'm just a person who has low tolerant and an unfilial son. I wish to think so but i'm not. He is really pushing his limits. His lamentations have not stopped. He will have any critics on anything. Then he will keep complaining that he has to take so many medicine (which is normal since it is required by all heart-by-pass pple). Den he keep saying his condition not improving. It's all in his mind lah. Den he say that he would rather not have gone for the surgery which he feels had make him worst. Rubbish. So selfish thoughts. Yah lorh! Dun go for surgery then get stroke then the whole family has to slog physically and financially to take care of him. By the way, that's what he say, he say he rather get stroke den go for surgery if he knew the outcome. Then my poor mum has to constantly take care of him, meeting to his 'buffet' needs. Non-stop calling my mum for this for that. Like my mum is the maid or the home nurse. Come on man, how old are you alreadi, not as if he is bedridden or wheelchair bounded. Then the worst is he will always verbally abused my mum. Then my mum is those who had been sloggin at home to take care of the family so is a bit kind of back-dated and she is really lousy at quarelling. So everytime she quarrels with him, she always put herself in down wind and always end up being abused verbally by my dad. Then my dad also nvr show her respect outside. He will either shout at her or make a spectacle. I still can ta han if he shout at me or try to pick a quarrel becoz i can handle it but not when he does it with my mum. Go pick on someone your size if you are a true man. Den he also one ungrateful person. Today he just say one of the nastiest things to my sis. My parents going to China so my sis bought an extra thermal gloves for them. So my dad commented they had more than enough and why she buy without asking HIM. Then he go on saying about the Korea trip which my sis went and she bought back this $1000 worth of Ginseng product for them. He say that it's a waste of money. Wat type of father is this. Being filial and this is the shit you get from him. Really i'm hitting my top. I think the frequency i'm hitting my top, my level has leveled to like lvl50. Very soon, i can up level to the next job level. Sometimes, even though i have a father, i feel like i have no father. I'm saying this not out of anger but in fact with sadness. I dun like to compare but when I see other people's father, i can only just stand there and envy. I'm sure every father is not perfect but at least i know their fathers love their family more than themselves. My dad is the opposite. He loves the family but he loves himself more. He has contributions to the family but it doesn't justify his responsiblity. All my life, honestly, I nvr learn anything from him nor is there anything that i want to model after him. The only thing i learn from him is not to follow his foot steps. But den again, it left a lot of holes in my growing up. I grew up insecured, inconfident, timid, unsocialable (intentional becoz afraid). Despite all these, I still give thanks to God. I nvr had a good role-model but den He showed me the way. He brought me out of the valley. He let me sit at the top of the mountain. He comforts me when i'm down. He encourages me when I fail. He praise me when I do well. He shows me what is right and He disciplines me when i'm wrong. He never fail me. He never stray away nor took a nap. He stood behind me, beside me, in front of me and above me. He is my Father in heaven.

Lord, I know my earthly father had failed as a father figure but I pray that you will take away any hatred, anger, bitterness or pain from me against him. I don't want to judge him. And I ask that with Your love, You will help to change him. And that at times when I'm blowing my top, Lord help me to calm down and may Your grace fill me. And even though he fail, You never fail and I thank You for guiding and caring for me like a shepherd to a lamb. And I pray that God, You will help me to become a good husband and father when i become one. Thank you Lord. Amen!

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TRYING TO BE ARTISTIC! HA HA! CAN GUESS WHAT I JUST DO???

Mess Up????

It's really a long time i haven't blog. As usual, it's not becoz there's nothing to blog but really no desire to just sit down and blog. So many things have happen over the last 2 months. It's like time really flies. I went back as a helper to this SERVE program. I truly enjoyed it and really love the group i was in. Diakoneans. Servants of our God. Though a substantial age gap, i still was able to enjoy everybody's companion. But then time really flies and first the lecture phase was over and quickly the 1 week of mission trip is over. What can i say? But even as I slow down to think about this 2 months worth of SERVE, I just sense that I am using SERVE as a means of running away from reality. I'm really finding a chore in my studies. It's not that I hate studying but just that for my last 12 yrs of education, i had nvr truly done what I enjoy. Maybe it sounds like i'm a spoilt kid but I beg to differ. It's just that I nvr was built to be like part of the defined society. I'm good in numbers and bad in language and nvr was i given that chance to explore my forte. Instead i was clustered with things i nvr will enjoy. I'm trying to find a purpose. I just really want to get over with my studies. I got back my results and i just barely scrap pass which i was really very contended considering the amount of effort i had put in. And I honestly can't stand the pressure from my parents. Though they have been more liberal and not demanding me to show them the results, I know that deep in them, they want not just good but fantastic results. It has always been like this since young. A 80mark is not good enough becoz it shows that i do not know 20% of my stuff and i had to work harder to achieve that lost marks. So in my mentality, if i need to do anything, it is either i do it very well or i dun do at all. So I'm very paranoid over exams. When I study, I need to study everything or else i will feel very paranoid. I will keep thinking that if i miss out even 1 chpter, i'm going to do very badly. That's how bad it is. Even right now, though i know wat is the issue, i cannot fully remove such paranoid in me. I really feel mess up. And honestly, this is really a bad testimony to the youths I'm with. On one hand, i will encourage them to do their best even if they find it hard but yet myself, i'm like in a mess. Ironical? Hyprocritical? I dun know. Having said all these, I still want to draw myself back to God. I need to believe and I want to believe that what i'm going thru now, He has a plan for me. I may be suffering but His grace is sufficient. Help me Lord! Let me not be tested beyond my threshold! And even if it's over my limit, may I find your extra portion of You in me and I know i can soar like eagle's wings! Amen!

