Hope

Key: G

Verse:
Suffering children
Look on with no hope
The cries of the widows
Who have heard them all
Burden yokes
Teared eyes close
Hearts turn cold

The memories of the Fields
Still sown in our soul
The shadows of darkness
Overcast our eyes
We find not
We seek not
Where's our hope?
Forsaken
Forgotten
There's no hope

Pre-Chorus:
Till You came
To our lives
On that Cross
You paid the price
Who am I in Your eyes
The Lord of all
The Way, the Truth and Life

Chorus:
Nih Geu Jier T'ngai
Dial PreyOng Bongkert
Yerng Mern Omnor
Hai Yerng Or Sobbai
Nih Geu Jier T'ngai
Dial PreyOng Bongkert
Or Goon Ji Ran
Prey Ong

Bridge:
Nih Geu Jier T'ngai
Dial PreyOng Bongkert

Tag:
Where's our Hope?
Who's our Hope?
He's our Hope
Our Hope in everything


A song of Hope for the Cambodian.

鱼

我始终还是喜欢鱼。

但我却只能默默无声。

就当这是对我的考验。
我不是放弃，
也不是在等待着对这感觉有希望
而是等待着祂的旨意。

我的考验
祂的旨意

BRUSH

I have not stopped brushing my teeth since then................

( : : )

Finally........ : )

Before Mission Trip: 87.4Kg
Immediately after Mission Trip: 86.9Kg
Sick for the next 3 days: 85kg

Woo hoo...................... Another 5kg more.................: )


我还是开不了口让她知道。。。。。。

Alone or Along

Fell sick on the last day of Mission Trip. Had a sorethroat which developed into a fever. And was producing phlegm nonstop. Then somemore home alone. Family all in Shanghai. I was left fending for myself. I still remember when I was running a temperature, my mum would frequently over the night, visit me, help me to dab my body with cold water. It was so touching. But this time, I was left alone doing all these by myelf. I felt so helpless.

Remember last dec went for personal trip to Cambodia. Also felt sick during the last few days of my stay. Was all alone by myself. Haizzzzz..

But I still thank God for I believe these are preparation for me. Since I'm looking at going to Cambodia for qute a good time, I jolly well be used to being alone, even when I'm sick. But am I really alone. Nah.....! I know the Lord is along side with me. He never left me! Praise the Lord!

鱼与熊掌，不可兼得

我喜欢吃鱼。
从没想过有熊掌。
鱼却抓不到，
却出现了一只熊。
我该放弃钓鱼而去抓熊？
还是耐心地继续等鱼？

Fragile

Life is so fragile. I had witnessed a car accident on Sunday. Right in front of my eyes. I saw it coming, The motorist was going straight from the opposite direction. The car in front of us turn right. The motorbike was heading right head on into the turning car. And Ka Boom. My heart sank. My mind froze. I didn't know how to react. Was the motorist dead? He was lying on the road. Uncle Thomas who was in the front seat immediately left the car to assist the motorist. I didn't know why but I also left the car to help. Thomas was checking on the motorist. I didn't know how I could be of any help. So I just stand and diverted the traffic. The motorist was alive but from his moaning, he seemed to be in great pain and shock. After a few minutes, he managed to sit up and make his way to the side of the road. A few more men came to help. We removed the bike. The front wheel was bent 90degree that the only way to move it was to carry it. The ambulance arrived in less than 5 minutes and attended to the motorist. The driver of the car was there too. He claimed he didn't see the motorist. After the paramedics had taken care of the motorist, we left.

I was still in disbelief. I saw it happening. In a split of a few second, the bike smashed into the car and the motorist was thrown off his bike. Thank God that both vehicles were travelling at quite a slow speed. If not, the motorist would have been flung a distance. Life is so fragile. Sometimes in life, we can be very careful with our life but yet when others are not careful, it may endanger others. So be careful. And be responsible as well.

It's Just Me.......

Project finished, handed up. One less worry. Praise be to God for He makes all things possible.

