Last Word

This afternoon I went to the movie. Since I had a ticket pass which expired by end of this year, I guess I might as well give myself a treat. So I make my way to Tiong Bahru Plaza to watch Night at the Museum. After I bought the popcorn combo, I went to my seat. Even as I sat alone there feeding myself with the popcorn, some memories started to return to me and I was near to tears. I remember when I was very young, my mum will bring me to the movies. At that time, going to movie is a luxury. Every time that I entered the cinema, I was always filled with certain awe and fear. Not because of the darkness but rather I felt that cinema is too 'high a class' for me. But even as I grew older, that feeling start to disappear. I guess my living standard is improving. I could choose to spend on certain items without much consideration. As I reflect upon all these, I realised that the Lord has blessed me so much more than I actually really know. Yet at the same time, the Lord also impressed upon me that all these blessings are merely for the soul but has no impact on the Spirit. Every cent and dollar I spend on all these entertainment does not bring any growth in my spiritual life. It really keeps me thinking about how best I want to utilise my wealth.
Even as the thoughts linger in my mind, I was challenged immediately. After the movie, I came across this shop that sells a very cute pig torchlight. It cost $10. I coulde easily afford it. But as I was reminded of how well I want to use my wealth, I thought that this is way off the line. I don't need a torchlight and the only reason why I wanted it was purely for showoff. And also another point that cross my mind was the people in Cambodia. On the last night of our stay in Cambodia, the Khmer staff joined us for a celebration dinner. The Khmer staff decided to hold a surprise treat for us. They bought 2 tubs of ice-cream, 2 cokes, a few cans of chips. At that point, I only thought that it was their way of showing hospitality. However, William bought up a point. How much does all this treat cost them? That moment really strucked me. I get my allowance from my parents and they earned their allowance by working and the amount is way below my standard. They most probably had taken a big piece of their allowance just to be hospitable. Knowing this, how can I still happily spend on things that I don't need.
So my new year resolution. I want to strip away all my rights to such treats. I will not be going to movie, Kbox, fast food restaurant and any other form of entertainment. Yes! I'm dead serious. I will rather use the money for better uses. Well for frens out there, you still can invite me to movies and i will only go if you are willingly to sponsor me. And when you catch me flouting any of the above mentioned items, pls kindly remind me.

I thank God for this trip to Cambodia. It was interesting in both good and bad sense. Personally, I could sense the calling being clearer. Things are moving and I'm sure it's the Lord who is moving. I guess I'm in the midst of preparing myself as well. Mission does not start at the point we leave our country and arrive at the foreign country. It starts when one allows the Lord to mould and shape one so that when the time comes, one will be ready for use by the Lord. 3 years!

Another thing the Lord has impressed upon me is this verse, "the harvest is plentiful but the workers are few." A very well-known verse which is used in the context of missionary. However, the Lord brought me a higher level of understanding. These words were spoken nearly 2000 yrs ago but why is the situation still so prevailing? There are so many conferences, rallies being held and organised to send people forth to the harvest few but then why there are still so few workers? I don't really have the conclusive answer. There could be alot of reasons. But I personally feel is that many of them are not willingly to let go of certain things in their life. Many of them are not willingly to set apart or do not understand what it takes to set themselves apart for the Lord. Until one is ready to set himself apart for the Lord, then will he be able to work in tune with the Lord. Usually it's not an easy job and I guess that's why the workers are always few. I am not trying to be discouraging but in fact, I want to encourage people to take the step of faith and set their lives apart for the Lord.

Lastly, I just thought of ending this story that I had started earlier on. I guess this will be the final episode for this story. And I praise the Lord for He let me see things beyond what I can imagine. Here's the last instalment:


The flower stood there waiting and waiting. The flower still remembered the butterfly paying visits to the flower. The bee had always without fail been visiting the flower as well. The flower is confused. None of it make sense. At one point, the flower looked up into the sky. It saw the sun which governs the day and the moon which governs the night. After many days and nights looking at the sky, the flower was enlightened. The flower has an answer to its problem. It's neither the butterfly nor the bee. There is an even greater thing installed for the flower. As the flower continue to wait in anticipation, the flower petals start to wither. The flower was gone. However, at the end of the withered flower, a small fruit starts to grow. As the fruit grew, it knew that in it contains the seeds that will bear more fruits it can imagine.