The Flower, The Butterfly and The Bee

The flower stood in the midst of the field. As the wind blew, the flower swayed to the rhythm. And the flower fell into bits and pieces of its memory. It still remember the days when there will be a butterfly which will frequently fly past and ocassionally pay a visit to the flower. The butterfly was gorgeous and the flower was deeply attracted to it. But not long after, the butterfly flew by lesser and eventually it disappeared. The flower was disappointed and waited day after day, hoping that it will have a glance of the butterfly. And again it was disappointed. And its memory of the butterfly is also fading but it still refuse to give up. Meanwhile in this tiring waiting, the flower was also visited by this bee, a hardworking and talented bee. Everyday, without fail, the bee will pay a visit to the flower. The flower is amazed by the capability of the bee. However, its memory of the butterfly, though vague, is still holding on to the flower. What should the flower do?

Haha! Lousy story telling, tat's wat i can say! Muahahahahha. Anyway do you want to know the ending of the flower? It ended up as one of the flower in a bouquet for Valentines' Day. Muahahahaahahahha!

It's a long time since i blog. Busy? Nah! Nothing to blog! Nope, in fact i have many things, too much until i just dun wan to blog. haha! Many ideas and things have gone thru my mind but i doubt i will put everything up. Maybe just these few things. I have recently watched this movie, I not stupid too! A local product and i have to say it's a well-done job. Got depth and yet the humor was good. I truly enjoyed it. I won't narrate the movie so if you wan to know the story, go watch it for yourselves. However, in the show it had some phrases which i tot was pretty meaningful.

1) In this world, there are no unteachable children but rather parents who do not know how to teach.

I'm sure many of you will be quick to agree with me. I truly agree with this statement but den on the flip side, I rather see it in the point of the parents. Parents have their constraints as well. Most of our parents have gone thru a total different style of up-bringing. Their parents are more conservative and discipline is a key element in their growing up. No nonsense and if failed, Mr Rotan goes to the flesh. So inevitably, they have been trained to 'educate' us in this manner. Are they wrong? yes and no. Yes becoz violence is no way to resolve problems but den no is becoz there are times when discipline has to be instilled in them in the form of punishment. The pain is not to humiliate them but to let them feel the pain and be reminded of the wrongdoings. And most importantly, after the punishment, proper counselling has to be done. Explain to the kids why they were punished. My early childhood was terrifying to a certain extent. Cane was not used. My dad prefer to use something that is more durable and not cost him extra cent to get it. His belt. Any wrongdoing is dealt with reprimand and if not Mr Belt. I thank God he didn't whip us senselessly. It was painful but it serves as a warning to me. I dun blame him for belting me but he doesn't explain why he punish. He just say dun i ever do it again. It left a lot of unanswered questions and I thank God that He answer all these or else i believe i would have become a very bittered person. So as children, we have to understand that our parents have their constraints. And as parents, they have to understand that the world is always changing and many things cannot be dealt using the old ways. The issues of parents-child cannot be dealt with overnight but my advise is to 'communicate' and not just talk but be constructive. Also my dear frens, one day you will be a parent too. How are you going to 'educate' your child? Honestly, i see many younger generations who are doing the opposite of wat their parents are doing. They liberised their children. Do what ever you want. Ai yoh!

2) He (father) loves you so much until he(father) doesn't know how to love you

Paradox. Maybe but it makes so much sense. The story was abt this ex-hooligan father who love his son so much but seeing tat his son is interested in martial arts, he helplessly used violence to deter him. Sometimes, when we love one so much, we unknowingly do things that actually hurt them more. There are many scenarios. I think one good example is if you know your kid is stealing or into drugs, would you report them to the authority. I hope i will but it is going to be a tough decision. Or if you love your kid so much, will you give your kid everything he ask? What is love? That's something for us to really think about.

ai yah! Actually got one more phrase but i can't remember. Jia lat. Getting old. I'm 25 this year. ARRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Chinese New Year

Blink! Blink! Wow! The CNY holidays are over. My goodness. How fast it zooms by! Really feel like whining but then i guess that's a very wrong spirit. In fact, I do think I should give thanks to God. There are so many things to praise God for. Yup! That is how we should face life - look at the things that we can give God the glory and not the things that tie us down.

27 Jan (Fri)

In the evening, met up with Xu En, Ding Yi, Xin Ling, Si En, Daniel and Ariz and went to Marina South to eat the budget steamboat. Den realised now the different stalls are offering ferry service. So den got this China lady (no intention to discriminate any nation) who was bugging us to patronise her stall. Since she was the first to 'bug' us, so decided to go for her stall. She had either a mini- ko yak- bus or a pick up. Hmmm! Obviously the mini-bus. SO reached there den each person pay 10 dollar. Den have free satay and ice-cream. So went to get the food. Honestly, that night ate all those cooked food more than the BBQ food. Ate chicken wings, nuggets, bun, crab stick, fishballs, meatballs. Woah! Really ate quite a bit. After dinner, went to Cosy Bay at Kallang. Wen Yuan came along. So went there and ordered 2 jugs of soft drinks and went up to the top of the tower to blow air. haha! Really cooling. Sat for a while, talk some rubbish. Left home.

28 Jan (Sat)

Went to jog in the morning with Ding yi, Xin Ling and Xu En. After the run, went to Xu En's house to bath den went to eat brunch at McDonald. Actually Xu En wanted to cut hair but den i think he too lazy so went home, den he started to clean the windows at home while i 'ba long long'. Haha! Den together went to church for worship practise. After practise, went for wheelchair svc. After svc, had "Lou Yu Sheng". Really very sumptuous. Claudia and her mum helped to add extra ingredients. More salmon and abalone. Yum Yum! After that, went over to my aunt's place for reunion dinner. After dinner, went to City Hall to meet Darren, Clement, Ariz, Daniel, Wilfred, Yvon and Jamie to go Chinatown. Real crowded and walk and see see. Den when finally over, was abt 1am. Den decided to go for supper. At the end, only Wilfred and Daniel went while the rest all go back and kun.