Now, it is 1/2 step. I am wondering how. I am wondering if it is another stupid attempt by me. Once bitten, twice not shy? Am I just trying too hard? Am I just reading what I want to read? Am I just being too wishful? I think it's just me. Maybe I'm just never good enough. Right now, I sense no peace. I sense that I am stepping into another roller-coaster ride. Sometimes I wish things were much simplier, less painful. I guess all these will just simply make me treasure it more. Maybe it's just no step.

Another storm is brewing. Now is the calm before the storm. I really dun know how I am going to handle it but one thing for sure, I am going to face it and not going to run away. The Lord is with me and who can be against me. I know the Lord will help me through this time. I pray that the Lord will give me self-control to hold my temper, humility to deny my rights, courage to speak forth the truth, wisdom to handle the tricky situation and a loving heart to love others.

1 April

The next day will be the most crucial days of my life. I definitely have to squeeze out my report. I have all the outlines and ideas in my head but the thing is how I need to link everything together and at the same time each individual item has the substance to hold its weight. I know I can do it. I have to do it. Just do it! 1 April will be my dateline to shoot the report to Post Office and get it flown to UK! And I will be a free man on April's Fool day. Maybe for a while............ One big rock released but more to come. But for now, the rest are least of the worry. Now is break(through) or else break(down).

Well on a lighter and happier note, I have lost 3.5kg over a period of 1.5 month. Woohoo. Thanks to being consistent with my workout which consists of 1000 skipping (now increased to 1400), weight training, crunches a day. And something that Andrew Phang said which was so relevant. "Eat to burn not to store. Eat more meals of moderation servings". Well, I've tried it and it is showing a bit of effective sign. Hahahaha. Another 1.5 kg and will meet my Phase 1 target. After that, Phase 2. Another 5kg. Wahahahahahhaha. I am so going to start digging out the 'mini' which are lost in my closet for years. : )

1/2 Step

I'm wondering if I should take this 1/2 step. Is this by faith or is it just another step to valuable and painful experience?

忽冷忽热。我无法抓摸。我有很多不敢但也有很多不舍。我不要求肯定，我只望能尝试。但我却找不到那动力。也许动力就在我眼前。

Lord, give me the courage and strength to try, not for success but just simply for the sake of trying. Amen!

JoO ChiAt RoAd

This afternoon was a very interesting day, well at least for me it is. I needed to run an errand. One of the fan in my house had a broken blade. So I needed to go down to the HQ to buy the replacement. It was somewhere near Joo Chiat area. When I reached the HQ, it was lunch hour. Hehe! I should have anticipated that. Since I had some time, I decided to roam about.



So I decided to walk down the main road towards Joo Chiat. I came across the Joo Chiat Complex. I had vague memory that I had visited this place when I was very young. So I decided to go in and have a look. Pretty old building. 1st floor was mainly textile shops. 2nd and 3rd floors were mainly Malay's clothing. Quite an eye-opener. There was also carpet dealer. It seemed that the carpets are reasonably priced. Haha! Maybe next time if I want to buy carpet, may consider coming here.



After a quick walk through the complex, I noticed this fenced up area. I had always noticed it but never knew what it was. I think it is the Malay Village. So I decided to take a look inside. The first shop I saw was a home-deco shop. It had a lot of beautiful deco like chairs, tables, lamp, china. Kind of what I would love to have in my home. But the price erh...erhmmmm. Well! It is on a close-down sale. 50% off and all must go. Interested, please go have a look.



The place seemed a bit desolated. Not all the shops are occupied. Then I came across this Kopi Shop named, Hainan Kaya Toast. Hehe.... How interesting. Being a Hainanese myself, anything that has relation to my dialect group, will sure attract my attention. I was a distance away and I noticed that in the kopi shop, it was mainly occupied by Malays (pls dun get me wrong, i've nothing against the Malays. just wondering why would so many Malays patronize this chinese kopi shop. Is it because there isn't any Malay Kopi shop, considering this is a mainly Malay community?) So out of curiousity, I took a closer look. Hahaha. Inside the Kopi Shop was another Malays shop that sells Malay goodies. No wonder. Well! Since I was there, I decided to try the Hainanese Kopi and Kaya Toast.



