Monday was off day! So in the late morning, went to Jars of Clay. Had a meal and drink that came to US$5. That's usually how i spent my day off, at Jars of Clay. Most of the time I would order a couple of pastries and a cup of coffee which comes up to about US$4. That's my luxurious comfort food for the week. (Once in a while, the weekly comfort may be added with a visit to Mount Everest, a Nepalese food restaurant. Usually comes up to another US$5.)
Today on top of my destinated comfort food, I visited a restaurant for dinner. It was my first time there and most probably my last time, if I have a choice. It was a totally atas place. Food was at least US$8 or more. I order the cheapest, Fish and Chips. Not that I cannot afford but I am more conscious of living like one of them. As I stepped foot in the restaurant, I wondered who is the 'them' that I am trying to live like. US$8 gone in just a span of 1/2hour. That amount would have kept someone's stomach filled with food for a week. Every mouth I took reminded of me that as my stomach is filled, there are people (in church and the country) that are starving or skipping meals becoz they just cannot afford. The first word that came to my angered and confused mind was 'perverse'. How 'perverse' I can be enjoying a luxurious meal and yet forgotten the many who are going hungry.
This thought is just pertaining to me. I am not labelling everyone who had been there the same. I personally feel that that level of expenses is way too out to be in a 3rd world country. Yes, it may be cater for the rich and expats but the point is that I am wondering how people can extravagantly enjoy themselves while just a street down, there are pple who can hardly make ends meet. I was not too sure if the restaurant is an NGO, even if it is one, I wondered how much of the revenue or profit goes to aiding the needy. Well, I am sure there are people who feels that my expenses on the comfort food at Jars of Clay is also extravagant. I choose not to defend myself because in that sense it is true.
I wish I can just simply live like one of them.
Monday, June 29, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Great Song
Attended a church friend's wedding dinner. One of the song presentation, we sang this song "我们爱让世界不一样" by 赞美之泉。Very touching song! Really tells us about the love of God and that we should really love one another with the love of God!! Enjoy!
Monday, June 08, 2009
Free to Worship or Free Worship
On June 7, Sunday, I attended the late afternoon service at Church of the Good Shepherd. Nope, I am not church switching. A lovely couple whom I met during Mission Trip in Cambodia had kindly invited over a meal to catch up. So I decided to pay a visit to their church service.
The service was pretty much like SACC. Mixed of traditio and contemporary elements. I appreciate the part where they began the service with the worship leader opening in songs of invitation to begin the service. Instead of making an announcement to gather the people, I thought it was beautiful and serene to use songs of praise to draw pple into the Lord's presence.
And during the songs of praise and worship, I heard the music of the harmonica. At first, I though it was the keyboardist using the harmonica mode on the keyboard. But his fingers movement did not synchronise with the melody. As I made a quick glance across the sanctuary, I noticed a man playing the harmonica. From what I could observe of his physical appearance, he seemed to be a blind man. If I was much younger, I would have been quick to feel that this person is disrupting the service. (not that he was playing badly but rather that this was not part of the plan) But as I listen to how the harmonica blended with the worship team, I found the freedom to worship God with the songs and words. Who am I to comment on the gifts of others whom they are presenting to God. All are free to come to worship God. As much as that is our freedom, worship is not free. The price had been paid. A costly one, though. Then with this in mind, how do we present ourselves when we are in God's presence (not just during service because God is everywhere). What is my attitude of worship to God? I need to constantly reflect.
23Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks.
The service was pretty much like SACC. Mixed of traditio and contemporary elements. I appreciate the part where they began the service with the worship leader opening in songs of invitation to begin the service. Instead of making an announcement to gather the people, I thought it was beautiful and serene to use songs of praise to draw pple into the Lord's presence.
And during the songs of praise and worship, I heard the music of the harmonica. At first, I though it was the keyboardist using the harmonica mode on the keyboard. But his fingers movement did not synchronise with the melody. As I made a quick glance across the sanctuary, I noticed a man playing the harmonica. From what I could observe of his physical appearance, he seemed to be a blind man. If I was much younger, I would have been quick to feel that this person is disrupting the service. (not that he was playing badly but rather that this was not part of the plan) But as I listen to how the harmonica blended with the worship team, I found the freedom to worship God with the songs and words. Who am I to comment on the gifts of others whom they are presenting to God. All are free to come to worship God. As much as that is our freedom, worship is not free. The price had been paid. A costly one, though. Then with this in mind, how do we present ourselves when we are in God's presence (not just during service because God is everywhere). What is my attitude of worship to God? I need to constantly reflect.
23Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks.
John 4:23 (New International Version)
And thks to the couple, I had a sumptuous meal at Tanglin Club. Wooo... good food. Then afterwhich, went for a coffee with some of the COGS friends. And I make new frens as well.... Suddenly, I don't feel so old. Hahahahaa...
Continue from Previous Post
Haha... I totally forgotten to explain why I titled my previous post in that manner. I gave that title to link up my story on the taxi uncle who heard Simei Rise as Sim Lim Rise.