29 (Sun)

No visitation in the morning as we completed it yesterday. THkfully. So rested. Den some of the youths watching Geisha in the evening. Want to watch movie but dun wan to watch sad movies. SO ended getting tickets for "I not stupid 2". Honestly, it was better than i expected. I dun wan to spoil the fun by telling you the story. SO go and watch it for yourself. Rate: 8/10 2 quotes of the show that really strike me. First was "Your dad loves so much. He loves you so much that he doesn't know how to love you." What it actually it means is that that dad loves the son so much that he shows his love in the wrong way. Another quote was that "There is no teachable child but there're parents who do not know how to teach." Having say this, I'm not putting all the blames on parents. In fact, I'm looking at the point of the parent in me. When I am a father, how do i want to teach my children. There is no one way to go about teaching but what i feel the most important is to teach them to know, fear and to love God as their Father. And likewise as a father, i have to know, fear and love God as my Father. After movie, went to Daniel's house and waited for Wilfred and Kevin to fetch us for supper. Went to Changi Village. Me had a beef burger and a chicken kebab. Haha! Eat so much. After that went to East Coast to play pool. Play until nearly 2am. Yawn. SO tired. Went home

30 (Sun)

Woke up early to iron my clothes. Haha! haven't iron my CNY clothes. So den went church and was playing bass for church svc. Hmmm! I think i really sucks at rhythm and beats. I couldn't play in beat with the fast songs. Den the 3/4 songs, i was practically trying not to play a 4/4 beat. Haiz. Well! Just have to put in more effort. Den rush home as everybody coming to visit my house. When everybody was around, den my aunt who is always the coordinator, arrange for the schedule. So we left for my uncle's house in Pasir Ris. After which we went to another uncle's house at Tampines. After which, i took over the car from my cousin becoz he wanted to drive another cousin's sports car. Haha! First driving a Merz. Wow! As usual, i had problems with cars that i nvr touch before. I couldn't find the release for the leg break. The catch was like a handle near the steering wheel. Took me a while to find it. Den the accerlerator was a bit ko yak. Have to step until 1/2 way mark den the car start moving. Haha! But after a while was fun. So went over to my another 2 of my uncles' place at Hougang. Den i was tasked to go home to pick up my granny and my dad. Haha! It was at nite and i needed to on the headlite. Took me a fewe min before i found it. Den it took me quite a while to reach home and to bring them to my aunt's place in Tanjong Rhu. Haha! Hmmm! Still got a long way to improve driving. So stay there until like abt 11 plus den went home. SO tired.

31 (Tues)

Woke up at about 10am. Today going to Uncle Tim's house. Hehe! HEard got satay and mee siam. So much goodies. Met some of them at Simei MRT den it was like so hot, so I decided to take a cab to Uncle Tim's house. Anyway thks to Darren. Agreed to wear shirt den last min he back out and nvr tell me. SO i was the only one in long-sleeved shirt. Haiz! Haha! Stayed until 2pm den left for William's place. Took a bus down to Tanah Merah MRT and shot up to Tiong Bahru. Walk over. Was greeted with Root Beer Float. Yum yum. Den we were like playing this Jenga that has forfeit. So had a lot of fun. Clement got the most forfeits. Den we also get 'some couples' to do some things. haha! Den time flew very fast. 6pm and had to rush to Shu Ping's place at Pasir Ris. Having a farewell party for Xu En and Ting2. When we reached there, found out that Ting2 sick and Xu En was not there yet. Hmmm! So much abt farewell. Haha! Den Xu En came later. Den Si En decide to take the leftover food and play the SEcret Number. ANd guess wat, Ding Yi was the first to be forfeited. The number was chosen by Si EN. Pyshic? I'm not too sure, you go and decide for yourself. Muahaha. So den abt 9.30, left the place. Took a cab home. Yayyyyyy!

Really thk GOd for these few days. Though it pass by pretty quick, i really enjoy myself with the companion of my frens and relatives. Hehe! And also thk God for the financial abundance. Haha!

Salsa

Hehe! So excited. Today evening going to my first dance lesson. Taking up Salsa. Going with 2 of my ex-sec classmates. After going to SERVE in the afternoon, went to Tanjong Pagar to meet my frens. Was early so went to have a dessert at this hawker centre. Then met up with them at about 7pm. So walked towards Maxwell House. As the class starting at 8.30pm, went to have a light dinner. Ordered some Dim Sum den was talking or rather gossiping with the girls. Haha! Den it started pouring. Thkfully we had an umbrella and i got the honor to make 2 shifts to shelter the girls to the building. Then we found the place and waited a while. There was a class going on. Guess what dance? Bollywood dance. Very catchy i have to say. After that, the teacher and his partner got us to the dance floor. Taught us the basic steps: Normal step, Side Step, Cumbia (pronunce as Kum Bia. I hope i got the word rite), Normal Step with a right turn. After we 'master' these basic steps, we move to dancing with a partner. Salsa is Male-lead dance which means the male will lead the lady in the dance. The teacher showed us the posture and technique on how to lead the lady. It was a bit hard, since I had to try to get my steps in beat while figuring how to lead the lady and the lady tends to go into auto-pilot mode. So it was really kind of tough. Den we keep changing partner. Den until this girl, she told me to relax. I admit i was feeling a bit stiff but the way she put it was like, "come on! Relax lah! Why so stiff?" Haha. My pride being challenged. Then we managed to dance to a few song which was really cool. I really enjoyed it. I dun know how to put it. I hope i can learn it well and if possible, incorporate it into worship songs and present it as a worship unto God. Isn't tat beautiful. Hehe! Another thing is you got to really know how to manevoure and shake. Haha! I'm looking forward to the next lesson. YeahhHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Boy Meets Girl (Joshua Harris)