Here are 2 photos of the teabreak:

I ordered Kopi Si Kor Song. Not bad.

Aroma: 8/10

Thickness: 7/10

Taste: 8/10
This is the Kaya Toast. I suppose it is Hainanese Kaya. Well you can't see it but the Kaya is orange in colour. I suspect they used brown sugar. And the butter is one thin slab. This is a perfect combi. And the bread is of sufficient thickness and well toasted. Though, I find the Kaya a bit on the sweet side.

Toast: 7/10

Kaya: 8/10

Butter: 8/10

Taste: 8/10

I am definitely very satisfied. Hahahahahaaha.........

Another interesting thing happen when I was walking around the compound. I was looking around this shop and the owner came out to ask me what I was looking for. So I answered her, "看看，谢谢！(Just looking around, thank you). " It was a rundown convenient shop. After a few second, the owner replied saying, "找古董啊？(looking for antique?)" For that moment, I just smiled back. After I walked away, her reply kept me thinking. Was she being sarcastic? She must be wondering what's there to look look at a convenient shop. Haha! How amusing. In fact, I am looking for things pretty much can be considered antique in its sense. I guess I need to go Flea Market very soon. Hahaha! 1/2 step.......

I noticed another interesting phenomenon. While sitting at the Kopi Shop, a man left and was walking towards his car. When he was walking past this small field, out of a sudden, a flock of pigeons started to descend onto the small field. My goodness! What a sight! How I wish I had a camera to snap that beautiful moment. Really! It's amazing. I think I will go there again to try to have a similar snapshot. Wahahahahaha. I want a digital SLR camera..... (i dun even know wat SLR stands for)

So after the short adventurous detour, I went back to get the fan's blade replacement. Really tempted to take a cab home but no, no, Xianjie, must learn not to be so spoilt. Money hard to come by. Take the MRT. Yes yes! haha.....

Well, I'm hoping I can have more of such trips where I can go around different parts of Singapore and tour around. You will be surprised what you can find and see.......

A random photo. This photo was taken when a circled rainbow was formed last year. Quite blur becoz taken from my handphone. But I though it was pretty. Hehehehhee...

What's so GOOD about FRIDAY?

Arrrrhhhhhhhhhh. I think I've been very 'lost' the last few weeks. Looking at my posts, it's like I am so emo and so unfocus. I guess realising datelines have not been 6 weeks but effectively on 2 weeks, it woke me up and at the same time a heavy weight is unleased. All seemed hopeless but God is still faithful and gracious. I hate to put God to the test, not that He takes up my challenge, but everytime in such situation of grace, I know I had let God down. I know I had let many people down.

And even as Good Friday and Easter Sunday approached, everything about the project was on my mind but God. Instead of tuning down life and solemnly reflect and make sense of the Lord has done for us on the cross, I was just too caught up with trying to make any sense in my project outline. And instead of waiting in anticipation of Sunday, the day that the Lord rises to glory, I was just anticipating for new ideas and points to boost up my project.

I wish I wasn't such a letdown. I wish I would be more organised in life. I wish I wasn't such a procastinator. I wish I wasn't such .... watever.

And now I realise another big boo boo I've make. Being too nice isn't always wise. And my life is so filled with drama serial plot that I think I can effectively write a 300 episodes at this stage of my life. I wish things were clearly. I dun need a positive answer. I just wish things were clearly.

I guess I am those believers who are so caught up with the world's and personal affairs that they just 'couldn't' leave their 'commitment' when Jesus was led on the Via Dolorosa. Totally oblivious of the significance of our faith.

Unworthy................................................................................... me..............................



Via Dolorosa

刹那; 永远

微风吹过的刹那间
思念卷成永远

难道思念是唯一能看见你的世界的窗
但愿守候不是放弃而是信靠主的全能

JUMPER... No! I'm A THINKER

Well, there are JUMPERS, DUMB AND DUMBER and DUMB AND DUMBER 2, I'm just a THINKER. I simply think a lot. Does anyone pay people to think? I fit quite well for such career.

