21 Apr (Thu)
My dad was warded into SGH to prepare him for operation on Friday. He went in during the noon. As I had class, I could only visit him in the evening. Caught a cab, swung by to grab my sis den went to SGH. My mum was with my dad when we met him. Then we went for a quick munch at the Kopi Tiam. He was still quite positive but I knew deep in him, he was worried sick. I know he was worried if the operation will succeed or not. Then Pastor Priscilla came and visited him. Had a chat with him and before leaving, prayed for him. I was not feeling very right. My soul felt very down. Though I had earlier said that I could not feel as much for my dad, somehow or rather, knowing that he will be goin under the knife, hurt me too. And knowing his worries, make me feel very sad.
22 Apr (Fri)
My mum, sis and I visited my dad in the morning before he went for his operation. Though he seems normal, I could sense his worries and fears. After a while, the nurse came and prepared him for the operation. After he was wheeled into the theatre, mum, sis and I went to have a drink. After which i left for church to give tuition to Calvin while mum and sis went to walk around. After that we met again at about 5pm and dad was not out yet. The doc said the op will be abt 3-4 hrs but it has been nearly 5 hrs. Kinda freaking out my sis and mum. But finally he was pushed out and delivered to ICU. We managed to catch a glimpse of him outside the ICU. He was still unconcious but seems like he was waking up. Could see that he was struggling, i guess in pain and dun know why it was emotionally upsetting. Somehow or rather, I could feel his pain. Tears were filling my eyes. I remembered the precious time when i was hospitalised, he told me that he was too near to tears. I brushed that comment off as something which he exaggerated. But now I knew what he meant and felt. It was a long day for the whole family and we all retired home.
25 Apr (Sat)
Woke up early to prepare worship and word time for youth fellowship. Then went to church to give tuition to Wei Ren. Then followed by worship practise. After which had a talk with the youth worship team abt helping to lead worship for the month of May. Thkfully almost all of them agreed to it. And really glad that they take the step of faith. I know it may be very taunting and uncomfortable for them to lead worship without any experience. But the whole idea is for them to have a feel of leading worship. It's not so much abt whether at the end did they lead a superb worship or not. But rather, more importantly, is that are they able to trust in God to help them. And I believe for those who takes this step of faith will emerge a stronger person. Then i lead worship for the youth fellowship alone that Saturday. Kinda disatrous. Haha. Couldn't really focus. But still thk God for His grace. Then went into word time. Again only Ding Yi and Jason. Not a complaint but actually gladful that both of them make the effort to come. Theme was still on beattitudes. Matt 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful for they will be shown mercy" Once again, it's a value that the world dun embrace. And that's what our Lord is teaching. To give pple not just 2nd chance but many chances. Not to step on those who had fallen but to lend a helping hand to them. To forgive becoz we were being forgiven first. Yes! It is not easy to be merciful becoz honestly the world will nvr be merciful to us. But let's follow the footsteps of Christ for He first show mercy to us.
After the youth fellowship, rushed back home in a cab to fetch mum then went hospital to see dad. He was still in ICU and after a few minutes with him, he was tired and kinda chase us out. Then mum and i took a cab home. I then went to meet up Daniel and the rest in Tampines Central. Hang around at Mc, before going home.
24 Apr (Sun)
Woke up early as playing at worship today. Well everything went quite smoothly but i still can't hear myself. Really hard for me to play if i can't hear myself. I'm sound deficient. And to have like a few instruments playin at the same time, it makes it even harder to listen. Haiz! wat to do! No talent means no talent! haha! Then after service was AGM. 2 and a half hour! Phew! Then went to TM to eat at LJS with Daniel, Xin Ling, Yvonne, Jamie and Magdalene. After that I went back church to meet sis before swinging back home to fetch mum den visited dad. He was now transferred fr ICU to High Dependency Ward. He was more energetic than the few days before. But still can see that he was v weak. After a while, we were chased away by him again. Went home in a cab.
Monday, April 25, 2005
Monday, April 18, 2005
17 Apr (Sun)
Today woke up at 7.45am. Preparing to go for church. Then left house with my sis and took a cab down to church. Today, I would be attending the Mandarin Svc. I missed the beginning of the sermon becoz went to look for Ding Yi. He disappeared half way thru the worship. Tot tat he got lost. Haha. FOund him at Children Min. He suppose to help out. After much relief, went back to Chapel and the sermon started. Didn't get the topice but from the rest of the sermon, i believe it is about what our life is like. The preacher mentioned 3 things that our life is like.
Firstly, our life is like a mirror. We are initially a piece of uneven mirror and what we reflect are not truthful and realistic. But as we let Jesus come into our life, He is like a tool that will help to even up the uneveness on the mirror. Then as time goes by our life will reflect a clearer and more reaslistic image. And at the same time we will also reflect the characters of God.
Secondly, our life is like the wheat. A kernel of wheat may seem nothing much but in fact its potential is great. When the time is ripe, it will bear into fields of wheat. In John 12:24, it says "I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds" Likewise our life shd die so that Jesus can enter our life and result in not just renewal of life but also greater harvest.
Thirdly, our life is like a butterfly. A butterfly start off as a caterpillar which nobody admire or adore. The caterpillar after its eating feast, turn itself into a cocoon . In the cocoon, the genes of the butterfly manipulate the cell to devour all the cells of the caterpillar. This is not to kill the caterpillar but to fully transform itself into a butterfly which is greatly appreciated and admired by people. The gene of the butterfly is like Jesus. And the cells of the caterpillar are like our pasts. In order to be fully transformed, we need Jesus to eat up our past. Then when the caterpillar is no more, what is left is a butterfly reflecting the characters of Jesus.
Life is not easy but it's not impossible or beyond what we can bear. But we need Jesus to be in our life. Unless we die to ourself and allow Jesus to take control, our life will be lived in vain. So brothers and sisters, let us look to our God who is faithful and loving and hold on to the promise He has given to us. Live a life for our God.
Firstly, our life is like a mirror. We are initially a piece of uneven mirror and what we reflect are not truthful and realistic. But as we let Jesus come into our life, He is like a tool that will help to even up the uneveness on the mirror. Then as time goes by our life will reflect a clearer and more reaslistic image. And at the same time we will also reflect the characters of God.
Secondly, our life is like the wheat. A kernel of wheat may seem nothing much but in fact its potential is great. When the time is ripe, it will bear into fields of wheat. In John 12:24, it says "I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds" Likewise our life shd die so that Jesus can enter our life and result in not just renewal of life but also greater harvest.
Thirdly, our life is like a butterfly. A butterfly start off as a caterpillar which nobody admire or adore. The caterpillar after its eating feast, turn itself into a cocoon . In the cocoon, the genes of the butterfly manipulate the cell to devour all the cells of the caterpillar. This is not to kill the caterpillar but to fully transform itself into a butterfly which is greatly appreciated and admired by people. The gene of the butterfly is like Jesus. And the cells of the caterpillar are like our pasts. In order to be fully transformed, we need Jesus to eat up our past. Then when the caterpillar is no more, what is left is a butterfly reflecting the characters of Jesus.
Life is not easy but it's not impossible or beyond what we can bear. But we need Jesus to be in our life. Unless we die to ourself and allow Jesus to take control, our life will be lived in vain. So brothers and sisters, let us look to our God who is faithful and loving and hold on to the promise He has given to us. Live a life for our God.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
16 April (sat)
YEEAAAAHHHHHHHHH! Small group outing. My group and Claudia's and Khim's group going to Kayak at East Coast Park. Finally we are going to Kayak after much failed attempt. Haha. But we are meeting quite early in the morning becoz we wanted to miss the sun. Meeting at Tampines Interchange Small MacDonald at 7.30am. And I make a big mistake on the nite before the outing. At 11pm, I was about to sleep but the weather was hot. So I decided to make myself an Iced Moccha. Bad choice. After that I could only sleep at 12am. Then I woke up at 2.30 am and couldn't sleep. I literally lied in bed wide awake unti l 5am before sliding into a short nap. Officially woke up at 6.30am, got myself prepared and left house. Reached there at about 7.20am. Then as usual, there will be people who will be blur blur and come late. I thinked we left Mac at about 8am. When we reached there, it was about 8.45am. We met auntie Khim at East Coast Mac. Then we set off to find the Kayak place. Yes you heard me correctly, find the Kayak place. So from Mac, it's either left or right as nobody know where exactly is the location. Nobody WANT to give a suggestion, so i took upon myself to decide. Right. Well! Bad choice. Walked for 20 min then i told the rest to stop while i carried on. After i walked on 20 min, i called Claudia saying that it's most probably the wrong direction, so going to turn back and they asked somebody who confirmed that's it is on the other side. Haha. Yes! Well done! I actually hate to make guesses. I'm ver y bad at such 'ti kam ti kam' stuff. It's like in exam when I have uncertainty on a MCQ, i could never 'ti kam ti kam' the answer becoz I always get wrong. Even if it's only 2 options, i will always choose the wrong one. Haha. So when it comes to such situation, nvr give me the liberty to choose becoz I WILL CHOOSE THE WROND ONE. ^0^ Muahahahahaaahhahha.
So we walked back to Mac, and they decided to either blade or cycle. I choose blade since it's a long time i had bladed. But I always had this prob. My feet is too broad and it is flat feet. So the side of the feet is always subjected to more pressure and weight and it will have an excruciating pain. But I still love to blade becoz it really make me feel like i can fly. Pigs flying? Haha. Khim, Claudia, Yvonne, Zhengda and me chose blading while Xin Ling, Jason and Jasmine chose cycling. Then Khim, Claudia, Ah Da and me went to the learners' corner. It seemed like it's the first few tries for Claudia and Khim. Haha. Tried to help them though i am no much better. I didn't fall but in the process of not falling, I did some 'stunts'. Then after we were done, Khim left first followed by Claudia, Jasmine and Ah Da. So the rest of us make our way to Bedok SOuth for lunch before going to Khim's place. Took a bath then went to help her make cake and bread. Was making a chococlate cake and custard bun. Hehe. Was a lot of fun. I really love to bake though i dun bake at home. Too much of a trouble and my mum always find it very messy. Then it's a sum of money to be spent. So most of the time i prefer to help and bake at people's house. Then the buns that i make, Auntie Khim say got 'backside'. Didn't close up all the openings. haha. Then when the bun was done, no time to bake so had to bring it over to Lydia's place to bake. Reached Lydia's place and alreadi baked some pizzas. Then the whole ntie was makan and makan. Muahahahahahahha. Then I tried to do some magic trick which was seen thru by the youths. Haiz. I tot it was a good magic trick but i guess i'm just simply not good enough. Nvr mind. I will do the sawing trick the next time round. I bet you all can see thru it. Haha. Get it, see thru it See thru the person I had saw up into half. HAHAHAHHA. Ok not funny! Then some of them wanted to play "Dai Di" but the house rules didn't permit. But i'm proud that the youths didn't try to break the rule. They could have just not be bother with the rule and just play until they get caught but they didn't. Prasie the Lord for all these righteous and rule-abidding youths. Then at the end, had a short worship and a time of sharing and testimony. Felt very touched by the youths coming up to share their experience and what they see God is doing. And my prayer is that the youths will continue to uphold their Lord and faithfully follow His way. Keep up the good work for the race will bear many fruits beyond your imagination.