Well! Finally I picked up a book to read. For those who knows me well enough, books are not just a no, no but a taboo to me. Muahahahahaha! Ok lah! That's just an invalid excuse. But honestly, I love this author. This is his 2nd book, his first titled, "I kissed dating goodbye". I won't go into that book but it talks about if one is not ready for a relationship, how that one shd go about leading a Christianly singlehood while waiting for the right one. Then this later book is written 4 years later, during which he met his wife. As the title has suggested, he talks about Christianly courtship and eventually marriage. One thing that I like about this author is not so much his writing style or how spiritually he had put his words but rather many of the things he wrote were affirmation of what God had told me. Interesting rite. It may seem far-fetched that God actually talk to me but He did, not so much audibly but in a way that He and I communicate. I have read this book 2/3 through and i stopped. Hehe! Typical me! But I am picking it up once again, and I am determine to finish it. Yeah! I havent' finish reading but here's somethings that I found interesting and I will like to post it. Joshua started the book with an interesting idea. He had Adam in the picture and with him was one of his granddaughter, Elanna (i believe this is a make-up name and the following story is just his imagination). And here's how it goes:

"When you saw her, what did you say?"

The old man's eyes danced
"I didn't say anything, not at first," he answered. "I think I tripped on a root, and she laughed at me. She loved to laugh at me."

"But eventually you spoke to her," Elanna said, determined to coax the story from him

I was flustered," he answered, shaking his head. "My mind was on fire with curiousity and a new kind of happines. Here stood a creature after my own kind. Her every feature comforted my senses and invited me nearer. Her eyes looked back into mine with soul depth."

"You'll understand that moment better when you have it yourself," he continued. "When you meet your soul's match, what words are adequate? Sometimes joy can almost choke you. When we first met, I wanted to whisper and shout and laugh and dance all in one moment."
"Elanna...."
"You ask these questions because you yourself long to meet your soul's match. Don't pretend I don't know you, child. You have your First Mother's eyes. They looked just like yours do now when she was longing for the Garden. But you miss someone you;ve never met. You want to run through time and glimpse that first meeting. You want to know how you'll know him. But you need not fret."

"But it doesn't seem fair to me," Elanna said, the words born of frustration tumbling out. "It was easy for you. The Maker brought Grandmother to you. She was the only woman for you. She was the only woman!"

"Child...."
"It only seems that way. Our meeting was 'easy' as you put it, not because we were the only humnakind but because in those sweet days before we disobeyed, we implicitly trusted the Maker to bring what was good."
He reached out and with both hands lifted her head so her eyes looked into his. "My dear child, what you must try to see is that nothing has changed. When the Maker brings you your husband, you'll be aware that it was He who made you for each other and He who planned your meeting. And in that moment, just was we did, you'll want to sing a song of praise to Him."

I must say it was interestingly narrated and yet it was so clear, trusted the Maker to bring what was good. Sometimes we worry about missing that 'chance' and if we dun take things into our hand, it will pass by us and it will be gone for good. What little faith or even disobedience we can be. I know it's easier said then done. I'm going through it and definitely know how it feels. The mind is full of knowledge that God will provide but den the emotions are just so hard to bear.
Lord, help me to be obedient to You and to trust that You will bring what is good for me. Help me to overcome my conflictings emotions and to divert my energy into serving and giving You the glory.

Food for Thought: Pizza

15 Jan 2006

Wow! New year! I guess I haven't really blog anything serious, considering out of the 4 postings of the new year, 3 are craps. Haha! Really want to post some things thta reflects of God's glory and goodness. But meanwhile, my mind is a bit unsettled and I need to really sort some things out. Until then, I will not be posting much, maybe I will but more 'lamb' stuff.

But on this sunday, Pastor Edwin was preaching. Hehe! I was trying my best to listen but my mind is just so unsettled. But thkfully, as he shared an analogy about Pizza and that we segment our life like how we segment the Pizza. As he continued sharing, my mind wandered away and I started analysing the Pizza theory. And I realised how truly we segment our life like a Pizza. A portion for our family, a portion for career, a portion for leisure, a portion for Ministry, a portion for God. My! my! What are we in for! We are simply just slotting God into our busy time schedule. We are really into big trouble. We only engage God when that segment of Pizza is being served. That is so wrong. We must change out mindset. God is not a segment of the Pizza. He is the Crust and Base of the Pizza. The ingredients are the things in our life. If our Crust and Base are firm and strong, it will hold the ingredients together firmly. However without the Crust and Base, if the ingredients are mixed together and thrown into the fire and though i say it may still taste as good but it will be a big mess becoz nothing is holding them together. Yes! We want to enjoy the things in our life but firstly, we have to have a strong Base and Crust and that's having a quality relationship with God. He must be the centre of our life. And when we achieve that, the things in our life will be set in place.
I guess I'm guilty at times that i treat God like a segment of the Pizza. Saturday is Youth and Worship Pract and Sunday is svc and beyond that, it's back to the world and 'reality'. I know if i carry on, it's a one way to 'doom'. Lord, help me to not stray away from you when I'm not busy with my ministry and help me to be focus on You. Lord, let me hold unto Your word, "Seek ye first the Kingdom of God, and the rest will be added you."

Just for Fun

I've been tagged by Wen Yuan and now I gotta do this:
Rules of the game: 1) Post 5 weird/random things about yourself 2) At the end of the quiz,list the names of 5 people whom you want next to do this and leave a comment "U R tagged" in their blog and tell them to read your 5 random things and continue the game!

1) I can swim but am afraid of the seas

2) I can't sparin my ankles. (becoz i sprained until cannot sprained alreadi. spoilt)

3) I have 6th sense. (but sometimes it oversenses)

4) I can blow bubble with my saliva

5) I used to have an imaginary friend. Actually it is still around. Hayyy! W.Y also has one. Maybe they know each other. muahahaaha.