Sometimes, I just wish I can think lesser. Thinking too much has its hassle. It creates unnecessary and undue stress and emotional baggage. Also it takes up too much time and end up not doing any thing constructive. Mind you, thinking is not daydreaming. Daydreaming is simply day dreaming. And thinking is erh.... thinking. You know what I mean. It involves alot of critical analysis of things that are seen, heard, experienced. And most of the time, these things may not even relate directly to oneself.

Haiz.... I dun even know why I'm posting this. It seems so random and unworthy. Never mind. I wish I was a Jumper. Den I can just simply 'jump away' everytime I feel emo...... Go to somewhere far away. Go to somewhere I've not been. Go to someone where it vapourises all my thoughts.

I think I think too much. Maybe it's nothing. I'm just making things up.......

Thank You

I got to hear this song Thank You by Ray Boltz. Had heard it before but didn't really look into the lyrics. As I heard this song once again, it kinda start to speak into me.

I guess it is a good song to use for Mission Fair and also to rally people for Mission. Then the Lord was telling me if I want to be at the receiving end, where people comes up to me and thank me for the little things I've done that led them to Christ. It's not so much about self-glorifying but it's the thought that the Lord calls me worthy enough to be part of His plan.

It brought tears to my eyes.

I know it's going to be a tough choice, with many things I have to give up. It may seem like I will need to go through a rocky period of time. But as the song says

"As Jesus took your hand
And you stood before the Lord
He said, my child look around you
For great is your reward"

Lord, let me trust in You. Trust in Your sovereignty. Trust in Your providence. Count me worthy to be part of Your plan. No matter You call, I will obey and follow.


LYRICS OF THANK YOU

I dreamed I went to heaven
And you were there with me
We walked upon the streets of gold
Beside the crystal sea
We heard the angels singing
Then someone called your name
You turned and saw this young man
And he was smiling as he came
And he said friend you may not know me now
And then he said but wait
You used to teach my Sunday School
When I was only eight
And every week you would say a prayer
Before the class would start
And one day when you said that prayer
I asked Jesus in my heart

CHORUS
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am a life that was changed
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am so glad you gave

Then another man stood before you
And said remember the time
A missionary came to your church
And his pictures made you cry
You didn’t have much money
But you gave it anyway
Jesus took the gift you gave
And that’s why I’m here today

CHORUS (repeat)

One by one they came
Far as the eyes could see
Each life somehow touched
By your generosity
Little things that you had done
Sacrifices made
Unnoticed on the earth
In heaven now proclaimed

And I know that up in heaven
You’re not supposed to cry
But I am almost sure
There were tears in your eyes
As Jesus took your hand
And you stood before the Lord
He said, my child look around you
For great is your reward

NATIONAL VERTICAL MARATHON

My first try. It was at Republic Plaza. 60 floors. It was really challenging. Consider a buffalo trying to climb a mountain. And the fact that I was not fit and totally unprepared for it.

First 10 floors, I decided to just use up my booster power at one go.
After which, Marcus caught up and were on par for the next 10 floors.
Then I was alone for the next 40 floors.
Both thighs were cramped up.
The Yoko Yoko didn't work.
I could only 1 step at a time.
Until the last 4 floors, den I picked up speed and chiong.
Haha! Good experience. I'm so going to train for this next year.

Now my legs are soft and tender and best served Medium Rare. : )

This is the day

Composer: x.J
Key: G#

Chorus:
This is the day that the Lord has made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
This is the day that the Lord has made
I will rejoice, I will rejoice
I will be glad in it

Verse 1:
Thank You Lord for everything
That You have done in my life
You've ransomed me from my debt
That I'm freed to walk with You
How can I ever repay You?
With my life, I offer up to You

Verse 2:
The Stone they have rejected
Has become the Cornerstone
I am nothing before You
Yet You call me to partake of You
You are the Potter, I am the clay
With my life, I offer up to You

HEHEHE

I'm so .... I can't find a word to describe my feelings. I'm going to graduate soon. I've passed my last paper. Thank GOd!!! And God saved me the agony of having to wait a day longer. I've got my result one day earlier than expected. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
All glory to God...... : )

ROJAK

Happily contented.

