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Oh my! I haven't been bloggin for like erh a while. Time to do some catching up. And yes, my daily scripture verse has been overdue since last Tuesday. Well! I will fill in the missing days. Soon enough! Or maybe I'll just from a new day. Haha.

Saturday (30 July)
Well! Last Saturday (30 July) was quite eventful. Afternoon had our youth fellowship. Haha! I was leading worship and I did a session on Silent Worship or rather this is the 2nd time i'm doing it. (i titled it Return of the Silence of the worship). I did something similar 3 weeks ago. I played some Christians songs and i told them to remain silent and to either write out love letters, poems to God or draw something that symbolises God or scripture verse that God is speaking to them . Basically just to keep them thinking about God. Den this time, i was goin to try something new. Yes! I will still require them to be silent and all i need them to do is to sing with their heart and medidate upon the lyrics. I guess there are many a times, when our lips just dun want to worship God whether if it's rebellious or tired, we know our hearts want to worship God. And when we truly worship God with our heart, we really can encounter His presence. It really makes a lot of sense to the song "The heart of worship". "When the music fades, all is stripped and i simply come." But many people questioned me if i'm just taking a short way out of leading a proper worship session. Haha! Honestly, i dun find it in any way shortcut. In fact i find it quite hard since it's something new. What happen if people got too bored and walk out of the worship session. Hmmm. But thk God it work out fine.

After tat we broke into the boys and girls group. This is our 4th session for the series of For Men/For Women. So Charles first ask us wat do we look for in our future partner. (The girls did tat in the opening week and that one of which they say is tat the guy must be less smart and rich) So the guys pointed out that the girl must be stupid, rich and pretty. Sweet revenge! We had a good laugh but den the guys were serious and they did list out certain criterias that are worthed thinking abt. Then after that Charles referred us to a scripture chapter that talks abt what a Godly wife shd be. Hmmm. Am i suppose to make my way to Venus to try my luck? Haha! OPSS! Offended some people! Well it may sound hard but it's not impossible. Just got to trust in God to provide the right one at the right time.

After that, i went for my worship practise. Wanted to teach a new song, "Now that You are near" by Hillsongs. Hmmm. Quite annoyed with myself. I am just a beatless and rhythmless person. I just can't enter on time at some part of the songs. But after much encouragement from my team members, we manage to run thru the songs.

Den tat evening suppose to meet up with some of my Secondary Sch classmates for a birthday celebration. But worship practise ened a bit too late. So when i called them, they were going off soon and my presences is not required. Hmmm. So sad. So end up meeting the rest of the youths who were eating at Eastpoint Food Court. Then we discussed abt meeting for Festival of Praise on this coming Friday. Then after dinner, talked a bit more den went home.

Sunday (31 July)
Woke up early den suppose to start worship pract at 8am but onli manage to start at 8.30am. Ended up being very panicky. Have to try to calm myself down. But i guess nothing unusual lah. Always like tat one. But now better at managing this feelings. Well did my best at the worship but something happen and really kinda annoyed (with myself lah) and kinda of make me lose my confidence. Hmmm. Somehow i felt like i was reverting to my old self - low self esteem and always running away fr confrontations. But i told myself i just have to manage my feelings. So things got a bit better. After church, met with William, Lydia, Charles, Emily, Danile, Wilfred, Lionel, Xin Ling, Yvonne for lunch at Hola. Talk a lot abt Mission Trip.

After tat went home, changed and prepared for evening soccer match. Met Daniel and went down together. We eventually won the match 4-2. Darren finishing his hat-trick with ease and Marcus adding one from a far range into the top corner. Then Jason was playing as keeper. Well! I would rate him a not too bad job. Hmmm. But he got to learn how to save shots using his HANDS and not his legs. I nearly vomitted blood everytime a shot is taken at him. Haha! After the official match, we had a 2nd round. I played as keeper and den was the first to let in the first goal. Den Colin equalised with a trapping from a cross and den tapping the ball pass the keeper with style. And tat's the final whistle. After tat , took a ride home from Kenny.

Oh yah! Just remember something, Have been sneezing quite frequently for the last few days. I dun usually sneeze that frequently. Hmmm. Must be either someone is thinking of me or CURSING me like mad. Haha! I think it's the latter.

Monday (1 Aug)
Went to sch today. Was alighting from Dolby Ghaut MRT den notice this bride and groom taking wedding fotos in the station. So interesting. It's like they are in their happy world while the backgrounds are surrounded by rushing people. Hmmm. Maybe I'll take my wedding fotos at the graveyard. Haha! Till death do we part! Muahahahahha.