As for tagging other pple, i dun like to bother other pple. So! Good news! This will end here.

New Year, New Resolution, Same Purpose

My my! 2005 just flew by so fast. I'm not too sure but somehow as age catches up, I have the feeling that time slipped past my hands so quickly, so unexpectantly. Really wish that the time will just slow down. As i reflect on Yr 2005, it really just show how faithful and wise God is. In the first quarter of the year, I had to make a very tough decision and I thk God that He gave me the strength and assurance to choose that path. Some other things happen after that decision and it really affected me pretty bad but den becoz I chose that decision, i see that God is actually helping me. Then during mid year something happen and it also affected me and once again becoz of my initial decision, I know that God is there with me and for me. Our God is an awesome God. Then the rest of the months were just trying to discipline myself to study and managing my commitment in the different ministries, family and friends. Honestly, feel that I have not really achieved what i really wish i would have done but then again, it could be worse. But the highlight of the year comes during December. Though I miss the mission trip, my heart was with the team and also the people of Cambodia. I hope that next year I could once again step my feet on to the soil of Cambodia. Then there was the Youth Camp. I praised the Lord for it once again speaks of His faithfulness. He who starts a good work will bring it to completion. Yes Lord! Amen! This camp was fully run by the youths themselves and i saw many of them moving out of the comfort zone and rising up to offer their service to the Lord. And at the camp, many had been touched and I know that their life is different. They had been transformed. Indeed there's revival in the youths. Praise God! My time as a youth is up. I have walked that path and I had a glimpse of what God has installed for the youths. My task is to tell the youths what God has installed for them. My time is nearing and I am with joy to see that the youths are rising up to take over.
After the camp was followed by X'mas celebration. I think i'm losing the excitement and the true meaning of X'mas. I must really start to revive that true feeling of X'mas. It shd be more than just the lightings in Orchard Road, the turkey, the x'mas tree, Santa Claus. It's all about You. Let me always remember that.
Then it was the wedding of my 'Da Ge'. Oh it came really unexpectedly. He was always working very hard and never seems to have time to meet us, so let alone find a g/f. So among the other 4 brothers, we always speculate that he won't be the first to get married. But guess wat? Surprise surprise! He is getting married and we only know about it like a few months before his wedding. What kind of brother is tat? Haha! But really feel very happy for him. But also a feeling of sadness. There goes another good man's freedom. Haha! His wedding was on Boxing Day. SO on X'mas nite went over his house to help in preparation. I got the easy job. I just need to ensure that the necessary things are brought along. Haha! Yayy! The rest have to be drivers. So next morning woke up pretty early, den changed and got ready. Left at about 8am. Last minute, i was also tasked to drive. Haha! Den very funny. The car doesn't have a hand brake but instead a foot brake. So when i was abt to drive off, I exclaimed on where the hand brake is. Everybody in the car was like x.x''''''. haha! Finally someone told me and we set off. Reached the bride's place, waited for quite a long while b4 able to go up to the house. Thk God that the challenges were not too difficult. Actually all the 'brothers' back out and left the groom to fend for himself. Muahaha. So then later, just keep zooming up and down fetching pple. Really tiring to drive fr 8am- 2pm. Nearly crashed the car a few times. muahahahhaha. Then at night had dinner. Food not bad and get to eat since not too much work to do. Really a lot of mixed feelings. Suddenly, a lot of memories just flashed back. I still remember when we all first met in Hai Sing High Sec. 4 yrs in sch. Den the 4 of them went poly while i went JC den I entered army followed by the 4 of them. Den they started to work and now in a turn of eyes, 'Da Ge' is getting married. Really had a lot of joy and excitement, growing up together with them. Den again, this feelings creep into me. How about myself? When is it my turn? Initially, the feeling is bad. Den as i ponder upon it, these questions were asked not so much as a reflection of my loneliness but rather to assure me that God has someone for me and that in His due time, He will reveal to me.

MY PRAYER:
Yes Lord! I long for someone but yet I know above all my feelings and desires, You have the best for me. So Lord, let me have the patience and strength to wait upon You. And I ask that You help me to guard my heart and let it not turn cold nor turn away from You. So let it be that Your will be done in my life. Thank you Lord!

22 Ways to make a girl smile or tat's wat you think

1. Tell her she is beautiful or
gorgeous
(not fine, or
sexy)
and she replies: You are not.

2 . Hold her hand at any moment . . .
even if its
just
for a second.
And the next, her hand is in your face.

3 . Kiss her on the forehead/ neck.
And she tells you she just went for a facial which involves highly acidic chemicals to remove the dead skin.

4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up
to.
and on the other side of the phone, she is swearing at you for waking her up from the alert of the sms.

5 . When she is upset, hold her tight and
tell her
how
much she means to you.
And she tells you that you are the problem,

6 . Recognize the small things . . . they
usually
mean
the most.
Small diamonds with big carrot. That’s what she meant

7 . Pick her over all the other girls you
hang out
with.
Are you even sure you want to let her know you hang out with other girls???

8 . Write her notes. (She'll love them )
She meant blank cheques.

9 . Introduce her to family and friends . . .
as your
girlfriend.
And she introduced you to her family as somebody she knows somewhere she can’t remember.

10 . Play with her hair.
Yah! Enjoy it. Next you will Pay for her hair.

11 . Pick her up, tickle her, and play-
wrestle with
her.
Isn’t this what after marriage is about after all? Pick her up from work, malls, everywhere, Tickle her with diamonds, posh, fine-dining, blah blah and wrestle with her only to lose at the end of it. Hmmm. Sounds fun to me.

12 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.
And In her head she is thinking that her day at work was bad. But now with you around it didn’t seem that bad after all. You are worse.


13 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid
jokes, or
just
tell her jokes.
And she thanks God for a free clown.

