1 April

The next day will be the most crucial days of my life. I definitely have to squeeze out my report. I have all the outlines and ideas in my head but the thing is how I need to link everything together and at the same time each individual item has the substance to hold its weight. I know I can do it. I have to do it. Just do it! 1 April will be my dateline to shoot the report to Post Office and get it flown to UK! And I will be a free man on April's Fool day. Maybe for a while............ One big rock released but more to come. But for now, the rest are least of the worry. Now is break(through) or else break(down).

Well on a lighter and happier note, I have lost 3.5kg over a period of 1.5 month. Woohoo. Thanks to being consistent with my workout which consists of 1000 skipping (now increased to 1400), weight training, crunches a day. And something that Andrew Phang said which was so relevant. "Eat to burn not to store. Eat more meals of moderation servings". Well, I've tried it and it is showing a bit of effective sign. Hahahaha. Another 1.5 kg and will meet my Phase 1 target. After that, Phase 2. Another 5kg. Wahahahahahhaha. I am so going to start digging out the 'mini' which are lost in my closet for years. : )

1/2 Step

I'm wondering if I should take this 1/2 step. Is this by faith or is it just another step to valuable and painful experience?

忽冷忽热。我无法抓摸。我有很多不敢但也有很多不舍。我不要求肯定，我只望能尝试。但我却找不到那动力。也许动力就在我眼前。

Lord, give me the courage and strength to try, not for success but just simply for the sake of trying. Amen!

JoO ChiAt RoAd

This afternoon was a very interesting day, well at least for me it is. I needed to run an errand. One of the fan in my house had a broken blade. So I needed to go down to the HQ to buy the replacement. It was somewhere near Joo Chiat area. When I reached the HQ, it was lunch hour. Hehe! I should have anticipated that. Since I had some time, I decided to roam about.



So I decided to walk down the main road towards Joo Chiat. I came across the Joo Chiat Complex. I had vague memory that I had visited this place when I was very young. So I decided to go in and have a look. Pretty old building. 1st floor was mainly textile shops. 2nd and 3rd floors were mainly Malay's clothing. Quite an eye-opener. There was also carpet dealer. It seemed that the carpets are reasonably priced. Haha! Maybe next time if I want to buy carpet, may consider coming here.



After a quick walk through the complex, I noticed this fenced up area. I had always noticed it but never knew what it was. I think it is the Malay Village. So I decided to take a look inside. The first shop I saw was a home-deco shop. It had a lot of beautiful deco like chairs, tables, lamp, china. Kind of what I would love to have in my home. But the price erh...erhmmmm. Well! It is on a close-down sale. 50% off and all must go. Interested, please go have a look.



The place seemed a bit desolated. Not all the shops are occupied. Then I came across this Kopi Shop named, Hainan Kaya Toast. Hehe.... How interesting. Being a Hainanese myself, anything that has relation to my dialect group, will sure attract my attention. I was a distance away and I noticed that in the kopi shop, it was mainly occupied by Malays (pls dun get me wrong, i've nothing against the Malays. just wondering why would so many Malays patronize this chinese kopi shop. Is it because there isn't any Malay Kopi shop, considering this is a mainly Malay community?) So out of curiousity, I took a closer look. Hahaha. Inside the Kopi Shop was another Malays shop that sells Malay goodies. No wonder. Well! Since I was there, I decided to try the Hainanese Kopi and Kaya Toast.



Here are 2 photos of the teabreak:

I ordered Kopi Si Kor Song. Not bad.

Aroma: 8/10

Thickness: 7/10

Taste: 8/10
This is the Kaya Toast. I suppose it is Hainanese Kaya. Well you can't see it but the Kaya is orange in colour. I suspect they used brown sugar. And the butter is one thin slab. This is a perfect combi. And the bread is of sufficient thickness and well toasted. Though, I find the Kaya a bit on the sweet side.

Toast: 7/10

Kaya: 8/10

Butter: 8/10

Taste: 8/10

I am definitely very satisfied. Hahahahahaaha.........

Another interesting thing happen when I was walking around the compound. I was looking around this shop and the owner came out to ask me what I was looking for. So I answered her, "看看，谢谢！(Just looking around, thank you). " It was a rundown convenient shop. After a few second, the owner replied saying, "找古董啊？(looking for antique?)" For that moment, I just smiled back. After I walked away, her reply kept me thinking. Was she being sarcastic? She must be wondering what's there to look look at a convenient shop. Haha! How amusing. In fact, I am looking for things pretty much can be considered antique in its sense. I guess I need to go Flea Market very soon. Hahaha! 1/2 step.......

I noticed another interesting phenomenon. While sitting at the Kopi Shop, a man left and was walking towards his car. When he was walking past this small field, out of a sudden, a flock of pigeons started to descend onto the small field. My goodness! What a sight! How I wish I had a camera to snap that beautiful moment. Really! It's amazing. I think I will go there again to try to have a similar snapshot. Wahahahahaha. I want a digital SLR camera..... (i dun even know wat SLR stands for)

So after the short adventurous detour, I went back to get the fan's blade replacement. Really tempted to take a cab home but no, no, Xianjie, must learn not to be so spoilt. Money hard to come by. Take the MRT. Yes yes! haha.....

Well, I'm hoping I can have more of such trips where I can go around different parts of Singapore and tour around. You will be surprised what you can find and see.......