I titled it "Cheu Bpoo-ah, Ot Cheu Bpoo". This is Khmer. I am trying to pun on the similarity.
Cheu Bpoo-ah means Stomachache.
Ot means No or Not
Cheu Bpoo means Sick Uncle.
So the title means "Stomachache, Not Sick Uncle".
Yup! I am so proud of my Khmer..... hahahahahah.................
I titled it "Cheu Bpoo-ah, Ot Cheu Bpoo". This is Khmer. I am trying to pun on the similarity.
Cheu Bpoo-ah means Stomachache.
Ot means No or Not
Cheu Bpoo means Sick Uncle.
So the title means "Stomachache, Not Sick Uncle".
Yup! I am so proud of my Khmer..... hahahahahah.................
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Cheu Bpoo_ah, Ot Cheu Bpoo
It's a long time since I have blogged. Not that I have nothing but rather firstly, I am lazy to blog and secondly, there are too many thoughts to process and by the time I process, another thought surfaced.
Well! Finally, I decided I should make an attempt to revive this blog. Just tot of sharing some tots or experiences! : )
I am back in Singapore for a month. I am doing a course on Mission Studies in TTC for 2 weeks. Really an eye-opener. Totally transformed what I know and what I do not know about Mission. Honestly, I think all short-term or long-term mission troopers should attend the course. For this posting, I am not going to talk specifically about the course.
I am going to talk about one particular experience when I was back. My cell had a cell dinner on one of the Friday night. So after dinner, some of us took cab back. So one of the guys was telling the cab driver that we were going 3 destinations - Simei Rise and 2 venues in Tampines. The uncle seemed to be struggling with remembering the places. So that guy friend told him again that it was near Simei MRT. Seeing that he was still in a daze, I told the uncle to go Simei first. So he drove off. Along the expressway, he made a premature exit and all of us were wondering why. At first, I thought he was trying to exit out of the congested expressway and making a detour. After a much long 'detour', he asked if the destination was Sim Lim Rise. All of us got a big shock and the uncle got an even big shock when we told him it was Simei Rise. So not much of choice, he got back to the expressway. Finally, we reached Simei Rise. Next destination was near Tampines JC. So I told the uncle near Tampines JC. And his response was, "Oh! Tampines Ave 10, near the Polytechnic is it?" My remaining friend was petrified at that response and responded back, "Uncle, listen carefully. It is TAMPINES JUNIOR COLLEGE!". I was quite sure the uncle popped out of his seat. So eventually the uncle successfully alighted us at the correct venue. And he waivered off $4 - only..... Hmmmm...
Initially, I was pretty upset. What was the uncle doing? He was so erh....... and my friend suggested to complain about him. Honestly, I really wanted to make a big fuss over it with him. But then as I cleared my 'clouds' in my head, I realise how often I marginalised people so quickly. The cab uncles was obviously in his late 40s or early 50s. He was doing night shift (and for how many straight nights I do not know). He must be tired. He could be the bread-winner. He could be my father. A complaint to the company would have easily ruin his riceb0wl. A direct complaint to him would have make him a hopeless and useless man. Who am I to tell him that he was not good enough? Is it really such a big issue to make a big deal out of it? Have I not make similar mistakes before and yet enjoy the grace of others? I cannot bring myself to complain about him. I could only pray for him, pray that God will help him to be more careful. I left the cab not feeling cheated or frustrated but one who was starting to understand the mystery of God's love.
Interestingly, the next day, I met with another cab driver. My mum and I were around Kallang area and we wanted to go to Bedok North for supper (first time in my life i bring my mum for supper, feel so proud; but this is not the main story) The uncle was trying to get onto PIE but as he was not familiar with the road, he missed the PIE and turned in the geylang road which was packed with cars. My mum was feeling uneasy over this hiccups and I had to pacify her to tell her to enjoy the scenary and that it was ok to travel by this road. Haha.... The uncle was quite apologetic but I was not disturbed by the longer ride.
In our fast pace of life, everything is about efficiency and effective. It is about my right and what I am entitled to. Yes, there are times we need to be careful and firm so that we do not get cheated. But how many times have we been unempathetic towards others and how often do we marginalise people just because people do not conform to our ways. I am asking this question to myself. I am not perfect. The more so because I am not perfect, I need to remind myself of my attitudes towards others.
Well! Finally, I decided I should make an attempt to revive this blog. Just tot of sharing some tots or experiences! : )
I am back in Singapore for a month. I am doing a course on Mission Studies in TTC for 2 weeks. Really an eye-opener. Totally transformed what I know and what I do not know about Mission. Honestly, I think all short-term or long-term mission troopers should attend the course. For this posting, I am not going to talk specifically about the course.