But rather those things were not said. Raise the expectations but at the end it's just yet another dream!!!

So just be easily contented!!! Nothing more! Nothing less!

Thank you Lord!!!

Valentine's Day Date

Love is in the air! I can literally smell it! Haha! Yes, Valentine's Day!!! And the date is 14 Feb of every year. Haha!!! Well! I'm a very pracitcal man!!! I think V day has been too commercialised. A bouquet of 12 roses can go up to a few hundreds. Good gracious me!!! It's not that I am a miser but I find it not practical. It is definitely nice and sweet of a guy to give flowers to girl but not at such a luxurious expense. And it's just only one day!!! If I truly love someone, den everyday is a V day for her. I won't wait until V day den I intentionally spend big bucks to prove my love for her. And honestly, if a girl expects big gifts to be showered upon her, then she is real superficial!!! (no offense)



As I say, I'm a practical man!!! Simple things are good enuff!!! Well! Here's a drawing that I did. It's my wishes to all the love birds out there that they will indeed find the true meaning of love!!! God bless!!!




Ok! The drawing not very good lah! The guy look a bit like... erh nvm! haha!!!

Blessed Valentine's Day to all!!!

一步一步来

童年時候多自在 樣樣都可愛
哥哥天天上學去 我等著他回來
我問爸爸何時我也讓那校車載
爸爸笑著對我說 一步一步來
上了學校才知道 考試不可愛
上課總是看手表 哎喲假期幾時來
我問老師何時才能將那方帽戴
老師笑著對我說 一步一步來
太陽下山明早依舊爬上來
夜裡不要通宵看那錄像帶
花兒謝了明年還是一樣地開
考不好未必有機會重頭來

十七八歲多古怪 學人談戀
情書寫了十多封 在車站苦等待
吃飯跳舞真不壞 送她回家說good night
她的媽媽開門說 你給我一步一步來
畢了業我才知道 社會更可愛
應徵前後幾十次 只有一次沒失敗
薪水不敢說出來 夜裡要把工開
現在行情壞 我的老板說 你要一步一步來
太陽下山明早依舊爬上來
星期天能不能慢點爬上來
花兒謝了明年還是一樣地開
哪家公司今年又將人員裁

結了婚我才知道 什麼叫做債
老婆總算娶回來 沒錢生小乖乖
家俱電器真不賴 價錢更精彩
夜夜繽紛看開懷 其他一步一步來
什麼時候駕著車往兒子學校開
放學的兒子告訴我他明天考天才
天才不是人人做 平凡也不壞
我說搭巴士也要把隊排 你要一步一步來
太陽下山明早依舊爬上來
高樓再高它還是要爬上來
花兒謝了明年還是一樣地開
只要空氣還沒污染得太壞
太陽下山明早依舊爬上來
我的青春匆匆地鐵那樣快
花兒謝了明年還是一樣地開
人生最好還是一步一步來

CNY

CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! Once again it's CNY!!! The joy of all the kids!!! Me...??? Hmmmm... not the same kind of excitement as before. When young, CNY is a time of feasting and filling up Mr Piggy. But now, neither has the same attraction as before. It's nice to meet up those relatives whom I only see like once a year. But not when your family tree is so big till there are relatives whom I wondered if he/she is my cousin or my uncle/auntie. Can imagine how big my extended family is. Haha! Even though there's no real personal motivation to go visitation, I know my mu mum would love to go around and pay visits. So I tag along to accompany since Dad and sis went home. Dad was tired and sis was a 'sick chicken'. Poor girl!!!

Our first stop is at Ah Ma's place. This is one place I would definitely want to visit. To visit my Ah Ma!!! Though I can't speak her native language (oh yah hor! That's mine too), I know among her grandchildren, she adores me and my sis tremendously. And I too love her alot. We can't communicate much but through our little actions, we kinda affirm our love for each other. Haha! And she is one super granny. Though now of old age and leg injuries, she was once a hyper and 'in' granny. She loves to travel around and she just can't sit still. And one of my auntie was saying tat granny is one vain pot. She will always want to take photos!!! And thank God for that becoz she had a lot of photos of the past and as the descendants, we get to enjoy these precious and priceless moments. I have managed to get some of the old photos on my camera. Enjoy them!!!