A random photo. This photo was taken when a circled rainbow was formed last year. Quite blur becoz taken from my handphone. But I though it was pretty. Hehehehhee...

What's so GOOD about FRIDAY?

Arrrrhhhhhhhhhh. I think I've been very 'lost' the last few weeks. Looking at my posts, it's like I am so emo and so unfocus. I guess realising datelines have not been 6 weeks but effectively on 2 weeks, it woke me up and at the same time a heavy weight is unleased. All seemed hopeless but God is still faithful and gracious. I hate to put God to the test, not that He takes up my challenge, but everytime in such situation of grace, I know I had let God down. I know I had let many people down.

And even as Good Friday and Easter Sunday approached, everything about the project was on my mind but God. Instead of tuning down life and solemnly reflect and make sense of the Lord has done for us on the cross, I was just too caught up with trying to make any sense in my project outline. And instead of waiting in anticipation of Sunday, the day that the Lord rises to glory, I was just anticipating for new ideas and points to boost up my project.

I wish I wasn't such a letdown. I wish I would be more organised in life. I wish I wasn't such a procastinator. I wish I wasn't such .... watever.

And now I realise another big boo boo I've make. Being too nice isn't always wise. And my life is so filled with drama serial plot that I think I can effectively write a 300 episodes at this stage of my life. I wish things were clearly. I dun need a positive answer. I just wish things were clearly.

I guess I am those believers who are so caught up with the world's and personal affairs that they just 'couldn't' leave their 'commitment' when Jesus was led on the Via Dolorosa. Totally oblivious of the significance of our faith.

Unworthy................................................................................... me..............................



Via Dolorosa

刹那; 永远

微风吹过的刹那间
思念卷成永远

难道思念是唯一能看见你的世界的窗
但愿守候不是放弃而是信靠主的全能

JUMPER... No! I'm A THINKER

Well, there are JUMPERS, DUMB AND DUMBER and DUMB AND DUMBER 2, I'm just a THINKER. I simply think a lot. Does anyone pay people to think? I fit quite well for such career.

Sometimes, I just wish I can think lesser. Thinking too much has its hassle. It creates unnecessary and undue stress and emotional baggage. Also it takes up too much time and end up not doing any thing constructive. Mind you, thinking is not daydreaming. Daydreaming is simply day dreaming. And thinking is erh.... thinking. You know what I mean. It involves alot of critical analysis of things that are seen, heard, experienced. And most of the time, these things may not even relate directly to oneself.

Haiz.... I dun even know why I'm posting this. It seems so random and unworthy. Never mind. I wish I was a Jumper. Den I can just simply 'jump away' everytime I feel emo...... Go to somewhere far away. Go to somewhere I've not been. Go to someone where it vapourises all my thoughts.

I think I think too much. Maybe it's nothing. I'm just making things up.......

Thank You

I got to hear this song Thank You by Ray Boltz. Had heard it before but didn't really look into the lyrics. As I heard this song once again, it kinda start to speak into me.

I guess it is a good song to use for Mission Fair and also to rally people for Mission. Then the Lord was telling me if I want to be at the receiving end, where people comes up to me and thank me for the little things I've done that led them to Christ. It's not so much about self-glorifying but it's the thought that the Lord calls me worthy enough to be part of His plan.

It brought tears to my eyes.

I know it's going to be a tough choice, with many things I have to give up. It may seem like I will need to go through a rocky period of time. But as the song says

"As Jesus took your hand
And you stood before the Lord
He said, my child look around you
For great is your reward"

Lord, let me trust in You. Trust in Your sovereignty. Trust in Your providence. Count me worthy to be part of Your plan. No matter You call, I will obey and follow.


LYRICS OF THANK YOU

I dreamed I went to heaven
And you were there with me
We walked upon the streets of gold
Beside the crystal sea
We heard the angels singing
Then someone called your name
You turned and saw this young man
And he was smiling as he came
And he said friend you may not know me now
And then he said but wait
You used to teach my Sunday School
When I was only eight
And every week you would say a prayer
Before the class would start
And one day when you said that prayer
I asked Jesus in my heart

CHORUS
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am a life that was changed
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am so glad you gave

Then another man stood before you
And said remember the time
A missionary came to your church
And his pictures made you cry
You didn’t have much money
But you gave it anyway
Jesus took the gift you gave
And that’s why I’m here today

CHORUS (repeat)

One by one they came
Far as the eyes could see
Each life somehow touched
By your generosity
Little things that you had done
Sacrifices made
Unnoticed on the earth
In heaven now proclaimed

And I know that up in heaven
You’re not supposed to cry
But I am almost sure
There were tears in your eyes
As Jesus took your hand
And you stood before the Lord
He said, my child look around you
For great is your reward

NATIONAL VERTICAL MARATHON

My first try. It was at Republic Plaza. 60 floors. It was really challenging. Consider a buffalo trying to climb a mountain. And the fact that I was not fit and totally unprepared for it.

First 10 floors, I decided to just use up my booster power at one go.
After which, Marcus caught up and were on par for the next 10 floors.
Then I was alone for the next 40 floors.
Both thighs were cramped up.
The Yoko Yoko didn't work.
I could only 1 step at a time.
Until the last 4 floors, den I picked up speed and chiong.
Haha! Good experience. I'm so going to train for this next year.

Now my legs are soft and tender and best served Medium Rare. : )