I am going to talk about one particular experience when I was back. My cell had a cell dinner on one of the Friday night. So after dinner, some of us took cab back. So one of the guys was telling the cab driver that we were going 3 destinations - Simei Rise and 2 venues in Tampines. The uncle seemed to be struggling with remembering the places. So that guy friend told him again that it was near Simei MRT. Seeing that he was still in a daze, I told the uncle to go Simei first. So he drove off. Along the expressway, he made a premature exit and all of us were wondering why. At first, I thought he was trying to exit out of the congested expressway and making a detour. After a much long 'detour', he asked if the destination was Sim Lim Rise. All of us got a big shock and the uncle got an even big shock when we told him it was Simei Rise. So not much of choice, he got back to the expressway. Finally, we reached Simei Rise. Next destination was near Tampines JC. So I told the uncle near Tampines JC. And his response was, "Oh! Tampines Ave 10, near the Polytechnic is it?" My remaining friend was petrified at that response and responded back, "Uncle, listen carefully. It is TAMPINES JUNIOR COLLEGE!". I was quite sure the uncle popped out of his seat. So eventually the uncle successfully alighted us at the correct venue. And he waivered off $4 - only..... Hmmmm...
Initially, I was pretty upset. What was the uncle doing? He was so erh....... and my friend suggested to complain about him. Honestly, I really wanted to make a big fuss over it with him. But then as I cleared my 'clouds' in my head, I realise how often I marginalised people so quickly. The cab uncles was obviously in his late 40s or early 50s. He was doing night shift (and for how many straight nights I do not know). He must be tired. He could be the bread-winner. He could be my father. A complaint to the company would have easily ruin his riceb0wl. A direct complaint to him would have make him a hopeless and useless man. Who am I to tell him that he was not good enough? Is it really such a big issue to make a big deal out of it? Have I not make similar mistakes before and yet enjoy the grace of others? I cannot bring myself to complain about him. I could only pray for him, pray that God will help him to be more careful. I left the cab not feeling cheated or frustrated but one who was starting to understand the mystery of God's love.
Interestingly, the next day, I met with another cab driver. My mum and I were around Kallang area and we wanted to go to Bedok North for supper (first time in my life i bring my mum for supper, feel so proud; but this is not the main story) The uncle was trying to get onto PIE but as he was not familiar with the road, he missed the PIE and turned in the geylang road which was packed with cars. My mum was feeling uneasy over this hiccups and I had to pacify her to tell her to enjoy the scenary and that it was ok to travel by this road. Haha.... The uncle was quite apologetic but I was not disturbed by the longer ride.
In our fast pace of life, everything is about efficiency and effective. It is about my right and what I am entitled to. Yes, there are times we need to be careful and firm so that we do not get cheated. But how many times have we been unempathetic towards others and how often do we marginalise people just because people do not conform to our ways. I am asking this question to myself. I am not perfect. The more so because I am not perfect, I need to remind myself of my attitudes towards others.
2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Romans 12:2 (New International Version)
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Finally a post from me! :p
SUPER THE FUNNEH! YOU NEED TO KNOW MANDARIN!!!
老师问学生：‘人生自古谁无死…..你接下一句。
’学生答：‘人生自古谁无屎，有谁大便不用纸！’老师很生气，叫学生罚站。
隔年，老师又问回同样的问题…这时学生变聪明了！
他答：‘人生自古谁无屎，谁能大便不用纸。若君不用卫生纸，除非你是用手指。
’老师很火大，又叫学生罚站！
这时，老师看见窗外下着雪，就遗憾地说：‘上天下雪不下雨，雪到地上变成雨。变成雨时多麻烦，为何当初不下雨……’
学生又回覆老师：‘老师吃饭不吃屎，饭到肚时变成屎。变成屎时多麻烦，为何当初不吃屎……’就这样，老师当场晕倒！
老师问学生：‘人生自古谁无死…..你接下一句。
’学生答：‘人生自古谁无屎，有谁大便不用纸！’老师很生气，叫学生罚站。
隔年，老师又问回同样的问题…这时学生变聪明了！
他答：‘人生自古谁无屎，谁能大便不用纸。若君不用卫生纸，除非你是用手指。
’老师很火大，又叫学生罚站！
这时，老师看见窗外下着雪，就遗憾地说：‘上天下雪不下雨，雪到地上变成雨。变成雨时多麻烦，为何当初不下雨……’
学生又回覆老师：‘老师吃饭不吃屎，饭到肚时变成屎。变成屎时多麻烦，为何当初不吃屎……’就这样，老师当场晕倒！
Friday, December 26, 2008
Back
Hi to all, whoever is reading my blog. I am back in Singapore for Christmas. Really appreciate to be back. The last 2 Christmas were spent in Cambodia. They were as good. But it is different to be back with my family to spend Christmas.
So many things had happened and I just simply do not know how I am going to put it into words. I guess I will just highlight on certain things that I feel is of significance.
Firstly, my Kumpuchea blog will cease to be updated as it takes just too much effort to update. So, I guess I will just stop updating on that!
Secondly, is that I missed the SACC Youth Camp. This was the 2nd youth camp. I attended the 1st one 2 yrs back. It was amazing. And to miss this 2nd one really makes me sad. Hahahaha! But I learn that sometimes to do 'big' things for the Lord, sacrifices had to be make. There will always be another camp. Yeah!!!!!
Thirdly, is that I caught a bug from the last medical mission. Had a sorethroat and developed into bronchitis. Thkfully I came back and seen a doctor. The medicine was good but the last few days I were a bit 'ma-bo'. But I guess I am about 80% recovered. Had been snacking alreadi! Muahahaha....