So we walked back to Mac, and they decided to either blade or cycle. I choose blade since it's a long time i had bladed. But I always had this prob. My feet is too broad and it is flat feet. So the side of the feet is always subjected to more pressure and weight and it will have an excruciating pain. But I still love to blade becoz it really make me feel like i can fly. Pigs flying? Haha. Khim, Claudia, Yvonne, Zhengda and me chose blading while Xin Ling, Jason and Jasmine chose cycling. Then Khim, Claudia, Ah Da and me went to the learners' corner. It seemed like it's the first few tries for Claudia and Khim. Haha. Tried to help them though i am no much better. I didn't fall but in the process of not falling, I did some 'stunts'. Then after we were done, Khim left first followed by Claudia, Jasmine and Ah Da. So the rest of us make our way to Bedok SOuth for lunch before going to Khim's place. Took a bath then went to help her make cake and bread. Was making a chococlate cake and custard bun. Hehe. Was a lot of fun. I really love to bake though i dun bake at home. Too much of a trouble and my mum always find it very messy. Then it's a sum of money to be spent. So most of the time i prefer to help and bake at people's house. Then the buns that i make, Auntie Khim say got 'backside'. Didn't close up all the openings. haha. Then when the bun was done, no time to bake so had to bring it over to Lydia's place to bake. Reached Lydia's place and alreadi baked some pizzas. Then the whole ntie was makan and makan. Muahahahahahahha. Then I tried to do some magic trick which was seen thru by the youths. Haiz. I tot it was a good magic trick but i guess i'm just simply not good enough. Nvr mind. I will do the sawing trick the next time round. I bet you all can see thru it. Haha. Get it, see thru it See thru the person I had saw up into half. HAHAHAHHA. Ok not funny! Then some of them wanted to play "Dai Di" but the house rules didn't permit. But i'm proud that the youths didn't try to break the rule. They could have just not be bother with the rule and just play until they get caught but they didn't. Prasie the Lord for all these righteous and rule-abidding youths. Then at the end, had a short worship and a time of sharing and testimony. Felt very touched by the youths coming up to share their experience and what they see God is doing. And my prayer is that the youths will continue to uphold their Lord and faithfully follow His way. Keep up the good work for the race will bear many fruits beyond your imagination.
Friday, April 15, 2005
15 April (FRI)
Yes! Finally it's friday. Weekend is comin. Youuuhoooooooooooooo!!! And Friday = no class for me also. Haha. Good life man! People all think that i "pon tan'' school. Well in fact nope. I'm a genius so need to go for too many class lah. Haha.^0* Yes i guess by now most of you had puked all over the computer screen But it is really good to not have sch for a day. Woke up at 10am then slowly do my things. Then went over to church at 11am to meet Daniel. Helping him in his cell worship. Then Christine came over and bought lunch for us. Had duck rice. Then went to Simei Care Centre and had a second round of Mee Goreng. SLurrppppppp! Bagus!
Then stayed in church to do some admin stuff. Finished at 2pm so took a nap in church until 4pm. Then was goin to prepare to leave for Changkat Changi Secondary School. They having a Speech Day and I'm receiving an award for After-School Care Programme. Suppose to be there by 4.30pm. Then i was just flipping thru the invitation card and saw in small print the attire. Shirt and tie. What! TIE! My goodness. I didn't had a tie and gosh! I had to return home to change. Had to kinda rush. By the time I reached the school, i was half-drenched in perspiration. I went straight to hall and parked myself at a fan. Thankfully, I managed to dry myself. Or else people will think that it's my first time receiving award. Panicked unti l perspire like a pig. Muahahahahhaha. Then the Principal and the Chairman of SAC gave their speech followed by the Modern and Malay dance performance. Afterwhich was the Prize presentation for the students with good academic results. Then followed by the Choir and then the 2nd round of prize presentation for students with good service in CCA and followed by the other external prize receiptent. That's me. Yeah! Long time never received award. So good to receive award. Haha. Then the Speech Day ended with the Chinese Ochestra. Quite cool! Maybe I shd go and pick up "Er Hu" and play the tune "Unchained Melody" Then was followed by dinner which I left. Didnt' really want to stay around. Dun like to do PR. Not my cup of tea. So after excusing myself, went home.
Then stayed in church to do some admin stuff. Finished at 2pm so took a nap in church until 4pm. Then was goin to prepare to leave for Changkat Changi Secondary School. They having a Speech Day and I'm receiving an award for After-School Care Programme. Suppose to be there by 4.30pm. Then i was just flipping thru the invitation card and saw in small print the attire. Shirt and tie. What! TIE! My goodness. I didn't had a tie and gosh! I had to return home to change. Had to kinda rush. By the time I reached the school, i was half-drenched in perspiration. I went straight to hall and parked myself at a fan. Thankfully, I managed to dry myself. Or else people will think that it's my first time receiving award. Panicked unti l perspire like a pig. Muahahahahhaha. Then the Principal and the Chairman of SAC gave their speech followed by the Modern and Malay dance performance. Afterwhich was the Prize presentation for the students with good academic results. Then followed by the Choir and then the 2nd round of prize presentation for students with good service in CCA and followed by the other external prize receiptent. That's me. Yeah! Long time never received award. So good to receive award. Haha. Then the Speech Day ended with the Chinese Ochestra. Quite cool! Maybe I shd go and pick up "Er Hu" and play the tune "Unchained Melody" Then was followed by dinner which I left. Didnt' really want to stay around. Dun like to do PR. Not my cup of tea. So after excusing myself, went home.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
11 - 13 April (Mon - Wed)
Mon:
As usual Monday, I had no school. In the afternoon, went down to Changkat Changi Sec Sch to do my volunteer work. Can't believe it. Had been doing this for alreadi 3 years. Praise the Lord for His guidance and direction. But can be a bit lonely doing this alone. And some more, I will be graduating next year and won't be able to carry on. Really pray hard that God will bring in new blood. And this coming friday, I was going to receive an award for Volunteer work in the sch. Haha.
Tue:
Had a class in the afternoon.
Wed:
Had a class in the afternoon Then evening suppose to go down to William's place for dinner at 7pm. My class ended at 5 so went to PS to shop shop. Haha. Actually wanted to buy dessert but I decided to go Tiong Bahru Plaza instead. So when I reached there, wanted to buy durian puff but Lydia said she and William not feeling well. So I just bought Sara Lee Pound Cake to go with ice-cream. When I reached William's place, Lydia was alreadi in the midst of cooking. Wanted to help but i guess i will be too much of a trouble. So i went to entertain the son, Daniel. Watching The Incredibles. After a while, William was also back from work. Then we had dinner together. Spaghetti with ham and crab roll sauce, with brocolli and BBQ ribs. HMMMMM! Delicious! After dinner, sat down with William and Lydia and chit-chat over ice-cream with cake and coffee. It is really nice to have mentors like them. Serve good food and provide good advise. Why didnt' i get to know them earlier? Hehe. But thank God for them becoz this year had been quite a tough year to start with and thkfully they had been there for me. After dinner, yes it's time for me to say Goodbye. TOok MRT home.
As usual Monday, I had no school. In the afternoon, went down to Changkat Changi Sec Sch to do my volunteer work. Can't believe it. Had been doing this for alreadi 3 years. Praise the Lord for His guidance and direction. But can be a bit lonely doing this alone. And some more, I will be graduating next year and won't be able to carry on. Really pray hard that God will bring in new blood. And this coming friday, I was going to receive an award for Volunteer work in the sch. Haha.
Tue:
Had a class in the afternoon.
Wed:
Had a class in the afternoon Then evening suppose to go down to William's place for dinner at 7pm. My class ended at 5 so went to PS to shop shop. Haha. Actually wanted to buy dessert but I decided to go Tiong Bahru Plaza instead. So when I reached there, wanted to buy durian puff but Lydia said she and William not feeling well. So I just bought Sara Lee Pound Cake to go with ice-cream. When I reached William's place, Lydia was alreadi in the midst of cooking. Wanted to help but i guess i will be too much of a trouble. So i went to entertain the son, Daniel. Watching The Incredibles. After a while, William was also back from work. Then we had dinner together. Spaghetti with ham and crab roll sauce, with brocolli and BBQ ribs. HMMMMM! Delicious! After dinner, sat down with William and Lydia and chit-chat over ice-cream with cake and coffee. It is really nice to have mentors like them. Serve good food and provide good advise. Why didnt' i get to know them earlier? Hehe. But thank God for them becoz this year had been quite a tough year to start with and thkfully they had been there for me. After dinner, yes it's time for me to say Goodbye. TOok MRT home.
Monday, April 11, 2005
Sunday
After a break of more than 9 months from leading worship, I will be back onto leading worship in the main church service. Pretty excited and nervous. But i'm sure things will turn out for the best. Haha. I hope!
Woke up at 7am. Actually thought of going down to church early to get myself prepare. But then I received an sms from Eleanor asking if i will be bringing down the powerpoint for the worship svc. I nearly fainted. I totally forgotten about it. And yesterday i was way too dead tired to remember about it. Thank God I woke up early. So i quickly rush to do the powerpoint. When i was done, it was nearly 7.50am and I had to be in church by 8. So quickly changed and rush down to church. Reached there by 8.10. And the sound people were not there yet. Was a bit anxious becoz sound setup usually can take from 15-30min. Apparently sound man had stomachache so he was late. And Daniel had to rush down to help out. So with Daniel and Peter's help, we quickly set up the system. By the time we started the practise, it was nearly 8.30. Thankfully, there were minimal instruments. Denise on the clavi, Gary on bass and David on guitar. Didn't manage to practise all the songs but the first service was pretty fine. I couldn't hear the instruments properly so ended up at certain intervals not able to enter or link the song. Haha.Then second svc was pretty much the same with the same problem. Overall, I am pleased with what I had done. And praise be to God for He is gracious and loving.
After 2nd service, went to TM foodcourt with Daniel for lunch. Ate beef ball noodle. After that, both of us went home. I was too tired that I decided to pamper my self. I shall take a cab home. When i reached home, I was real dead tired. My brain was not thinking and my body is on the verge of giving up. Going against the will of the whole body was not a good idea. If it's the bed it want, i will give the bed to it. Yes. I slept until dinner time. Then after that I went out with my sis to TM. It's a long time since we go out. We went to TM Popular first. Saw these nail stick-on deco which was very nice. Actually both of us wanted to buy but then when we saw the price, nah! NOt worth it. After that we went to this shop which i cant' remember what's its name. A lot of cute stuff and there i saw the frenship band. Haha. I havent' got myself to buy any yet. Was waiting for the trend to wear out before buying. So i bought 4 of it. White, black, blue and yellow. Each costing $1.90. Then went to comic bookshop at Century Square. My sis bought comics costing nearly $100. Woah! Haha. She is one comic freak. At the shop i found more frenship band of other colour. Bought 3 more. Pastel orange, pastel blue and orange. That make my total to 7. Muahahahahaha. I'm mad. But I guess the retailtheraphy was very healthy for the mind. After that went Coffee Bean to have a drink. After that, we went home in a cab. (Disclaimer: I dun usually take cab. It's my sis.She is the one that can't survive without cab. Muahahaha.)
Woke up at 7am. Actually thought of going down to church early to get myself prepare. But then I received an sms from Eleanor asking if i will be bringing down the powerpoint for the worship svc. I nearly fainted. I totally forgotten about it. And yesterday i was way too dead tired to remember about it. Thank God I woke up early. So i quickly rush to do the powerpoint. When i was done, it was nearly 7.50am and I had to be in church by 8. So quickly changed and rush down to church. Reached there by 8.10. And the sound people were not there yet. Was a bit anxious becoz sound setup usually can take from 15-30min. Apparently sound man had stomachache so he was late. And Daniel had to rush down to help out. So with Daniel and Peter's help, we quickly set up the system. By the time we started the practise, it was nearly 8.30. Thankfully, there were minimal instruments. Denise on the clavi, Gary on bass and David on guitar. Didn't manage to practise all the songs but the first service was pretty fine. I couldn't hear the instruments properly so ended up at certain intervals not able to enter or link the song. Haha.Then second svc was pretty much the same with the same problem. Overall, I am pleased with what I had done. And praise be to God for He is gracious and loving.
After 2nd service, went to TM foodcourt with Daniel for lunch. Ate beef ball noodle. After that, both of us went home. I was too tired that I decided to pamper my self. I shall take a cab home. When i reached home, I was real dead tired. My brain was not thinking and my body is on the verge of giving up. Going against the will of the whole body was not a good idea. If it's the bed it want, i will give the bed to it. Yes. I slept until dinner time. Then after that I went out with my sis to TM. It's a long time since we go out. We went to TM Popular first. Saw these nail stick-on deco which was very nice. Actually both of us wanted to buy but then when we saw the price, nah! NOt worth it. After that we went to this shop which i cant' remember what's its name. A lot of cute stuff and there i saw the frenship band. Haha. I havent' got myself to buy any yet. Was waiting for the trend to wear out before buying. So i bought 4 of it. White, black, blue and yellow. Each costing $1.90. Then went to comic bookshop at Century Square. My sis bought comics costing nearly $100. Woah! Haha. She is one comic freak. At the shop i found more frenship band of other colour. Bought 3 more. Pastel orange, pastel blue and orange. That make my total to 7. Muahahahahaha. I'm mad. But I guess the retailtheraphy was very healthy for the mind. After that went Coffee Bean to have a drink. After that, we went home in a cab. (Disclaimer: I dun usually take cab. It's my sis.She is the one that can't survive without cab. Muahahaha.)
