FEAR

I dun know why but every new trip back to Cambodia always bring me greater excitement but yet also increasing fear. I believe I talked about this before in a pre-trip postings. The feeling is like I am going there for a long period or even for good. It is like alone in a total different culture, language, environment. It seems so taunting. It seems so intimidating. It feels like I have shrunk into a small midget amongst giants. Furthermore, having the responsibility to share God's word, it doesn't help. Haha!

I am not too sure why I am feeling like this or why God is allowing me to feel this way. Maybe to prepare me for the future? I dun dare to look that far! I do have a passion for Mission works. But yet to think about having to make big sacrifices to go to the Fields, I dun think I have the ability or capacity to do it at the present moment. That's why I always give my THUMBS-UP to all the Missionaries. They are really men and women of Christ.

Or maybe the Lord wants me to experience such feelings and teach me to manage such emotions. So in the future, I may be able to empathise and even share and help others to manage such emotions.

Or maybe, I am not even coming back after this trip. Haha! Ok! Lousy joke! (But who knows)

I pray that may this fear arises not because fear of men but rather the fear of the Lord. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. May the Lord show me the way.

Pray for us. These are Rev Edwin and my schedules.

Monday - Touchdown
Tuesday - Morning: Rev Edwin Sharing
Afternoon: Small Group Discussion/Games
Night: Service conducted by Rev Tit Hieng
Wednesday - Morning: ME
Afternoon: Small Group Discussion/Games
Night: Service conducted by Rev Edwin
Thursday - Afternoon: Break camp/ Return to CCOP
Friday - Not confirmed; Most probably visitation of church members
Saturday - As above
Sunday - Morning: Rev Edwin Tan - Khmer and English Svc
- Evening: HOME SWEET HOME