Fourthly, is that these year's mission trip had been fulfilling. All because the Lord is good. We hosted quite a numbers of teams and though it was tiring, it was good to have the teams as they did great. I personally feel that the team that stayed in Phnom Penh impacted the Khmer youths greatly. The friendship that was built was a sign of love for one another. And I myself had been blessed greatly as I had gotten to know more new friends, who share similiar dreams and visions. May we continue to strive for the Lord!
Fifthly was the X'mas Eve and X'mas service. Really appreciate the Eve svcs. The youth did up a chorale for the 2nd eve and X'mas day svcs. I am so proud of them. They did a brilliant job. I am so happy that they took all their initiative to plan and organise. This is a sign of maturity and their willingness to want to serve the Lord. All glory to Christ.
Sixthly and last of all, the Lord has been good to me. 2007 was a rollercoaster ride. Early this year was a confusing year with major decisions but tainted with hesitation and resistance to be made. But even as we honor the Lord, the Lord honors us. I have seen the faithfulness of the Lord all these years. Things that are beyond our comprehension. Things that He reveals bit by bit. I know the Lord has a plan. Obedience is better than sacrifice.
He had taught me to close all the doors.
So many things had happened and I just simply do not know how I am going to put it into words. I guess I will just highlight on certain things that I feel is of significance.
Firstly, my Kumpuchea blog will cease to be updated as it takes just too much effort to update. So, I guess I will just stop updating on that!
Secondly, is that I missed the SACC Youth Camp. This was the 2nd youth camp. I attended the 1st one 2 yrs back. It was amazing. And to miss this 2nd one really makes me sad. Hahahaha! But I learn that sometimes to do 'big' things for the Lord, sacrifices had to be make. There will always be another camp. Yeah!!!!!
Thirdly, is that I caught a bug from the last medical mission. Had a sorethroat and developed into bronchitis. Thkfully I came back and seen a doctor. The medicine was good but the last few days I were a bit 'ma-bo'. But I guess I am about 80% recovered. Had been snacking alreadi! Muahahaha....
Fourthly, is that these year's mission trip had been fulfilling. All because the Lord is good. We hosted quite a numbers of teams and though it was tiring, it was good to have the teams as they did great. I personally feel that the team that stayed in Phnom Penh impacted the Khmer youths greatly. The friendship that was built was a sign of love for one another. And I myself had been blessed greatly as I had gotten to know more new friends, who share similiar dreams and visions. May we continue to strive for the Lord!
Fifthly was the X'mas Eve and X'mas service. Really appreciate the Eve svcs. The youth did up a chorale for the 2nd eve and X'mas day svcs. I am so proud of them. They did a brilliant job. I am so happy that they took all their initiative to plan and organise. This is a sign of maturity and their willingness to want to serve the Lord. All glory to Christ.
Sixthly and last of all, the Lord has been good to me. 2007 was a rollercoaster ride. Early this year was a confusing year with major decisions but tainted with hesitation and resistance to be made. But even as we honor the Lord, the Lord honors us. I have seen the faithfulness of the Lord all these years. Things that are beyond our comprehension. Things that He reveals bit by bit. I know the Lord has a plan. Obedience is better than sacrifice.
He had taught me to close all the doors.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Xianjie Nou Kumpuchea
That means Xianjie in Cambodia. I will be updating in the "Me in Cambodia'' blog. So if you are keen to find out, please request for view. Only for people I know. Thanks! God bless!
Friday, November 07, 2008
Sunday, November 02, 2008
Stewardship
Today, Rev Jon was preaching. His usual opening would be a joke. Pretty funny.
Here's how the joke went. (Rephrase and re-edit by me)
There was once an atheist. He was lost in the forest and he came across a hungry bear. The bear ran towards him and wanted to attack him. As the bear rose its paws and was about to attack the atheist, the atheist, out of desperation, called out to God for help.
And that moment froze. A beam of light shone onto the atheist. And followed was a voice. The voice of God.
God:"Why did you call me to help you when all your life you tell others that I never existed? So how do you expect me to help you if I never existed?"
Atheist:"Well, if I were to say I believe in you and need Your help, I may be seen as a hypocrite. Hmmmmm..... How about You make the bear a Chrisitan?"
God:"Ok, that's a fair deal."
And with a snap of the finger, everything reversed to the point when the bear was about to struck the atheist.
And the bear rose its paws.................gripped them together and...............gave thanks for the food that was laid before it.........
Funney siah! Though I can't really remember how this joke links to the sermon! (Rev Jon did link it to the sermon, just tat I can't remember) And you will think that I also couldn't remember the sermon, right? WRONG! I remembered. I take notes!
Rev Jon was preaching about 'giving', especially in such financial crisis time. This is not about 'ko yok' selling but rather was from a very biblical and wholistic view of 'giving'.
Scripture: 2 Cor 9:6-15
1) GIVE INTENTIONALLY
In v7 Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.
2) GIVE FREELY
Ok! I can't really remember the actual content of the sermon but these are my after thoughts of the whole sermon.
