When Eros Met Phileo

"The evil in our desire typically does not lie in what we want, but in that we want it too much."

John Calvin

I thought I will never go so far. I told myself I will not over-commit. I thought I never. But in fact, emotionally, I had crossed the line. I may have want it too badly. Now the feeling really sucks. The whole situation is nothing but demoralising, hurting to self-esteem. Maybe I tried too hard. Maybe it is not meant to be. I spoilt the soup. I really just want to get over it. The years have been substantial but being indefinite is not helping. I want to get over it and start afresh. Liberalise myself.

Lord! Only You are able to help me! Help me to overcome. Help me to move on! Help me to trust in You!