9 April (yet another busy Saturday)
YEah! Finally the weekend had arrived. I always looked forward to Sat and Sun. Somehow or rather I feel so much relax and enjoyable. Maybe becoz weekend tends to be a more carefree time. And I guess I will meet all my church frens. Which is equaivalent to fun.
This morning woke up extremely early. Was actually suppose to send some of the church memebers off at the airport. They are going to Cambodia for a short Mission Trip. Their flight was 8.30am so they had to be at the airport by 6.30am. So had to be there the same time. I decided to wake up at 5am. Needed to rush some last minute stuff. One day procrastination is goin to make my head roll. Haha. Then had to meet William at 6.20am at Simei MRT. Thankfully got him to fetch me. Or else had to wake up even earlier. Then picked up Charles and Daniel on the way. Reached there about 6.45am. Quite a big crowd. Those going involves members from both the Chinese and English Congreg. And both congreg other members had come to send them off. I estimated that there were at least 40 people. Could had started a service on the spot. haha. Then after sending them off, some of us went to McDonald for breakfast. Honestly, fastfood is getting way too expensive. There will be a day when you will pay a red dollar note for just a meal.
After that William send me back to church where i did some work before goin to Eastpoint to hang around. Then came back to church at 12pm for worship practise. Finished pract at 1.30 and went for Wheelchair training. Then ended at 3pm and rushed for the worship pract for youth fellowship. And then 3.30pm Youth Fellowship started. And there was game followed by worship then small group. Well my group was the smallest. 3 person including me. Dingyi and Jason. Haha. Though small but we had our fair share of laughter and serious bible study. Then after the Fellowship, did some briefing with the Worship team and after that, cleared up the MPH and left for Hola for dinner with Charles and Daniel. After that, went home. And can't really remember what i did. I think by then i was too tired to think. I guess i dozed off.
This morning woke up extremely early. Was actually suppose to send some of the church memebers off at the airport. They are going to Cambodia for a short Mission Trip. Their flight was 8.30am so they had to be at the airport by 6.30am. So had to be there the same time. I decided to wake up at 5am. Needed to rush some last minute stuff. One day procrastination is goin to make my head roll. Haha. Then had to meet William at 6.20am at Simei MRT. Thankfully got him to fetch me. Or else had to wake up even earlier. Then picked up Charles and Daniel on the way. Reached there about 6.45am. Quite a big crowd. Those going involves members from both the Chinese and English Congreg. And both congreg other members had come to send them off. I estimated that there were at least 40 people. Could had started a service on the spot. haha. Then after sending them off, some of us went to McDonald for breakfast. Honestly, fastfood is getting way too expensive. There will be a day when you will pay a red dollar note for just a meal.
After that William send me back to church where i did some work before goin to Eastpoint to hang around. Then came back to church at 12pm for worship practise. Finished pract at 1.30 and went for Wheelchair training. Then ended at 3pm and rushed for the worship pract for youth fellowship. And then 3.30pm Youth Fellowship started. And there was game followed by worship then small group. Well my group was the smallest. 3 person including me. Dingyi and Jason. Haha. Though small but we had our fair share of laughter and serious bible study. Then after the Fellowship, did some briefing with the Worship team and after that, cleared up the MPH and left for Hola for dinner with Charles and Daniel. After that, went home. And can't really remember what i did. I think by then i was too tired to think. I guess i dozed off.
Friday, April 08, 2005
7 & 8 April (Thursday and Friday)
Thursday:
Today woke up and honestly, i drag waking up this morning. THough there is no school, I just wish i could sleep thru and wake up on Sat. My dad is going to SGH to see the heart surgeon. I'm worried but at the same time my past is denying that. My mind is confused, my mind is not in the right frame. I'm just fuzz up (dun know what it means but that's how i felt. and by the way if's not a substitute for the other "F" word). I just couldn't stay at home and see how he is worried but yet he still keeps on smoking. Contradiction to life. Want to live but yet still wasting it away. And my mum is starting her paranoid self again. I dun blame her becoz since when i was young, my family is not well-to-do. And my mum always felt very insecured. So now the operation is goin to cost a sum and she is feeling insecure and becoming very paranoid. And she will go into a state where she will start to grumble over this and that. Initially, it is still managable to hear her but after a while, it really stretch my patience to the limit. I thought i just needed to get out of the house. Yes I did and I know where exactly to go. Church, the place which is my 2nd home. That's the place I will always go to whether I'm in good or bad mood. That's where i can really find peace and quietness.
So I went to church and Ting2 happened to be there too to help Lydia. I tried to keep myself busy so that i'll not think too much. Can't really remembered what i did. All I knew was that i just didn't want to think too much. Then before I knew, it was 7pm. Ate dinner, then went over to Daniel's place to run some errand. Then went to eat supper and went home at about 10 plus. By then, i was too tired to even think about anything. Found out that my dad's op will be on 20 May. And it's near my exam period. Haiz. Dun know what to do. Dun want to think that far. All I can pray is that the Lord to give me rest and peace of mind. Though I'm in a big struggle but I know i cannot break down now. Though i can't do much for the family, I cannot break down or else I will be an extra burden and worry. Lord, when i'm lost in the valley, You'll be my light. When I'm alone in the desert, You'll be my companion.
Friday:
WOke up again for the 8656th time of my life. Haha! And morning wasn't that good. Mum was still a bit hangover from her paranoid mood. After learning my ear to her, I left home for church again. I'm goin to church to help out but i guess more of running away from home. After lunch, gave tuition to Calvin and didn't manage to have time to do any flower arrangement for the weekend svc. Nvm. There's always another time. And den I left for home. Tonight will be a busy night. Need to prepare many things for Sat. Saturday morning going airport in the morning to send off those going to Cambodia for mission trip. Then need to write up my pen-pals letter to pass to the mission team to pass to the Cambodian pen pal. Then afternoon got 2 worship practise which i had to prepare the scores. Then after that there's youth fellowship and i had to touch up on my lesson. Woah! Plenty things for me to do to keep me busy. haha!
Today woke up and honestly, i drag waking up this morning. THough there is no school, I just wish i could sleep thru and wake up on Sat. My dad is going to SGH to see the heart surgeon. I'm worried but at the same time my past is denying that. My mind is confused, my mind is not in the right frame. I'm just fuzz up (dun know what it means but that's how i felt. and by the way if's not a substitute for the other "F" word). I just couldn't stay at home and see how he is worried but yet he still keeps on smoking. Contradiction to life. Want to live but yet still wasting it away. And my mum is starting her paranoid self again. I dun blame her becoz since when i was young, my family is not well-to-do. And my mum always felt very insecured. So now the operation is goin to cost a sum and she is feeling insecure and becoming very paranoid. And she will go into a state where she will start to grumble over this and that. Initially, it is still managable to hear her but after a while, it really stretch my patience to the limit. I thought i just needed to get out of the house. Yes I did and I know where exactly to go. Church, the place which is my 2nd home. That's the place I will always go to whether I'm in good or bad mood. That's where i can really find peace and quietness.
So I went to church and Ting2 happened to be there too to help Lydia. I tried to keep myself busy so that i'll not think too much. Can't really remembered what i did. All I knew was that i just didn't want to think too much. Then before I knew, it was 7pm. Ate dinner, then went over to Daniel's place to run some errand. Then went to eat supper and went home at about 10 plus. By then, i was too tired to even think about anything. Found out that my dad's op will be on 20 May. And it's near my exam period. Haiz. Dun know what to do. Dun want to think that far. All I can pray is that the Lord to give me rest and peace of mind. Though I'm in a big struggle but I know i cannot break down now. Though i can't do much for the family, I cannot break down or else I will be an extra burden and worry. Lord, when i'm lost in the valley, You'll be my light. When I'm alone in the desert, You'll be my companion.
Friday:
WOke up again for the 8656th time of my life. Haha! And morning wasn't that good. Mum was still a bit hangover from her paranoid mood. After learning my ear to her, I left home for church again. I'm goin to church to help out but i guess more of running away from home. After lunch, gave tuition to Calvin and didn't manage to have time to do any flower arrangement for the weekend svc. Nvm. There's always another time. And den I left for home. Tonight will be a busy night. Need to prepare many things for Sat. Saturday morning going airport in the morning to send off those going to Cambodia for mission trip. Then need to write up my pen-pals letter to pass to the mission team to pass to the Cambodian pen pal. Then afternoon got 2 worship practise which i had to prepare the scores. Then after that there's youth fellowship and i had to touch up on my lesson. Woah! Plenty things for me to do to keep me busy. haha!
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
6 April Wednesday
Yes. Praise the Lord! I woke up once again by God's grace. haha. This morning is a good morning. Felt refreshed. Then as usual, after my necessary biz, got in front of the PC to do some of my 'constructive' stuff. Haha. Yah rite. Then at about 12pm, received an sms from sch saying that the lecture for today and tomorrow are postponed. At that moment, a smirk appeared on my face but den i remembered this guy who mentioned on his blog that the students may be glad that the lesson is cancelled but den something serious could have happen to the lecturer. Very true! We shdn't always just think about ourself. We shd always think of others first and not just for our own benefits. Just really hope that nothing bad had happened to the lecturer. Actualli this is one of my favourite lecturer. He is one of the lecturer that I won't find it boring.
Since afternoon was free, I decided I could do some "housekeeping". Got to get rid of those unwanted things. I meant the fat. Haha. So did a few hundreds of skipping den followed by weight lifting. Not sure if i did burn any calories but well, at least I did work out. Then went online onto Friendster and searched for my 'old' frens, those in Primary Sch. Manage to find 3 of them. It's like been 12 years. Not sure if they still remember me. After dinner, met Daniel for supper. Then went Cheers where i found Piglet (Winnie the Pooh) in the very cute toddler size. Love it so much that i bought it. Cost me $8.90. Actualli wanted to buy the Tiger and Ehor but not enough money. SO maybe buy on another day. Hehe! My soft toy collection illness is back. Hehe. Then went home and stucked at the PC once again. So much for the day. I think I'll do my quiet time and update it on Blogspot tomorrow. So for now! Tar tar. God bless!
Since afternoon was free, I decided I could do some "housekeeping". Got to get rid of those unwanted things. I meant the fat. Haha. So did a few hundreds of skipping den followed by weight lifting. Not sure if i did burn any calories but well, at least I did work out. Then went online onto Friendster and searched for my 'old' frens, those in Primary Sch. Manage to find 3 of them. It's like been 12 years. Not sure if they still remember me. After dinner, met Daniel for supper. Then went Cheers where i found Piglet (Winnie the Pooh) in the very cute toddler size. Love it so much that i bought it. Cost me $8.90. Actualli wanted to buy the Tiger and Ehor but not enough money. SO maybe buy on another day. Hehe! My soft toy collection illness is back. Hehe. Then went home and stucked at the PC once again. So much for the day. I think I'll do my quiet time and update it on Blogspot tomorrow. So for now! Tar tar. God bless!
Another Nice Song
他和她
他习惯把自己丢在热闹的场
他以为这样可以掩饰掉落寞
她喜欢往这个城市最安静角落走
担心脆弱被人识破
他和她住在同一栋楼 遗憾的是爱擦肩而过
他们孤独时候 都望著同一颗 星球
他和她都在城市飘流 遗憾的是心无缘邂逅
他们彼此适合却无奈的错过 在人群中掩没
他渴望能有人分享夜晚和失落
她最怕独自面对黄昏和脆弱
其实他们彼此距离才两三个窗口
不同的心 一样寂寞
他习惯把自己丢在热闹的场
他以为这样可以掩饰掉落寞
她喜欢往这个城市最安静角落走
担心脆弱被人识破
他和她住在同一栋楼 遗憾的是爱擦肩而过
他们孤独时候 都望著同一颗 星球
他和她都在城市飘流 遗憾的是心无缘邂逅
他们彼此适合却无奈的错过 在人群中掩没
他渴望能有人分享夜晚和失落
她最怕独自面对黄昏和脆弱
其实他们彼此距离才两三个窗口
不同的心 一样寂寞
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
5Apr Tue
Rise and shine! Woke up feeling much better. But still rather cloudy in certain areas. Haha. The whole day was spend quite aimlessly. Just keeping myself pre-occupied so I won't have to think too much. Was on the PC most of the time. After lunch, took a nap. WOke up den went online again. Haha. Not much of a life I would say. Then after that, I had to go for my evening class. After evening class, came home and went online again. Well that's all for today. Just really wish that there is someone whom i'm close enough to pour out to. But I guess there is always God. Hehe.