14 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.
Actually she fainted at the sight of you.

15 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.
Now you must be mad.

16 . Give her piggyback rides.
And she thanks God once again for a free clown that piggybacks.

17 . Bring her flowers
And you earned yourself an upgrade from flowers to fine-dining. The next upgrade is diamond.

18 . Treat her the same around your
friends as you
do when you are alone.
Ok lah! For once I agree on this. A person’s characters can be clearly seen when he is with one or many pple. Likewise as I always tell somebody, how a guy treats his mother or sister will be the way he treats his g/f.

19 . Look her in the eyes and smile.
And she flashed her xxx finger at you.

20 . Let her take as many pictures of you
as she
wants.
She needs them for her Voodo doll.

21 . Kiss her in the rain.
And the headline for tml news is “Man got brutally attacked by lady with umbrella in the rain’’

22 . If your in love with her . . . tell her.
I wish I could. Hiaz..

Just For Fun 29

THis is crappily fun. I dun know why i did it but i just did it. Courtesy of W.Y's blog.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I love olives.
I own lots of books.(But I dun read them)
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe that honesty usually is the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain. (most of the time)
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning. (HOORRRHH! x,x )
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S
I have worn fake hair / fingernails / eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I know how to cornrow.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
Slept with a suitemate.
I have a hidden talent. (actually more than a talent)
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I LOVE TO SHOP!!!
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex. (last time, but now sometimes will slip back into being self-conscious den become shy)I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.(alochol yes, drug no)
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work / school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
I enjoy some country music.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I like surveys.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
Conservative Republican.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient on a musical instrument. (that's what i think i am)
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I like sausage.
I am a pyro.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I love Dear Abby.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I think school is awesome.
I think pigtails serve a purpose.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I f**king hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays
I watch Food Network way too much.
I love coaching youth sports.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep. (not too sure. I think i do. My sis say i did speak in my dream b4.)I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I would not be friends if they weren't family.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
I love wrestling.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.
I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
I only clean my room when neccesary.
I have pointy-ended ears.
I love korean dramas.

Youth Camp

All praises to God! This is the 1st Youth Camp for SACC. And it's my first as well, at the age of 24. A bit too old for the camp. Nah! I'm still young. This camp really is a special camp as it really reveals the faithfulness of God. I'll talk about this later. An update on wat happen during the camp.

18 Dec (Sunday)

Well, the teams went for the AmazinGrace while me, daniel and Xu En help out with the logistics. Had to trouble Jia Bao to drive the Church Van to fetch the barang barang. By the time we reached was about 2plus den have to quickly set up the sound, den realised we bring a lot of unnecessary stuff. Wasted my energy. Den somemore nvr even eat lunch. But thk God got Xu En and Daniel to help. By then, all the groups had reached St. Andrew's Village. So quickly bunked in, took a shower and went for dinner. After dinner, had a worship session. Yvon leading and i was supporting her and playing the guitar. Really very hard to play and co-lead. But Yvon did a good job. And we also taught the youths the theme song, Therefore being Justified By Faith with actions. The youths were awesome. After that we had a time of devotion and afterwhich we had a game session, called CSI, suppose to be kinda like a detective game, solving clues to find the murderer. So I was assigned to be a DNA Technician and pple will come to me with evidence and I will tell them the analysis of the evidence. So much fun. Then at the end, only group 4 guess the correct murderer. That's my group. Lionel and Yvon's group. Yayyyy!!! So after that was a quick supper and lights out.

19 Dec (Monday)

Woke up early to play basketball. I think around 6.30am. Saw some of the youths not asleep, so they joined me. After the game, washed up and had breakfast. It was splendid. One whole chunk of egg omelette, 1 hotdog, bread, mash potato. Yum, Yum. Then we had worship led by Ting2. Introduced a couple of new songs which were very inspiring. Then she teared, must have meant alot to her, these songs. After, we had the honour of our senior pastor Rev Wong Tak Meng to share the word of God. The camp was titled Holey or Holy? And the verse is taken from Phi 4:13: I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me. Pastor talk about life that is holey is like a donut. It is tasty on the outside becoz of the sugar coating but yet it has a big hole in the middle which is not filling. It has no substance. It is not nutritious. Whereas God Himself, He is Holy becoz nothing can be compared to Him. Holy means to set apart for a special purpose and value. And are we ready to prepare and reserve our life, set apart for the purpose for God?
Had lunch and had some team bonding games. Afterwhich, we had a session where a present-day youth issue is brought up and discussed openly amongst the youths and adults. We specially invited Li Boey, Julie, Zhi Cao and Zhi Yang to guest speak. Me and Xu En sneak out for a while to get somethings. So kinda miss the beginning. When we came back, they were talking abt Teen Romance, if it is right or wrong. Hmmm! Interesting. Honestly, i feel this topic can debate on and on and until the cow comes home and there will not be a conclusion. How i feel is how one define Teen Romance, according to God's standard and individual's values and principles. Though i'm out of the youth age, i did have teen romance before (sad to say, all one sided. haha) But as I look back, i thk God nothing happen out of it becoz they were nvr meant to be. But i still feel that to certain extent Teen Romance is necessary becoz it is natural for one to be attracted to the opposite sex. God makes us this way. But then I always believe is how we carry ourself in the relationship according to God's standard and also personal values and principles. I believe that the relationship shd be more of one on understaning each other's characters and also to build each other on God's character than to focus on just the emotional aspects. And the relationship shd be purely on a friendship basis. I know we are talking abt romance here but i believe romance is not just found in the emotional part but also when both parties start to discover abt each other's characters and also wanting to help each other to grow in the Lord's presence. Well! This is my stand and values. You dun have to follow if you dun see eye to it.
After that had dinner den had a short worship before devotion. After devotion, we played underground church. The youth advisor get to be the Reformists and we get to 'torture' and 'interogage' the youths. Quite fun except that the lights couldn't be switch off. I wanted to be harsher but William told us to tone it down as this is the first time we are doing it, dun want to leave a bad impression. So can't do much. But had pretty fun. The torture chamber somehow or rather became a good 'nite spot'. Haha! It was at a dark corridor end. At the end, there are many pple volunteering to have a try at the torture chamber. haha. After the game, William had a debrief with us and telling us the rationale behind the games. I was soaked wet with seaweed, one of the torture stuff. Smells awful man. Then had to clean up the torture chamber. Xu En and Claudia were there also. After cleanup, went to bath, had supper and sleep.