Grandpa! My mum's dad!!! A Hainanese!!! He practises dentistry!!!



Grandpa and Grandma!!! Woo hoo!!! Grandma also Hainanese!!!



The whole family!!! My mum is the eldest!!! Top right hand corner. You may think she is most prob like in her upper secondary rite!!! She's only in her upper Primary. She looked very mature for her age. Total children: 9 - 5 Boys, 4 girls!!! Ayyy... how come photo only 3 girls. The last daughter not yet in the photo. The last one is like 7 years apart of the 2nd last child. And my mum was like in Uni!!! hahahahaha!!!! Pro-creation......



Another photo of grandma with her children.



This is the youngest auntie (the one who wasn't in the earlier photo) She is married to a British with 3 kids, 2 daughters and 1 son. Haha! I have any moh cousins!!!

My family photo with Ah Ma!!!

Knock! Knock!

Some people just dun learn or they are just simply not bothered. When I say something serious, pls take me serious. Don't assume it's an option. Do the exact opposite, be prepared for something. Most of you know my temperament. Dun try me....

Ok! Sound like i'm ranting. Yes, I am. And I am serious but if we are nice to one another, then I am an OKAY person.

MR HAPPY

Easily contended!!! : )

静心;牵我

Key: G

词曲： 顯杰


Verse 1:

主耶稣 祢宝血

洗净我的罪孽

开启我 的双眼

让我亲近祢

祢完美的权柄

祢奇妙的作为

真敬畏


CHORUS:

静心聆听祢主

祢恩赐信实的旨意

牵我领我 oh 主

我一生都交托给祢

我一生都来跟随祢

我尽心

我尽力

我尽意

来敬拜祢

以马内利


Verse 2:

祢恩典 拣选我

不记我的一切

抬起我 的双手

俯伏敬拜祢

祢完美的权柄

祢奇妙的作为

已展现


Bridge:

主与我同在

无论在何方

不再迷惘

不再流浪

只因祢与我同在

This piece is inspired during my stay in Cambodia last year December. I was sitting in the church open compound, enjoying the breeze and serenity when the tune formed. And at the point of time, in my mind was a burden, to make a decision. I had no answer. I didn't know what is better. So as I 'laboured' upon making a decision, I knew that I had to trust in the good will of the Lord. Only He knows what is best for us because He Himself made the best choice for all mankind. That's to die on the cross for us.

My prayer is that I would choose something that is better, just like what Mary had chosen in comparison to Martha.

Yet another

Haha! Another drawing! Still the same standard but I'm very pleased with this piece. Becoz initially, when I started colouring, the colour blending was off. I end up frustrated and called the piece spoilt. But after a few days, I picked up the piece and tried to remedy it. Hehe! Manage to save it.

This piece is called The Light in Darkness! Signifies our Lord who is our Light when we are in our dark moments. The Light that accompanies and leads us.

Arty!

Haha! Dun know why suddenly so want to draw! Arty wannabe! haha! Actually I do love art but den i guess i dun really have that area of talent. But even then it will not deter me. I will draw for the Lord. Den nobody can condemn my artpiece for who is to judge my gift to the Lord. Haha! But i still welcome constructive feedback and comments!




First piece. Sunset over the horizon! Depicts my awe of how the world is created by God! The beauty, the thoughtfulness of creating the whole world with the systems.



















Second piece. The River of Life. The Living Water from the highest point (God) and flowing through the land, bringing life as it flows.




I tot not too bad for a first timer. But I know it is far from being showcase material. But I will try to improve! :)

Mirror On The Wall!

"Mirror, mirror on the wall! Who's the fatest, erhh no no, FAIREST of us all?"

What's the real purpose of a mirror? It's more than just reflecting an object but rather I believe the ignition of such invention was simply the desire to see oneself completely in one frame. It reflects the physical characteristics of ourself. And likewise, our life is also like a mirror.