Monday, April 04, 2005
Monday Blues
TOday no school. Should be quite a good day but in fact, it was a very down day for me. My dad went for a review in the hospital and the doctor recommended him to go for a heart by-pass operation. I really dun know how i should feel. I am worried for him but yet i am also angry with him. Why don't he just stop smoking? Does he care about the family? He spend so much on cigarettes and not only does he harm himself, his smoking affects his family. And now the family has to fork out a sum to pay for his medical bills. I'm really in struggle. God has given me this father and i cannot deny him. But just that so many things had happened and I'm numb. I just can't feel as much for him. I tried recalling in the past all those good times with him, I tried remembering him carrying me when i was a little boy, i tried but i just couldn't remember any. And I felt so useless. I can't do much for the family. I just feel like a liability to the family.
And there's also my life which is practically in a mess. Trying to sort out my own studies, trying to keep myself focus. Dealing with my own emotions. Serving in church ministry. There is just too much things on my mind. My emotion is so weak that anything could easily bring me to tears. Lord, in my weakest moment, you will never forsake me and You are my strength and fortress. That night, when i went to bed, I just cried myself to sleep. But somehow or rather I knew i was not alone. I was crying in His embrace. Behind every storm, there is always a rainbow.
And there's also my life which is practically in a mess. Trying to sort out my own studies, trying to keep myself focus. Dealing with my own emotions. Serving in church ministry. There is just too much things on my mind. My emotion is so weak that anything could easily bring me to tears. Lord, in my weakest moment, you will never forsake me and You are my strength and fortress. That night, when i went to bed, I just cried myself to sleep. But somehow or rather I knew i was not alone. I was crying in His embrace. Behind every storm, there is always a rainbow.
Sunday, April 03, 2005
3 April Sunday
After service, I realised that I forgotten to bring my backpack which was meant for Dino. So I decided to borrow Alice's car and drive home to pick it up. Hehe. Got the car and got daniel to follow me. So manage to drive back safely and passed the backpack to Dino and returned the car key to Alice. Honestly, I love driving but I have no money to buy car. SOb Sob! Then after that waited for some of them to finish their meeting before going for lunch. Decided to go Ajisen to eat. Went there ordered a new dish which i had no idea what meat it was. But who cares. After lunch went to arcade for a while. SOme people really have their own style of dancing. I have to take my hat off them. Real daring and eccentric. Then we played the Table Air Hockey. Played four rounds. I played the first round with Joanne versus dun know who. Trashed them 18 to 12. Muahahahahaa. After that went to take Neoprints which the rest of the guys find it not appealing at all. SO ended up me and another 11 girls take photo. Not bad hah! My blessings. As the english saying goes, thorns among the rose. I can't agree any more. Hehe. But it was hot and stuffy with 12 people in that box and somemore we took 3 sets. I literally melt in that box. By the time we were out, i was half drenched. But it was fun boy. They should have bigger screen and air-con in that box. After that, some left while the remaining 'float' around the mall before going home. When I hit home, i zzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ until dinner time. It seems like sleeping and eating compliments very well with me. I should do that as often as possible. HAHAHA! They dun call me "zhu" for nothing.
Friend of God
This Sunday, our senior Pastor was preaching about how to be 'friends of God'. He talked about why Moses was called the Friend of God. It was because Moses trusted in God and was always dwelling in His presence. He experienced God's presence. Then pastor drew us to the tarbenacle where he showed us how we could learn from it to be close with God. In the tarbenacle, there were the 1) the table of the Bread of the presence, 2) the Golden lampstand 3) Altar of incense. From these 3 items, we could learn one lesson from each item to experience God's presence.
1) Trust in God's provision
- the bread of the Presence is made from the additional supply of manna collected the day before the Sabbath
- it testifies of His Providential Presence from one Sabbath to the next
- we experience His presence when we trust completely in His provision
2) Follow God's guidance
- the 7 Golden Lampstands are the only source of light in the tarbenacle; it prevents the priest from stumbling in the dark
- the Bible, God's word, is a lamp to our feet and a light for our path (ps 119:105)
- we experience God's presence when we rely on Him for guidance
3) Worship God's worthiness
- the Altar incense offer fragrant incense to God constantly and fills the Holy Place
- it symbolises our ceaseless prayer to God as we walk closely with Him, no matter what we are doing
- it speaks of our constant praise to God thru all we do becoz He deserves it
- we experience God's presence when we live with Him, in constant conversation and endless worship
QUOTE of the day:
The bigger your vision of God, the smaller your vision of your problem.
1) Trust in God's provision
- the bread of the Presence is made from the additional supply of manna collected the day before the Sabbath
- it testifies of His Providential Presence from one Sabbath to the next
- we experience His presence when we trust completely in His provision
2) Follow God's guidance
- the 7 Golden Lampstands are the only source of light in the tarbenacle; it prevents the priest from stumbling in the dark
- the Bible, God's word, is a lamp to our feet and a light for our path (ps 119:105)
- we experience God's presence when we rely on Him for guidance
3) Worship God's worthiness
- the Altar incense offer fragrant incense to God constantly and fills the Holy Place
- it symbolises our ceaseless prayer to God as we walk closely with Him, no matter what we are doing
- it speaks of our constant praise to God thru all we do becoz He deserves it
- we experience God's presence when we live with Him, in constant conversation and endless worship
QUOTE of the day:
The bigger your vision of God, the smaller your vision of your problem.
Saturday, April 02, 2005
2 April Saturday
Suppose to go for kayaking early in the morning but was postponed due to unconfirmed answer. But thank God we didn't go becoz it rained in the morning. Woke up about 10 plus. Then did some work before goin to church. Reached church and needed to do up the Powerpoint for the Youth Fellowship worship session. But then Eleanor and Christine 'jiou' me for lunch. So why not? Went over to Simei Care Centre and I ordered Mee Rebus and ice Teh Tahrik since it is served immediately. Remembered the last time they took so long to serve. Yes indeed it was faster. Got down to eat and after that went back to church to work. Tried opening a file which i saved in the A drive and the file was corrupted. Darn. ALways like that. Then end up have to retype the whole songs for the Powerpoint. But thankfully, Lydia and William just arrived and Lydia offered her help. Hehe. So I was freed to have a chat with William. Haha. Nice to have nice people around.
After that, I went down to the MPH to prepare for worship practise. Suppose to start at 2.45pm but the musicians didn't start to appear until 3pm. I had to set up everything with only Daniel, Ding Yi and Xavier's help. Was honestly quite disappointed. Felt that the musicians were not really serious about the whole worship. Then finaly when we settle down, had to rush thru and was not really able to do much but by God's grace things still turn out quite pleasantly. (with a few of my mis-timing and wrong playing) Didn't manage to attend the sharing part becoz me and Daniel went to pick up the beverage for the refreshment. Then after the fellowship had a commission for Ting2 becoz she passed her driving test. Finally! Muahahhahahahahaha. 3 times. Ok lah! me not any better. 2 times. Then was the makan. The Milo was bad. Diluted and smelt funny. But the cake that William's auntie made was interesting. Fusion. It's like chinese 'kueh' with english cake. I would give a 7.5 out of 10. Then when it came to the clearing part, only me, Lydia, William and Daniel were doing it. The rest of the youths just simply stood there and continued to chit chat. Honestly, I was real irritated by then. I was contemplating whether to share this with the youths during our dinner time. But somehow or rather I just couldn't deliver it to them. Must be the Holy Spirit. Telling me that I was too angry and most probably spoil the whole situation and later I found out some of them already got a 'session' from someone. Thankfully. But i have to say this. All the youths had no initiative to help out. Most of the time it seemed like the youth workers have to serve them. I sorry about it, guys. I'm sure some of you are reading these. Dun blame me for being harsh but I'm being frank here. The only way for the youth to grow is to take ownership of it. How many more years do you think William and Lydia would stay in the Youth? I may also not stay for long depending on where God calls me. You all are the next batch of people to take over. Then start to take ownership. Some more Lydia is pregnant and nobody seemed to take extra care for her. Can I plead to you as a brother-in-Christ, that in your own capacity, try to help out in any ways. I know you all are capable to do great things. And also instead of waiting for others to start, you initiate first and encourage others to help out. Having said all these, don't be mistaken that I'm simply just offloading workload or that you are doing these for any of us but rather this is a service onto the Lord. Do it unto the Lord and He sees it and will bless you bountifully.
After that, I went down to the MPH to prepare for worship practise. Suppose to start at 2.45pm but the musicians didn't start to appear until 3pm. I had to set up everything with only Daniel, Ding Yi and Xavier's help. Was honestly quite disappointed. Felt that the musicians were not really serious about the whole worship. Then finaly when we settle down, had to rush thru and was not really able to do much but by God's grace things still turn out quite pleasantly. (with a few of my mis-timing and wrong playing) Didn't manage to attend the sharing part becoz me and Daniel went to pick up the beverage for the refreshment. Then after the fellowship had a commission for Ting2 becoz she passed her driving test. Finally! Muahahhahahahahaha. 3 times. Ok lah! me not any better. 2 times. Then was the makan. The Milo was bad. Diluted and smelt funny. But the cake that William's auntie made was interesting. Fusion. It's like chinese 'kueh' with english cake. I would give a 7.5 out of 10. Then when it came to the clearing part, only me, Lydia, William and Daniel were doing it. The rest of the youths just simply stood there and continued to chit chat. Honestly, I was real irritated by then. I was contemplating whether to share this with the youths during our dinner time. But somehow or rather I just couldn't deliver it to them. Must be the Holy Spirit. Telling me that I was too angry and most probably spoil the whole situation and later I found out some of them already got a 'session' from someone. Thankfully. But i have to say this. All the youths had no initiative to help out. Most of the time it seemed like the youth workers have to serve them. I sorry about it, guys. I'm sure some of you are reading these. Dun blame me for being harsh but I'm being frank here. The only way for the youth to grow is to take ownership of it. How many more years do you think William and Lydia would stay in the Youth? I may also not stay for long depending on where God calls me. You all are the next batch of people to take over. Then start to take ownership. Some more Lydia is pregnant and nobody seemed to take extra care for her. Can I plead to you as a brother-in-Christ, that in your own capacity, try to help out in any ways. I know you all are capable to do great things. And also instead of waiting for others to start, you initiate first and encourage others to help out. Having said all these, don't be mistaken that I'm simply just offloading workload or that you are doing these for any of us but rather this is a service onto the Lord. Do it unto the Lord and He sees it and will bless you bountifully.
Friday, April 01, 2005
APRIL's FOOL DAY
Haha. It's April's Fool Day and suppose to be a day of prank and nuisance. But no school and not as if i know anybody well enough in school to play a prank on. Most probably get arrested for harressment. Haha. Still remember the good old days when I was in Secondary School. Always feel good after a nice old good trick on someone.
This morning woke up pretty late for once since there wasn't any school. Muahahahahaha. Did nothing constructive in the morning. Just slack in front of the glass which people call PC. Then in the afternoon went over to church. Suppose to give tuition to one of the church kids. Before tuition, went to Simei Care Centre with the church staff for lunch. Oh boy! The service was real slow. I'm not kidding. Real s..l..o..w. But lunch was still satisfying. Then called the boy i was suppose to give tuition. He told me he couldn't make it. Erh. Make me 'fly kite'. Haiz
So stay on in church to see if i could be of any help. Lydia and some of the church members were doing flower arrangement for the weekend svc. So i decided to KPO a bit. Had done flower bouquet but never done flower arrangement. So very curious. Hehe. Then Lydia offered one basket for me to arrange. Hehe. So without much hesitation, i decided to let my green fingers do the talking. After the arrangement, I had to say I was not bad. Quite pleased with my final product though there was still much space for improvement. Tried doing a second arrangement but then I ran out of ideas. I guess the first one had drained out all my creativity. Haha. Crap. Excuses. Yes yes. I guess i'm not that good after all. But I am very keen and I will come back for more session. Hehe.