20 Dec (Tues)

Woke up abit later and some of the youths playing basketball, so join them and after tat went for a bathe and went for breakfast. Yucks! Porridge. Plain one somemore. Then after that had worship led by Xin Ling. I have to say she is getting the hang of being a Worship Leader. Becoming more confident and less self-conscious. Then Pastor Wong had his 2nd sermon on how to be holy. 1stly, to honour Christ in life and in death. 2ndly, to work out our salvation as God works in us, 3rdly, be wise abt who we follow, 4thly, rejoice in the Lord always. After sermon, had lunch and followed by more games and then the water games. Woahhhhhhhhhhhh! Fantastic. I'm loving it. Got myself all wet but that's the whole idea. After that had a buffett dinner, short worhsip followed by devotion. After devotion, it was the highlight of the day. Specail Night. Each group is given certain criteria and with that, they are suppose to come up with a play. I was with the Youth Committee and Advisors group. We got Powerpuff girls, David Hasselhoff, PCK, Matrix. Haha! I was David Hasselhoff. Muahahaha. Den really funny man! All the rubbish things all come out. You must see the video for yourself. After that, had a prayer meeting with the committe and the advisors. Honestly, by den I was already very touched at what the Youths are doing. They are really rising up and responding to the calls of God. And I truly know that our God is a faithful God who will keep to His promise and will continue the good work He has started. I just couldn't hold my tears.

21 Dec (Wed)
Last day of camp. Had breakfast, den worship led by Gordon. Den Pastor Wong shared his last message. We are on earth, for a race. To run the race and win the prize. But along the way, there will be temptation to sin in Power, Money, Sex or we may be threatened by fear of Death, Loss and Rejection. But if we hold to word of God, Phi 1:6 He began a good work in you, He will bring to completion on the day of Jesus Christ. If we can see beyond all the temptations and fears, we will be able to see a good course in running the race. It is better to be accepted by God and rejected by men den to be rejected by God and accepted by men. Phi 3:13-14 Forgetting what lies behind and straining towards what lies ahead, I press towards the goal.
Then Pator ask for a respond from the crowd to come forward and meet God face to face. I thk GOd that all came forward. Once again, I couldn't hold back my tears. Indeed our Lord is a faithful GOd. Prais Adonai. Xu En came over and prayed for me and I really thk God for him. At the end, i could see many of the youths being touched and I know that the Lord is starting to do things in their life. All good things have to end. But i knew this is the beginning of many good things. Den had to clear all the logistics. Thk Xu En, ariz and Charlie for helping. Brought everything back to church. After that, I was so tired, I couldn't move, I simply drop dead on Lydia's table and slept for 45mins before going home. Haha. This is going to be an unforgetable time.

Russell Peters

He is a stand up comedian. Ok pretty funny especially he tries to mimic a chinese speaking English. B-Grade comedian. And pls bear with some of his language.

Why You Shd Cane Your Kid

This clip contains the "F" word. So if you dun feel comfortable, pls skip this one.

Chinese

Indian

China

Disclaimer: These clips are not in anyway meant to be of any discrimination against anyone. It is just purely for humour.

Hand Me The Trotters and The Goblet of Tyres

My! My! Disappointing! Really a let-down. I thought I'm into a treat of more magic and mystery but I am wrong. All I get is half a cent of some 'wannabe magicians'. Or maybe it's just me. I have too wild an imgaination when I read the book and that it is too dramatic if it was done it in the movie. Waste of my money!

The hall was pathethic. I think as part of the school loosening of budget, they have magically reduced the size of a grand hall into a mini tuckshop of some kuching kurauk primary school. (no offence if there is really such a school). Really pathethic, seeing the 4 houses having to squeeze in that mini-bar. Or maybe it's just me. Everybody has grown up, so relatively and compartively, the hall looked smaller with the same number of people but bigger in size. Yah! Maybe this can explain my oversight.

Dumbledore looks like an old, senile, easily freak-out man. He doesn't behave like he is a wise magician. He was squeeking here and there and raising his voice in frustration and hopelessness. My goodness! He is suppose to be a wise though with uncertainty about the future but yet firm and steady magician. But no no! I think he needs some oiling up in his acting skill or else I will really say DumptheDoor.

Ron! Hmmm! Honestly, i thought if he never appeared in this movie, it won't really matter much. No development in this character. But i think he should get a better hair stylist. The hair really look bad. I know his appearance not suppose to be something that is attractive but den, i'm sure he deserved a better hair style.

Harry. I still think he looks like Frodo Baggins. Or they are both the same actor. Hmmm. Nothing much to comment.

Hermoine. Hmmm. Ok! Nothing fantastic also. Well! Have great potential. Though the dress she wore for the ball was a bit too much for her. Then again, she is still young. Got to wait another few more years before such gown fits. Anyway the ball was pathetic too. They should really go for proper dancing. And the ballroom is darn small. Yes! Yes! I haven't forgotten about the school cutting-cost budget.

My! My! I don't have much to compliment about the movie. Ok the 3 challenges that the Champions had to face were pretty exciting but overall the show didn't bring out any flavour. The director tried to change from the usual directoring to a more dark, suspense, eerie feel. But honestly, it felt like they were saving on the lightings. Sorry folks! Disappointment and I say with great regards, waste of money!

