He Is My Everything

The Lord is my everything. The meaning of this sentence really starts to sink deep into my heart. Without the Lord, I feel so aimless, so unproductive. I have recently picked up QT and initially, it was pretty managable. But after a few days, the laziness set in and I missed a few days. And that few days were really terrible. Things did not get done, things were in a mess, there was no focus and every thing just did not work out. I am not saying that QT is a super charm that we should do so in order that things will work out fine. In fact, after doing QT, everything is still the SAME but it is just what kind of attitude we have when face with situations. When we emersed ourselves into God's word, His word will speak to us, give us direction, give us wisdom and gives us peace. As we are faced with situations, the help is not in ourselves but in the Lord.
So today, I intentionally forced myself to pick up QT again. It wasn't easy. I thought of after breakfast, I will "need" to start studying. But I told myself that it was going to be worth that 1/2 hour to 1 hour studying the word of God. And I must say it indeed was a fruitful time. And even more fruitful time was that I managed to finish 3 1/2 topics in a span of 4 hours. Effective studying and such a fulfilling feeling.
Also, there are many a times, I just simply move into a very micro-humanly view of things. I really feel like giving up. There are so much uncertainties. I can't make any head or tail where it is leading me. Nothing is conclusive. My sensing tells me there is no point. My principles tell me to hold on. Everything just do not make any sense. I can neither move left nor right. Just as I feel so messed up, the Lord reminded me of His promise - the song that He inspired me with. How short-faith I had! How quick I was to forget that the Lord is my Creator and instead of trusting in His plan, I want to take things into my own hands. I can neither move left nor right but that is not where He wants me to go. He wants me to look straight at Him, hold on to Him and follow Him.

Chorus:
Patiently wait for You, my Lord
Trusting in You simply because You're my Lord,
The Creator of my life
And I will lift my hands to You
In such times I'll sing a new song to You
For Your faithfulness to me
I bow before Your throne
I fix my eyes on You.

Lord! Let this song be a reminder of Your great love and faithfulness. Let me not lose sight of You. Let me not look left nor right but fix my eyes upon You. Let me not take things into my own hands but help me to trust in You. Thank You Lord, thank You for creating me. You are my everything. And my everything is Yours.