This morning woke up pretty late for once since there wasn't any school. Muahahahahaha. Did nothing constructive in the morning. Just slack in front of the glass which people call PC. Then in the afternoon went over to church. Suppose to give tuition to one of the church kids. Before tuition, went to Simei Care Centre with the church staff for lunch. Oh boy! The service was real slow. I'm not kidding. Real s..l..o..w. But lunch was still satisfying. Then called the boy i was suppose to give tuition. He told me he couldn't make it. Erh. Make me 'fly kite'. Haiz
So stay on in church to see if i could be of any help. Lydia and some of the church members were doing flower arrangement for the weekend svc. So i decided to KPO a bit. Had done flower bouquet but never done flower arrangement. So very curious. Hehe. Then Lydia offered one basket for me to arrange. Hehe. So without much hesitation, i decided to let my green fingers do the talking. After the arrangement, I had to say I was not bad. Quite pleased with my final product though there was still much space for improvement. Tried doing a second arrangement but then I ran out of ideas. I guess the first one had drained out all my creativity. Haha. Crap. Excuses. Yes yes. I guess i'm not that good after all. But I am very keen and I will come back for more session. Hehe.
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Mood Swing again
Monday:
What did i do? Let me think. I went to Changkat Changi Secondary Sch in the afternoon to do my volunteer work. And hmmmmm....... I guess I slack for the rest of the day.
Tuesday:
What did i do? Oh yah! The PC crashed once more. Thanks to my continuous abuse. The PC just couldn't get into Windows in the normal mode. Keep shutting down by itself and can only enter Windows in safe mode which is as good as useless. Guess have to reformat the PC for the dun know how many times in this first quarter of the year. After reformatting, took the PC to Challenger to upgrade the RAM. Presently running on pathethic 128RAM. Tortise speed I would say. Up to 384RAM. Then took the PC back home and left for evening class. Xian! Evening class. During class, got this auntie really low EQ. Keep asking question during lecture. Not that I'm against people clarifying doubts but most of her time her questions are 'bird language'. People! THINK before you ask. Is like every 5 minutes, you would hear that voice. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Thankfully I finished class without tearing my head and hair apart. haha.
Wednesday:
My mum's birthday. Actually not really her real birth date. Her real one was 2 Mar if i didn't remember wrongly. She was born during WW II. So her registration of her birth date was way after the date she was born. So that's why we celebrate much later. But nobody really cares becoz it didn't really matter. Had a class in the afternoon and was to meet for dinner at this Seafood Buffet at TM. Met my parents there and my sis was still on her way. Apparently the restrauant worked on the basis of pay first then eat. My sis was suppose to foot the bill but she wasn't there yet. My dad told that to the floor manager and then he just barge in and took a seat. The floor manager was like shaking his head in disbelief but yet knowing that customer comes first. I was really pai seh. And I was kinda in a mood swing. Many things happening and my emotions were really messed up. After my first round, I was too pai seh to go for antoher round. I suddenly felt like i was back to my old self - low self-esteem, fearful. I just sat there and stared out at the main entrance waiting anxiously for my sis to arrive. I dun know why but I just was in a real bad state. Then I started to feel very depressed. At 24, I can't even afford to foot that simple meal. I felt like a loser, a worthless person. I was nearing to tears, no joke. I was really very depressed. Thankfully my sis arrived and when the bill was settled, I was much relieved. I guess these few weeks had been a bit emotional for me. Managing my own life was tough. Finding out that my dad had 2 veins connecting to the heart blocked up. Thinking about his salvation but yet not really feeling for him as a father (this is another story which if i ever i got i chance, i will share) My mum at the age of 63 is still worrying for my studies. This is one thing that i am really sad about. I wish i could really do more and give a better life for my mum. I really feel like SCREAMING! argh! oK i'm done. Despite all these, I know that I cannot do without God. My mum sustained until now becoz she believes in God and always trusted in His providence and care. My sis works to take care of the family becoz she knows God wants her to take care of the family. I need to trust in God. Emotions are gifts from God and it is natural to feel the different emotions. But as we are experiencing the emotions let us not forget God. When we are happy, let's not forget God. When we are sad, let's not run away from God. I guess what I'm goin thru now is a form of moulding and strengthening of my character. Even at my downs, unless i come to God, I would never experience His healing and His strengths. I know at the end of the road, I would praise the Lord becoz He has made me to become a better man. Amen!
What did i do? Let me think. I went to Changkat Changi Secondary Sch in the afternoon to do my volunteer work. And hmmmmm....... I guess I slack for the rest of the day.
Tuesday:
What did i do? Oh yah! The PC crashed once more. Thanks to my continuous abuse. The PC just couldn't get into Windows in the normal mode. Keep shutting down by itself and can only enter Windows in safe mode which is as good as useless. Guess have to reformat the PC for the dun know how many times in this first quarter of the year. After reformatting, took the PC to Challenger to upgrade the RAM. Presently running on pathethic 128RAM. Tortise speed I would say. Up to 384RAM. Then took the PC back home and left for evening class. Xian! Evening class. During class, got this auntie really low EQ. Keep asking question during lecture. Not that I'm against people clarifying doubts but most of her time her questions are 'bird language'. People! THINK before you ask. Is like every 5 minutes, you would hear that voice. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Thankfully I finished class without tearing my head and hair apart. haha.
Wednesday:
My mum's birthday. Actually not really her real birth date. Her real one was 2 Mar if i didn't remember wrongly. She was born during WW II. So her registration of her birth date was way after the date she was born. So that's why we celebrate much later. But nobody really cares becoz it didn't really matter. Had a class in the afternoon and was to meet for dinner at this Seafood Buffet at TM. Met my parents there and my sis was still on her way. Apparently the restrauant worked on the basis of pay first then eat. My sis was suppose to foot the bill but she wasn't there yet. My dad told that to the floor manager and then he just barge in and took a seat. The floor manager was like shaking his head in disbelief but yet knowing that customer comes first. I was really pai seh. And I was kinda in a mood swing. Many things happening and my emotions were really messed up. After my first round, I was too pai seh to go for antoher round. I suddenly felt like i was back to my old self - low self-esteem, fearful. I just sat there and stared out at the main entrance waiting anxiously for my sis to arrive. I dun know why but I just was in a real bad state. Then I started to feel very depressed. At 24, I can't even afford to foot that simple meal. I felt like a loser, a worthless person. I was nearing to tears, no joke. I was really very depressed. Thankfully my sis arrived and when the bill was settled, I was much relieved. I guess these few weeks had been a bit emotional for me. Managing my own life was tough. Finding out that my dad had 2 veins connecting to the heart blocked up. Thinking about his salvation but yet not really feeling for him as a father (this is another story which if i ever i got i chance, i will share) My mum at the age of 63 is still worrying for my studies. This is one thing that i am really sad about. I wish i could really do more and give a better life for my mum. I really feel like SCREAMING! argh! oK i'm done. Despite all these, I know that I cannot do without God. My mum sustained until now becoz she believes in God and always trusted in His providence and care. My sis works to take care of the family becoz she knows God wants her to take care of the family. I need to trust in God. Emotions are gifts from God and it is natural to feel the different emotions. But as we are experiencing the emotions let us not forget God. When we are happy, let's not forget God. When we are sad, let's not run away from God. I guess what I'm goin thru now is a form of moulding and strengthening of my character. Even at my downs, unless i come to God, I would never experience His healing and His strengths. I know at the end of the road, I would praise the Lord becoz He has made me to become a better man. Amen!
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
EASTER SUNDAY
Excited! It's Easter Sunday. And my mum will be coming to my church to attend the service and also the same time have a look at the new premise. So wonderful. I haven't got a chance to worship with my mum together. So really treasured it alot. This morning woke up pretty early. After all the necessary biz, I was at my wardrobe figuring what to wear. The MPH is going to be frozen cold and I dun really have a good enough sweater or breaker. Just in the corner, I noticed my suit. It was thick and of good material. Though it is goin to be kinda of overdressed but I just thought why not. I haven't really "dolled'' up myself for such a long time. To make it less formal, I wear a white chinese shirt behind the coat with a brown jeans. Not bad i would say but the fats must go. Kinda of packed in it. Haha.
Then my mum and I walked down to the main road to get a cab. While walking, I remembered those old good days when I was young and wherever I would go, I would hold my mum hand. And i really love to becoz it gave me security, comfort and love. So I purposely mentioned about it casually and took the opportunity to hold her hand. She was a bit apprehensive but then I could see that she also do treasure those memories.
Got a cab and reached church in less than 5 minutes. We sat near to the door which was a good move becoz it was less cold as the doors were frequently visited by those who were making their way out. Pastor was talking about the significance of Jesus' death. 3 significants. Firstly was to unite His people. Secondly was to consecrate His people. Lastly, I can't remember. Ops. Hehe. Then was followed by baptism and was really an attraction becoz this is the first time our church is holding a baptism in a 'proper' baptism pool. I was baptised in somebody's swimming pool. I actually wanted the sea but i guess it doesn't really matter where as it is just a symbolism. The main thing is to accept Christ as our faith. Then after which was Holy Communion and last but not least food. They once again served my favourite - the ICE CREAM PUFF. Muahahahaha. After the meal, my mum wanted to go back to her own chuch svc so i send her out to the main road to get a cab. After that I went back church for the last bible class on Daniel. Was hilarious, rowdy, crazy but fun. And could see that everybody had learnt something from the book of Daniel.
After bible class, some of us (Daniel, Me, Evon, Jamie, W.Y, X.L, Joanne) went to Tampines to find something to do. At first thought that want to eat so went TM foodcourt. Reached there then realised none of us want to eat. So went Mac once again to eat ice cream and talk rubbish. Haha. So bored until me and Jamie challenged each other to see who can make a 5 and 10 cent coin stand. As expected, I out beat her. Muahahahaha.
Then afterwhich we went to TM arcade to play the Photo game. Ended pretty fast. Then played Daytona which Jamie crashed my car and I ended being 2nd. After the game, I told Jamie how to be a polite driver. All these kids, dun have license dun know how to drive properly. Haiz. After that, went NTUC becoz W.Y need to buy some biscuits. After that, home we go.
Then my mum and I walked down to the main road to get a cab. While walking, I remembered those old good days when I was young and wherever I would go, I would hold my mum hand. And i really love to becoz it gave me security, comfort and love. So I purposely mentioned about it casually and took the opportunity to hold her hand. She was a bit apprehensive but then I could see that she also do treasure those memories.
Got a cab and reached church in less than 5 minutes. We sat near to the door which was a good move becoz it was less cold as the doors were frequently visited by those who were making their way out. Pastor was talking about the significance of Jesus' death. 3 significants. Firstly was to unite His people. Secondly was to consecrate His people. Lastly, I can't remember. Ops. Hehe. Then was followed by baptism and was really an attraction becoz this is the first time our church is holding a baptism in a 'proper' baptism pool. I was baptised in somebody's swimming pool. I actually wanted the sea but i guess it doesn't really matter where as it is just a symbolism. The main thing is to accept Christ as our faith. Then after which was Holy Communion and last but not least food. They once again served my favourite - the ICE CREAM PUFF. Muahahahaha. After the meal, my mum wanted to go back to her own chuch svc so i send her out to the main road to get a cab. After that I went back church for the last bible class on Daniel. Was hilarious, rowdy, crazy but fun. And could see that everybody had learnt something from the book of Daniel.
After bible class, some of us (Daniel, Me, Evon, Jamie, W.Y, X.L, Joanne) went to Tampines to find something to do. At first thought that want to eat so went TM foodcourt. Reached there then realised none of us want to eat. So went Mac once again to eat ice cream and talk rubbish. Haha. So bored until me and Jamie challenged each other to see who can make a 5 and 10 cent coin stand. As expected, I out beat her. Muahahahaha.
Then afterwhich we went to TM arcade to play the Photo game. Ended pretty fast. Then played Daytona which Jamie crashed my car and I ended being 2nd. After the game, I told Jamie how to be a polite driver. All these kids, dun have license dun know how to drive properly. Haiz. After that, went NTUC becoz W.Y need to buy some biscuits. After that, home we go.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Youth Easter Outreach
Yes! Finally, our first Youth Evangelistic outreach. Never had the youth ministry done such a high key event and I praise the Lord for His direction upon us.