Why is it so hard to tithe 10%? I believe because we see the 10% as a kind of obligation or 'taxation law' that we have 'no choice' but to follow. With such a state of heart, the 10% is like slicing a piece of meat of our flesh. We fail to understand why we are giving. Does God need our money? No! In fact, all things come from Him. It's an irony to say that we are giving to the Lord! We are just returning them to the Lord. As I ponder upon this, I realise something. The concept of STEWARDSHIP.
Stewarship in the sense that everything that we have, we are tasked to do, we come across, relationship that we are involved are all from the Lord and all these are placed in our care till the Lord calls us home. Our possessions are from the Lord. Money, car, house etc are from the Lord and are we putting it to good use. Not just for our own pleasure but are we using such things that is edifying and glorifying to God. I always remember a friend, Johnny Jong who always say that the car he has is from the Lord and he will always quick to offer his help to drive people around.
Career. Indeed, the opportunity to earn a living is from the Lord. More than just doing the work well and being paid, are we being a good testimony in our workplace? Are we able to show good management of our relationship with our superior, peers and subordinates, bearing in mind that anyone, inclusive of ourself, can be difficult?
Relationship. Any kind of relationship? Are we being responsible towards the other party? Especially with our parents and siblings. I never chose my parents, especially my dad!!! He is so difficult to handle. He is so different from the whole family. He is so demanding. I can choose to say, "I don't care! It is his own problem." But if I really think about it, though I have no 'say' in choosing my father, it is God who have placed him as my father. Can I just simply say 'I don't care.' That is outright defiance against God. I have learnt to be more patient and loving towards my dad though it is still hard. But I learnt that the Lord has placed my dad in my care and that will be what I will do.
This is just a thought. I haven't really sit down to dwell and brew upon it. But I do believe with this grasping and understanding of stewardship, I will learn to be self-less and more outward looking towards people. Just like what Christ is! He came as a SERVANT-KING!!!
Here's how the joke went. (Rephrase and re-edit by me)
There was once an atheist. He was lost in the forest and he came across a hungry bear. The bear ran towards him and wanted to attack him. As the bear rose its paws and was about to attack the atheist, the atheist, out of desperation, called out to God for help.
And that moment froze. A beam of light shone onto the atheist. And followed was a voice. The voice of God.
God:"Why did you call me to help you when all your life you tell others that I never existed? So how do you expect me to help you if I never existed?"
Atheist:"Well, if I were to say I believe in you and need Your help, I may be seen as a hypocrite. Hmmmmm..... How about You make the bear a Chrisitan?"
God:"Ok, that's a fair deal."
And with a snap of the finger, everything reversed to the point when the bear was about to struck the atheist.
And the bear rose its paws.................gripped them together and...............gave thanks for the food that was laid before it.........
Funney siah! Though I can't really remember how this joke links to the sermon! (Rev Jon did link it to the sermon, just tat I can't remember) And you will think that I also couldn't remember the sermon, right? WRONG! I remembered. I take notes!
Rev Jon was preaching about 'giving', especially in such financial crisis time. This is not about 'ko yok' selling but rather was from a very biblical and wholistic view of 'giving'.
Scripture: 2 Cor 9:6-15
1) GIVE INTENTIONALLY
In v7 Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.
2) GIVE FREELY
Ok! I can't really remember the actual content of the sermon but these are my after thoughts of the whole sermon.
Why is it so hard to tithe 10%? I believe because we see the 10% as a kind of obligation or 'taxation law' that we have 'no choice' but to follow. With such a state of heart, the 10% is like slicing a piece of meat of our flesh. We fail to understand why we are giving. Does God need our money? No! In fact, all things come from Him. It's an irony to say that we are giving to the Lord! We are just returning them to the Lord. As I ponder upon this, I realise something. The concept of STEWARDSHIP.
Stewarship in the sense that everything that we have, we are tasked to do, we come across, relationship that we are involved are all from the Lord and all these are placed in our care till the Lord calls us home. Our possessions are from the Lord. Money, car, house etc are from the Lord and are we putting it to good use. Not just for our own pleasure but are we using such things that is edifying and glorifying to God. I always remember a friend, Johnny Jong who always say that the car he has is from the Lord and he will always quick to offer his help to drive people around.
Career. Indeed, the opportunity to earn a living is from the Lord. More than just doing the work well and being paid, are we being a good testimony in our workplace? Are we able to show good management of our relationship with our superior, peers and subordinates, bearing in mind that anyone, inclusive of ourself, can be difficult?
Relationship. Any kind of relationship? Are we being responsible towards the other party? Especially with our parents and siblings. I never chose my parents, especially my dad!!! He is so difficult to handle. He is so different from the whole family. He is so demanding. I can choose to say, "I don't care! It is his own problem." But if I really think about it, though I have no 'say' in choosing my father, it is God who have placed him as my father. Can I just simply say 'I don't care.' That is outright defiance against God. I have learnt to be more patient and loving towards my dad though it is still hard. But I learnt that the Lord has placed my dad in my care and that will be what I will do.