Rating: Forget about the rating.

Yet another unofficial blogging! ^o*

Actually, i wanted to blog this yesterday one but forgot about it. Yesterday in the afternoon went to play basketball. So den got a few kids and den this youngster and an uncle dropped by. So they wanted to play a match, 4 on 4. Den kinda of unfair. The other team got the uncle, the youngster and 2 kids which can play quite decently. My team got me and another youngster and 2 kids who can't play quite decently. Alamak! Haha! But for fun still play! Den somemore play full courts. NEarly died. My team only me and the other youngster can play pretty well! The other team rite, the uncle super accruate. Every shot all 'chop' one. My goodness. No mattter how you mark, he sure can get the ball in. Actually wanted to play hard defense with him one lah but den decide not to since it's a friendly game. First game, lost 15-10. I tot it was not too bad since my team's headcount is like 2 and 1/2. Dun ask me how i have 1/2 a head. Actually the 1/2 head is quite kind in words alreadi. So den play 2nd match. Totally, lost out. Lost 11-4. Dun mind losing lah! In fact, i think i work out alot. Running up and down the court. Den while resting, that uncle came and chat with me. Den he really talk alot. He started saying that his shotting very accurate, the more you mark him, the more he become 'hot' and accurate. I just smile back at him and acknowledged his fine performance. Den he said that he was an ex-national basketball player. Den somehow or rather, he gave me a 'history' lesson. Started talking about his past den saying how good he is and this and tat. Actually I was a bit annoyed, not so much with his talking but rather his 'boasting'. For the benefit of doubt, i believe every single word he said but his pride really getting over him man. I purposely told him i knew an uncle who was an ex-national basketball and about his age. I told him the uncle's name and den he hesistated a while and reply saying, " yah..... I know him." Den quickly he changed that subject and started rattling off about his past. Erhh!! Honestly, it's such a pity. He was really very good, in fact this is an understatement, he was a genius but den his pride is such annoying factor. Can't he just be humble! What a waste of talent! Thkfully I'm not very good in anything so there's nothing i can boast about myself. But in everything that i do, I give thks to God for His guidance. Praise be to God.

An Unofficial Blogging Session

Muahahahahaha! Your first question will be why am i not studying and instead blogging? well my answer is I'm just not studying lorh! Muahahahhahaha! Xiao4 liao4! Hehehe! Anyway just tot tat it's good to relax. All studies and no play make me a cranky person. Well! My first week of study started off well until the 2nd day. Just couldn't keep up with the pace. Kinda of behind time after the 1st week! But i guess it's ok! Should be able to pick up later. I hope!

8 - 11Nov:

On the 8, was in church studying. Den afternoon time, Lydia and some of the youths came over to do some art craft work to raise fund for the Mission Fair this coming weekend. As i was a chpt ahead, i decide to take time out to join them and also to distress. Pretty fun! Then as usual i try to be arty-farty(is tat how you spell this word. Smell funny! haha) I tot i was pretty artistic. Drew a sunset, a swing on a tree in an open field, erh can't really remember. All i remember at the end of Friday, i did like about 10-11 master pieces. Muahahahaa! I'm such a genious. Opps! My head bloating!

12 Nov:
Had really a bad day! Didnt' get to study! Reached church at 9 plus den start doing work! Den at 12pm had a meeting. Den at 3.30 got youth fellowship. Den 4.30 got worship practised. Den lasted 3hours. Was really tired, upset, frustrated! Just so xian until want to break down. Really no motivation to lead the next day worship. After dinner, went home and sleep. But b4 went to sleep, was thinking over the whole day and was starting to feel like i'm acting like a foolish kid. But still very tired. Den knock out. Den in middle of the nite, suddenly woke up. Somehow very strange. Woke up very suddenly and was pretty concious. Den somehow the Spirit impressed upon me Psalm 23. Den i hesistated and dun know why i check the time on my hp. It was 2:36am. I'm not a superstitious person but den God has spoken to me b4 in such manner. I presumed that God want to speak to me with His words. So i turned to Psalm 23. Only 6 chpters. Haha! King David wrote it, saying that God is our Shepherd who will guide us, He is our staff and rod who will comfort us and in v6, it says "Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and i will dwell in the House of the Lord forever!" After this, my heart really sunk and suddenly felt a sense of comfort. Continue to linger in His presence until exactly an hour. (check my time again and it was exactly 3:36am! Hmmm! Coincidence? Nah! Godly divine) So went back to sleep!

13 Nov:
Woke up pretty refreshed though still quite physically tired. But i know in my weakness, His strength will keep me going. Though there were some hiccups during the 2 svcs, the Lord was gracious and He kept the congreg in one voice and the presence of the Lord was definitely encountered. Den also got the Mission Fair which was really well-received! Really thk God for His people who are so loving and generous. Prasie be to God! Hallelujah! By the time we cleared up, it was abt 3plus. So went to eat with William and Lydia. Den also pretty excited becoz I think i'm mastering the art of carrying baby and not just the normal way but with one hand. Muahahaha! Thks to Anna, my guinea pig! Opss! Sorry! I meant, erhhhhh, ai yah you know wat i mean lah! hahaha! But Anna really an interesting baby. Usual baby if cry just rock a bit will shut them up. BUt this one really different. Must 'jalan jalan' den she will keep quiet. Hahaha! So after lunch went back home and SLEEP! Another day gone! Got to keep on going. 1 more month and i will be a free man. For a few weeks den back to study again. I hate my school system. It's miserable, terrible, horrible, horrorensome, @#@$@##@$%@#*%*%(@*#(@*%#(). Well! You get my point! BUt still must study! Irony of life. COmplain about it but den still got to face it. Thkfully got God or else surely will 'peng shan' one.

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