Reached the MPH at 1pm and started to test the sound. Was supposed to share the premise with the Skit people and was kinda running short of time. And there was like kinda tension between the some of the skit people and the worship team (or rather me lah) Suppose to start at 1pm but after much delay and also time taken to test sound, we only manage to start off at about 1.30pm. And by the time we ended with the practise, it was like 2pm and the skit had to end their practise by 3pm. Frustrated I was as I felt that things should have been managed in a better way. There were simply too much crashes and too little communication between the different parties. After the practise, I went away and cool down before the Lord. That's something that I had learnt. As a Worship Leader, and especially when leading worship, I had to put all these aside and not be distracted by them. So I ask the Lord to take away from my frustration and to just focus on worshipping Him. So was feeling much better after that (i was doing this while going to 7 Eleven and I bought a sandwich to pacify myself! muahahaha)
Then the moment arrived and the svc started. Denise was the Emcee. Did quite well but would be better if she could read less from the cards. Then Ding Yi led in the games. Pretty good job. And followed by the worship. I must say we did a fantastic job. Though there are rooms for more improvement but as a first time coming together, I say I'll give a 80 out of 100. And there were many praises from the people that we had done a great job. But let's be humble. All glory goes to the Lord. We will continue to strive for excellence. Then after the worship was the skit. Entertaining but just a few hiccups. Then followed by Pastor Edwin's sermon which I erh erh erh didn't quite recall. Hehe. Bad testimony. I would say that this Outreach was a successful one. Not so much that many people came or many turn to Christ but rather many of the Youths took the step of faith and invited their friends. That's something that the Youth Ministry had been encouraging but in vain. And I'm also very proud that most of the members of the worship team invited their friends. As a front line ministry, we had to always set a higher standard of example. Not so much as obligation or for show but rather we have to lead by example and I'm very proud of them. So after svc was refreshment. I settled my dinner. Haha.
After the clearing up, some of us (Dan, me, W.Y, X.L, Evon. Jamie, Joanne, Lionel) went to TM to watch Miss Congeniality 2. My goodenss, this is the 5th movie i'm watching this month. Pocket really burn big hole. Then after that we went to eat at Pastamania. By then, i was really knockout. Was too tired to even talk rubbish. After makan, actually still want to go for ice-cream but my mouth is too tired to even pop ice-cream in it. So i went home and zzzzZZZZZZZZZZZ.
Reached the MPH at 1pm and started to test the sound. Was supposed to share the premise with the Skit people and was kinda running short of time. And there was like kinda tension between the some of the skit people and the worship team (or rather me lah) Suppose to start at 1pm but after much delay and also time taken to test sound, we only manage to start off at about 1.30pm. And by the time we ended with the practise, it was like 2pm and the skit had to end their practise by 3pm. Frustrated I was as I felt that things should have been managed in a better way. There were simply too much crashes and too little communication between the different parties. After the practise, I went away and cool down before the Lord. That's something that I had learnt. As a Worship Leader, and especially when leading worship, I had to put all these aside and not be distracted by them. So I ask the Lord to take away from my frustration and to just focus on worshipping Him. So was feeling much better after that (i was doing this while going to 7 Eleven and I bought a sandwich to pacify myself! muahahaha)
Then the moment arrived and the svc started. Denise was the Emcee. Did quite well but would be better if she could read less from the cards. Then Ding Yi led in the games. Pretty good job. And followed by the worship. I must say we did a fantastic job. Though there are rooms for more improvement but as a first time coming together, I say I'll give a 80 out of 100. And there were many praises from the people that we had done a great job. But let's be humble. All glory goes to the Lord. We will continue to strive for excellence. Then after the worship was the skit. Entertaining but just a few hiccups. Then followed by Pastor Edwin's sermon which I erh erh erh didn't quite recall. Hehe. Bad testimony. I would say that this Outreach was a successful one. Not so much that many people came or many turn to Christ but rather many of the Youths took the step of faith and invited their friends. That's something that the Youth Ministry had been encouraging but in vain. And I'm also very proud that most of the members of the worship team invited their friends. As a front line ministry, we had to always set a higher standard of example. Not so much as obligation or for show but rather we have to lead by example and I'm very proud of them. So after svc was refreshment. I settled my dinner. Haha.
After the clearing up, some of us (Dan, me, W.Y, X.L, Evon. Jamie, Joanne, Lionel) went to TM to watch Miss Congeniality 2. My goodenss, this is the 5th movie i'm watching this month. Pocket really burn big hole. Then after that we went to eat at Pastamania. By then, i was really knockout. Was too tired to even talk rubbish. After makan, actually still want to go for ice-cream but my mouth is too tired to even pop ice-cream in it. So i went home and zzzzZZZZZZZZZZZ.
Friday, March 25, 2005
GOOD FRIDAY
What's so good about Friday? If you ask me, I'll say it's holiday. Honestly it shdn't be called Good Friday. It should be called the Best Friday becoz our Lord, Jesus Christ died for us. Praise the Lord, our Saviour!
Today again I woke up extremely unusually early. Woke up at 8am and couldn't get back to sleep. So woke up and started to see what's on for today. Morning go banking den go book movie tickets, den late morning worship practise den followed by the movie den after that went to Suntec where Si En bought a jacket den dinner. This is one of my shortest account for a long day. Haha
Today again I woke up extremely unusually early. Woke up at 8am and couldn't get back to sleep. So woke up and started to see what's on for today. Morning go banking den go book movie tickets, den late morning worship practise den followed by the movie den after that went to Suntec where Si En bought a jacket den dinner. This is one of my shortest account for a long day. Haha
MAUNDY THURSDAY
HOrrray! No class today. But still got many things to do. Got to go for haircut, go church to help out, go for worship practise and last but not least, the most important event is Maundy Thursday. Woke up pretty early. Dun know why but since i was awake, I decided to do something meaningful. At the computer screen. Haha. Waste my life just on the PC. Checked my mail, played some games. And time flew. It was 11am. My hair saloon just opened. So I gave a call to make an appointment. Actually tot of having it at 11.30am but my stylist not in until 12pm and he had another appointment. So next slot was like 2.30pm. Oh my! That's a long wait and I can't wait for another day coz my hair is way too like a bush. Another time it will catch a fire. So reluctantly, I took that appointment. Since I had so much time to wait, I packed my bag and went to church. And the church is still quite in a mess and as usual my help is always needed. Did some errands here and there and it was lunch time. Went to the newly renovated hawker centre just beside the Bedok Army Camp. Got plenty of food but I decided to go for the Fish&Chips. When lunch came, I realised they served me a very healthy and slim fish. The fish was like less than a cm thick. My goodness. You called that a fish. Uncle Wee Kiat called that a tsunami fish. Fish that got swept up onto the road by the tsunami and run over by cars. Haha. And it cost me $4.50. After that, we had 'Ching Teng' for desert. Cooling and splendid. After lunch, time to go cut hair. Reached there, my stylist took like erh erh 15 min and done. Just trimming and thinning. Haha. Me like girl like that. Cut hair also so 'ma fan' (troublesome) After this, went back to church again to help out. Then was followed by the worship practise. Was running late and short of time and was still testing out the sounds. I was honestly nervous becoz this was such a grand occasion. I also couldn't really hear my bass and it seems like it was giving me problem also. Then when the svc started, we started playing and halfway thru the last song, my bass started to give me problem. Was giving me the "Ko ro pok" sound. Cracking here and there until I finally gave up and stop playing. Was a little disappointed and frustrated but I guess I learned something. If I can't use the bass to worship God, then I will just worship God with whatever I have.
The svc was followed by Senior Pastor's message and then the Holy Communion and lastly the foot washing. The feet washing was very meaningful. It was one of the last things that Jesus did before being crucified. In the olden days, people wears sandals and the road is dirt road. So when guests turn up at the host's house, the servants of the hosts would help to clean the feet of the guest. This service is done by the servant. But Jesus being the master did this to his disciples as an act to tell them that He being God came not to be served but to serve. And He wants all His disciples to follow likewise. To have a servanthood heart. As the brother started to wash my feet, I simply couldn't control my emotions. Without knowing, the events from the feet washing to the crucifixation of Jesus start to float into my mind. My heart was so touched and I just couldn't stop tearing (one of the another thing that i do like a girl. haha) Lastly, Pastor told us to go around and send our blessings, prayers to our brothers and sisters. It was very moving when you see everyone moving around encouraging, praying , tearing with one another. THAT'S WHAT GOD'S FAMILY ARE ABOUT. LOVING ONE ANOTHER! I really await the day where everyone will gather together to worship and praise God.
The svc was followed by Senior Pastor's message and then the Holy Communion and lastly the foot washing. The feet washing was very meaningful. It was one of the last things that Jesus did before being crucified. In the olden days, people wears sandals and the road is dirt road. So when guests turn up at the host's house, the servants of the hosts would help to clean the feet of the guest. This service is done by the servant. But Jesus being the master did this to his disciples as an act to tell them that He being God came not to be served but to serve. And He wants all His disciples to follow likewise. To have a servanthood heart. As the brother started to wash my feet, I simply couldn't control my emotions. Without knowing, the events from the feet washing to the crucifixation of Jesus start to float into my mind. My heart was so touched and I just couldn't stop tearing (one of the another thing that i do like a girl. haha) Lastly, Pastor told us to go around and send our blessings, prayers to our brothers and sisters. It was very moving when you see everyone moving around encouraging, praying , tearing with one another. THAT'S WHAT GOD'S FAMILY ARE ABOUT. LOVING ONE ANOTHER! I really await the day where everyone will gather together to worship and praise God.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
LONG TUESDAY
Tuesday usually is a nice day for me but today was kinda different. I dropped by the new church premise in the afternoon. Everything had just been moved over and everybody was busy unpacking and shelving their stuff. So as usual, me being a helpful and kind soul, I offered my big hands. Initially, I was doing the easy job. I was labelling all the shelves and tagging the keys. After that was the 'xiong' one. I was to help sort out and shelf 10 boxes of books. The sorting out and shelving was not the hard part. The hard part was I had to deal with 10 boxes of books. I hate books. Worse of all, 10 BOXES of IT. I was doing it with Evigan. After done with the 3rd box, I summoned Denise, Joanne and Xin Ling to take over. I left to do other less traumatising job. Haha. I was helping Eleanor shelving her files, stationery and etc which was so much more soothing and enjoying. Along the way, i took a few or rather a dozen of couple of breaks, snacking around. Empty stomach is no good for a hard day of job. Without knowing, time sneaked by and was already like 6pm. By then the girls and Evigan had already done up the shelves while my side was nearly finished. I had to leave at 7pm for my worship practise just down at the Multi Purpose Hall in the church.
When everybody had arrived, we started to get our equipment up while the sound engineer start up the sound. The night was not very pleasant. The sound didn't sound well, we couldn't hear ourselves or it was too loud. We didn't know what the sound engineer was trying out. Some of us were frustrated not becoz of other people but rather that time was running short and things couldn't be put together. I guess everyone wanted to give their best to the Lord but then there are times that things don't go our way. Do we vent our frustrations and just be so engrossed with the problem or do we just do with what we have and continue to worship God? I guess everybody will give me the latter as the politically right answer but we are human and of emotions and expectations and it is hard not to go into the swing of mood. So let's not focus on ourselves or the problem. The sacrifice is good but the Lord delights more in the heart of worship.
When everybody had arrived, we started to get our equipment up while the sound engineer start up the sound. The night was not very pleasant. The sound didn't sound well, we couldn't hear ourselves or it was too loud. We didn't know what the sound engineer was trying out. Some of us were frustrated not becoz of other people but rather that time was running short and things couldn't be put together. I guess everyone wanted to give their best to the Lord but then there are times that things don't go our way. Do we vent our frustrations and just be so engrossed with the problem or do we just do with what we have and continue to worship God? I guess everybody will give me the latter as the politically right answer but we are human and of emotions and expectations and it is hard not to go into the swing of mood. So let's not focus on ourselves or the problem. The sacrifice is good but the Lord delights more in the heart of worship.