This is just a thought. I haven't really sit down to dwell and brew upon it. But I do believe with this grasping and understanding of stewardship, I will learn to be self-less and more outward looking towards people. Just like what Christ is! He came as a SERVANT-KING!!!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
IF I WERE SUPERMAN
I want to watch this korean movie. Seems quite interesting and touching. Tmr is off-day. Maybe I shd go watch tmr.... alone..... Haiz........Hahaha
And this movie only show at certain location. Vivo, TiongBahru, Marina, YISHUN but not Tampines. Arhhh........ The nearest and most convenient one will be TiongBahru. But even then it is still so out of the way........
Let's see how. Motivation to watch vs Motivation to rest......
If I were superman, what would I want to do? Maybe if i am superman, I would just want to be a normal person. Irony of life. That's why we can never be superman. We are always the 'weak citizens' and Jesus is our Superman who is always there for us.
And this movie only show at certain location. Vivo, TiongBahru, Marina, YISHUN but not Tampines. Arhhh........ The nearest and most convenient one will be TiongBahru. But even then it is still so out of the way........
Let's see how. Motivation to watch vs Motivation to rest......
If I were superman, what would I want to do? Maybe if i am superman, I would just want to be a normal person. Irony of life. That's why we can never be superman. We are always the 'weak citizens' and Jesus is our Superman who is always there for us.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Waves of Life
I had returned back to Singapore on 14 Oct, Tuesday. The night before I returned, I was chatting with my sis and found out that parents were not well. Mum had a high fever a week back and had urinal infection which affected her abdominal areas. Dad had strained his whole right hand. Sis was pretty tied up at work and also at the same time had to take care of parents' needs. It was really hard on her.
After hearing all these, the question surfaced, "Have I heard the Lord clearly? If yes, then why are such things happening when I am away? It seems that I have 'abandoned' my duties and responsibilities to the family."
Doubting God? Nah! But yet a question that I need to persue for an answer. I came to the Lord. He assured me. The Lord never promises good times but He promises help and comfort in such times. Rev Jonathan preached about in difficult times (especially now for many who are hit by the financial crisis), are we able to still know who is in control, are we still able to smile at the storm knowing that Christ is in the vessel.
My parents are not young and subsceptible to illness (irregardless of whether I'm in Singapore or not). My only hope is to trust that the Lord will continue to grant them good health and even if health deterioriates, that He will be their Healer and Comforter. And on my part, I just need to put in effort to show my care and concern through more frequent call back home and SKYPE. (My parents are cool; they use SKYPE)
I thank God that my mum's condition is improving after medication. Her urine test had shown no infection. Her appetitie is also returning. Dad's hand is still troubling him, though he said that it has improved.
Lord, there's nothing too big or too small for You to not know or not able to handle. In difficult times, I pray that I will be able to smile at the storm, knowing that You are in the same boat as me. I pray that You will continue to preserve the health of my parents. And more importantly, I pray for the father's salvation, that he will stumble upon Your grace and love. And I pray that You too will continue to be the light to my sis, leading her back into Your grace and mercy. Amen!
After hearing all these, the question surfaced, "Have I heard the Lord clearly? If yes, then why are such things happening when I am away? It seems that I have 'abandoned' my duties and responsibilities to the family."
Doubting God? Nah! But yet a question that I need to persue for an answer. I came to the Lord. He assured me. The Lord never promises good times but He promises help and comfort in such times. Rev Jonathan preached about in difficult times (especially now for many who are hit by the financial crisis), are we able to still know who is in control, are we still able to smile at the storm knowing that Christ is in the vessel.
My parents are not young and subsceptible to illness (irregardless of whether I'm in Singapore or not). My only hope is to trust that the Lord will continue to grant them good health and even if health deterioriates, that He will be their Healer and Comforter. And on my part, I just need to put in effort to show my care and concern through more frequent call back home and SKYPE. (My parents are cool; they use SKYPE)
I thank God that my mum's condition is improving after medication. Her urine test had shown no infection. Her appetitie is also returning. Dad's hand is still troubling him, though he said that it has improved.
Lord, there's nothing too big or too small for You to not know or not able to handle. In difficult times, I pray that I will be able to smile at the storm, knowing that You are in the same boat as me. I pray that You will continue to preserve the health of my parents. And more importantly, I pray for the father's salvation, that he will stumble upon Your grace and love. And I pray that You too will continue to be the light to my sis, leading her back into Your grace and mercy. Amen!
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Worldly Number Game
I overheard this comment, "The 'XYZ program' very little people attending. Only X number of people went." It was as good as hearing that they were skeptically snaring about the program. In fact, when I visited the program, it was well attended. I am not sure why people make such comment. Either they are poorly informed or they are just 'waiting' for something to happen. Well, many a times we do make such a passing comment innocently. But our mind should really be transformed. The numbers are important but do not let the numer becomes bigger than our head or our LORD. Cliche as it may be, this is so valuable that we shd be looking at the 1/2 filled glass. When we see such a situation, are we quick to give thks to the Lord for those who came? Do we pray for these people, that they may be encouraged to faithfully return for the activity? Do we pray that their lives will be transformed and challenged in this new program? Or are we just looking at the spaces and shaking our heads?
