21 - 24 Apr (Thu - Sun)

21 Apr (Thu)

My dad was warded into SGH to prepare him for operation on Friday. He went in during the noon. As I had class, I could only visit him in the evening. Caught a cab, swung by to grab my sis den went to SGH. My mum was with my dad when we met him. Then we went for a quick munch at the Kopi Tiam. He was still quite positive but I knew deep in him, he was worried sick. I know he was worried if the operation will succeed or not. Then Pastor Priscilla came and visited him. Had a chat with him and before leaving, prayed for him. I was not feeling very right. My soul felt very down. Though I had earlier said that I could not feel as much for my dad, somehow or rather, knowing that he will be goin under the knife, hurt me too. And knowing his worries, make me feel very sad.

22 Apr (Fri)

My mum, sis and I visited my dad in the morning before he went for his operation. Though he seems normal, I could sense his worries and fears. After a while, the nurse came and prepared him for the operation. After he was wheeled into the theatre, mum, sis and I went to have a drink. After which i left for church to give tuition to Calvin while mum and sis went to walk around. After that we met again at about 5pm and dad was not out yet. The doc said the op will be abt 3-4 hrs but it has been nearly 5 hrs. Kinda freaking out my sis and mum. But finally he was pushed out and delivered to ICU. We managed to catch a glimpse of him outside the ICU. He was still unconcious but seems like he was waking up. Could see that he was struggling, i guess in pain and dun know why it was emotionally upsetting. Somehow or rather, I could feel his pain. Tears were filling my eyes. I remembered the precious time when i was hospitalised, he told me that he was too near to tears. I brushed that comment off as something which he exaggerated. But now I knew what he meant and felt. It was a long day for the whole family and we all retired home.

25 Apr (Sat)

Woke up early to prepare worship and word time for youth fellowship. Then went to church to give tuition to Wei Ren. Then followed by worship practise. After which had a talk with the youth worship team abt helping to lead worship for the month of May. Thkfully almost all of them agreed to it. And really glad that they take the step of faith. I know it may be very taunting and uncomfortable for them to lead worship without any experience. But the whole idea is for them to have a feel of leading worship. It's not so much abt whether at the end did they lead a superb worship or not. But rather, more importantly, is that are they able to trust in God to help them. And I believe for those who takes this step of faith will emerge a stronger person. Then i lead worship for the youth fellowship alone that Saturday. Kinda disatrous. Haha. Couldn't really focus. But still thk God for His grace. Then went into word time. Again only Ding Yi and Jason. Not a complaint but actually gladful that both of them make the effort to come. Theme was still on beattitudes. Matt 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful for they will be shown mercy" Once again, it's a value that the world dun embrace. And that's what our Lord is teaching. To give pple not just 2nd chance but many chances. Not to step on those who had fallen but to lend a helping hand to them. To forgive becoz we were being forgiven first. Yes! It is not easy to be merciful becoz honestly the world will nvr be merciful to us. But let's follow the footsteps of Christ for He first show mercy to us.
After the youth fellowship, rushed back home in a cab to fetch mum then went hospital to see dad. He was still in ICU and after a few minutes with him, he was tired and kinda chase us out. Then mum and i took a cab home. I then went to meet up Daniel and the rest in Tampines Central. Hang around at Mc, before going home.

24 Apr (Sun)
Woke up early as playing at worship today. Well everything went quite smoothly but i still can't hear myself. Really hard for me to play if i can't hear myself. I'm sound deficient. And to have like a few instruments playin at the same time, it makes it even harder to listen. Haiz! wat to do! No talent means no talent! haha! Then after service was AGM. 2 and a half hour! Phew! Then went to TM to eat at LJS with Daniel, Xin Ling, Yvonne, Jamie and Magdalene. After that I went back church to meet sis before swinging back home to fetch mum den visited dad. He was now transferred fr ICU to High Dependency Ward. He was more energetic than the few days before. But still can see that he was v weak. After a while, we were chased away by him again. Went home in a cab.