Monday, March 21, 2005
PALM SUNDAY
Woke up pretty late. By the time I got to church it was like nearly 8.40am. Was helping Eleanor to do packing(at her desk area) while listening to the sermon. Pastor was on the topic about Tabernacle. It was about worshipping God with the right mindset and attitude. Then there was one part that Pastor said was very apparent in some of the youths. Pastor was talking about worshipping God with all your strength. And he particularly mention about this 7am svc that was faithfully attended by this group of eldery. This elderly will rather miss breakfast then to miss the svc. And they will always without fail be there way before the svc start to prepare themselves to worship God. You can imagine how early these old folks wake up. For a few weeks, certain Youths from the Chinese Congregation (chinese svc is in the afternoon) had been attending the morning English svc. Afterwhich they will stay on for a Bible class and then followed by their own Chinese svc. I guess this is what Pastor is talking about. Worshipping God with all our strength. And i can say it is quite a tiring thing to attend from morning till evening. I've done it for many months and it is not easy. I'm very glad that this bunch of youths really make the effort to come and worship God. And I do pray that more youths will start to worship God not for convenience but worship God with all their heart, soul and strength.
After svc, went to eat at KFC. Ordered a Zinger Meal and the burger was still in the process of making. SO the cashier told me to wait for 3 min. I decided to be gracious so i gave her a bit more time. I went to the counter and saw that the burger was not ready so i walked back to my seat. Then i waited a while more and went to the counter again. This time the burger was still not ready. I was a bit disappointed. I don't mind waiting for my burger but i hate it when the people just anyhow give me an answer just to pacify me. So I went up to the counter and gave a very straight face. And the cashier finally check with the kitchen staff and told me to wait for 4 min. Finally after much waiting and controlling of temper, I realised I had only 5 min to gobble up my burger. Which i did and the girls were like 'eeee', 'aarhh', 'yuck'. Haiz! Girls will be girls. Then we rush for the bible class which was on the book of Daniel. Talking about the '70 seven' Prophecy. Very interesting and i'm goin to read in detail(when i'm free which nvr seems to happen).
After bible class, had tuition with Ariz on P.O.A. Then Dino needed some help to bring his drum set home. So i followed him and then drove back to church. The chinese svc had started. I went to Eleanor's desk area and carried on packing. At the end of the svc, we had to start dismantle the whole church premise as we'll be moving. Honestly, I was sad because the present church premise had always been my 2nd home. I've worked in this place as an intern for a year and other times, I'll always dropped by to hang around. I'm really attached to this place. Now to tear it down seemed a bit cruel but the Lord showed me something. What is dear to me, He has something better for me. The new church premise. And to be honest, the new church premise is marvellous and splendid. But the Lord is not finished. He carried on to tell me that, this is only my temporary home. My home is somewhere else. What I see now is good. What more can i say when i'm at my permanent home. Praise be to God, the Almighty one. Amen!
After svc, went to eat at KFC. Ordered a Zinger Meal and the burger was still in the process of making. SO the cashier told me to wait for 3 min. I decided to be gracious so i gave her a bit more time. I went to the counter and saw that the burger was not ready so i walked back to my seat. Then i waited a while more and went to the counter again. This time the burger was still not ready. I was a bit disappointed. I don't mind waiting for my burger but i hate it when the people just anyhow give me an answer just to pacify me. So I went up to the counter and gave a very straight face. And the cashier finally check with the kitchen staff and told me to wait for 4 min. Finally after much waiting and controlling of temper, I realised I had only 5 min to gobble up my burger. Which i did and the girls were like 'eeee', 'aarhh', 'yuck'. Haiz! Girls will be girls. Then we rush for the bible class which was on the book of Daniel. Talking about the '70 seven' Prophecy. Very interesting and i'm goin to read in detail(when i'm free which nvr seems to happen).
After bible class, had tuition with Ariz on P.O.A. Then Dino needed some help to bring his drum set home. So i followed him and then drove back to church. The chinese svc had started. I went to Eleanor's desk area and carried on packing. At the end of the svc, we had to start dismantle the whole church premise as we'll be moving. Honestly, I was sad because the present church premise had always been my 2nd home. I've worked in this place as an intern for a year and other times, I'll always dropped by to hang around. I'm really attached to this place. Now to tear it down seemed a bit cruel but the Lord showed me something. What is dear to me, He has something better for me. The new church premise. And to be honest, the new church premise is marvellous and splendid. But the Lord is not finished. He carried on to tell me that, this is only my temporary home. My home is somewhere else. What I see now is good. What more can i say when i'm at my permanent home. Praise be to God, the Almighty one. Amen!
Thu to Sat
THU:
Met Maax, Si En, Xin Ling at City Hall MRT. Brought them to Penisula Plaza to look at guitar at Davis. After much decision, all 3 intend to buy the same model but different colour. After that went to Funan Centre to eat MacDonald. And Funan Centre is big but I can't find a single DBS or POSB ATM. End up borrowing money. While eating, met Gabriel and his 2 sibling, Ariel and Gretchen. Then after lunch, decided to go to Bugis becoz Si En wants to get a pair of slipper. And Si En suggested to walk there. We were fine with the idea until we realised Si En doesn't know how to walk there. And neither do anyone of us. So as smart kids, we took the train. Reached Bugis, walked around, Si En saw what see wanted at OP but no size. ^o^haha. So too bad. No slippers for her. I happened to have a $20 Parco voucher. So we decided to spend it on Bubble Tea. After the drink, then we headed back East and decided to drop by church to jam. At church, we found out some equipments were not around so end up couldn't really jam. But we were make useful when Lydia told us to clear up the postings on the boards. After that, Maax and I went home while the girls carried on their last minute shopping.
FRI:
Afternoon had tuition with Calvin and Wei Ren. After that in the evening, had our Easter Outreach Worship Practise. And everybody was late. Haiz. Nvm. This will be something that will have to be cultivated and it takes time. Started practising from 7.30pm and we ended at about 9pm. Wanted to end early becoz want to go home to catch the last episode of "You are the one" which is screening at 9pm. As we only ended by then, I offered to open up my house to those who wanted to catch the show but couldn't be home in time. Ding Yi, Xin Ling, Si En, Wen Yuan and Ting2 came. For once, I finally see that they could walk fast especially those with short legs. ^0^ hahahaha. Usually all of them stroll and even when they are late for Youth fellowship. Punctuality is definitely not a virtue in these people. After the show, then walk them to Tampines MRT and then slowly walk home, took a bath and zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
SAT:
WOke up early, Daniel's dad picked me up and went for breakfast and my market. Then Daniel, me and Joanne walked to our new church premise. Had a technical briefing. And also a rundown for Maundy Thursday and Easter Sunday. Had to miss the wheelchair training becoz of the rundown. Rescheduled to another day. After the rundown, had worship practise which took like dun know how long to set up and to fine tune the sound becoz everything is new. By the time we were done, we managed to run thru the songs once. Packed up and went over to the Chapel where the youths were practising for the skit. After that, some of us (me, Daniel, Joanne, Denise, Xin Ling, Yvonne and Wen Yuan) went for dinner. Actualli they wanted to watch "Son of the mask" but den too bad the next screening was 9.50pm which was too late. So eat dinner onli. And dinner was quite horrendous. Not the food. The people eating it. Took us dun know how long to decide where to eat. So went to Genki Sushi to eat. Me ate 3 Temaki, 1 plate of salmon, 1 Salmon roll and dun ask me why i eat so many salmon. i just love salmon. Then after dinner, we went to MacDonald to sit down and chat. (Forgot to mention, W.Y had to go home becoz she simply had too much h/w. ^o^ muahahahhaha) Didn't sit long as I think all of us are tired and we didn't have much lame jokes to go around. So after having an ice-cream, we left. As usual, I take a stroll home, bathe and zzzzzzzzz.
Met Maax, Si En, Xin Ling at City Hall MRT. Brought them to Penisula Plaza to look at guitar at Davis. After much decision, all 3 intend to buy the same model but different colour. After that went to Funan Centre to eat MacDonald. And Funan Centre is big but I can't find a single DBS or POSB ATM. End up borrowing money. While eating, met Gabriel and his 2 sibling, Ariel and Gretchen. Then after lunch, decided to go to Bugis becoz Si En wants to get a pair of slipper. And Si En suggested to walk there. We were fine with the idea until we realised Si En doesn't know how to walk there. And neither do anyone of us. So as smart kids, we took the train. Reached Bugis, walked around, Si En saw what see wanted at OP but no size. ^o^haha. So too bad. No slippers for her. I happened to have a $20 Parco voucher. So we decided to spend it on Bubble Tea. After the drink, then we headed back East and decided to drop by church to jam. At church, we found out some equipments were not around so end up couldn't really jam. But we were make useful when Lydia told us to clear up the postings on the boards. After that, Maax and I went home while the girls carried on their last minute shopping.
FRI:
Afternoon had tuition with Calvin and Wei Ren. After that in the evening, had our Easter Outreach Worship Practise. And everybody was late. Haiz. Nvm. This will be something that will have to be cultivated and it takes time. Started practising from 7.30pm and we ended at about 9pm. Wanted to end early becoz want to go home to catch the last episode of "You are the one" which is screening at 9pm. As we only ended by then, I offered to open up my house to those who wanted to catch the show but couldn't be home in time. Ding Yi, Xin Ling, Si En, Wen Yuan and Ting2 came. For once, I finally see that they could walk fast especially those with short legs. ^0^ hahahaha. Usually all of them stroll and even when they are late for Youth fellowship. Punctuality is definitely not a virtue in these people. After the show, then walk them to Tampines MRT and then slowly walk home, took a bath and zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
SAT:
WOke up early, Daniel's dad picked me up and went for breakfast and my market. Then Daniel, me and Joanne walked to our new church premise. Had a technical briefing. And also a rundown for Maundy Thursday and Easter Sunday. Had to miss the wheelchair training becoz of the rundown. Rescheduled to another day. After the rundown, had worship practise which took like dun know how long to set up and to fine tune the sound becoz everything is new. By the time we were done, we managed to run thru the songs once. Packed up and went over to the Chapel where the youths were practising for the skit. After that, some of us (me, Daniel, Joanne, Denise, Xin Ling, Yvonne and Wen Yuan) went for dinner. Actualli they wanted to watch "Son of the mask" but den too bad the next screening was 9.50pm which was too late. So eat dinner onli. And dinner was quite horrendous. Not the food. The people eating it. Took us dun know how long to decide where to eat. So went to Genki Sushi to eat. Me ate 3 Temaki, 1 plate of salmon, 1 Salmon roll and dun ask me why i eat so many salmon. i just love salmon. Then after dinner, we went to MacDonald to sit down and chat. (Forgot to mention, W.Y had to go home becoz she simply had too much h/w. ^o^ muahahahhaha) Didn't sit long as I think all of us are tired and we didn't have much lame jokes to go around. So after having an ice-cream, we left. As usual, I take a stroll home, bathe and zzzzzzzzz.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Above All
Above All
http://www.solidsounds.org/song_detail.php?rid=7
http://www.solidsounds.org/song_detail.php?rid=111
(i have attached 2 comments on the song which i thought was very meaningful. do take time to read thru. As Easter approaches, let's be not only reminded of what He has done but also what He can do in your life. Are you ready for that challenge?)
by Lenny LeBlanc & Paul Baloche from "Worship"
Michael W. Smith lyrics
Above all powers
Above all things
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began
Above all kingdoms
Above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what You're worth
::Chorus::
Crucified
Laid behind the stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fallAnd thought of me
Above all©1995 Integrity's Hosanna! Music/ASCAP/ LeSongs Publishing
http://www.solidsounds.org/song_detail.php?rid=7
http://www.solidsounds.org/song_detail.php?rid=111
(i have attached 2 comments on the song which i thought was very meaningful. do take time to read thru. As Easter approaches, let's be not only reminded of what He has done but also what He can do in your life. Are you ready for that challenge?)
by Lenny LeBlanc & Paul Baloche from "Worship"
Michael W. Smith lyrics
Above all powers
Above all things
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began
Above all kingdoms
Above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what You're worth
::Chorus::
Crucified
Laid behind the stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fallAnd thought of me
Above all©1995 Integrity's Hosanna! Music/ASCAP/ LeSongs Publishing
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Glimpse of the Promised Land
Today, me and Daniel went down to the church new premise. We were there to get to know the sound and light system. After the whole session, honestly, I'm not sure I know fully what the sound engineer had said to me. Kinda only understand half of what he was saying. And as the system was not ready, the night worship practise was cancelled. A bit disappointed. Thought I could toy around. But have to wait. The next practise is this coming saturday. Hopefully everything will be up by then.