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Mount Vwing SungHubBorei
I'm back! After 2 mths in Cambodia, I'm back in Singapore... for 1 mth. Time really flies. I thank God for His favour and His grace as I found new friendship, trust, experience....... This is honeymoon period. After this 'rest' in Singapore, X'mas outreaches in Cambodia for about a month. Woo hoo... This is going to be exciting. And I believe very much challenging and tiring. But by going through all these, I will and be able to understand how much the Khmer staff have put into this X'mas outreaches.
As for now, relax a bit, do planning for next year's activities and also to pay visits to those teams that will be coming up to Cambodia for x'mas outreaches. For those who want to arrange for personal meet-up with me, better book me early.... I'm hot..... ^.* ok................ I'm hearing pple slamming head against the keyboard.......
As for now, relax a bit, do planning for next year's activities and also to pay visits to those teams that will be coming up to Cambodia for x'mas outreaches. For those who want to arrange for personal meet-up with me, better book me early.... I'm hot..... ^.* ok................ I'm hearing pple slamming head against the keyboard.......
Saturday, October 04, 2008
EZ
It's always so easy to be quick to advise people but yet so slow to apply to myself.
"Seek Ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all the rest will be added onto you."
"Seek Ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all the rest will be added onto you."
Thursday, October 02, 2008
Majoring on Minor
Sometimes I see myself very centred and narrow minded. While I am busy worrying over my seemingly trivial issues, there are many more serious and painstaking things happening.
Xianjie, got to be more selfless, got to be more aware of the surroundings, got to show more concern about other things than yourself.
Lord! Help me to see others needs before my own. Help me to see the world with a more compasionate than one that only cares about myself. All my concerns, You are in control. Amen!
Xianjie, got to be more selfless, got to be more aware of the surroundings, got to show more concern about other things than yourself.
Lord! Help me to see others needs before my own. Help me to see the world with a more compasionate than one that only cares about myself. All my concerns, You are in control. Amen!
Monday, September 29, 2008
Ot Baan Barg Moaut
Have been in Cambodia for nearly 6 weeks and keep hearing chinese pop songs sang in Khmer. It brings a familiarity feeling but yet also a alienated one as well. haha! Wonder if Jay Chou's songs are favourite here or not....
Listening to music at YOUTUBE....
Knyom klaich nih neung bardt dol knyom. Ot baan barg moaut ao-ee nieg deung. Knyom baan twer ar-vai? Dtoog Jedt nul knong Pray Jier M'Ja.... Nul knong bayl Pray Jier M'Ja.....
Listening to music at YOUTUBE....
Knyom klaich nih neung bardt dol knyom. Ot baan barg moaut ao-ee nieg deung. Knyom baan twer ar-vai? Dtoog Jedt nul knong Pray Jier M'Ja.... Nul knong bayl Pray Jier M'Ja.....
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
Muddy
After the rain, the sky clears!
It seems that the journey will be easier
But the fields become muddy!
It is just as hard as ever!
Not that there's no way!
It is about waiting upon His time.......
Bpayl Naah????
Nul Knong Bayl Pray-Jier-M'Ja.....
Jedt Bpee-Badt.....
It seems that the journey will be easier
But the fields become muddy!
It is just as hard as ever!
Not that there's no way!
It is about waiting upon His time.......
Bpayl Naah????
Nul Knong Bayl Pray-Jier-M'Ja.....
Jedt Bpee-Badt.....
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
McCambodia
Bringing McDonald into Cambodia. Do we know what we are doing? Do we have sufficient culture awareness of the new country? Do we think we know everything of the new place? We need to acknowledge that we know nothing. We need to learn about the new place. We cannot just impose our ideas, thoughts, beliefs and ways of doing things. We cannot behave, act, rationalise, speak and present ourselves in the way we are back at home. We need to be very careful, we need to be very discerning, we need to be sensitive and be awared of the critical things.
We need to realise that we know nothing and start to learn new things......
We need to realise that we know nothing and start to learn new things......
WELL WELL WELL...........
A seminar that I attended 2 yrs back. The take-home message.
1) The Wisdom of Seeking Counsel
2) The Principle of Equally Yoked
3) The beauty of Purity
4) The Principle of Shared Inheritance
5) The Presence of Willingness
6) The Key of Prayer
7) The Important value of Kindness
8) The need for Family Blessing
9) The Principle of Timing
10) The Principle of Well
I guess the last 2 points really kept me thinking. Timing. I believe that in God's timing, all things will fall into place. And I believe that God will give the best to me. But many a times, I just simply sit there and wait for God's timing. Is tat good? No in fact it's so wrong not so much in waiting upon God but in that I'm so engrossed in focusing on the timing that i do nothing but just day and night, waiting anxiously. How foolish! And also the principle of well which actually talks abt many characters in the bible found their partners near the well. Well symbolishes community gathering and for us our well is the church. Stay around the 'well' and the right one may appear rite before your eyes.