Who do want to reflect in our life? The answer is simple. Jesus, no doubt about it. We are called to be the likes of Jesus and to follow His ways. It's not possible for us to fully reflect the perfectness in Christ but that should not deter us from following Christ.

And even as we follow Christ, our next tier of discipleship is like a mirror too. As leaders, our communion with our 'followers' will have a rub on effect on them. And their lives will be like a mirror reflecting certain characteristics and values of the leaders. This is called the Law of Mirror.

However, there's another accompanying law that is the Law of Emulation. If we want our 'followers' to learn and protrait some characteristics or values, we as leaders must first possess them. If not, we then cannot expect such values or characteristics to be reflected in the lives of the 'followers'. There's a saying that goes "Monkeys see, Monkeys do!"

On the Monkeys' business, there's another point to it. Recently, I found out that the mirrors in my house generate different emotions in me. Some makes me happy, some makes me wonder what's wrong, some makes me simply way too fat! It brings me to the point that the mirrors can be specifically crafted to give different effects. I guess the most ideal mirror is one that gives an illusion that everything is slimer than it is. Likewise our lives as a mirror, are we shaping it so that it gives a 'happy' feel but falsehood to the people around us or do we reflect the truth and that at times it may cause hurt but necessary to others. As it's a Monkey see Monkey do business, let's us really be serious and lead a life that is glorifying to God and edifying to our Brothers and Sisters' in Christ.

Lord! Help us to be a mirror that simply reflect the truth about Jesus Christ. Let us lead a life that protraits the likenss of Christ. And help us to be able to disciple others to be Christ like as well through our life. May Your name be glorified. Amen!

(this section is adapted from the book HABITUDES - IMAGES THAT FORM LEADERSHIP AND ATTITUDES by Dr Tim Elmore. These are my after thoughts and add ons.)

*in the content, i mentioned about 'followers'. It does not represent my follower per se but rather God's follower that is entrusted into my care.

I AM IN LOVE?

"I love You Lord, more than I love myself
I love You Lord, more than my heart could sing"


These are 2 lines from one of the Chrisitan songs that I like. The melody flows and the lyrics really draws one wanting to love the Lord more. But even as this song was being played on last Sunday service, I couldn't help but not sing. I couldn't bring myself to sing as it would be just purely a motion. In fact, as the lyrics and music were flashed into my mind, I came to realise that there would be no truth if I do sing out.
I asked myself, "Can I really love the Lord more than myself? Are my actions reflecting my love for the Lord?" I knew the answer. No! I definitely wasn't living a life that shows my love for the Lord was more than for myself.
As I came to this realisation, it was not so much of condemnation but rather that the point that there is still a long way for me. My walk with the Lord is a process. And definitely I would want to come to a point where my love for the Lord is more than for myself. So would I stop singing this song? I don't think so. But subsequent singing of this song will always be a reminder to myself that I am far from achieving it but yet it is my desire to love the Lord with all my heart, soul and might!

HORTICULTURE

John 15 talks about God, the Father being the gardener and Jesus being the vine. The Gardener will prune the plant, removing 'dead' and 'excess' leaves and branches. And as we remain in the Vine, the Vine will remain in us and we will bear fruit.

During last yr end Youth Retreat, at one of the session, the Lord impressses me with this chapter. And I had shared this impression with the youths. In verse 5, it says that as we remain in Him, He will remain in us and we will bear fruit. And in verse 16, Jesus said that it was He who had chosen us and anointed us to bear fruit that will last. Afterwhich, the Father will give us whatever we ask in His name.

I thought it was really apt to hear this at the beginning of the year. At the year start, all will be feverently making resolutions, plans, targets and expectations. But in our eagerness to kickstart the year, where is God? Have we placed God first? Have we asked God what He has installed for us? Have we see our plans in the light of God's plans? I think it is really important that we really sit down and connect with God. When we are connected and we start to understand His plans, we will inevitably be asking the Lord for things that is in His will. And without saying, all these will be added to us.

And by God's divine arrangement, our Vicar Rev Canon Wong T.M shared on this Chapter on last Sunday. How timely! It really speaks to me especially when I am at this cross junction, making a crucial decision.

Lord, not my will but Yours be done! Amen!