But the thing that really excites me is the whole place. Even as I had a glimpse of the premise (not fully up), I could see what it will be like when people starts coming. Firstly, the church members will have a place where they can finally call home. And also being a hospital chapel, the Lord has placed upon us this responsibility to minister to the patients there. And I believe many people will be ministered and healings both physically and Spiritually will occur. Honestly, I considered what I see as something of small faith. I believe the Lord will do greater things. This small glimpse of the Promised Land is promise from God and also a protrait of His faithfulness. Jevhovah Jireh, our Provider. Amen!
But the thing that really excites me is the whole place. Even as I had a glimpse of the premise (not fully up), I could see what it will be like when people starts coming. Firstly, the church members will have a place where they can finally call home. And also being a hospital chapel, the Lord has placed upon us this responsibility to minister to the patients there. And I believe many people will be ministered and healings both physically and Spiritually will occur. Honestly, I considered what I see as something of small faith. I believe the Lord will do greater things. This small glimpse of the Promised Land is promise from God and also a protrait of His faithfulness. Jevhovah Jireh, our Provider. Amen!
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Another Nice SOng
One of the theme song from Mediacorptv, Channel 8, drama series called "You are the one". Didn't get to hear the whole song but the starting already sound beautiful.
YOU MAKE ME FEEL BRAND NEW
Lyrics: Ken Chong
Composer: Redwan Ali
Singer: Redwan Ali
I am but a foolish man with only love in his heart
The rain may come, the sun may set, but I'll never let you go
All I need is your love, to hear you say that I am your man
So tell me now and show me how I could be your better man
*And I'll surrender everything just to be with you
There is no one in the world like you You make me real
*And I'll cross every ocean just to be with you
Baby you're my dream and you're my soul
You make me real
副歌：
Just like a flame
You're burning in my soul
You wake me from the cold
You make me real
And like a flameYou brighten up my world
Every corner bears a print of you
You really make me feel brand new
Like a flameYou glow within my heart forever more
You make me feel brand new
YOU MAKE ME FEEL BRAND NEW
Lyrics: Ken Chong
Composer: Redwan Ali
Singer: Redwan Ali
I am but a foolish man with only love in his heart
The rain may come, the sun may set, but I'll never let you go
All I need is your love, to hear you say that I am your man
So tell me now and show me how I could be your better man
*And I'll surrender everything just to be with you
There is no one in the world like you You make me real
*And I'll cross every ocean just to be with you
Baby you're my dream and you're my soul
You make me real
副歌：
Just like a flame
You're burning in my soul
You wake me from the cold
You make me real
And like a flameYou brighten up my world
Every corner bears a print of you
You really make me feel brand new
Like a flameYou glow within my heart forever more
You make me feel brand new
Monday, March 14, 2005
Nice SOng
遇见
听见 冬天 的离开 我在某年某月醒过来
我想 我等 我期待 未来却不能因此安排
阴天 傍晚 车窗外 未来有一个人在等待
向左 向右 向前看 爱要拐几个弯才来
我遇见谁 会有怎样的对白
我等的人 他在多远的未来
我听见风 来自地铁和人海
我排着队 拿着爱的号码牌
我往前飞 飞过一片时间海
我们也曾 在爱情备受伤害
我看着路 梦的入口有点窄
我遇见你 是最美丽的意外
总有一天 我的谜底会解开
听见 冬天 的离开 我在某年某月醒过来
我想 我等 我期待 未来却不能因此安排
阴天 傍晚 车窗外 未来有一个人在等待
向左 向右 向前看 爱要拐几个弯才来
我遇见谁 会有怎样的对白
我等的人 他在多远的未来
我听见风 来自地铁和人海
我排着队 拿着爱的号码牌
我往前飞 飞过一片时间海
我们也曾 在爱情备受伤害
我看着路 梦的入口有点窄
我遇见你 是最美丽的意外
总有一天 我的谜底会解开
Saturday, March 12, 2005
AmazinGrace
Yeah!! It's AmazinGrace, the once in a year race. Was waiting for it since last year didn't hold it. This time the race is held in Pulau Ubin. Going to be interesting. But the race was early in the morning at 8.30am. Had to literally shake myself up. Woke up at 6.30am, did some necessary biz and set off my house at 6.50am. Then took a bus from Tampines Interchange to Changi Village. Reach there at about 7.40am. Since it was early, i decided to take my breakfast. Ate 'rice cake' and 'carrot cake' and drank one cup of grass jelly.
Then when we gathered into our grouping, Clement, Glenn, Si En, Xin Ling, Natalya were in my team. Then Daniel did some briefing in English and Mandarin. Well his chinese is not that fantastic but honestly it was a great effort from him. I know. Well done my brother! After tat the race started. Then our first clue was "SEA is my last name. Find me in Block 2" We were at a hawker centre, so my team was lookin for a shop that has SEA as the last name. After a while then did we realise that it wasn't about a shop but a person. We were suppose to look for this guy by the name of Chuan Hai where his name Hai is chinese word for SEA. So we manage to find him and got our next destination. We were suppose to take a ferry to terminal.
When we hit the terminal, our team was 2nd in place. Then something unbelievable happen. The next team in the queue was like 20 people behind us. So we had a good headstart. Then this boatman told the group in front of me and my group to take his boat. So we left the queue and head towards him. But the police at the custom stop us and refuse to let us past. We were in a state of confusing and when we recovered, the next team had advanced to the front of the queue and they took the ferry first. What a surprise! Without fail, that team start jeering at us. haha.
But immediately after much complaining to the police, we were a boat behind the team. When we reached Pulau Ubin, we were the fourth team. Then our first clue was to find this coconut stall along this dun know wat bridge and find out how much one Thai coconut cost. And we had to buy one and retain the husk as evidence. There was another team which was doin the same route and we were way ahead. When we left for our 2nd clue, they were way behind us. So our next clue is to find the campsite of the NPCC and find wat's the speed limit in the premise. It was a long way. Nearly fainted. Found the speed limit 40km/h. Then we set off for our next destination, the Mama Beach. Dun ask me why this beach is called the Mama. Near the beach there's the garden and we are suppose to count the number of peacocks and boar in the garden. As we were walking towards that destination, we met the early team that was behind us. Somehow or rather they were now in front of us. I thought they must have cheated. Haha. But den apparently, they took a wrong route but in fact was a shorter route and they had actualli completed one more obstacles than us. This is outrageous. What's so much about playing the game conscientiously. Doesn't pay. haha. But den, got to keep my complaints to myself and keep encouraging my teammates. FOund the garden; 2 peacocks and 1 real fat and lazy boar. Afterwhich, our last clue was to find the Village headman's house and take a photo of the signboard tat says " Cold drinks for sale". Despite knowing that we are trailing behind, the whole team was still very much in the race. We found the last clues and went to our final check point. When we reached there, we were suppose to solve a last obstacles. Kinda a riddle. The answer was Grace and Peace. Phew! Finally the race had ended. Was challenging I have to say but was thrilling. When the last team came in, the result was announced. My team came in fourth but I guess it doesn't really matter. Because in God's eyes there are no losers or winners among His children. Our walk on earth is like this race. Everybody will eventually finish at the same point. Some faster, some slower. Along the way, we are faced with obstacles but we work as a team to solve the problem, encourage one another and enjoy each other's companion. When we finsihed the race, we pat each other's back and say well done and we continue to cheer for those who had not finished the race. That's what's our walk should be like. So my brothers and sisters, let us not give up the race for all who finish the race are winners. Amen!
Well! After the race, i tot tat i was still goin strong. The race ended at about 12.30pm. Went back to church and had a tuition appointment at 2pm. Finished tuition at 3.30pm den did some jamming session. After tat went to SpotLight to buy some materials for the bouquet of flowers that Charles is bringing to UK to give to Emily. Hehe. Dun know if he is proposing or not. Muaahhahahahaha. Den reached home at about 6pm. I tot i was still able to stay awake but my eyes were shutting down. So I had no choice but to go take a nap. Slept from 6 to about 10.30pm. Hate to admit it but age is catching up on me. Den went online for a while. At about 11.30pm, started to do the bouquet. Took me about 2 hours to finish. Hehe. Tot tat it was one of my best piece of work. Clear up the mess and without much hesitation, onto my bed and
xX
.o zzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
Then when we gathered into our grouping, Clement, Glenn, Si En, Xin Ling, Natalya were in my team. Then Daniel did some briefing in English and Mandarin. Well his chinese is not that fantastic but honestly it was a great effort from him. I know. Well done my brother! After tat the race started. Then our first clue was "SEA is my last name. Find me in Block 2" We were at a hawker centre, so my team was lookin for a shop that has SEA as the last name. After a while then did we realise that it wasn't about a shop but a person. We were suppose to look for this guy by the name of Chuan Hai where his name Hai is chinese word for SEA. So we manage to find him and got our next destination. We were suppose to take a ferry to terminal.
When we hit the terminal, our team was 2nd in place. Then something unbelievable happen. The next team in the queue was like 20 people behind us. So we had a good headstart. Then this boatman told the group in front of me and my group to take his boat. So we left the queue and head towards him. But the police at the custom stop us and refuse to let us past. We were in a state of confusing and when we recovered, the next team had advanced to the front of the queue and they took the ferry first. What a surprise! Without fail, that team start jeering at us. haha.
But immediately after much complaining to the police, we were a boat behind the team. When we reached Pulau Ubin, we were the fourth team. Then our first clue was to find this coconut stall along this dun know wat bridge and find out how much one Thai coconut cost. And we had to buy one and retain the husk as evidence. There was another team which was doin the same route and we were way ahead. When we left for our 2nd clue, they were way behind us. So our next clue is to find the campsite of the NPCC and find wat's the speed limit in the premise. It was a long way. Nearly fainted. Found the speed limit 40km/h. Then we set off for our next destination, the Mama Beach. Dun ask me why this beach is called the Mama. Near the beach there's the garden and we are suppose to count the number of peacocks and boar in the garden. As we were walking towards that destination, we met the early team that was behind us. Somehow or rather they were now in front of us. I thought they must have cheated. Haha. But den apparently, they took a wrong route but in fact was a shorter route and they had actualli completed one more obstacles than us. This is outrageous. What's so much about playing the game conscientiously. Doesn't pay. haha. But den, got to keep my complaints to myself and keep encouraging my teammates. FOund the garden; 2 peacocks and 1 real fat and lazy boar. Afterwhich, our last clue was to find the Village headman's house and take a photo of the signboard tat says " Cold drinks for sale". Despite knowing that we are trailing behind, the whole team was still very much in the race. We found the last clues and went to our final check point. When we reached there, we were suppose to solve a last obstacles. Kinda a riddle. The answer was Grace and Peace. Phew! Finally the race had ended. Was challenging I have to say but was thrilling. When the last team came in, the result was announced. My team came in fourth but I guess it doesn't really matter. Because in God's eyes there are no losers or winners among His children. Our walk on earth is like this race. Everybody will eventually finish at the same point. Some faster, some slower. Along the way, we are faced with obstacles but we work as a team to solve the problem, encourage one another and enjoy each other's companion. When we finsihed the race, we pat each other's back and say well done and we continue to cheer for those who had not finished the race. That's what's our walk should be like. So my brothers and sisters, let us not give up the race for all who finish the race are winners. Amen!
Well! After the race, i tot tat i was still goin strong. The race ended at about 12.30pm. Went back to church and had a tuition appointment at 2pm. Finished tuition at 3.30pm den did some jamming session. After tat went to SpotLight to buy some materials for the bouquet of flowers that Charles is bringing to UK to give to Emily. Hehe. Dun know if he is proposing or not. Muaahhahahahaha. Den reached home at about 6pm. I tot i was still able to stay awake but my eyes were shutting down. So I had no choice but to go take a nap. Slept from 6 to about 10.30pm. Hate to admit it but age is catching up on me. Den went online for a while. At about 11.30pm, started to do the bouquet. Took me about 2 hours to finish. Hehe. Tot tat it was one of my best piece of work. Clear up the mess and without much hesitation, onto my bed and
xX
.o zzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
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