New Year, New Resolution, Same Purpose

My my! 2005 just flew by so fast. I'm not too sure but somehow as age catches up, I have the feeling that time slipped past my hands so quickly, so unexpectantly. Really wish that the time will just slow down. As i reflect on Yr 2005, it really just show how faithful and wise God is. In the first quarter of the year, I had to make a very tough decision and I thk God that He gave me the strength and assurance to choose that path. Some other things happen after that decision and it really affected me pretty bad but den becoz I chose that decision, i see that God is actually helping me. Then during mid year something happen and it also affected me and once again becoz of my initial decision, I know that God is there with me and for me. Our God is an awesome God. Then the rest of the months were just trying to discipline myself to study and managing my commitment in the different ministries, family and friends. Honestly, feel that I have not really achieved what i really wish i would have done but then again, it could be worse. But the highlight of the year comes during December. Though I miss the mission trip, my heart was with the team and also the people of Cambodia. I hope that next year I could once again step my feet on to the soil of Cambodia. Then there was the Youth Camp. I praised the Lord for it once again speaks of His faithfulness. He who starts a good work will bring it to completion. Yes Lord! Amen! This camp was fully run by the youths themselves and i saw many of them moving out of the comfort zone and rising up to offer their service to the Lord. And at the camp, many had been touched and I know that their life is different. They had been transformed. Indeed there's revival in the youths. Praise God! My time as a youth is up. I have walked that path and I had a glimpse of what God has installed for the youths. My task is to tell the youths what God has installed for them. My time is nearing and I am with joy to see that the youths are rising up to take over.
After the camp was followed by X'mas celebration. I think i'm losing the excitement and the true meaning of X'mas. I must really start to revive that true feeling of X'mas. It shd be more than just the lightings in Orchard Road, the turkey, the x'mas tree, Santa Claus. It's all about You. Let me always remember that.
Then it was the wedding of my 'Da Ge'. Oh it came really unexpectedly. He was always working very hard and never seems to have time to meet us, so let alone find a g/f. So among the other 4 brothers, we always speculate that he won't be the first to get married. But guess wat? Surprise surprise! He is getting married and we only know about it like a few months before his wedding. What kind of brother is tat? Haha! But really feel very happy for him. But also a feeling of sadness. There goes another good man's freedom. Haha! His wedding was on Boxing Day. SO on X'mas nite went over his house to help in preparation. I got the easy job. I just need to ensure that the necessary things are brought along. Haha! Yayy! The rest have to be drivers. So next morning woke up pretty early, den changed and got ready. Left at about 8am. Last minute, i was also tasked to drive. Haha! Den very funny. The car doesn't have a hand brake but instead a foot brake. So when i was abt to drive off, I exclaimed on where the hand brake is. Everybody in the car was like x.x''''''. haha! Finally someone told me and we set off. Reached the bride's place, waited for quite a long while b4 able to go up to the house. Thk God that the challenges were not too difficult. Actually all the 'brothers' back out and left the groom to fend for himself. Muahaha. So then later, just keep zooming up and down fetching pple. Really tiring to drive fr 8am- 2pm. Nearly crashed the car a few times. muahahahhaha. Then at night had dinner. Food not bad and get to eat since not too much work to do. Really a lot of mixed feelings. Suddenly, a lot of memories just flashed back. I still remember when we all first met in Hai Sing High Sec. 4 yrs in sch. Den the 4 of them went poly while i went JC den I entered army followed by the 4 of them. Den they started to work and now in a turn of eyes, 'Da Ge' is getting married. Really had a lot of joy and excitement, growing up together with them. Den again, this feelings creep into me. How about myself? When is it my turn? Initially, the feeling is bad. Den as i ponder upon it, these questions were asked not so much as a reflection of my loneliness but rather to assure me that God has someone for me and that in His due time, He will reveal to me.

MY PRAYER:
Yes Lord! I long for someone but yet I know above all my feelings and desires, You have the best for me. So Lord, let me have the patience and strength to wait upon You. And I ask that You help me to guard my heart and let it not turn cold nor turn away from You. So let it be that Your will be done in my life. Thank you Lord!