1) The Wisdom of Seeking Counsel
2) The Principle of Equally Yoked
3) The beauty of Purity
4) The Principle of Shared Inheritance
5) The Presence of Willingness
6) The Key of Prayer
7) The Important value of Kindness
8) The need for Family Blessing
9) The Principle of Timing
10) The Principle of Well
I guess the last 2 points really kept me thinking. Timing. I believe that in God's timing, all things will fall into place. And I believe that God will give the best to me. But many a times, I just simply sit there and wait for God's timing. Is tat good? No in fact it's so wrong not so much in waiting upon God but in that I'm so engrossed in focusing on the timing that i do nothing but just day and night, waiting anxiously. How foolish! And also the principle of well which actually talks abt many characters in the bible found their partners near the well. Well symbolishes community gathering and for us our well is the church. Stay around the 'well' and the right one may appear rite before your eyes.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Moon
Compared to the stars...........
Compared to the sun............
Compared to the earth..........
Whoever understands the moon..............
Compared to the sun............
Compared to the earth..........
Whoever understands the moon..............
Mystery
Losing is to gain. Maybe that's how it work. Not to gain anything material but rather wisdom. Whoever want to lose.
He gives and takes away......... as He pleases.
He gives and takes away......... as He pleases.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Paradox
There are times when one being objective may not be deemed objective because by the mere fact of that one's presence may put question on that one's objectivity.
Am I being objective?
Am I being objective?
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
LIGHTNING: STRIKE 2
Lightning never strikes twice on the same place. That's what they always say. But it doesn't seem to apply to me. Things always happen - again! It is not as if I never learn from the previous experience. Den why am I going thru it again?
Once again a sitting duck. Quack all I want but I still know that I need to trust You. Give me the strength. Let me trust in Your providence. Let You be the reason for me to move on! Amen!
Once again a sitting duck. Quack all I want but I still know that I need to trust You. Give me the strength. Let me trust in Your providence. Let You be the reason for me to move on! Amen!
Monday, August 25, 2008
FALL (Hillsong)
Learn about this song in Cambodia. The Youths were using this song to praise the Lord. It was a Khmer version. But the melody really caught my heart and was really inspired to worship the Lord.
FALL
I love to worship You, my God
I love to worship You, my Lord
And see Your Spirit fall in power
Your love unfolding
Gifts from heaven
I love to worship You, my God
I love to worship You, my Lord
And feel Your precious
Breath of heaven
Your all consuming love
Holy Spirit come in power
Change my heart
I want to live for You, my God
Let Your Spirit come in power
Change my life
That I may live for You my Lord
Fall on us Lord
So I yearn for You
Long to see You move
Lord, I lift my hands before my King and pray
FALL
I love to worship You, my God
I love to worship You, my Lord
And see Your Spirit fall in power
Your love unfolding
Gifts from heaven
I love to worship You, my God
I love to worship You, my Lord
And feel Your precious
Breath of heaven
Your all consuming love
Holy Spirit come in power
Change my heart
I want to live for You, my God
Let Your Spirit come in power
Change my life
That I may live for You my Lord
Fall on us Lord
So I yearn for You
Long to see You move
Lord, I lift my hands before my King and pray
Sunday, August 03, 2008
开不了口
Sunday, July 15, 2007
祢 來 告 訴 我
KEY: F
词曲: 顯傑
望 着 无 月 的 夜 空
情 感 有 一 点 谜 蒙
心 在 飘 浮 没 有 着 落
我 应 该 怎 么 做 祢 来 告 诉 我
望 着 奥 妙 的 海 阔
冷 风 在 耳 边 吹 过
心 像 海 浪 不 停 起 波
脑 海 里 不 知 所 措
该 怎 么 做 祢 来 告 诉 我
(Chorus)
我 对 这 份 情 感 没 有 把 握
我 只 默 默 守 候 只 因 怕 做 错
我 不 想 错 过
主 请 祢 来 领 导 我
我 的 一 切
我 的 未 来
我 的 渴 望
该 怎 么 做 祢 来 告 诉 我
一年后，这首又再次回到脑海。
仿佛又回到同一个局面。
开不了口。。。。
愿主的权能高过我的旨意。
愿主掀开显明给我祂的旨意。
祢 來 告 訴 我
KEY: F
词曲: 顯傑
望 着 无 月 的 夜 空
情 感 有 一 点 谜 蒙
心 在 飘 浮 没 有 着 落
我 应 该 怎 么 做 祢 来 告 诉 我
望 着 奥 妙 的 海 阔
冷 风 在 耳 边 吹 过
心 像 海 浪 不 停 起 波
脑 海 里 不 知 所 措
该 怎 么 做 祢 来 告 诉 我
(Chorus)
我 对 这 份 情 感 没 有 把 握
我 只 默 默 守 候 只 因 怕 做 错
我 不 想 错 过
主 请 祢 来 领 导 我
我 的 一 切
我 的 未 来
我 的 渴 望
该 怎 么 做 祢 来 告 诉 我
一年后，这首又再次回到脑海。
仿佛又回到同一个局面。
开不了口。。。。
愿主的权能高过我的旨意。
愿主掀开显明给我祂的旨意。
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